I sighed as I walked back into the Hive. I was tired, but I still had things to do. I still needed to go to the compound. Saying goodbye to Shade and Eren, I headed int the forest. I was forced to go on two legs because right now I just wanted to feel human. It was slower, but I didn't really mind. I entered the gate where i had lived. Pausing, I looked at the ivy covered, crumbling buildings with a sigh before continuing on. I entered the building where the humans had stayed. Glass littered the ground and cobwebs were everywhere. As the grass crunched beneath my feet I reminded myself to get something to cover my feet for winter. I found the room where I had lived. When ever I was feeling miserable or needed to be alone, I came here. I had been coming since I was seven. It was an unspoken rule- If you can't find Sam do NOT search for him and do not go to the compound. I sighed as I crouched down to look at the table. There were things on it, in square casings. Pictures. The word floated through my head. I knelt down and looked at them. Brushing dust off of it, I picked one up. A man and a women stood in front of a gate. The man had his arm around the women and both were smiling. The mans smile was hid by the large beard on his face yet the happiness on his face told me everything. The women had a kind warm smile, and eyes that twinkled with laughter. I brushed my finger over the glass, a whine pulsing in my throat. Behind the women, a small head peeked out. Blonde haired and eyes blue as ice, the boy peered around the legs in front of him. Now, the same boy looked at him, and looked nothing like he had. I carefully placed it back exactly where it had been. Standing, I turned towards the beds. Another picture greeted me. The same boy from before grinned out of the glass, arm slung around another boy, who looked to be about the same age, at least 5. I felt grief well up inside me, mostly coming from the fact I couldn't even remember my best friend. It was obvious that's who it was. I layed down on the bed and, opening my mouth, extended my inner mouth to drag it over the bed. I closed my mouth and closed my eyes as the scent of my family, no matter how faint, drifted into my nose. A small scree escaped me. I was a freak, the only one of my kind. If my parents saw me now, they would kill me. I know they would. Drawing my tail around me, I fell into an uneasy sleep.
A crunch awoke me. Instantly, my eyes snapped open and I was on my feet, back arched and teeth bared with a threatening hiss in my throat. I watched the pheromone outline move towards the door. I relaxed though, when the maw of a xenomorph rounded the doorway. It was a runner, named Ike. I felt annoyance rise in me. He followed me everywhere I went and practically doted on my words. I snarled, an ugly sound.
"What could you possibly want right now?" I hissed. Ike didn't respond, just took in the room, head snapping back to me when I reared, claws unsheathed, a scree escaping me that quickly built to a screech and then into a roar, my tail lashing, arms spread. I bellowed full force at Ike, who scrambled back and raced away. I listened and let the bellow die down inside me. Once I was alone, I remembered my other reason to come here. Shrugging out of my jeans, I padded into the hall, shivering in the cool air. I entered another room next to mine and rifled through their clothing. I dumped everything on the floor, finally finding a pair of jeans that fit. I took an extra pair and a sweater for winter. Running a hand over my chest, i realized I hadn't shaved in a while. I walked into a room that had a wall that reflected me. I took my tail and dragged it flat side over my chest, effectively cutting the hair off. I ran my hand over my chest. Smooth. I glanced at myself once more. My eyes, ice blue as always, stared back from a mess of black hair, I ran my claws through it to regain some form of humanness. My tail roped around my waist. I sighed and left the room, stooping to pick up the clothes from the floor. I walked back into the forest carrying the clothes with me. Once i got back, it was nearly dark. I was starving by now, but it could wait till tommorow. I yawned and FINALLY flopped into my nest with a relieved purr.
The next morning, i awoke feeling hungrier than ever in my life. I stood and stretched, before pulling my jeans on. I walked out of my den and froze. Narrowing my ice blue eyes, I slowly spun, tail lashing. I was being watched. A hiss rose from me.
"Who ever is there, get the fuck out here. I am NOT in the mood for bullshit." I snarled. I watched the darkness for a moment until part of it moved and of all the xenomorphs fucking Ike stepped from the shadows. I spun, letting out a screech as I pelted through the Hive. I couldn't go anywhere without the annoying prat following me. I wanted to scream as I hurtled into Mothers chamber. I leaped onto the ceiling and spun, staring at the entrance. Ike hadn't follwed. I sighed and the turned around, nearly bumping into a drone. When I saw who it was, a purr rose in my throat. It was cali, a drone who was like an aunt to me. I leaned over to her with a purr.
"hi cali." i murmured. She purred in response.
"What's up kiddo?" She asked. I blushed, she still called me that stupid youngling name. I just sighed and pointed to the ground with my tail. Cali nodded and dropped, me following, using my tail to twist myself around. When I landed, I stood and walked over to Cali before burying my face into her exoskeleton with a sigh. i let out a soft sigh as she wrapped her arms around me. Cali was like an aunt to me, always ready to help me and she had cared for me when I had first come to the Hive.
"What's wrong sam?" She asked quietly.
"do I really belong here?" I asked. I felt her stiffen and her shock.
"Of course you do, Sam just because your half human doesn't mean you don't belong here, because you do and we all love you dearly." Cali said. I purred. Cali always knew how to make me happier. Then, Mothers voice cut through my head.
"You are loved by all of us dearly and we are deeply humbled by the fact you are still here as most humans find us repulsing." Mother said. I raised my head to stare at the great behemoth in front of us. The xenomorphs around us started purring and winding around me. I stood tall, towering over the runners and drones and warriors thronging around me. Even the praetorians added a deep hum. I felt overwhelmed by the feelings of love and affection from my family. I staggered before purring and walking towards Mother. She reached down at the same time and pulled me against her. Her massive chest thrummed with her pure deep baritone purr. I curled in my Mothers arm, feeling like a child again. A couple drones brought me a deer leg. I leaned over to take it from them before starting to gnaw on it. I tore through the muscle and flesh. Mother held me and started to resume ordering the xenomorphs around. I watched. Mothers crest dipped towards me, meeting my ice blue gaze mentally.
"Sleep my child. Sleep and remember you are loved by all."
I yawned and blinked open my eyes. I flinched, seeing nothing but black in front of me. I reached out, was I going blind as well? My fingers brushed a hard chitin and I abruptly remembered yesterday, how I had fallen asleep in Mothers arms. I sighed and moved, causing some of the darkness around me to shift and a great rasp filled the chamber.
"How are you today?" Murmured Mother.
"Better thank you Mother." I replied quietly. She nodded and released me so I could stretch and wake up. I thanked Mother before leaving for my den. As I walked, I felt a little embarrassed as xenomorphs turned to face me as I walked. A blush redeemed my cheeks. I had totally had a mental and emotional breakdown like a girl.
"And how is that a bad thing?" A familiar voice inquired. I looked up to see Eren walking towards me. A smirking Shade padded behind her, tail swinging idly. I swatted him with my tail halfheartedly.
"Nothing, it's just kinda embarrassing." I said. Eren shook her head.
"It's ok bud." She said. Shade remained silent. I glared at him as he started chuckling before rearing up with a full blown screech of laughter. Narrowing my eyes, I brushed the hair out of my eyes and lunged at him while he was still standing, tackling him again and sending him to the floor, just as quickly standing up. He hissed and rolled over before standing. I stood tall and proud before turning around and heading to the lake that was behind the Hive. I took off my jeans and then headed for a bush that hid some stuff. I pulled out a magazine and a brush I had found in the compound. The brush had ridges which always felt good and the magazine? Wellllll it was interesting. It was covered in pictures of human females in scandalous positions. I needed to relax fully and well, this was a quick and easy way. I dropped into the water swirling around before swimming to the surface and reaching for the magazine.