And here's chapter 8! Last chapter guys! Sorry it's so short.
Also, you're gonna hate me for this one...but I love you!
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The day he left, I cried.
I hadn't cried in so long, I don't even know why I had to choose that day to just burst out in tears.
He cried with me. He wrapped his long arms around me and cried.
He even called me Karkat.
In the year and a half that I knew him, that only made a total of three times he called me by my real name, and not just a nickname.
That was always kinda his thing, that along with irony.
I remember thinking he smelled like strawberries. He always smelled like strawberries.
I also remember wanting nothing more than to just kiss him right then and there, but not being able to. I knew he didn't feel that way for me.
Just bros. Always just bros. That's all we would ever be.
Will ever be.
Unrequited love sucks, it hurts and it's not fun. I hate it so much and I just can't seem to get over how much I love him.
I don't think I ever will.
You sulk in bed for another hour after waking up before you finally get up.
Today is not your day. It is not.
Dave is moving today.
Dave is leaving and never coming back.
Your heart is breaking, and you don't know why.
Okay so that's a lie. You know exactly why your heart is ripping at the seams. But you will not, I repeat, will NOT, say the reason.
You feel like crying, but you can't for some reason. It's like your tear ducts have suddenly run dry.
You don't know what you are going to do without him. He was your rock. He was the sunshine that lit up your dark world.
He even got you to come to school during Valentines Day. Unknowingly.
That kind of irritates you, to no end, how he doesn't even know the effect he has on you and the things you do.
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"Hey, look at me when I'm talking to you, Karkat." he says, forcing you to look up into those shades you hate so much.
He smiles sadly down at you, and everything kind of just hits you like a truck in that instant.
This boy is everything to you. This boy makes you smile when things look impossible. He brightens the world, and you see in colors you have never seen before.
This is the boy you fell in love with.
You love him.
You love Dave Strider.
You want to tell him how much he means to you, how much you love him, but you can't. You could never say the words.
Not out loud, anyway. You repeat the words in your head like a mantra, sniffing softly as you wrap your arms around his neck the same moment his go around your waist.
"I'm gonna miss you, bro." you whisper into his chest, holding as tight to him as possible. He holds on just as tight.
"Me too man." you hear.
You want to scream at him to stay. That you love him, that you need him. But all that comes out is a choked sob.
Even as his arms finally move from you, and you let go of him. You continue crying.
You don't notice when he leans down and places a soft kiss to your forehead.
You don't hear him when he whispers "See you later, Kitten." don't feel it when he kiss your cheek.
You are too heartbroken over his leaving that you neglect to notice when he takes your hand and squeezes tight before letting go.
He waves again back at you before getting in his brothers truck.
You watch the truck drive down the rode, still crying. You stand there even as the car disappears over the horizon.
You sink to the ground, holding yourself tight and crying as the sun goes down.
John takes you home soon after, having found you still sitting in front of Dave's house.
"Me too..."
You are present Karkat Vantas and you stare at remembrances of the past. Thinking over all the things that had transpired back then.
It has been almost 7 months since he moved, and you still miss him like crazy
Your heart hurts thinking about it.
Thinking about him.
Thinking about the things you used to do together.
Tears begin to pool in your eyes, and you have to look away before you start to cry.
You know where he is.
You've known ever since John came running over to your house, all out of breath and taking puffs from his inhaler every few seconds so he didn't die. Weasing out that Dave was only a couple towns over.
The only problem? You are afraid.
You have been afraid to go see him since that moment.
What if he forgot about you? What if he doesn't even want to see you?
What the fuck would you even say if you did see him?
'By the way Dave, I'm fucking in love with you'
That wouldn't go over too well, you know.
He probably has a girlfriend. Who are you kidding? A good looking guy like him, is bound to find the perfect girl at some point, right?
And here you are, crying over this and that, remembering him and thinking of what could have been.
You wish you had the courage to go see him, really you do. But you just can't...because you are afraid, and you probably always will be.
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THERE.
DONE AND DONE.
END OF STORY.
Nah, just kidding. There will be a few more chapters after this. So almost done. xD
Love you guys, and thanks so much for the support this story has been getting.
Again, I apologize for the shortness of the chapter, but the next one is helza long, sooooo I made up for it!