Disclaimer: Not mine but I would not say no if someone would decide to gift HP to me…
Information: No change in the original story. Just a weird idea that I could not get rid of again…
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THE DECISION OF THE OLDER BROTHER
GUILT
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She could not watch them, not again – but she still did. She always watched, grieving but unable to intervene.
And she never told anyone.
She never told either of them, that she knew of their suffering, that she knew of their curse. She just stood by the side-lines and watched while those she loved fell into despair. She watched them fall as she had done before.
Even if she felt not strong enough to do so anymore, she still had to watch.
It was her guilt that never vanished. Her guilt that never could be forgiven…
And she still heard her name uttered by both of them in the depths of the night.
"Guinevere" they whispered softly. And she had gone and selfishly decided, she needed them both.
"Guinevere" they had whispered and she had pushed them in their abyss – and then had jumped after them. Because she had never been able to let them go…
"You have done enough already!" Rowena had whispered, when she had been Helga. "You are the one who is guilty of breaking this pact!"
"You have done enough!" Mary McDonald had whispered, when she had been Marlene McKinnon. "It was your family they were protecting!"
Angelina Johnson said nothing. She had just stared at her with agony in her eyes, still sitting next to the lifeless body of her brother. And Ginny had fled. She had not been able to look at her brother again – knowing that Fred had died because she existed.
She had done enough – so why did her brother still die for her all over again?!
They had died once, when she still thought, she loved them as a lover.
They had died twice, when she was their sister in all but blood.
They had died many times between and Ginny had been unable to prevent the curse from taking its toll on them.
And she coursed her thoughtless words from so many lives ago.
"You have wronged me both! May your lives be cursed from now on till all eternity! You will suffer my wrath and be never whole again until I forgive you for leaving me!"
Oh how she wished to take them back – she had never thought that her brothers would just be a whole while being together. She had not understood the perdition she was bringing down on all of them.
Why had she been unable to forgive Lancelot and Arthur for not coming back to her, when she was still Guinevere?!
Why had she insisted on bringing them to Hogwarts, when she was Helga and they Salazar and Godric?!
Why hadn't she told them she forgave them when they still had been whole and Fred not dead on the floor?!
She sat there and cried.
But even while her tears spilled, she was unable to utter those three words she should have uttered more than a thousand years ago. Those words that might or might not break the curse on them.
Maybe she would have uttered them long ago – if she just would be sure that it was her curse keeping them and not just her curse that bound them to her. She did not want to lose them – and she would, if she truly was wrong and the curse was not hers to unravel...
"I forgive you."
"I forgive you for dying. I know, even in next live – you will always come back to look out for me again…"
Why… oh why?!
Why kept she just silent and watched them die – over and over again…?!
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So, what do you think?
This idea just followed after the twins – and I finally decided to add it just to have my peace...
If you need the names of the reincarnations (I hope not, as I hope I made it clear enough):
Ginevra (Ginny) Weasley was once King Arthur's Guinevere, Helga Hufflepuff and Marlene McKinnon (died in first war)
King Arthur and Lancelot are the first incarnations of the Weasley twins that fell under Ginny's curse– that was roughly 500 AD (before the founders because I said that).