Guess who's back? Hey guys. It hasn't just been a while, it's been quite the lifetime my old friends. I'm fighting through a few things right now and I've really changed since ethe last time I wrote but I don't want that to stop me from writing. I just hope you can welcome me back with an open heart :)

Love you all! Much Lovee! Take care!

-Jen

Chapter 5: You've seen me at my worse, you deserve me at my best

Adriana's POV

"Eddie Duran". Addy announced as he laid back down and faced away from me, I could feel the smile that was on his face. "As is the hot, superstar, we use to go to West Valley with?". He turned to me as he cleared his throat. "Oh my god baby but not hotter than you." I said making him chuckle. "Sure." He said sarcastically. "Answer the question already!" I shrieked loudly. "Yes sweetie, the omg totes super, mega, hunky, rockstar, who is also my best friend, was her date." I squinted my eyes. "Are you making fun of me?" He huffed as he took his phone from my hands, laying it down on the nightstand. "No honey."He said putting his arm on my stomach laying me down gently on the bed, wrapping me closely to his chest. "Now go to sleep."He said as I heard him starting to doze off again. What the hell. Loren is so fucking pretty now. I haven't seen her since high school and she definitely did not look like that. And on top of that, she's rubbing elbows with the rich and famous. Maybe I should start being nice to her. Ugh, she's so lucky that I'm gonna be nice to her from now on.. but only because I need a new fix of the good life. The life I should have.

I turned in Adam's arms. He was sweet, I never thought in like a trillion years that I'd end up with someone like him. He was my lab partner and now I'm sharing a bed with him. He has honest green eyes and russled brownish-red hair. After he got reunited with Eddie he started working with Eddie's personal trainer which turned him into a hottie. I think I love him. But life's too short to love with all your heart, I learned that a while ago. Hmm.. maybe I do love him. I studied his calm expression as he slept. "Maybe I do love you." I whispered gently. I snapped out of my trance. Ugh, who am I kidding. Adam should be thinking this about me. I thought with a cocky look on my face, mentally flipping hair behind my shoulder. A few seconds passed before my face relaxed. I ran my finger tips over his cheeks. Who am I kidding? Maybe I do love this nerd. But that's too much to think about now.

Eddie's POV

I woke up to the familiar feeling of my silk sheeted bed. When did I put myself to sleep.. and when did I grow all of this soft, brown hair? I felt long strands of hair on the pillow next to me. I turned to my left and found a sleeping Loren next to me. Wait..we didn't.. No not possible. I mean she has clothes on, sexy ones at that. I lifted the sheets, well I'm wearing clothes too. Did we fuck and put our clothes back on? I don't remember much from yesterday, but I don't think I could have her in my room without loosing control. I mean she's been in my room before to clean, and even with sweat on her brow and rags in her hand I still wanted a piece of that. She looked beautiful here too. Soft features, smudged makeup, messy hair. Man, she's gorgeous. I daydreamed as I stared contently at her, not even noticing the fluttering of her warm hazel eyes. "Eddie? Are you okay?" She said sleepily. "Yeah, I'm fine. You're just.. stunning." I said without thinking. Where did that come from? I don't care, I had to state the obivious. She blushed and pushed the sheets off of her. "You're not too bad yourself." She said mockingly as she stood up and stretched. I studied her outfit, the classic sexy but not trying too hard.. Shit, our first date! How did that go? I sat up and rubbed my temples at the sudden change of position.

Oh right, getting hammered was also something I did. "Um, Loren this is kind of embarrassing but how did our date go? I kind of have short-term memory right now." I said feeling extremely shameful. "Oh about that.. I sorta came home and you were drunk off your ass." She said ironically sweetly. "Damn." I said under my breath. "Don't feel bad, you were a gentleman." She said smiling warmly as she looked into the mirror, trying to wipe off the excess makeup under her eyes. "So I was... gentle?" I said gradually standing up, refering to the innapropriate events that mostly took place last night. Too bad I can't recall those. "Gentle?" She said confused. "Did we use protection?" I said trying to hint to her of what I meant. Her eyes widened with surprise. "Oh no, Eddie we didn't.." She said shaking her head. "Oh, sorry I kinda thought since.. yeah." She pressed her lips together and nodded, trying to hold her smile. She turned to me. "So how's your mom?" She said softly, she knew how sensitive this topic was. "My mom?" Hearing Loren's words made me recollect my thoughts, oh yeah. She did pay me an interesting visit to say the least. "How did you know she was over?" I said dazed. She walked over to me slowly. "Um you whipped out your special six pack and you only have those reserved for when something bad happens between you two." She said almost apollegetically for being observant.

I leaned on the bed post. "Oh so you do know what those are for." I said jokingly. "Sorry.." She said biting her finger nails nervously. "You have nothing to be sorry for." I said reassuringly. Her lips curled upwards slightly as she walked back to the bed and sat down, bringing her legs close to her. "So was it that obivious that I was upset?" She shrugged. "You could've fooled me." I knew she was just fluffing my ego. I smiled. "Sorry you had to see me like that." I said sitting next to her. "I must've made a fool of myself." I said falling backwards onto the comforter. I had to admit it, I might have a perfect life but I do get insecure about this stuff. It's hard to open up about, however, it's refreshingly easy to be honest with Loren. God, I'm so grateful for her. "Eddie." She called out to me. "I've seen you at your best and at your worse. You don't have to apologize for being human around me." She said in in a consoling tone. I looked at her. "Hey you've seen me at my worse."

I looked fixedly at her, puzzled. "Worse? You're never at your worse." I grinned at her. She laid on her stomach next to me. "Remember when I first came here looking for a job and you offered me a job." I beamed at the memory. "I was lost in the dark, but you were my light." She said with love in her eyes.

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"Thanks again Christian." I said shaking his hand. I said after my scheduled meeting with Christain Grey in the GREY HOUSE corp. of L.A, about sponsering me. "No problem Eddie." He announced in a firm voice. I nodded as I left the meeting room and headed to the elavator. I walked into the lobby focusing on my phone accidentally bumping to a sweet girl in a teal tank top and booty shorts, making her drop the bag she was rumaging through. "Oh I'm so sorry." I heard in an angelic voice. "Oh no, it was my fault." I said bending down to help her pick up her things. I stood up as she peeked up towards me, surprising me with a slightly different, familiar face. "Loren Tate?" I said taken aback. "Eddie?" I was shocked from her transformation. A shy sophomore in high school, to a breath taking woman right in front of me. I offered her my hand. "Wow, I haven't see you since, I can't even remember. How are you?" I said rubbing the back of my neck. "I'm alright." She said grinning from ear to ear. I smiled taking in her appearance."So what brings your to the GREY HOUSE?" I tried to make small talk, but I was also genuinely curious. "Oh, I'm looking for a job. What about you?" She responded. "Oh, I just got back from tour and Christian offered to sponser me." I answered. "Um.. Do you happen to know if he has any open internships or jobs?" She asked. "I think he just filled the spot this morning, he was talking about someone named Anastasia." She pursed her lips. "Damn, I was really looking for a job. I just moved to back here to L.A." She said running her fingers through her hair.

Oh that's right I heard that after I left for tour her parents dragged her to another town of California. I heard her new town wasn't that far but felt bad that I couldn't say goodbye. "Hey, if you're looking for a job I could use-" I got cut off before I could finish my sentence. "Mr. Duran!" A sopshisticated assistant of Christian walked quickly twoards us. "Mr. Grey would like to schedule another meeting to discuss the inquiries of your agreement." She said while staring down into her tablet. "Oh of course, but I'm kind of busy right now so can I just e-mail you the details?" I requested wanting to continue talking to Loren. "Oh no Eddie, it's okay. Maybe I'll see you around." Loren said starting to leave. "Yeah..see you." I said as I watched her leave. "Now is Saturday March twenty-seveth fine with you?"She persisted. "Oh sure, but I must go so excuse me?" She nodded understandingly as I rused out wout of the fancy, metal doors to the building.

I looked for Loren again. I wasn't letting her leave this time without a proper goodbye. I spotted the same teal tank top as she sat on the curb in front of the building. "No! Dad! I'm not coming home! You kicked me out remember? No, I'm not at Mel's house! Your ruined that too! Ring a bell?" I overheard her aruging. "I'm almost twenty! I don't need to take your shit anymore!" She said frustratedly hanging up the phone. "Loren?" I said gently walking up. "Hey Eddie. Aren't you suppose to be planning something?" She said wiping tears from her eyes. "I don't care about that right now." I said sitting next to her. "Are you okay?" I questioned. "Yeah, I just need to figure out what to do here in L.A or I have to go back to fresno."She announced rubbing her face with her hands. I heard her stifle another cry but when she removed her hands, she looked back at me with another grin, a sad one. "Stay with me. Here in my mansion. I could use the company." I offered without question. "Eddie, I could never ask you-" I quickly cut her off. "No, I'm suggesting." She looked hesitant. "I can give you a job and a place to live. For as long as you want. You can come and go whenever you want." I begged her. She still had a trace skepticalness on her face. "Please, I want you to." I pleaded once again. Her eyes welled with tears. "Thank you so much." She fell into my arms with an array of sniffles and tears of happiness. "No problem."I smiled as I heled her tightly.

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I smiled at the thought of her in my arms for the first time in years. "Eddie, you've seen me at my worse and I'm here for the very same reason." I sat up and pulled her into my arms. "I'm so glad to have you Loren."

Hope that was okay guys. I'm kinda rusty it's been a while.. Tell me what you think! I love you guysss!

-Jen