Ok I just realized haven't thanked people for there reviews and am hating myself – I absolutely love you all cause they do mean a lot to me. I know I stuffed up the second chapter on this for a bit and I want to thank those for pointing it out by telling me how confused they were and whatever– I hope it didn't stop any of you from reading it was from the wrong story but anyhoo. There's been questions – I'm not ignoring them its just I had a small map in my head for once about the next few chapters and seen as it does cover most of the questions about jess and Lorelia I thought id let this chapter and the next one answer them…hopefully. I love those of you who do reply it gives me a voice that doesn't belong to a friend or someone in my head to bounce off of. And I do apologize for my punctuation and such.

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3-Closet questions.

Later that night Rory had wandered over to lanes place and the two were sitting in the closet listening to music and eating banned Cheeto's.

"So then you went out with this Eric guy?"

"Yeah a few times."

"Was he cute?"

"I guess I mean….he wasn't ugly and he had a great smile."

"Uhhuh. What else happened over those two years? Who was after Eric?"

"Well there were a few dates but then the next mentionable thing was mike. Mike lasted a year and a bit."

"Were you in love with him?"

"For a bit there. But...then it just became love rather than the love, in love ya know? So we just stopped sleeping together and whatever and just…were around."

"You slept with him!"

"Yeah."

"Was he your first?"

"Yeah."

"Was he your last?"

"There were a few other guys…two. Tim – I thought he was right but he wasn't."

"The second?"

"Jess."

"As in the guy you and your mum are living with?"

"Hum yeah."

"Are the two of you dating?"

"No."

"…where the two of you dating?"

"Hum…no."

"No! Rory!"

"It…just happened. No matter how stupid that sounds. I mean we were that little closer before mike. And everyone – including me thought we'd date and it just didn't happen. Then came mike."

"mhmm." was mumbled though a mouthful.

"Any way mike and I drifted so broke up and were back to friends. For a few months nothing happened in the way of guys. Then came Tim. Then went Tim. Awhile after that Jess and I were having a movie night and it happened."

"Has it happened since?"

"We haven't slept together other than that night if that's what you mean."

"I notice you didn't say that once."

"What?"

"You said that night."

"Hmm yeah."

"Exactly what happened that night?"

"Lorelia wasn't home. Id been in tears for a week and so he came over with pizza and Indian and Almost Famous and Willy Wonka. He let me watch Willy Wonka as we ate and then Almost Famous went in. anyway I was giving him crap about having to watch his movie again and he as like I just watched Willy Wonka and the smell of your Indian is making me gag so why don't we not complain about the one movie huh missy? And …that was it."

"He told you to not complain and you wanted to jump his bones? Give me a little more here Rory."

"It wasn't what he said – it was what it made me realize"

"Uhhuh and that was?"

"That he was right for some reason. He loved me. The guy who had to be pushed to attend a diner for his mum was willingly buying me food he hated and watch movies he couldn't stand after the twentieth time because he knew it would make me happy."

She stopped for a second to take a few more Cheeto's before continuing. "The two of us were so close the only way to get at all closer was to have sex. I don't know if this makes sense but it…made us closer because there's nothing left for us to have buried as an untouched secret - there is nothing the other doesn't know. I'm closer to him than anyone Lane, I mean I sat there and thought Jess and I are likely to spend forever by each others side and he wont understand that part of me meanwhile this other guy I decided I like for a month or marry or whatever had seen right through me because he slept with me. I didn't think that was right – for him to know what Jess didn't and for any one Jess slept with to know stuff I didn't even though he barley talked to them it made me sad to think that they knew apart of him that I didn't. Does any of this make sense because if it doesn't tell me and ill stop rambling."

She stopped for breath

"Cause I'm not just talking about the physicality of sleeping with him – I'm talking about what comes with it. I'm not sure how to explain it but its like … I feel as though while I am doing it and …while I'm naked so's my soul somehow. And why should Jess not get to see that just because I decided not to date him? Id realized he was just as close to me as Mike but because I was sleeping with Mike everything was different. And with Tim he didn't care enough to see it so it wasn't such a big thing but I still knew it was there and …that was enough"

"So how'd it work then?"

"It got to the plane trip where they think there going to die and I lifted my head slightly off of his shoulder and kissed the spot of neck near me – he made some joke about how I wasn't going to get the movie changed until credits rolled."

Lane cut it "he wasn't confused as to you kissing his neck!"

"We…already do the peck thing to some degree so it wasn't too big. But I ignored his comment and gave him a hickey – he paused lead me away from his neck and looked me in the eye – he sat there looking me in the eyes for a few seconds silently before he nodded and asked what's happening in that head of yours. Said I just want us to Jess and he took it was in general – replying Ror do you really want to change everything just cause you want – I cut him off and said no – I want US to Jess. He sucked in his breath asked if I was sure and was silently looking at me for a few seconds before nodding….and yeah."

"And yeah?"

"Well we spoke about it the next day briefly and he got it – actually I think he already got it and was just confirming…and it did make us stronger or what ever like I thought as well…"

"So go back to the two of you doing it – your room?"

"Yeah?"

"Weird?"

"No. not at all. It was great…and not just because it was great but because of the…strength behind it…the reasoning behind it."

Lane giggled "but you think it was great?"

Rory's eyes light up and she had a wistful smile on her face as she bit her lip and nodded. Lane squealed and Rory giggled a little before both girls grabbed a handful of Cheeto's and began talking about Lanes previous crushes and everything else both girls had done since the last time they spoke to each other.

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