- CHAPTER 3 -

- 3 days later -
* Sophie's POV *

This three days have been hell for me. Sian didn't reply to my call and my texts. If only I didn't tell her. I got discharge today like finally. There's school tomorrow. How the fuck am I gonna face Sian? Most of my lessons are with her. Oh god. This is so stressful. I've started smoking and slashing as form of comfort. Rosie have warned me not to. But I just feel comforted smoking and slashing. I also started sticking my finger down my throat. Everyone says I'm perfect and I should stop what I'm doing. But I don't think so.

Sian was my one and only sense of comfort. And when she left, that sense of comfort left with her. I started thinking that I am not perfect. That is why Sian hates me. I stared at the black coloured ceiling filled with white spots to represent the night sky. Sian and I painted that. I could feel the wetness rolling down my cheek when I started remembering everything we've been through.

"Fuck all of this!" I grabbed my phone, earpiece, money, ciggarettes and my skateboard. "MUM! IM GOING OUT!" I shouted when I walked out the door. I yanked my earpiece into my ears and blasted Bangarang by Skrillex. I skate all the way to the end of the lake that was found by Sian and I. We named it SiaPhie. I sat on the grass with my back against a tree.

I'm the best player in soccer, softball, floorball, rugby and badminton. As you can see, I have 5 co-curriculum activities. Which makes me kindof the most busiest, hottest and atheletic girl in school. I have to admit that I am quite impressive. I have floorball on Mondays, softball on Tuesdays, badminton on Wednesdays, soccer on Thursdays and rugby on Fridays.

I always manage to make time for Sian. But we usually met for competitions as she's the hottest cheerleading ever. Oh god. I wish she was here right now. But no. She isn't.

I stood up, lit my cigarette and started walking. I haven't smoke and skate in awhile. Sian hated me doing the both of them. But since she left me... I guess she doesn't really care for me. Should I give her one more call? I think I should. It's been 4 days. Maybe she've cooled off. Please be. I brought my phone up to my ear hearing the ringing sound. Please pick up. Please Sian. I looked down on the floor when I heard nobody is gonna pick it up.

I started skating in a random direction hoping I will bump into Sian. Suddenly, I felt a vibration against my thigh. I dug in my pocket to pull out the source of vibration. I looked at my phone screen.

"One new text message: Sian baby Powers"

Oh god. Please be good. Please please please be good. I clicked the open button only to get hurt by the first line.
"Can you just fuck off already? I don't want a fucking piece of lesbian whore in my life. I know we WERE bestfriends. But I regret it. I don't understand why I was even "bestfriends" with you. I NEVER LIKED YOU. I don't want a slut calling me every 5 minutes. I don't care if you die. Actually, I'm hoping you will. We will never be 'friends' ever again. You know why. Because being a lesbian means that you're gonna be it forever. Don't call me. Don't text me. Don't talk to me. Don't you even dare to look at me. Whatever we had between is over."

I started crying in the middle of a pavement. Luckily, there wasn't anyone there. Fuck it. I looked around to see a place to sit down. Ah. A bench. I walked towards the bench and I sat down. I looked at my left arm that was FILLED with slashes. It was red. Like red RED. I sucked on my ciggarette and realising the smoke before throwing the bud away.

Out of no where, a girl sat down beside me. I looked at her with one of my eye brows raised. Before I could say anything, she placed her index finger on my lip. "I know that we both don't know each other but I can sense that you need someone to talk to. Come on. I'll treat you to McDonalds." I was very reluctant to go with her because I don't fucking know her. But I was starving so fuck it. I stood up and grabbed my skateboard and followed her to McDonalds that was just across the street.

When I was walking in, I walked pass an old couple and I heard them say "see. Even youngsters are smoking these days" I snapped. Like literally snapped. I threw my skateboard on the ground getting the attention of customers. I marched up to that woman face and pointed right in her face. "It's my fucking problem whether I want to smoke or not. I don't fucking know you. So you don't come into my fucking life and act like you're my fucking parents. And tell- " before I could finish my sentence, the girl pulled me away from them. I turned my head to the couple and pointed the middle finger at them before getting dragged to a table by the girl.

"I'm sorry I didn't introduce myself. I'm Santana. And I'm sorry for dragging you all the way here when we are total strangers." She looked down and sighed when I didn't reply. "Hey. Its ohk. Look up. Thanks anyways. I'm Sophie Webster. Its nice to meet you." I forced a little smile. "Why did you come to me just now?" I asked her curiously. "Well... I saw you crying and I don't like seeing people cry as they remind me of my parents. Then I was gonna brush it off but then I saw the slashes on your arm and I noticed that you look anorexic. I thought I may be able to help. Oh god. I shouldn't have done this. I'm sorry." She stood up to leave. But before she did, I grabbed her arm pulling her back down. "No. Stay. You told me you'll treat me Mcs" I said pouting. She gave a cute laugh and asked me what I wanted to eat. "I would like a quarter pounder with cheese and an apple pie. My drink will be coke thank you." She smiled before going to the counter to order the food. Should I tell her everything that happened? I have a feeling I could trust her.

She came back to the table with the food. "Hey. Thanks you this treat. Really appreciate it. I don't usually get free food from strangers" she giggled and I could see that she was blushing. We started eating our food. About 10 minutes in of laughter, she asked me "what happen? Please tell me what happen. I might be able to help." I gave out a long sigh. "You don't have to if you don't wan-" "I do. Just promise me you won't judge me." She nodded as a sign of agreement. I place my burger down and took a deep breathe before I started my story.

-30 mins later-

She was looking at my phone and then she said "Oh my. No wonder you were upset just now." "Yeah. Hey. What time is it now?" "Its 630." I took the last bite of my food. "I'm gonna go to the washroom for awhile. I'll be back soon." Not looking up from the phone, she nodded. I went into a free cubicle and kneel on the floor facing the toilet bowl. I stuck two fingers into my throat causing me to start gagging. Finally, the puke came out. I flushed the toilet and went out to wash my face. I walked backed to Santana and sat across of her. "Hey. I gotta go home." I nodded and grab everything I need and we walked out to the front door. "Thanks for today. Its been awhile since I last smiled." I said before giving her a genuine smile. "Hey its nothing." She gave a playful punch to my right shoulder. "Pass me you phone" I looked at her suspiciously before handing her my phone. "Make sure you text me later on tonight!" She said walking off. At least I have someone to talk to now. I smiled to myself.

When I was skating home and listening to We Will Never Ever Get Back Together by Taylor Swift, I started thinking about thinks I've heard. I heard that Sian had became a bully and that she was spreading rumours about me such as me fucking a girl when I was in the hospital. I hope none of my friends will ignore me.

- Next day -

"SOPHIE WAKE UP NOW!" I heard my mum shouting. Argh. I don't want to face the school. Especially Sian. Why can't Santana be in my school? I took a shower and got ready for school. Before leaving the house, I took a piece of parmesan pretzel. I love it. Gosh. "BYE MUM!" I picked my skateboard up and started skating towards the direction of my school. Once I am about 10 metres away from my house, I lit a ciggarette and started smoking it. God I miss this feeling. I threw my bud away once I reached the front of the school gate.

The first thing that happened when I walked in, I was tripped by some random girl. My earpiece fell out of my ear. Why must it happen? "Look at that slut." "I can't believe she's the best fucking player in our school." "She's so fucking slutty." "Had fun fucking in the hospital, Webster?!" Fuck. I stood up and ran all the way to the girls' toilet wiping my tears away. I saw the toilet door coming up. Just when I was about to reach, some girl tripped me causing me to fall flat on my face. Shit. Owww. My nose. I touched it and I saw that there was blood. Fuck no. I looked up to see who it was. It was Sian and her group. The girl who tripped me walked up to me and kicked my face. Fuck. I looked up to see the worried expression on Sian's face.

"Look at her arm! She's a fucking emo!" One of the blond girl shouted. Sian and I looked at my arm at the same time. I realise my sleeve was rolled up due to the fall. I saw Sian's eyes widen. I stood up straight away and continued running to the toilet. Leaving my penknife that fell out of my pocket behind. I heard someone running after me. Oh god. I was so close to the toilet but before I reached it someone threw hot water on me. "AHHH! FUCK!" I heard the girl laughing (btw, my school is a girl school) I ran to the toilet, remove all my clothing and ran straight into the shower. "Sophie! Sophie!" I heard a familiar voice calling out for me.

HAHAHA CLIFFHANGERRRRRR! SORRY IF YOU FINE THIS CHAPTER SHORT. I HAVE TO STUDY FOR MY END OF YEAR EXAM. GOD I NEED TO GO ON TO SEC 4. IM NOT GONNA FUCKING RETAIN. SO IF I DON'T UPDATE ON TIME WHICH IS EVERY FRIDAY, IM SORRY! THANKS FOR READING !

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