Toxsa's Pov: i was lying on my bed staring up at the ceiling the room was pitch black. I was glad i left my shift when i had the chance, I can't stop thinking about the team... Why did everything have to change? Was it because of me? I hate Melodie for bringing the worst out of Ceylan the way she thinks she can barge in and steal people away. I know Guren hated her and now i have to agrree.

I heard footsteps approaching my room. I felt a sense of neglect fill me... Always being thrown out of a conversation. Wakamei walked into the room with her arms folded on top of each other she made a worried expression and sat on my bed.

"What do you want?" I asked looking at her. She bit her lower lip and sighed "Toxsa whats wrong?" I took a breath and crossed my arms "Nothing now leave me along I'm trying to sleep." She unfolded her arms and started stroking my dark green hair with her left hand "Why... Why are you always hiding your feelings away from me?"

I grit my teeth in anger "Because i want to shesh why do you want to invade my personal life!" She lied down next to me with her cheeks red from anger "Toxsa stop acting immature I'm your big sister don't shut me out!" My eyes widened was that how she felt the way i was feeling with my friends. I felt so angry i wanted to be alone but she just had to come in. I made a face and shouted "I just want to be alone! Why can't you understand that." She lifted her left hand and made a fist "That's all you ever did! Hiding away from people covering your emotions with excuses! I will punch you if i have to!"

Right at this moment.. I couldn't think straight the only thought running through my mind was being alone. Sometimes i just wished Wakamei didn't even exist just because she's older dosent mean i have to respect her. Besides she never respects or treats me as a person. She clenched on to my shirt with her other hand "Think before you speck." I rolled my eyes and yelled "That's something you never do. Its about time you started to respect me. I deserve at least that from you. It makes me made that mom and dad decide to play favorites and treat me as if i was worthless! What gives you the right to come here without asking? Huh! I need time to think about something." Wakamei's eyes started to get watery she looked at me with a look of sorrow

"T..Toxsa look i understand how you feel but all your going to do is bubble your feelings inside. I want to help you overcome these problems. Why can't you let me." I lost all patience for her what could she possibly understand about me.. That i feel neglected?! That my life will never be the way it should. "What do you possibly understand about me? In fact you know nothing about me do me a favor and leave. Its true that mom and dad choose favorites they always give you everything while leaving me with nothing thinking i would be okay with it." I yelled trying to loosen her grip on me.

She bit her lower lip harder in which blood began to form.. Tears started streaming down her cheeks she took a deep breath and screamed "Why do you have to be a idiot! Do you ever take the time to think of how i would feel after hearing your words! I freaking love you Toxsa stop acting as if the world is against you!" She punched my face roughly causing me to fall off my bed with a thud. She got up from the bed and stood next to me pulling me up..her cheeks were a deep red tears continued to escape her. I looked down to the ground trying to avoid eye contact with her. I mumbled "Have you ever wished you wanted to know more about something." She held my hand and smiled softly "Of cours whenever i have that feeling i try to find the answers to it."

I wanted to be involved i want to find something that i can share with others about. I know that right at this moment Chooki would be feeling the same. Being shut out of every secret the other members hide. I loved my sister a lot acually but i need to break free.

Wakamei wiped her tears with the palm of her other hand her smile faded "How long will you hide your emotions?" She loosened her hand from mine and placed it by her side. I looked at her with a saddened expression "Until i can learn to except change... to let go of my godmothers death in which caused me misery." my cheeks turned a bright red i could feel moist traveling down my cheeks Wakamei took a step closer to me placing her hand on my cheek. My eyes were watery realizing that i was in pain. Wakamei leaned towards me kissing my cheek lightly. Ive never seen this side to Wakamei her feelings of affection making my heart cry to her. The smile of my dear godmother brought more tears. I was unable to speck my emotions were taking control of me.

Sooner then i thought Wakamei pulled me into a hug and whispered "I will always love you no matter what. Even if you hate me... Whenever you feel like your alone i will protect you from harm. I may act like a jerk not showing any signs of love to you... but you got to know that i will be right there for you whenever you set off on your own journey." I was stunned from her words all i could do was mouth the words i love you. I wrapped my arms around her burying my face on to her chest. Wakamei and I looked at the window to see some strange plane approach Benham Tower dropping bombs that created a huge flame that looked uncureable. Once a couple of bombs hit the tower a terrifying explosion occurred causing a intense shockwave to burn the signs of living life away from existence. Something i had never seen before. The window glass shattered causing the both of us to scream. Wakamei broke the hug and got on top of me protecting me. She looked at me and said

"Promise me you won't die." I continued to cry and nodded. In moments a piece of glass knocked me out.