AN: Goooooooooooooooooood evening my Imperial Storm Army! So, I think I got my cover down. Just need to make adjustments and then create it on the computer. Once it's done, I'll put everything together and you know the rest. Lol! Once my book is published, I'll post a link to where you can find it on my profile. The best part? You won't have to wait long! According to Amazon, it only takes a few days! So yeah. Lol! Anyways. Still on my Ninja Turtles binge...*headtodesk* and I'm also on a Speed Racer kick...*flatlines* I love retro cartoons, but good god! This is nonsense! Lol. At least my minds not on the Hellatus...wait...dammit! Back to my cartoons! X3 Anyways, when we left off, Dean now knows why Sam stopped looking for him! But he didn't take it so well.

spnfanforlife-He did deserve it! *grumbles* assbutt. XD There will be plenty of cuddles coming! I'll make sure of that! And don't worry darling, I'll always be awesome! X3

Kas3y-Better late than never, I suppose.

Snarry-Don't worry darling. Everything's gonna be alright! Or I'll kick Dean's ass and he'll be grounded forever! And I think I got my cover chosen. Just need to get it made! :)

elliereynolds777-Nope. I didn't like her either. Dean's in for rough road for sure, but with my magic keyboard and powerful imagination, things will go alright! Everyone needs Jody! She's the firm handed Mommy! If Bobby were alive, he'd still be the Daddy! God I miss Bobby. *sniffs*

lenail125-Don't worry! Things will be alright!

StyxxsOmega-Sammy'll be back if he dies! It's my rule after all! Plus I don't my death fics online. They're way too sad and pretty bloody. Anyways, things will be alright!

whisper-He did deserve it! And no problem! Daddy Dean is needed now.

Avid Reader-Wish granted darling! Here's the next chapter!

jleda-Indeed! Sam will be alright!

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I Love You So Much

Dean groaned as he came awake. His head was pounding. He opened his eyes and looked around. He was a bit confused but then he felt a pinch in his arm, and looked to his left. There was an IV in his hand.

"What the-?" He began to ask.

"You passed out Dean." A voice to his right said.

He looked over and saw Jody. Then it all hit him. The last few days, then Jody telling him that Sam had gotten and was sick, Sam was dying. Sam was dying. He bolted up at that thought. He needed to see Sam like now!

"Dean honey calm down." Jody said trying to coax into laying back down.

"No. I have to see Sammy. Where is he?" Dean said.

"Dean-" She was cut off.

"I have to see him Jody. Where is he?" Dean asked again.

Jody sighed and knew she couldn't make him stay in bed. She couldn't even make Sam stay in bed.

"He's up two floors in the cardiac unit. We're on the first floor in the ER." Jody explained. "You passed out from shock and you were a little dehydrated."

Dean nodded. That was his next question. He waited while Jody went to go get his release papers. He thought about Sam and how bad he treated him. Now there was the possibility he was going to lose him, and since Castiel was MIA losing Sam was real. He could make a deal, but Sam would kick his ass and this could happen again. He didn't want that. No. This time he had to face the reality of losing his brother.

Once Dean was released from the ER, Jody led him back upstairs to cardiac unit, back to Sam's room. They walked into Sam's room and Dean almost passed out again. He took a seat beside his brother and gently held his hand. He frowned at how cold he felt.

"You're cold Sammy. It's probably the IV. They always made you cold." Dean said gently rubbing Sam's hand to warm it.

Jody looked at the brothers and decided to give them some privacy. She went down to the mess hall to get some food and coffee. She didn't want to leave but Dean needed to be with Sam right now. She stopped by the chapel and walked in. She sat down in the front pew and closed her eyes.

"Please. Please don't take that boy from away from us. He means too much to Dean and to me. So please. Save him. It's not his time yet. Oh God. It's not yet his time. Please. Send someone to heal him. Make him better. He still has to much too do." Jody prayed tearfully.

After a bit, she got up and went to her destination.

Meanwhile while Jody was praying, and back in Sam's room

"-and you said you were a hero. That I was your hero." Dean said. "I smiled and gave you the biggest hug ever. You were maybe two or so at the time. You were so tiny and my clothes were so big, you looked even smaller."

Dean had been Sam stories from when they were younger and such, hoping to bring Sam around. But he slept on. He really needed for Sam to wake up. The doctor came and talked to him after Jody left. Sam only had a day. A day!

"Dean?" A weak voice asked bringing him out of his thoughts.

"Sammy! You're awake!" Dean exclaimed.

"H hey. I thought y you were with B Benny?" Sam asked.

"Sammy I-" Dean sighed. "Sam I'm so sorry."

Sam looked at Dean confused.

"For what?" He asked.

"For saying that stuff. For saying that Benny was my real brother. He isn't. My god he isn't. He could never be! I'm so sorry I got mad Sammy." Dean whispered, eyes full of tears.

"Dean it's okay." Sam said.

"No! No it's not. Sammy I didn't mean any of that. None of it! I was angry at the world and I shouldn't have been. Purgatory changed me, and not for the better. You were my closest target and took my rage. You didn't deserve that." Dean said. "Sammy, Jody told me everything. How you got sick."

Sam looked at Dean and sighed weakly. He was exhausted but he didn't want to sleep yet.

"I got sick because I was stupid. I had no leads and I worked endlessly. Don't blame yourself for this. This one's my fault." Sam said.

"Sammy-" Dean was cut off.

"Dean, I got myself sick. My heart strings had been broken for a few days. It was stress and not enough rest, not you." Sam said tiredly.

Dean nodded. "Sammy I want you to know, I love you. I love you so damn much it hurts. You're my Sam. That's why I call you Sammy. My Sam. My kid. My baby. I loved you even when you were still in Mom's belly. I would talk to you, sing to you. Only I had claim on you. Now, I screwed up so badly, you might not be my baby anymore."

Sam squeezed Dean's hand as tightly as he could.

"I'll always be your baby Deanie. Always and forever." Sam whispered.

Dean smiled tearfully. He messed up so badly and yet Sam still loved him just as much. He was so lucky to have such a little brother.

Sam fell to sleep knowing he was safe under Dean's watch. He always felt safer with his Deanie around.

Alright I'm going to stop it here. *sniff* I wrote this and I'm a bit teary eyed. I need a tissue!

Until Next Time! *cuddles under my blanket, cursing the rainy weather for making cold, and me being able to get cold so easily*