Lena left school early. After lunch she explained to Callie that she would be leaving early to run errands. They would have to walk home or ride with Brandon. She asked her tell the rest of the family.
She had to clear her mind. Am I really doing this? Is this whole thing, this situation, is it really happening? What hurt the most was Stef's trust. Stef didn't flinch when she told her about the conference. She trusted Lena. She had every right to trust Lena, until now.
Why am I doing this? Lena kept asking herself.
After two hours of making right turns, circling the city and getting stopped in traffic she realized why. Her life was robotic, dramatic, chaotic, stressful, and familiar. She knew Stef's moves, her looks, her words and her touch. Stef was like an appendage, a part of her. Familiar. Comfortable. Predictable.
When Monte touched her it felt new. Like she'd never been touched or kissed before. She didn't know her moves, her looks, her words or her touch. Monte was new, unfamiliar, and unpredictable. She was like a drug. Alive, Someone else made her feel alive.
It was an epiphany. How long have I felt this way? Not alive? Robotic? Flat emotions?
Thinking back over the last few months made Lena angry. Angry at Stef. Stef didn't want a marriage and a wedding, she had already had one. Stef didn't want a baby; she had already had one, plus four additional teenagers. Anything big Lena wanted in their life Stef didn't seem to want or agree to. When she did cave in to Lena's requests, Stef made it unconsciously clear that it wasn't her idea, that it wasn't what she wanted.
Anger was new to Lena. She had always been passive.
It took her an hour to get back to school. The school day had just ended but Monte's car was still in the parking lot, along with a small handful of other employee cars.
She didn't know what she was doing, but her feet lead her into the school and down the hall toward the offices. She was mad at the world. She stood outside of Monte's office and knocked. She knocked a little harder then she intended to. Monte opened the door with a puzzled look and stepped back inviting Lena in.
She stepped in ahead of Monte and swirled around as soon as she heard the door shut behind her. She pushed Monte up against the door and met her lips with a hard kiss. She pushed her thigh between Monte's legs. The movement surprised the younger woman and she let out a gasp. Lena took advantage of the gasp and trailed rough kisses down to her neck. With a steady movement of her thigh rubbing the right spot between Monte's legs, she trailed her hands up the woman's body. Left arm wrapped around her lower back pushing Monte harder into her thigh, while her right hand found Monte's breast. She moaned and Lena smiled to herself. Monte grabbed Lena's face with both hands and pulled her in for another hard, passionate kiss. She could feel Monte thrusting herself against her thigh. Lena broke the kiss and stepped back. She took both of her hands and pulled her away from the door, leading her to office couch.
Monte sat down looking up at the tall, dark beautiful woman. She craved more. Lena could see it in her eyes. She leaned down and kissed her again, laying Monte back on the couch, now laying on top of her. Lena's hips between Monte's legs. She swiftly unbuttoned Monte's blouse with one hand while still kissing the beautiful woman underneath her. She opened the shirt exposing her breasts. Lena ran her right hand over one feeling Monte's nipple harden underneath. She gently squeezed her breast, Monte let out a moan. Lena lowered herself and kissed around the bare breast, teasing then finally nibbling and sucking her nipple. She looked up from where she was, Monte's eyes were closed. Lena trailed her right hand down the younger woman's stomach, then lower over her skirt. Monte's eyes still closed. Lena leaned forward and kissed her as her hand passed the skirt to pull it up. She slipped her hand between Monte's legs and pushed her panties to one side. Another gasp. Lena could feel how wet she was, she found what she was looking for and gently rubbed.
Lena watched as Monte, eyes closed, moaned and moved her head from one side to the other-biting her lip. She rubbed a little faster with more pressure. Another moan, Lena slipped her fingers inside and caught the next moan with a kiss. Monte bucked her hips in motion with Lena. She could feel her get tight, Lena thrust harder and faster. Monte tangled her hands in Lena's hair losing control, her legs started to shake. She was almost there. Lena thrusted deeper and harder. This sent the younger woman over the edge. Her whole body trembled for a moment. She had reached her high. Lena slowed her movement then pulled out. She looked at the woman underneath her whose eyes were still closed.
"You okay?" Lena whispered as she kissed Monte's neck.