"I would like to apologize for my awful spelling and grammar. I'm not using a program that has spell check and I have never been great in English class./div
"Thanks for reading and please review./div
Chapter 5/div
It was 4 days until the winter break. I had gotten a few letters back from Andromeda and I was pleased to see Teddy was doing well. She even sent a few photos of my boy. I sat quietly in bed reading my newest letter./div
Dear, My sweet Nymphadora./div
I am so proud that you have been working so hard to get yourself together after your brutal loss. I am very excited to see you at Christmas and so is little Teddy. He is crawling around like a wild child. The other day he propped himself on to his feet by holding on to the coffee table. I have no doubt that he will be walking before he's 1. For only being 6 months old Teddy is a remarkably smart boy. He reminds me so much of you Dora. Now, enough about little Edward. I know you probably would love to read about everything he does but I am the curious one. Tell me more about this man who makes my daughter happy. When will I find out who it is? As you know already, Christmas dinner will be held at the Weasleys. I would like to offer this man an invitation to join us. If he makes my daughter happy he will most certainly make her family happy too. I'm glad you guys are friends (cough cough, yeah right..friends!)/div
"I'm giving you all my love./div
Momma./div
I kissed the letter then set it aside. Next to me Severus slept peacefully. I leaned over him and placed a kiss gently on his cheek./div
"Wake up Severus, the nargles are coming for you." I teased. Snape woke up and flipped me on to my back./div
"Coming for me? That doesn't seem right." Severus kissed my forehead, then chin, neck and collar bone./div
"Watch it Sev!" I smirked. He continued to kiss me all over./div
"You really are a brat!" I laughed gently. "We really must go to breakfast."/div
"Severus and I had been sleeping together since November. He made me feel things I have never felt before..Even with Remus. I was falling for this man I called my friend and the want for him was so violent I didn't know how to control it. Severus felt the same way. He did what he swore he wouldn't and he started to develop love, like feelings for me. We were mad for each other. The sex was passionate but what happened outside of the bedroom was even better. He was a gentle and hilarious guy who had this hidden love for life. He told me that I was the reason for this new outlook but i swear it was in his heart the entire time. Severus spent a lot of time listening to me talk about Teddy. The post-partum depression was gone and now i just had feelings of longing for my boy. I truly believed that Severus wanted to meet my boy and spoil him like he was spoiling his mommy. I really hoped that Severus would agree to come with me over the holiday but I had yet to tell my mother about him. Although he had been cleared it was a touchy subject. Molly and Harry on the other hand loved him, so maybe they would warm my mother up to him. They might not be 100% okay with the fact that it hasn't even been a year since Remus died but the connection between us is special./div
"I have something I need to ask you." I said to the man who was now kissing my belly. He looked up and sat next to me./div
"Yes?" His deep black eyes searched mine./div
"Would you come home with me for the Holidays?" I held my breath waiting for the answer./div
"Will Andromeda be okay with that?" He asked./div
"Well, yeah. She was the one who suggested it." I showed him the letter./div
"She doesn't know it's me." He frowned./div
"No, you're right. She doesn't but Id like her to know. I want you to meet Teddy." I said seriously./div
"Okay, whatever you'd like." He smiled and kissed me lightly. I was greatful for the man before me./div
"thank-you." I rolled out of bed and went to the floo. "I'll see you at breakfast." I was gone through the green flames./div
"Breakfast happened like everyday before, Severus and I were professional co-workers. I brought my quill and parchment and wrote my mother back while eating my fruit. Peryll my mothers barn owl landed with a thud on my shoulder to collect my parchment. When I looked up there had been a letter in his beak. I grabbed the letter and replaced it with the one already there./div
"Take this to Andromeda please, pretty bird." I pet the big owl and it opened its wings wide and took flight. I tucked the letter into my bookbag and finished my breakfast. I suppose mother forgot to mention something in her last letter. I went straight to set up for my classes before breakfast had finished. I was writing todays notes on the black board when footsteps entered my class. It was far too early for student to arrive./div
"Excuse me, Professor Tonks?" Ginny Weasley entered the room cautiously./div
"Wotcher Ginny!" I smiled at the lovely Griffindor./div
"My mother wanted me to make sure you received her letter." Ginny smiled kindly./div
"I did Ginny, please pass the word to Molly for me." I smiled back at the girl./div
"I bet you're just counting down the days." Ginny headed for the doors. It was true i did love Molly's cooking./div
"I am. Can't wait!" The girl gave me a tearful smile and left. She must really miss her mother, and Harry. I forgot she loved the boy./div
I began to teach my classes and the letter from Molly had been forgotten inside my bag.
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Chapter 6
It had been the night before Severus and I were going to travel back to my home to enjoy the winter Holiday. I was excited to finally be able to be honest about my relationship with Severus. I was falling in love with him and I wanted to tell the world but while on school property we had to remain strictly professional..in front of that students that is. Since it was Friday and we had to set off early tomorrow Severus decided that he wanted to take me to dinner in a fancy restaurant in France. I had been spending all evening getting ready. He said it was going to be fancy. I curled my hair and twisted it up into a french twist. I then stuck a little silver pin in it that had a beautiful flower design on it. The dress I chose was a long sleeve, high necked ivy green dress. It had a sexy scooped back and went half way down my thigh. Because the restaurant was a muggle one I chose this instead of a robe. Finally my make-up looked perfect and I slipped my feet into a pair of Silver pumps. I looked like a hot mama. I floo'd to Severus's quarters and he looked handsome. He was wearing a white dress shirt with a black vest. He had a dark green bow tie on and black dress pants. I was shocked at how turned on I got seeing him all dulled up. I walked over to him and kissed him passionately, he grabbed me around my waist and trailed his hand down my back to my bottom. Shivers shot down my spine and I knew we should stop now or we would never make it for our reservation. Severus held my hand and we walked out of the castle down towards where the ward stopped. Once there we apparated to France. The restaurant was beautiful. It was right in Paris in front of the Eiffel Tower. There were plants all around us that were lite with beautiful Christmas light, the table had a delicate white table cloth and the chairs were big and comfy. The walls of the restaurant where a pretty red colour and had lots of rich gold decorations. I felt like a lucky girl. A waiter brought over a bottle of red wine which we shared. I was glad the table was small because it made the whole setting seem so much more intimate. I held Severus' hand across the table and he played nervously with my fingers./div
"Is everything okay Sev?" I asked him./div
"Everything's wonderful, i feel like a lucky man." He smiled and kissed my fingers./div
"Oh Sev, I think I'm the lucky one. You have been so patient with me." I meant every word./div
"Order whatever you'd like my love." The change in Severus had been so quick. He wasn't the same grumpy bastard I knew before./div
"I'm thinking Oasters." I winked at Severus, he blushed knowing oasters were a natural aphrodisiac./div
"You are my Aphroditee Princess." I laughed at this./div
"You're ridiculous." I entangled his fingers with mine./div
"The waiter came and took our order. I ordered the oasters as I said and Severus ordered a penne. We chatted and felt completely comfortable with each other. I couldn't wait until Severus met teddy. I knew the boys would get along and I wanted nothing more than to have my family back, even if Remus was only with me in spirit I knew he'd be glad I was being taken care of. I never stopped thinking about him and never stopped loving him but I managed to find a nice place for Severus in my heart. My heart was quite elastic, it always found a way to grow to let those who are worth my love in./div
"So I have been thinking.." Severus started./div
"What about?" I asked playing with a button on his shirt./div
"I'm in love with you Nymphadora." Sev looked into my eyes searching for acceptance and validation./div
"I know, I have felt it a while now." I smiled back. "the thing is..I think I may be in love with you too."/div
"I really wanted to buy you something special." He began./div
"You don't need to get me anything." I blushed./div
"But its a special occasion." He tucked a curl behind my ear./div
"And what is this occasion." I sipped my wine./div
"I was hoping today could be the day you agreed to be my special friend." I laughed a hearty laugh./div
"Sev, we are already friends and it's a very special friendship. You don't need to by me anything." I loved him./div
"Severus stood up from his chair and moved around the table so he was facing me. He planted a kiss on top of my head then grabbed both of my hands in his. He then surprised me. He got down on one knee and reached in to his back pocket and opened a small velvet box that held the most beautiful piece of jewelry I had ever seen. It was a pure gold ring with a large oval emerald on top./div
"Nymphadora Tonks, this is not an engagement proposal. This is a courting proposal. I give you this ring because it was my grandma's. I hope that you will be my friend forever. When I am with you I feel like the luckiest man in the world. You are my little song bird when things feel too quiet. You are my beaken of light when things are dark. Nymphadora, I wish to give you all of the love in the world and I also wish to make your son feel happy and proud that I am part of his life. One day when you are truly ready and love me as much as I love you, I'd like you to be my wife. Until that time, I'll wait patiently as the man who gave his heart to the Metamorphmagus woman." Severus kissed my hand and slipped the ring on my finger. Tears slid down my cheeks./div
"Severus, you are too kind." I leaned over and kissed him like it may be the last time./div
"Dora, thank-you for being that girl I dreamed about by the fountain." He brushed a tear off my cheek and sat back down./div
"Our meal came and I ate my food like i haven't eaten in weeks. i was so hungry but also so ready to rip of this dress and show Severus my love. Dessert came and we shared a lava chocolate cake. No matter what we did i never stopped touching him weather it was a foot or our fingers intertwined. I reflected the past 6 months and felt so grateful for the man before me. We finished and paid and Severus held me tight as we apparated back to the Hogwarts boundary. We practically ran into the castle to Severus's quarters we cast a soundproof charm and made love all night./div
"Severus, I don't have much to give." I whispered into the crook of the mans neck. He had given me so much./div
"What use is money, when all I want is to have you to hold." He kissed the top of my head. I couldn't wait to bring Severus to my family./div
Chapter 7
Today was the day we would go to Molly's for Christmas. Pyrill had dropped several messages into my breakfast that morning. I assumed they were Christmas cards seeing how Christmas was in only a few days. I had shoved the letters in my book bag and threw it in my trunk. Severus was with his house dismissing his students for the Holidays. he had to take the boats with them all the way to Hogsmeade so they could catch the Hogwarts Express. I was going to meet him there in 2 hours. Everything was so perfect. I had looked down at the gleaming emerald shimmering on my finger. I had gotten some odd looks from the staff as everyone knew this fine jewel to be a Prince heirloom. I didn't care if the whole world knew. I loved Severus. I'm so reliant, i'm so dependent. I find myself singing constantly. I was truly happy./div
I carried my trunk down the stairs and loaded it into the first threshal drawn carriage that had become available. I waved down at Professor Neville Longbottom who had been staying at Hogwarts for Christmas. He waved back and smiled sheepishly. Beside him sat a sad looking Griffindor girl. She looked as though she was fighting back tears. Her family didn't have time for her to go home. Neville being her head of house was stuck trying to cheer up the 3rd year child. Minerva had put her arm around the girl and that only caused the girl to let the tears slip. I felt bad, that was me months earlier. I was so lucky that Teddy would always have someone to come home to once at Hogwarts. Whether it was me or Severus. We would be a family. I searched into the distance once at Hogsmeade and found my guy holding his trunk looking into the window of a specialty potions shop./div
"Sev!" I called waving and smiling stupidly. He turned and smirked./div
"I thought I saw an angel approaching." He picked me up and spun me around. My light grey robe spinning around me./div
"Oh you stop it!" I smiled kissing his cheek. "Are you ready for this? Molly is expecting us." /div
"Whatever happens, i'll be ready for it." i grasped his waist, we turned and apparated to the burrow. /div
"The burrow looked busy. She always had everyone over even though her home wasn't particularly large. There was always room for guests. We were walking through the corn maze hand in hand. There was a joyful buzzing coming from inside. We walked up the steps and knocked once before i pushed open the door. I walked in first and then.../div
"Dora?" My mother rushed to my side and hugged me close. Then he came around the corner./div
"REMUS?" I cried and broke down completely. I fell to my knees not being able to hold myself up. Severus stood still staring at the man that was my husband. I gasped for air. Remus walked across the floor and picked me up hugging me close./div
"How?" Is all i said keeping my arms around the man./div
"It was Hermione actually. She used ancient runes to recover my body. It took 6 months but I'm here love." He kissed my hair and looked over my shoulder./div
"Severus Snape?" Remus let go of me and backed a few steps./div
d"Remus Lupin." He said embarrassed. Harry, Ginny, Ron, Hermione, Geroge, Bill, Charley, Molly, , my mother, The lovegoods and fleur had all be staring at what was happening. /div
"You're with him now Nymph? I hadn't even been dead for 6 months." Remus yelled out./div
"I..I didn't know." I cried harder./div
"Ginny said you had received my owl." chimed in./div
"I sent you one too sweety." My mother said with tears falling down her cheeks. In her arms was Teddy./div
"I..I never read them." I felt exhausted. Severus stood next to me and held my hand./div
"Are you marrying him?" Hermione gasped. I felt completely ganged up on. Remus looked down at my hand and walked out of the room./div
"Remus wait!" I called. Severus looked hurt and let go of my hand. "Sev, please, I never knew."/div
"Always second." he said shaking his head. I didn't know what to do./div
"Mama.." I cried. My mother handed Teddy to Fleur and reached her arms out to hug me./div
"It's okay baby." She said softly./div
"Okay everyone, i need help in the kitchen, I need all the hands i can get." Molly squeaked. Mostly everyone but Andromeda left./div
My entrance into the burrow was less than ideal. I didn't want to be near anyone. I needed time to think. I had cried all afternoon in the guest room my mom was staying in. She held me close like she did when I was a little girl. The only difference was that I now had Teddy. Once I picked him up I didn't want to let him go. It wasn't like before where he reminded me too much of my loss. He was something I fell in love with at first sight. In fact he didn't look anything like Remus. He was all me. His hair was a bright blue and he even had my bright blue eyes. I loved my baby boy. I decided I need air so I took my book bag and Teddy and left the burrow I had walked up a large grass hill and through a forest where I found a fallen tree to have a sit. I opened my book bag and brought out the three letters. The first being from Molly. I propped my little boy on my lap and started to read the letters out loud to my son./div
Dear Nymphadora,/div
Sweety, Hermione did a miraculous thing that she just informed us about. You know how she has been working really close with St. Mungo's, well Ronny just came home today and started having a complete fit about how his fiance was a brilliant human, (we already knew this) but anyways.. Hermione had done some work with healers that had to do with connecting spirits from the underworld to reverse the killing curse. It only works if the person who was killed has been killed within a year of treatment and if the victim wants to come back. Hermione didn't tell anybody but she had used a few friends who were killed in the Hogwarts war as test subjects, Fred, Remus, Moody and Madison. It turns out that the Runes had given Remus his life back. Fred and Moody were at peace and didn't want to come back and Madison came back for 5 minutes but was too weak to allow herself survival. Remus was up and out of the Hospital with in a week and we had just found out about it. I'm so happy for you sweety. When you come home at Christmas he will be waiting for you./div
Love, Molly/div
I had such horrible mixed feelings. Could it be possible to love more than one person at a time? I had no idea what I wanted to do. The man I learned to love and started a family with was given another change at life so he could be with me but then I have this completely wonderful man who I have fallen for so quickly. He has been so patient with me and I have never felt fire works like this before with anyone. I was so confused. I then opened the next letter that had been from my mom./div
Lovely Dora,
By now you must have heard from Molly, I can't even imagine what you must be feeling right now. I know you are probably very confused. Remus came by my home today to see Ted. I cried and cried. The connection a father can have with his son is amazing. The minute Remus picked up little Teddy he started to cry as well. He said that holding his son again was what gave him the strength to come home. He totally understands your decision to work at Hogwarts, after all everyone grieves differently. Remus dropped by your home last night and said he found his favourite shirt with cheetos stains all over it. We had a great laugh. He misses you so much Dora. I know you have gotten quite close with your "Friend" but Remus is your love and you still have the key to his heart. I don't know how to thank Hermione enough. What she did for our family is miraculous. Feel free to come home early sweety. Ted has his daddy but he needs him mommy too. I need you also./div
Lots of Love, Mama/div
This letter only made me feel more guilty. Remus had fought to come home just so he could take care of his family and I was off sleeping with his enemy. I squeezed Teddy a little tighter. I felt a cold shiver down my spine. If I was to stay with Severus, everything everyone has done to bring Remus back and to let us be together in the first place would go to waste. No matter what, in the end someone had to get hurt. I opened the last letter.\/div
Wotcher Babe,/div
Sorry love, i stole your greeting. I know you are probably thinking that you're seeing things but you are not. I'm here and I'm home. I'm sorry for the tears you shed on my behalf. I'm sorry I was a lousy husband going and getting killed. Everything I have ever done in life I do because you motivate me. You motivate me to be a better, happier and more energetic husband. I visited your mother today, when she saw me she cried. I got to hold Teddy for the first time in 6 months and I can't believe how big he got. When he was first born i though he looked like me but now I can only see you when I look at him. The hair, the eyes, the unpredictable things he does. I miss you so much Dora. I can't wait for you to come home so I can hold you again. For you I'll give you my world. Remember the thing you said on our wedding day? I hope you lie and steal and cheat. I hope you lay by my side forever, Steal away my sorrows and cheat death so I don't have to live a day without you. Well baby I never broke the vow. I cheated death and came back so I can finish laying by your side. I know I caused you grief but I'm ready to steal away those sorrows and bring back the joy you used to face life with. I love you so much Nymphadora, come home to me./div
Your night in shining armor, Remus/div
I cried hard. I still loved Remus so much. It was unfair how messed up my life had gotten. My child stirred in my arms. I stood up and carried the tired little boy back to the burrow. I needed to talk to each of the men and try to figure out what I wanted because at this point. I didn't know. I gained my composure and opened the door. Everyone fell quiet and I handed my sleepy son to my mother while I approached Remus./div
"I think we need to catch up on a few things." I spoke softly. /div
"I believe you are right." He stood and followed me out of the burrow into the cold, dark night. We had to be fast because Dinner was going to be served in 20 minutes./div
"Honestly Dora, I thought you would be a bit happier to see me." Remus started./div
"I am so happy to see you Remus, you broke my heart when you died. I wanted to die too." I walked next to him in the dark./div
"I have to ask, why him?" He cut to the chase./div
"I didn't mean for it to happen. He gave me the comfort I needed to heal my heart and that developed into love."/div
"I love you to the moon and back Remus." I breathed heavy./div
"I will never stop fighting for you Dora, please be with me." I looked into his sad brown eyes./div
"Don't break our family apart." This shot a sword deep into my heart./div
"You were dead Remus, I would never have intentionally hurt you. How was i supposed to know you would come home?" I shook my head./div
"You weren't I just didn't expect you to get over me so fast." He bowed his head. I wasn't any less confused./div
"Well I guess you have to break the news to Severus because I'm not letting you go. You are my wife." Remus grabbed me and kissed me feverishly. I felt sick./div
"Remus..I.." He cut me off./div
"No Dora, you don't get to choose. I came home for you and my son needs his parents. Tell me Severus was just a replacement. Tell me you were just afraid to be alone" He shot me a look./div
"I..I can't." I felt defeated. "I was at first but then i really started to fall for him." Remus looked so hurt./div
"Lets have dinner with our friends love. We can put this whole thing behind us." I walked with Remus up to dinner. It was the most awkward meal I have ever been part of. Nobody spoke and the silence was painful. I felt so judged and everyone's eyes were on me. Half way through supper Hermione burst in to tears and went on about only wanting to help. I left the table as soon as it was deemed appropriate and went to my sons crib. I watched him sleep peacefully and prayed that I would make the right choice. Why did the worst things always happen to me? i couldn't help but to wonder where Severus had gone./div
Chapter 8
I had the most terrible sleep, the nightmares that i used to have about Remus dying now changed to nightmares of Severus. It was 3 am, i kissed teddy's forehead as the sleeping child gurgled in his crib. I thought I might know where Severus had been. He lived not too far from from where Remus and I resided in a town called Spinners Edge. I looked over at Remus sleeping on the other side of the bed and I slipped out the bedroom door and down the many flights of stairs./div
"You're going to see Remus, aren't you?" A voice spoke from the shadows./div
"Why are you awake Ginny?" I asked the red head girl who had been nestled on the couch./div
"I can't sleep." She whispered. "I still get nightmares too."/div
"I know you won't understand Ginny, but I have to make things right with Severus. He'll need closure."/div
"So you have decided to stay with Remus?" She asked in a harsh voice./div
"It's what's right." I said breathing hard./div
"No it's whats easy. Dumbledore told this to Harry and it kinda stuck with me.. 'We must all make the choice between what is easy and what is right.' I know you think you are sneaky Tonks but I was there at Hogwarts. After such a loss, you can't just turn happy. It takes someone really special to cure something like that. I haven't always been a fan of Professor Snape but he makes you happy Tonks and there is no denying that. I know the feeling, Harry is the only person who took the pain of losing Fred away." Ginny smiled softly./div
"I don't know if I have ever told you how sorry I am for your loss." I frowned and then left./div
I walked through the cold December air and then apparated to a street covered in snow. I walked along the pavement with my eyes closed tight trying to let his magic guide me. Eventually after a few minutes I had to cast a warming charm. I whispered "Lumos," and my wands tip lit up the streets in front of me. that's when I saw it. 'Spinners End.' From there things were made easier. I started to feel the tug of my magical core, It led me straight to Severus's door step. I knocked twice and waited. All lights were out and suddenly a window illuminated with yellow light. Severus opened the door and stepped back so I could enter. He didn't look good he had been paler than usual and his black eyes seemed dull. I walked into his sitting room and plunked myself ungracefully into one of his leather chairs./div
"I think this belongs to you." I slid the emerald off of my finger and placed it lightly in Severus hand. He looked at me like I had tortured him./div
"I understand." He said with the look of a ghost./div
"If I can't have you, I want this life alone." He took my hand in his, i cried./div
"Severus, no!" I gasped. He made me feel so guilty./div
"I hate to say I love you, and that I want you, when you make it so clear you don't want me." He took his hand away from me and turned away./div
"I didn't know he'd come back." I whispered./div
"I knew I'd never actually get you." He didn't get mad, he just got defeated./div
"Severus, i love you. I'm sorry." I stood and wrapped my arms around his waist./div
"Please Dora, leave him for me." Severus let a tear slide down his cheek. I hated this./div
"I can't Sev. My family!" I couldn't breath./div
"You never where mine, I don't deserve you. Ever since that day I saw you at the Malfoy ball. I knew your spirit would never allow itself to be tamed by me." He nuzzled his face into my shoulder then stepped away. "I will never stop wishing Dora."/div
"I never meant to hurt you Severus. I was ready to marry you." I stepped closer to the door./div
"I love you Dora, I wish you the best, Happy Christmas." I felt like the worst kind of Human. I cared about Severus so much./div
"I love you too Severus. Goodbye." I left and apparated back to the burrow. I had to get in before anyone noticed./div
I walked through the door and sneaked up the stairs. When I got into our room Teddy had awakened. I leaned and picked him up from his crib and held him close./div
"I love you little bean, I'm so sorry I left you." I kissed his fiery red hair. "Momma will never let you go."/div
I walked with my son in my arms down stairs. I went to the fridge and pulled out a bottle and fed the boy on the couch. He was beautiful. His hair had turned to a lovely violet colour once he was done with his milk. He gurgled a bit then reached up to pull on my matching violet hair. I let our a teary laugh and hugged the little innocent baby close./div
"You are truly wonderful Teddy." I smiled as the small boy grinned up at me. "You are all mommy needs."/div
"I'm glad your feeling better sweety, I was worried you'd never get used to having Teddy around." Andromeda came down the stairs and sat next to me./div
"Momma, my heart hurts." I rested my head on the woman's shoulder./div
"I know love, it doesn't get easier." She held me close with Teddy joining the snuggle./div
"What happened when daddy died? How did you keep going?" I looked into my mothers blue eyes./div
"It was the fact that I knew I had you love." She smiled at the memory. "He didn't leave willingly, he loved us both so much."/div
"I miss dad, he had all the answers." Andromeda laughed at that./div
"You are right, he did." She smiled through her tears. " Everyone feels loss at one point. Grieving is a part of living."/div
"Love is too." i sighed./div
"It's better to feel pain than nothing at all." My mother said. She used to say that to me all the time as a child./div
"Thank-you for being so understanding mom, I couldn't have done it without your support." I yawned./div
"Always! Your my child. When Teddy grows up and falls in love you will be there for him, even if you think some of the choices he makes are poor."/div
I got up off the couch and placed Teddy on my hip. I walked with him into the kitchen to start tea. I started to sing twinkle twinkle little star to the small boy when strong arms held my hips from behind./div
"Up above the world so high, like a diamond in the sky." Remus sang./div
"Did you sleep well?" I asked stiffening./div
"I did knowing I had you by my side." He kissed my cheek. I felt gross./div
"Would you like some tea?" I offered. Remus took Remus from my arms. "Wait, don't take him." I reached to take my son back, in the process knocking over the sugar bowl. It smashed all over Molly's floor./div
"What is your problem Dora? I was just saying good morning to him." Remus's brow furrowed./div
"I..I..I don't know. I'm sorry." I held Teddy close and stepped away from Remus./div
"Did you break the news to Snivellus love?" Remus mocked./div
"Yes. I did." I looked at the man standing before me./div
"Good. now hand me Ted so this mess can get cleaned up." He reached his arms out. I hesitated in handing over Teddy. Finally i gently placed the boy in his fathers arms./div
I pulled out my wand and repaired the glass and cleaned the sugar off Molly's floor. People started to wake up and fill the house. As soon as the tea was made I reached to take Teddy back. Remus moved away./div
"Remus, give me Teddy, please." I said soflty holding out my arms./div
"No." He said. Teddy started crying./div
"Remus, please. Hand him over." I moved closer./div
"No Dora, he's my son." Remus started bouncing Teddy to get him to hush./div
"He's crying. He wan't his mommy." I tried to reach for my son. Remus walked back./div
"Where were you the last 6 months? You didn't want him then." Remus took a low blow./div
"GIVE ME MY FUCKING CHILD!" I screamed at him. Molly, Luna and my mother ran into the kitchen./div
"Remus, give Teddy back." My mother spoke soothingly./div
"She doesn't deserve him. She left him to sleep with some greasy git!" Remus snuggled Teddy close, Teddy screamed out./div
"Remus, can you give Teddy to me?" Andromeda leaned with her arms open to Remus. He gently placed my son into her arms./div
"Thank-you Remus." She whispered softly while my husband stared daggers at me./div
"Uhm Remus, I asked Harry and Ron to cut fire wood for the stove, could you possibly take some tea out to them?" Molly asked shocked./div
"Yeah, sure." Remus scooted past me and poured two cups of tea and let the door slam behind him. /div
I breathed heavily and ran across the kitchen to my mom who had the crying boy nestled in her arms. I grabbed my son and immediately he stopped crying. I gasped for air and Luna put her arm around my waist and led me to a chair. Molly accio'd one for herself and my mother and us woman sat quietly in the corner of Molly's massive kitchen. Luna grabbed everyone some tea and sat down also./div
"What the bloody hell was that about?" Luna started tossing her white blonde hair over her shoulder./div
"I don't know. I didn't want him to hold Teddy." I took a sip of tea patting Teddy's back in rythmical taps./div
"Why not?" Molly asked./div
"I just don't. He wouldn't give him to me when I asked for him back." I sniffled./div
"I thought it was very uncharacteristic of him." Luna huffed./div
"The past few days have been very odd." Andromeda shook her head./div
"They have." Molly agreed./div
"Why don't you pass Teddy to me and you take a nap." My mother offered./div
"No. Teddy doesn't leave my sight." I snapped the three woman looked shocked./div
"Okay sweety. I just thought.."/div
"No." I said getting up and carrying my boy to the family room./div
I changed Teddy's diaper and bundled him up good in winter clothes. We went outside and I placed my boy in the snow. He giggled and played crawling around in the fluffy white winter. I followed his lead and made snow angels for him. Inside my mother and Molly watched from the window. They smiled at the two of us but I knew they thought I was crazy. I didn't feel myself. I felt devastated but I wasn't going to show it. I had no interest in bringing up matters that no longer mattered. I had to do what was expected of me and play Remus's grateful wife. After a long play in the snow Teddy started to get tired. I took him into the warm house and set him into his crib. I read him a story until he was fast asleep. Then i decided to go join everyone downstairs. I sat on the couch with Remus. He leaned over and kissed my cheek. I didn't move./div
"I can't wait until the holidays are over so you and I can get some privacy." Remus whispered into my ear. I didn't respond./div
"I would flip you on your back and make you feel like a woman." He nuzzled my ear. i felt embarrassed. Other people were near./div
"Remus, stop." I whispered. He slipped his hand on my upper thigh and started trailing it up my leg./div
"Now isn't the time." I slapped his hand away. He tried again./div
"Oh the love I would make with you." I kissed my neck. I stood up and walked away from him./div
"Love, what is it now? You have been so touchy." He sneered./div
"There is a time and a place." I glared./div
"What do you mean? At three o'clock in the morning between Severus's sheets?" He was manipulating me.
"Outside. Now." I said sternly. Ginny gave me a knowing look as I walked out the door./div
I made sure Remus was following and walked so far away from the burrow that it was hardly in sight. I then turned to look at my husband before me./div
"Remus that was uncalled for!" I yelled./div
"Well you don't seem to be happy that I am back." He glared./div
"We were in the company of our friends and you were trying something." I growled./div
"You aren't the same woman I loved Nymphadora." He snarled./div
"Loved?" I gasped./div
"Yes. Loved. How can I love someone so miserable." I felt like i had been hit by a bus./div
"The past few months has turned my life around. Then just the past few days it got complicated again. I need time Remus." I said carefully./div
"If you hadn't gone and spread your legs for some low life, we'd be fine. In fact you would probably want to jump my bones so badly because you hadn't had sex in 6 months." Remus jabbed./div
"Remus these things your saying..You're trying to hurt me." I spoke soothingly so he wouldn't get angrier./div
"You hurt me first." He was defeated./div
"I chose you Remus." I begged./div
"It doesn't matter." He turned away from me./div
I couldn't keep the bile from rising. I leaned over and threw up all over the ground. Remus didn't turn he didn't care. He was the one who was supposed to be designed for me. I felt so rejected and set up for failure. This man may be my husband but he didn't make me feel the way he used to./div
"What does this mean Remus?" I asked, already knowing./div
"I think we need to take a break." He frowned at me./div
"What about Teddy?" I huffed./div
"We'll see." With that Remus strode away. I sat and sobbed and threw up for an hour. It was one thing for someone to leave you unwillingly and another for them to leave you by choice. I had nobody!/div
I walked back to the house and found Teddy sitting on Luna's lap. He wore a huge smile on his face the second I layed my eyes on him. Everyone else was looking at me cautiously. I knew that Remus must have made a scene. I felt extremely embarrassed. My mother looked at my with wide eyes and her hands over her mouth. I ignored everyone and picked up my lovely boy and smiled lovingly at him. That's when it came up. I ran to the washroom and threw up what was the 5th time. Once I was done being sick I walked into the kitchen and Molly brought me over a small vile of potion. I assumed it was a sickness potion. I took a huge gulp of the solution and a minute later I started glowing blue. My mother and Molly started crying and Hermione and Luna were wide eyed and frozen./div
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