To my dear reader:
Alright, I know what you're thinking, "Seriously? This woman is posting now after how many years?! And it's not even a real chapter." Yeah, yeah, I know. Everything is going to sound like an excuse, but I feel the need to tell you anyways. You see, it was never my intention to abandon my stories, and although I haven't updated in a very long time, I still have no intention of abandoning my stories. I have been going through quite a lot. After my dog died, I hit a wall. I no longer knew how to express myself. I couldn't communicate to my friends and family, and I most certainly could not write. I had lots of ideas, but none that I could carry out. The next year, I landed in the hospital due to my poor health. After recovery, my ability to express myself diminished once more. I could not even answer my teachers in class with a coherent idea. I was a hot mess. Later that year, my mother landed in the hospital, and then my uncle, then my other uncle, then my aunt, then my grandmother. Needless to say, it was not a good year for my family. Now, we are closer to the present, last year, the sister of one of my friends died in a tragic car accident. It was a hard time, but I managed. With all the events that had happened within such a short timeframe, my already heavily diminished ability to understand myself was close to gone. Even now, I have trouble maintaining a clear thought. My mind is jumbled. I am a wreck.
So! Onto not-so-dark news! I am going to start university this fall. I am nervous, but strangely indifferent at the same time. Do not fret, my dear reader(s) - I would normally have enough confidence to say that I have more than one reader, but seeing as I haven't updated in a few years, I can't be sure - for I am going to continue all my stories! I am currently in the midst of trying to reassess my writing style. I recently went back to re-read all my old stories and although I don't dislike the way I write, it feels foreign. I'm going to be selfish and ask you wait a little while longer, but please bear with me as I struggle to find my niche again.
Thank you for reading until now. It's 4 am and I can't sleep. I honestly hope to god that you can understand the jumbled mess of a sorry message I tried to send you guys.
Much love,
Heavenchara