« Helena, don't touch that, please ! » said Alison with an uptight look to her porcelain.
« But it's pretty ! »
« Yes, I know that. Mrs S, can you please tell her to stand still »
Cosima and Sarah were laughing at the corner of the room, Alison had the brilliant idea to invite them all to diner and now it seemed like she was regretting it.
« What do we eat ? » asked Felix looking at Donnie pouring their glasses.
« Come sit and you'll see, okay ? » said Alison showing the table. « Here it's your names, so you can sit »
« You made a table plan ? Like for a wedding ? Oh my god, Ali, you're so uptight^^ » smirked Felix sitting in front of his name.
« I'm not uptight, I just like when things are... tidy. That's all. »
« Let them laugh Al, it's very nice of you to feed us » smiled Cosima kindly.
Her sister nodded, happy to find someone who wasn't always mocking her mannerisms. Sometimes it was hard to be herself in this wild family.
They were eating the carpaccio when they finally start teasing Cosima.
« Sooo, did you write it ? » asked Sarah with a big smirk on her face.
« Oh, give it up... Can't we talk about something else ? » sighed the brunette.
« Like what ? Felix's sex life ? »
« Oi ! Alison ! Because yours is so rich... »
« Well, we have some good sex you know, your sister is wilder than you think » smirked Donnie.
« Donnie, shut up ! »
They all laughed, it was so fun to tease her.
« Cut the shit Cos', did you write it or not ? » asked Sarah leaning on her chair.
« Yeah dude, I did it okay » sighed Cosima, drinking a sipe of her red wine.
« And so ?! What did you say ? »
« Nothing you need to know »
« Did you make some romantic poetic dumb shite ? »
« I guess, if I adopt your point of view »
« Do you want to have sex with her ? » asked Helena who was quiet since the beginning of the diner.
Everyone stood still and wait for the dreadlocks girl to answer.
« Hum, yeah, tots »
« Cosima ! » exclaimed Alison, her forks still in the air.
« What ? If I say no, would anyone have believe me ? I mean, she's hot, so, in the end... I mean, I'm not doing this to have sex with her but if it's what happens then... happy me. »
« Jeez, you're crazy. Can't you just pick any girl who's dying to fuck with you on your DJ decks... ? » grumbled Sarah biting a piece of meat.
« No, Sarah, because it's her I'm interested in. Now, can we talk about something else ? »
It was 8 in the morning and Cosima was sneaking in the university again. She wanted to come before her shift at the coffee shop to drop off her letter into Delphine's locker. It was the only way she could reach her and honestly it was cool, she felt like a student who was hitting on her teacher. She was dying to go sit in the amphitheater again and follow the class, take notes and being blown away by science. Like last time, no one was paying attention to her. She found her way to the locker room and looked for Delphine's one.
« Do you need any help dear ? »
Cosima jumped and tried to seem cool.
« Hum, I'm looking for Delphine's locker »
« Delphine ? Oh, you mean Doctor Cormier ? Here, my dear » she said. « Have a good day ! »
« You too ! »
Cormier... Doctor Cormier... Damn, that was sexy...
She took her letter out of her bag and slowly put it in the slit of the locker. It was done, she couldn't take it back anymore. Suddenly she feared to meet the blonde in the corridors, so she ran off the buildings to go to work. She felt like a teenager, excited and nervous, exactly like when she was in highschool.
It was nearly 8.50am when she opened the coffee shop, it was a shame Jules wasn't here to witness that. She was working alone on the monday. She plugged her ipod on the store's speakers and began to switch on all the coffee machine. One hot chocolate and one blueberry muffin to start the day nicely.
She drawn herself into work to avoid herself from thinking about the letter.
« Hello ? Excuse me ? »
« Yeah, comin' ! » said Cosima dropping the last box of donuts on the floor.
The client was a young blonde with a funny hat, she looked like a cute little mouse.
« Hey, excuse me. What can I get you ? » she smiled, all teeth out.
« No worried, hum, an evolution fresh sweet green smoothie, please »
« Damn, you are brave^^ »
The blonde laughed and watched the brunette prepare her drink, with skilled gesture.
« I already saw you, once » she said.
« Yeah ? Well, I'm working here so, you probs have already seen my goofy face » she grinned.
« Sure, but I mean, you're easy to remember so... » It's nice to see you again.
Cosima frowned lightly, was this girl hitting on her... ?
« Here is your shot of vitamins for the week lady ! »
« Thank you » she said giving me a 10$ bill « you should drink one too, instead of hot chocolate » she smirked.
« Oh 'coz, I have like, a bad skin or whatever, » teased Cosima, giving her the change.
« No, no ! Your skin is perfect, you are... but I mean, this is better for you, for your body... you know »
« Oh I see. You're the natural healthy kind of girl, right ? »
« Maybe » she smiled with a malicious look.
She was really cute, actually.
« Anyway if sometimes you want to... take care of your health... call me. » she almost whispered, giving Cosima a bill with her number on it.
« Tots, yeah. I will think about it » she grinned again.
« Okay. Bye »
« Bye »
Damn, this girl was something... She put the bill in her back pocket and got back to work.
12.20
Cosima was bored, the coffee shop was deserted although it was midtime. Usually on mondays, every working person was all over here asking for drinks and food. But not today, obviously...
She was distractly dancing on the music from her ipod when she heard her coming. Delphine was standing there, smiling widly.
« Hum, you did NOT see this ! Don't you dare tell anyone ! » said Cosima, pointing a finger at her.
« Promis^^ »(promised)
« Sorry for that »
« No, it was nice, to see the DJ dancing^^ »
« Yeah... How are you, Delphine ? »
« Fine, fine. And you ? » she asked as she leaned on the counter just in front of Cosima.
« Good, better now » she smiled. « What do you want ? »
« Let see... Chicken BLT salad sandwich and a cool lime Starbucks, please. »
« Man, an hungry girl, I like that » she grinned. « Do you want to eat at the table or here ? »
Please, stay on the counter...
« Here, bon appétit » grinned the brunette, proud of her cheecky move.
« Merci beaucoup, Cosima »
Man, the french thing was really turning her on... Delphine was all smiling while bitting in the bread.
« What ? »
« I dunno, you are exaggeratedly in a good mood. What's up ? »
« It's silly...^^ » said Delphine taking a sip of her juice.
« I am silly ! Shoot ! »
« Eh bien... (Well) I found an anonymous letter in my locker today.
« Really ? Cool, was it good ? »
Usually Cosima was pretty bad at hiding her emotions but she desperatly tried to look surprised and innocent.
« Well, yes. I-I don't know... What to think of it... »
« Why, »
« Because it has to be one of my student, or else it... wouldn't be in my teacher locker. Don't you think ? »
« Hm, yeah. Obvs »
She has to play it smart, very smart...
« But it seems more... mature than most of my students. I don't think he could be in my class... »
Cosima felt like her heart had stop, she could help but drop her jaw.
« You must think I'm ridiculous... » pouted Delphine in a very cute way.
« No, no, no at all. Must be weird to receive something like that. »
« I think it's romantic... Anyway, tell me about you ! » »Me ? Whatcha wanna now ? »
« Did you create something new ? »
« Not yet. It's at the end of the week so... I always do it in a hurry »
« Last time was really great, tell me when you DJ again. »
« Sure » smiled Cosima kindly. « How is your guy ? »
« Who ? Henry ? »
« Probs, tell me about it. »
« Nothing much, I don't know what to say. »
« You have more to say about an unknown letter than your man^^ »
« He is not my man » she pouted again. « I think I have to go. »
« You think ? » laughed the american.
« Oui, I don't know, I lost track of time... » she looked at her watch. « Oh, I have to go then » she said leaving her chair, « how much do I owe you ? »
« Hum, nothing, that's on me » smiled Cosima widly.
« Quoi ? Non, non, I have to pay »
« It's okay, my pleasure »
« Why ? » frowned Delphine suspicious.
« Do I need a reason ? I have a few but tots not gonna say then. So just accept, and give me a smile »
Delphine couldn't help but giggle, gathering her stuff.
« Thank you Cosima. I'll see you soon »
« Yeah, sure. Have a good day »
The brunette breathed heavy and took a second to think about this moment. Delphine had talk to her about the letter, her letter. And she didn't know what to think about the girl's reaction. Apparently it was positive but also mixed feelings. And the big problem is that obviously she had come to the conclusion that it was a boy. Couldn't blame her but honestly it hurted the brunette's pride. Above all this, she got to see Delphine today and she was hot beautiful, so nothing was lost.
« You should write another one. »
« Are you serious ? Why ? »
« Because she seemed to like it »
Cosima was crashed on Felix's couch, skyping with Alison for 30 minutes.
« I dunno dude, it's hard to say something without at least talk about yourself a little »
« I'm just saying Cosima, if you really want to... sympathize with this woman, you should continue. »
« Hm... Okay, I will like, think about it or whatever. How are you ? »
« Good, good. »
« Is the buisness running ? » asked Cosima, lighting a joint.
« It's going well, we have double the benefit in one month so ! »
« Wow, cool man. You're good at this^^ »
« Well, it's not very complicated, and it's fun. »
« Okay, but be safe yeah ? It's still like against the law. »
« Sure. I have to go, pick up the kids at school »
« Yeah, okay. Bye »
« Goodbye, Cosima »
She closed the Skype window and took the time to smoke, looking at the ceiling. For no particular reason she thought about the girl from the coffee and she smiled. Maybe she could call her or maybe text... But why ? She was secretly writting letter to Delphine but she wanted to flirt with the other blonde ? Dude, sometimes it was about simple relation, not complicated. She took the bill in her pocket and began to type a text.
« Hey, it's the waitress from the coffee shop. You gave me your number and... I don't know your name. I'm Cosima. »
Sent. Luckily, she was smoking because it was a really dumb move. Maybe she won't see her anymore and she won't be ashamed.
« Hey, Cosima. So glad you texted me :) I'm Shay. How are you ? »
« Shay ? Really nice name ! I'm good, and you ? »
« Thank you. Chilling. Still working ? »
« No. I have to work on my music though »
« Music ? You're an artist ? »
« Oh no, I just DJ sometimes. Hey, you should tots come one night. I mean, if you want... »
« I would love that ! »
« Cool, then you can come at the Downtown on friday night. »
« Great, see you on friday then :) »
It was Thursday today and Cosima was doing creative activities with Kira. Sarah was trying to have a nice date with Cal and her sister was happy to spend some time with her niece.
« What are you drawing ? »
« Hm, it would be a nice sunset on the beach. And you ? » Cosima looked at Kira's sheet.
« It's a representation of the animal kingdom »
« You know kid, sometimes I wonder if you're not my child... »
« Haha, no^^ Why aren't you a scientist, auntie Cosima ? You'd be great »
« Thanks kid. But university it's expensive so... »
« It's not fair » pouted the girl.
« I know, but it's okay. You, will be a great scientist ! Can't wait ! »
She loved that girl, she was really cute and very smart, it was a pleasure to talk with her about all the universe stuff. And Cosima was herself still a child so they really matched.
« Oi ! Are you here ? »
« Yeah, in the tent ! » said Cosima getting up.
Sarah dropped her jacket on the couch and kissed Kira on the forehead.
« Are you okay, monkey ? »
« Yes. I was telling auntie Cosima she should be a scientist. »
« You're right kid »
« Was your date okay ? »
« Yeah but he had to go so, and anyway I wanted to see Kira before bed. »
Sarah red a story to her daughter beofre putting her to bed and sat next to her sister on the couch.
« Kira is awesome you know » said Cosima.
« Yeah... I don't know how she can be so smart when I'm the mother » sighed her sister.
« Don't say that... »
« Cos', she is so like you ! »
« No, she has a little bit of all of us, and I like this idea !You raise her well, you should be proud of it »
Cosima saw real emotion in her sister's eyes. Which was rare.
« Thank you. She's right, you know. You are super smart, you could do so much more than waitress »
« Sarah, you know why... »
« We need to fix that, we will find a way, maybe I could rob a bank or some shite »
« Yeah, cool^^ »
They laughed together, Sarah was glad to have Cosima as a sister. She was sensible and simple, no need to worry with her, they were feeling each other emotions without talking.
« Did you do your music ? »
« No, I have to. But I was with Kira »
« Well, now you can, Fe is not coming home until tomorrow. I'm tired, I will sleep with Kira. »
« Okay, I'm on it. Goodnight. »
When she put her headphones on and try to relax, she thought about her conversation with Sarah. Delphine will probably be at the bar on friday, and she wanted to do a sort of an hommage track for her, like a wink. It would be... a trance beat, with some samples of scientist speech on it. She wanted to the blonde dance once again, slowly, floating and moving with the catchy beat. Her pale skin would reflect in the dark club... The inspiration was rising again she went into her creative mode to compose the new track.
Friday, 1pm
« Cosima, someone's asking for you ! » yelled Jules from the counter.
The brunette was preparing the stock of food at the back of the storeroom when Jules called her.
« What's up ? » she asked distractly, not raising her head from her order book.
Jules approached her and raised her chin for her to look at the girl.
« Shit... » whispered Cosima when her eyes laid on Delphine.
« Hello^^ » the blonde gave her the best smile.
Cosima felt her legs become weak and her heart speed.
« Hey, I'm sorry I didn't... expect to see you »
« Yes, sorry I thought I'd come by to ask if you were Djing tonight »
« Really? Hum, yeah, I am. Are you coming ? »
« Well, yes » she ran her hand through her hair « I mean if you don't mind... »
« No, no, no ! Come, please ! » the brunette waved her hands in the air.
They stand at each other for few seconds, both smiling.
« Okay, then I'll see you later. Ciao ! »
« Ciao » Cosima couldn't stop smiling even when the blonde has disappeared.
« Okay, tell me what just happened. Are you dating this gorgeous smocking hot french woman ?! » she asked Jules with wide eyes.
« No^^ But she is, isn't she ? » smirked Cosima.
« No shit, cos' ! Damn, what was that ?! »
« Dunno, flirt. From my part, at least. »
« Jeez, you gotta date her. She's so hot ! »
The brunette laughed while her friend was talking nonesens for 10 minutes long. She had come to ask her, she wanted to come. It was good, really good... Shit, Shay was supposed to come too... How was she gonna deal with the two of them... ?
10.50pm, Downtown
« You invited the two of them ? The same night ? You're fucked up Cos'... »
« Yeah, I know, thanks Sarah. »
« Cosima ? »
She looked behind her, Shay was standing there without an hat this time.
« Hey Shay, you came ! » she smiled. « How are you ? »
« Good ! »
« Huh, this is my sister, Sarah »
« Nice to meet you » smiled cutely Shay.
« Same » said Sarah without really caring.
Cosima felt a little embarrassed and stressed out.
« Hum, how about we take a drink and go up here ? »
« Yeah, sure »
« Cool, come ! »
The dreadlocks girl took them two beers before leading Shay to the plateform, behind her decks.
« Here it is »
« You know how to use all these buttons ? »
« Hm, yeah^^ »
« Wow, it seems scary, like driving a plane ! »
Cosima laughed, Shay was really cute, very girly.
« I'll show you later if you want »
« Okay » she smiled. « I'm happy to be here »
« Good^^ I need to go speak to the guy over there, can you wait here ? »
« Sure »
« Okay. I'll be back in a minute »
She climbed down the stairs and warned her collegue that she was going to start her set. Suddenly she felt like all her body was electrified, shivers all over. An hand was on her arm.
« Cosima, c'est moi. (it's me) »
Delphine was standing behind her, in blue skinny jean and black blouse. High heels...
« ... »
« Excuse me, I just wanted to say hi » apologized the woman with a cute puppy face.
« No, no it's fine. You look... amazing... »
Even with the sifted lights she saw the blonde blushing.
« Do you want me to get you a drink ? »
« No, no, don't bother, I will order it » she smiled.
« Okay. Thank you for coming. I'm gonna start. »
« D'accord » (okay)
« Will you dance ? » she didn't add for me, it was too obvious.
« Sure, I came for that^^ »
Cosima smiled widly and walked away toward the plateform again.
Shay was waiting for her and suddenly she felt guilty because she just wanted Delphine to be here.
« Okay, let's go ! You can stay here or go dance, as you wish^^ »
She put her headphones on.
« Hi everyone ! Tonight I want to see everyone dance, have fun ! »
She sweeped glance to the ground and quickly saw Delphine looking at her and smile. Damn... that was a rad night !
The track began with a sizzling sample of a speech about evolutionary development, with the slow beat coming behind. People began to move and Cosima couldn't keep her eyes off Delphine. She had made this track for her and the woman was lionizing it. Delphine raised her head and they eyes met, felt like the time had frozed. Cosima raised her arms like to say « so ? », and the blonde formed « beautiful » slowly with her lips. The brunette smiled with all her teeth, mission accomplished !
She had totally forgot Shay, standing next to her.
« Are you okay ? » she asked at her ear.
« Yeah, it's really good. You're talented » said Shay back at her ear « and hot ».
Cosima smiled, Shay was direct, which was a pleasant thing.
« I can say the same » she grinned.
They stood together during the all set, Shay dancing next to her, certainly a little tipsy. When she finally took off her headphones, she hugged Shay and they decided to head back downstairs.
« I'll be at the bar » said Shay.
« 'kay »
Cosima looked around to see Delphine but she didn't find her. Maybe she had come back home... A little disappointed, she went to the toilets. When she opened the door, she bumped into someone violently. This electricity again...
« Oh pardon ! » (sorry)
« Oh god, Delphine. Excuse me » she said backing off roughly.
« No, it's okay »
« Did I hurt you ? » she asked spontanously touching the woman's shoulder.
It was the first time she was iniating a contact with her and it had felt really natural, instinctive.
« No, Cosima, ce n'est rien (it's nothing) » giggled Delphine, amused by her concern.
The brunette made a violent effort to remove her hand off the woman.
« I was looking for you »
« Yes ? Here I am^^ » she giggled again, what a sharp accent.
Cosima was too busy looking at her eyes to say something.
« I really... loved your music » smiled Delphine.
« Yeah ? I'm glad, I made it yesterday so... »
« It was so much better than things we have on radio^^ I'm admiring you can create that in such a short time. Must be complicated, all this things to do in live... »
« No, not so much. Really. I could show you one night if you want... I mean you're interested but I would if you're not... »
« I would love that, Cosima »
Her own name in her mouth was a delight. She had this unique way of pronoucing it, sharp but full of wetness. She couldn't help but smile when she was hearing it.
« Rad... Is Henry with you ? »
« Oh non, he is at home. He is not really the party type... »
« Are you ? » asked Cosima, narrowing her eyebrows.
« I think so^^ » she whispered like if it was a secret.
She was crazy cute.
« Can I offer you a drink ? » proposed Cosima.
« Oh, hum maybe I should go home... »
« … Okay » she said opening the door of the restroom.
« You know what ? Let's do this, offer me a drink ! »
« Your wish is my command » grinned the brunette with a flirtatious voice.
They headed to the bar and Cosima tok two beers from behind the counter.
« And you ? Do you have anyone in your life ? »
« Hum... no. But, see this girl over there » she said pointing Shay in the corner of the counter.
« Yes ? »
« I think she wants to be a someone in my life » she smirked.
« Oh, you date girls ? » blushed Delphine.
« Oh yeah » she said with no emotion. « But that doesn't make any difference, does it ? »
« Non, non ! I just didn't know, she seemed nice though » she smiled.
« Yeah, she is... » she sighed.
« You don't seem so sure » smiled Delphine before drinking a sip.
The lips on the neck of the bottle were licking the rest of the liquid, and the american couldn't take her eyes off them.
« No, it's just that I don't know yet »
She noticed that Shay had finish talking with her friend and was coming over.
« Hey^^ » said the girl with a low tone.
« Hey ! Hm Shay this is Delphine, Delphine, Shay »
« Hello, nice to meet you » smiled the french woman.
« Hello^^ »
Was Shay always in a good mood ? She was constantly smiling.
« I... have to go, I work tomorrow » said Shay pouting.
« Seriously ? Oh okay, thank you for coming, it was nice » said Cosima.
Shay leaned slowly and kissed the brunette with a light touch.
« Yes, very nice... Call me » she whispered before leaving.
Cosima didn't expect that at all and she felt really embarrassed that it was happening in front of Delphine.
« Sorry for that... »
« No, it's fine. Now you know^^ »
« Yeah, whatever... » sighed the american, looking at her beer again.
« Oh je vois (I see), you're the player type^^ »
« What ? No ! Why do you think that ? »
« I don't know » she laughed « I can see you kissing several girls and do your whatever face^^ »
« Bullshit ! And I just did it with Shay tonight, if you're right, I'd have to kiss you to check your theory » she grinned.
« Pff you're so cheeky ! And you wouldn't dare » she teased.
« Oh yeah ? Why ? »
« Because I'm french, we're the best kisser. After that, all the others would taste bland... » she smirked.
« Sounds final » laughed Cosima.
She was trying to cool off, all the sudden she was talking about kisses with the blonde, and she had really really hard time not looking at her lips.
« Anyway, I have to go home too, so much work is waiting for me... »
« Sure... » nodded Cosima.
« Are you working at the café this week ? »
« Yeah, like Monday, wednesday, thursday and friday »
« Good, the I will see you there » she smiled before kissing the girl on both cheeks, near the corner of her lips.
« Bye, Cosima »
The brunette closed her eyes, she was still feeling Delphine's lips on her cheeks, soft and wet... Even just the talking with her was amazing and natural, like they were friends forever. She had to write another letter... She needed to know her better, talk to her, see her another time... And another...
Cosima was at her desk in her flat, with a beer and a brand new joint. All set for writting this letter, to be able to « post » it on monday. She switched on her ipod station and let the music changes the ambiance and cool her off.
Dear Delphine,
Carl Sagan said « Somewhere, something incredible is waiting to be known. » I could have said that though...
Did you already witness the irrational emotion of love, embroiled with desire, lust and pain ? This is so intense, it's almost unbearable... I can't think of something more tempting to live than this experience...
We should expect more of life than just let a mark on earth... Science is everything, living to discover is an exciting mission but... sometimes it's jsut about living, drink and find sometone to pass the day with. Can such a paradox exist... ?
Do you wake up everyday already knowing what your day is gonna look like ? Because I don't... Every morning is like a blank page, this is a way to maintain the illusion that nothing is written.
I wish you could be on this blank page everyday, just standing there, ready to laugh and drink with me.
I think you're waiting to be known.
Belauensis.