Day 3...
During these these days...i feel like ive been here for a month...my arm is very numb at times, but thats only when i see him...I wish i could talk to him more...I wonder...will he sleep here?
As i walked out of the bathroom, sighing a little contently, i noticed my nurse- feli, laying on the other bed, sleeping soundly. I felt my face ache due to the blushing, including my messed up arm aching. I slowly passed by him, watching his calm sleeping face. His mouth slowly smiled, as he slept. His curl bouncing a little. I assumed he was having a very good dream.
"L...ud...w...ig..." He moaned mixed with a groan. My eyes widened at that. Is he dreaming about me? I sat onto my bed, reaching for my journal to write. For some odd reason...i want to be near him, lay by his side. Realizing what i was thinking i quickly shook my head. No, i musnt get sucked into this. Remember your goal to leave this place and go back to saving the community! Peoples lives are being wasted everyday i am still here, not helping. But..then again...Feli makes me feel...like i am somebody. As a cop, deep inside me, i still felt like im nothing. Even if i upgrade to commander, cheif. I am still..nothing. I began writing
No matter what i feel, what i do to be part of this community, i still felt like nothing. For years as i grew up here, i was picked due to my accent. Sure, i cant speak english well, i was frail...soft...weak..I wanted to disappear...to not exist. In high school i got into so many fights...i dont know how i got into the force during college. But being here...talking to him, it makes me feel like a somebody. I dont feel like I have to say sorry all the time, to stay quiet, and hide. I can actually be blunt, try to joke (but fails) to make him smile...NO. NO Ludwig. You must think about your goal...to save the people in this community! I stared at that sentence, thinking long and hard.
But then again...i want...to be...with him.
what should i do? Feli...