Reagan's POV
I had been crying myself asleep the last for couple of days. I know I was hurting Amy, but she had hurt me too. I never wanted any of this. You know how much it sucks to hear that the person you love, loves someone else? Well, I do, twice now. It felt like I had fallen in a deep black hole and I was never being able to come out again. I wanted to say sorry to Amy, but I knew she would never forgive me.
I had been looking through her window all this time. Because let's be honest here: I want her for myself. I know I'm selfish but I just love looking at her. I love being with her. She makes me happy. But then again, she hurt me and I feel like nobody understands me. I'm just that girl who's in between the lovely couple. But Amy chose me too. It wasn't just me who wanted to be in this relationship.
The day Amy was studying and Karma called her, I could hear everything they were saying because her window was a little bit open. I heard that Karma almost got run over by a car. Of course, Amy thought about me. But it wasn't me. I texted Amy to scare her. I'm good with words, but I would never be THAT cruel. I told Amy, I don't even have a car at the moment. Sigh. I was caught up in my own thoughts again.
I hadn't talked to Amy or Karma after the day I was in Karma's house. Most of the time I was watching Amy in her room. Just like now. I could see that she was reading a book for the last couple of days. I never knew she liked to read. Karma probably knew… Maybe Karma and Amy do belong together. I noticed my eyes started fill up with tears. I'm just having a hard time to let such a perfect girl go. We were always having fun together and she could talk to me about everything. Maybe I never gave her that feeling. I should've tried harder making her feel special. But now it's too late.
I felt guilty in every single way possible. It was killing me and I was done with it. So I took a deep breath, climbed carefully to her window and stood still for a moment. I hesitated for a moment but then knocked twice. Nothing. I knocked again. No reaction. When I came a little closer to the window, I saw she was wearing earplugs. That made sense. I knocked harder many times in a row now. She took the earplugs out and it shocked her. She made a sign with her hand that I had to go away. 'Please, I'm just here to talk', I shouted. Amy stood there for a while, hesitating. Then she came towards the window. She came really close and I thought she was going to open it, but instead she closed the curtains.
Crap. I should go in through the front door. And so I did. Amy's mom let me in. I thanked her as I walked upstairs. I opened Amy's bedroom door and again she was shocked to see me. 'Get. Out.' She said full of anger. 'I just want to talk, I promise.' I said with my shaky voice. I was trying not to cry. 'I'm done talking to you', she said heartless. I couldn't hold it in anymore and started crying. Amy noticed that. 'Don't you try to be the victim in all of this.' She was crying too now. I walked towards her and sat next to her on the bed. I wanted to hold her, grab her hand and kiss her. But I didn't. 'Is karma okay?', Amy asked through her tears. I nodded. Karma this, Karma that. It's always about Karma. But I guess that's what you talk about when you're in love. These thoughts made me want to cry harder. I looked at Amy in the eyes and took a deep breath.
'I'm here to apologize.' That was harder for me to say than it looked. Amy looked confused. 'I'm not expecting you to forgive me. I can't ask you that. But I'm sorry for everything I've done to you. I'm sorry I hurt you. I'm sorry I kept you away from the one you love. I'm sorry for coming into your life.' I sobbed. 'It just felt really nice to finally meet a person that makes you forget about all the bad things.' 'Reagan…' Amy started. 'S-stop. I-I'm trying really hard here.' I interrupted her with my shaky voice. I smiled a little. 'I know you hate me but I never meant to hurt anyone, I want you to know that. I care way too much about you. The car that almost ran Karma over? Wasn't me. I just heard you talking to each other and took advantage of the situation. I'm sorry for that too…' I took a deep breath and wiped my tears away. Amy got on her knees and grabbed my hand. I looked at her watery eyes. 'Thank… you… This means a lot to me. You deserve better than this. You deserve someone who loves you and only you. I can't give that to you. I don't think I could give that to anyone but Karma.' I nodded carefully. 'And… I don't hate you. I think you just made a really mature decision. ' She said. 'I just want you to be happy, and if that's not with me... I should let you go.' Amy smiled through her tears. Finally she was smiling again. It made me smile too. Amy then hugged me. 'I'm sorry it had to end like this. We both can't stop our feelings.' She said. 'I know. Time to move on.' I said. I hugged her real tight.
After a while we let go of each other. She looked at me as I looked at her. 'I'm gonna miss you, shrimp girl.' I leaned in for our last kiss. Her lips were soft as always. 'I'll miss you too. Don't think I don't care about you anymore, because I do. Maybe we could even become friends.' She said calm as ever. I smiled a little. 'I don't think I can handle that at the moment. But who knows, maybe one day we will be. She hugged me one last time. Then I stood up and walked through the door downstairs and outside. I felt a million pounds lighter.
I will always love Amy. But I know now that we're not meant to be. And hopefully, someday, I will find my own Amy, just like Karma did.
Amy's POV
Knock knock. I slowly opened my eyes. What was that? I looked at the alarm clock. 8 PM. I must've fallen asleep after Reagan left. Knock knock. I heard it again. I sat up in bed and looked behind me. I moved away the curtains and saw someone knocking on my window. I immediately got up and put the lights on. I looked at the window again. No one there. But I swear I just saw and heard someone… I came closer to the window. I slowly opened the window and looked outside. 'Psst' I heard. I looked around me. When I looked to the left I saw someone standing there. It came closer to me. 'Hey babe'. I heard. 'Sorry I woke you up.' The lights were shining on her now. 'Reagan? What the…' I said confused. 'Yeah, missed me?'