Chapter 9 Seeing Past the Darkness

I don't own Naruto, but I do own my left shoe… just not the right one. (I have no idea what that means)

'thoughts'

'Kyuubi talking'

'Another internal entity'

'yet another entity'

It was now 8:00 at night and Hinata has been crying for about 4 hours straight now. 'What should I do what should I do?' She cried to herself 'I just can't pretend it didn't happen, especially if I am pregnant. Naruto-kun is going to kill someone over this, why did it have to happen, I never wanted it.' She continued to cry a while more until the tears no longer came 'I have to tell him, I owe him that, maybe he can forgive me and we can still be together' Gathering up what courage she had she wiped the tears from her face and set out for the cabin for the worst conversation of her life.

Hearing her enter the cabin, Naruto happily came out to greet her. "Hey Hinata-chan, I've missed you." He greeted. Not getting a reply he looked into her eyes and saw the obvious signs of crying. "Hinata-chan, what's wrong? You've been crying, I can tell," he caringly asked.

"I-it's bad Naruto-kun, real b-bad. Y-you should s-sit."

"What could be that bad, no one died did they?"

"N-no Naruto-kun, no one died, but… but I'm no longer a virgin." She told him while tearing up.

"I um, I don't think you can be so hard on yourself. Being 22, you had to run into this at some point, besides everyone thought I was dead. How old were you when it happened, talking about it might help." He offered, clearly not understanding.

Crying even harder now she continued "Y-you d-don't get it. T-this m-morning I s-still was." Naruto couldn't believe his ears, his precious person, whom he loved so dear, lost her virginity the day after he returned. He felt his anger grow as he thought of all the implications.

"So your love for me is all a lie? You used me as an excuse just to cancel your wedding didn't you? What else aren't you telling me? Who was it with? Answer me damn it!"

"I-t was Kiba-kun, he also told me that he smelled that he got me pregnant, but I still love you Naruto-kun."

"YOU'RE PREGNANT TOO!? This is just unbelievable! How could you do this to me?"

"I didn't, I don't know how it happened; it just did." She's now a bawling heap at the blonde's feet.

"I-I-I I just can't take this! I'm leaving, and you just… just stay the hell away from me." Purposely not drawing kyubi chakra (he was really pissed so he may have accidentally drawn on it), as to alert the village, he angrily grabbed his cloak and swords and left the cabin slamming the door while the paled eyed girl wept hard on the floor in his stead.

"Damn it, what did I do to deserve this. I come back after being gone 2 years, get killed, transported to the middle of nowhere just to get here 8 years later to hook up with the girl I love, and she ends up going to another guy a day after I arrive. Why does everything bad happen to me?" Angrily he stomped into the night trying to clear his head.

'Bad stuff happens to strong people, because the weak can't handle it. The stronger you are the worse things get it seems. From what I see you must be the strongest in the world from the pain you've bore.' Came a new voice in his head similar to the kyubi, but different.

'I agree, you have led a rough life, but only you can make it better. Look to your heart for your answers, it has yet to fail you." Came another new voice.

'Who are you guys? And what are you doing in my head?'

'For one I agree with him' sounded the voice of kyubi.

'I am known as Kirikorosu (slay); the spirit of your zanbatou.'

'And I am Tetsuda (help); the spirit of your katana.'

'So when did you guys show up?'

'We have always been here, but your mind was deteriorating so fast that we had to focus on keeping you able to behave like a person. After you returned and got your mind healed, we only had to wait for you to touch the swords again. Like the demon you contain, we have access to memories and thoughts but unlike him we are here to help.'

'Ok how can you help and why are you here now?'

'We can help by giving advice and in fighting. We have been around for many generations and have learned much. In fighting you can activate our purest form by calling out our names and channeling, what you call, chakra into us. We were summoned by your mind to help you with your recent conflict with your lady friend'

'Great, and I was trying to avoid that topic, it just hurts so much.'

'And why does it hurt you so?' asked Tetsuda in a sage like voice

'I feel betrayed, but the worst is that when I think about trying to live my life, everything I imagine doing, she is always by my side. I don't think I can live without her.'

'Well that settles it, if you can't live without her, then don't leave her. She is probably taking it harder than you since she feels bad about betraying you and she feels that you have already left her.'

'Yeah that may be, but obviously she doesn't love me enough to not screw some dog bastard and even get pregnant by him.'

'You're being too hard on her. Think about it, if she wasn't so devastated about it I'd agree, but she was nearly sick from crying about the situation, and she did say that she still loved you.' Naruto thought on that for a moment and sighed in defeat.

'I guess you guys are right, I just can't ignore her because she hurt me. I guess I'll try to fix it some how.' He thought still feeling dejected.

'That a boy, kid, she's too good to you to let go.'

'Hey will you bastards stop this touchy feely bullshit it's giving me a headache!'

'Shut your hole stupid fox, I'm the one in control here, so live with it!'

Kyubi grumbled and kept quiet, knowing he was far outnumbered and arguing would just but too much of a headache. Only about a half hour past before he returned to the cabin to find Hinata still crying on the floor. She was too engrossed in her sorrow to even notice the presence of the intruder. Naruto definitely saw what Kirikorosu was talking about; she was taking it very hard. Obviously this wasn't someone putting on a show for him; she was devastated the she would loose him. Naruto approached the crying girl and grabbed her wrist.

"Come on we're going to Sakura's to see if we can fix this." He told her with a stern voice only for her to jerk her hand away and look at him like he killed her best friend.

"W-what are you saying? If I'm p-pregnant, I'll live with my error, I will have the child. How could you even suggest that as an option, if that is what you think is the solution, then no matter how much I love you, I won't ever be with you?" Hinata, now angry, just glares evilly at him as he sighs in exasperation.

"No, that wasn't what I was saying… I want us to go to Sakura to verify that you are pregnant, and if you are then to ask her what I need to do for you in the future. I just can't simply turn off my love for you even though you did something horribly stupid. From what I heard, Kiba isn't father material, so… I guess… I would treat it as though it was my own. I love you more than anything, and since it would be a piece of you, you can be sure I'll love it as well. I can't imagine living my life without you, so I will never leave you as long as you'll have me, and even if you won't." Hinata's anger dropped into a teary smile, but a smile nonetheless.

"I knew I picked the best person to love all those years ago… I will always love you as well. If you didn't come back, I don't know what I'd possibly do." Hinata stood and went in for a kiss only for him to turn away from it which started her crying again. "Why? Why won't you kiss me? I need to feel that you still love me." She asked still crying

"Hinata-chan, I don't want to kiss you while I am still so angry. I want every kiss we share to be under good terms, ok?" Hinata looked a way for a moment wiping off her face and reluctantly agreed. The two walked out the door and headed into town to find their medic friend.

... Later