I made it back to my house that I shared with the one person that I did not want to see at the moment, why I thought it was such a good idea I have no clue. I stood outside the door for a couple of minutes, reluctant to go inside.

It's kind of funny how I've been doing that a lot recently. Finally, I decided to go inside and face reality no matter how much I didn't want to. When I was fully inside the apartment, I was greeted with the site of Dan unconscious with blood coming from his arms. I ran and slid next to him examining his wounds, and he had cuts on his arms and a razor lying next to him it was obvious this was no accident Dan did this to himself.

My throat constricted when I realized that his was my fault. After the shock was gone, I called 999 and started to cry. I was a horrible best friend Dan was here alone broken and probably hating himself for something he couldn't control, and what was I doing while this was happening you might ask? just fucking some random girl without a care in the world.

Then the ambulance showed up, and they laid him on a stretcher and I got into the ambulance with him, and surprisingly nobody paid attention to it. I asked one of the nurses inside "is he going to live," as in one of those cliche soap operas because I'm pathetic. The nurse looked to be in thought for a moment seemingly trying to think of a nice way to tell me my best friend's going to die.

After a couple of seconds, she said, "well I can't make a professional diagnosis since I'm judging only by looking at him and I'm just a nurse." She said tapping her foot thinking. "But by the looks of things none of the wounds seem an immediate threat however with these kinds of things because he lost so much blood he has to want to live." Then we made it to the hospital, and I was escorted into the waiting room while they attached Dan up to some machines after about a couple of hours of tests and me staring at the clock.

A doctor came with a grim face and said, "Dan should wake up in a couple of hours and if he doesn't then he might never wake up." I nodded not trusting myself to speak with the slightly good news and slightly bad news. "you can see him if you wa-." Before he could finish, I bolted into his room, and I felt my heart break when I saw Dan.

He was pale even paler than me, and he had an IV attached to his arm. Suddenly I started noticing in Dan a different light, how cute he looks with his hobbit hair, how soft his skin is, how peaceful he looks sleeping, and I started feeling a strong urge to protect him from anything that might hurt him even though it's my fault he's here. I started crying again but this time from complete and utter confusion.

Maybe I have always loved Dan, but what if it's just family love plus guiltiness"? I've never felt like this towards any other family or friends, but I'm straight. Maybe I'm not, I had no problem sleeping with

A/N: Hey guys this is the next chapter as you can see a lot happened the question is who do you sympathize with and why also tell me what you think of it so far and should I continue writing it? Thats all for now see you next time

Sophia. Since I got so absorbed thinking, I didn't even notice when Dan finally woke up, but I guess Dan didn't want me to notice either because he was making an effort not to move and be as silent as possible. That plan crashed and burned when in an attempt to get comfortable he moved, and the bed creaked faintly. I tackled him sobbing and repeatedly telling him I was sorry while he stood there as stiff as a board. Then I whispered in his ear "I think I might love you too." I could almost sense his smile and then he slammed his lips into mine, and it was truly one of the best kisses I ever had it was messy and rough and just pent up emotion.

The next couple of weeks were probably some of the best weeks of my life. I decided not to label my sexuality or what Dan and I are because it's complicated, but all that matters was that we were both happy.

That is until I got a call from an unknown number "Hello," I said.

"Hi this is Sophia since you never called back I thought I would call you," she said.

"What do you want," I said annoyed because she woke me up.

"will you meet me at the Starbucks on Maple Street?" I looked at Dan who was sleeping beside me with his face shoved in his pillow and hair sticking up everywhere, before saying okay. Carefully so I don't wake Dan up I got out of bed got ready and left towards Starbucks. I was about half way there when I stopped and thought what was I doing, and I have the love of my life adorably snuggled into my bed and yet I'm out here meeting some girl I slept with once, and for what? But for some reason I kept going.

When I got there, I looked around until I spotted Sophia sitting in a booth in the corner. I sat down across from her and said, "alright, I'm here what do you want."

she sighed "listen I know you don't want to be here because you never called me and I am okay with that, I mean you were good like really good." She sighed taking in a shaky breath I could tell she was nervous. "but you know it was just a one night stand, but I went to the doctors for just a basic check up, and they told me I was pregnant." My world came crashing down these past couple of weeks were the best of my life, and now this stupid girl has to come and ruin it.

"are you sure it's mine?" I asked begging here to tell me she's not sure.

But instead a single tear rolls down her face, and she said, "Yeah I haven't slept with someone other than you in a couple of months."

"So what do you want to do with it," I said gesturing to her stomach.

She touched her stomach "I'm deeply sorry, but I'm not getting rid of it, it's already starting to grow on me."

I nod "so how would you like me in this situation."

She looked me dead in the eye and said, "I expect you to be active in this child's life."

"Of course, I thought, I couldn't' get out that easily.

Then she said barely audible we could get married. I looked up at her again to see if she's serious. To be honest the thought doesn't sound to unappealing, I have always wanted a real family and Dan makes it clear that he never wants children I thought spitefully.