I shifted my weight from foot to foot while I lightly knocked on Dan's door. Finally after a longer then normal time I heard him weakly say "come in." I opened the door and sat down on the edge of the bed opposite from him because I'm scared to sit closer in case I upset him which would be understandable. I looked down at my hands so I didn't have to look at him because I was scared for when I have to tell him about where I've been what we talked about you and who it was with.
"you weren't here when I woke up," he said.
I sighed "yea I know and I'm so"
"HOW COULD YOU CHEAT ON MY LIKE THAT WE HAVEN'T EVEN BEEN DATING FOR A MONTH YET," he said interrupting me.
"How dare you accuse me of cheating I said coldly." I can't believe he would think so low of me as to cheat on him.
"Where have you been then," he said a little more calmly although you could still here the bitter tone in it since he didn't quite believe me.
"I was getting coffee with a friend," I replied indifferently.
"Oh really and what were you guys talking about?" he asked.
I guess this is it I have to tell him. "Before we started dating I hooked up with this girl her names Emily, and today she asked me to meet her for coffee as friends I might add" I ignored the fact that I wasn't thinking about going as just friends when I went. "Basically she asked me to come to tell me she was pregnant with my baby and we decided together that we didn't want the baby growing up in a broken home so we decided that we will date for a year and then get married besides she seems like a lovely girl I could probably end up loving her if I tried."
That's when Dan broke out into sobs it was heart ranching and I felt bad because I was the cause of it. So I did the only logical thing to do, I hugged him and said it's okay over and over again. I did that until he ripped himself out of my embrace and yelled "no it's not okay, I had a crush on you for however many years, and after so much crying and hating of myself you came and told me that you liked me too and I was so happy that last few weeks felt like heaven on earth, and now it's coming back down. I knew you couldn't actually care. Who would actually care about me, I'm ugly, and boring, and annoying, even I hate myself. I felt so horrible I mean how could I do that to him he didn't deserve this. None of it is his fault and if I could I would spend every minute with him but I made a mistake and now I have to own up to it.
however that doesn't mean I can't help him right now. I look him dead in the eye and said "stop, you are amazing the way you are and you might not be able to see it but I can."
He rolled his eyes "yet you still broke up with me." Dan... I pleaded him to stop but he continues anyways. "I mean just look at me I understand why you wouldn't want to date me."
I had enough of him talking so poorly to himself so I did the only thing I could think of to shut him up, I kissed him. It started as a sweet innocent kiss but then it started to become heated and in the back of my head I knew I shouldn't be doing this because I'm technically taking advantage of him considering I'm suppose to be moving in with Emily tomorrow and this will make moving it a lot harder for Dan, but I guess I'm selfish because even that didn't stop me from kissing back and it ended with us making love for the first time together and it was as incredible as I imagined it would be. Afterwards I slowly drifted off to sleep not thinking about the side affects this would cause for him.
I woke up the next morning to my phone buzzing I checked and saw it was Emily texting me the text read hey tell me when you're done packing and I'll come pick you up. I started crying because I probably just fucked Dan up even more then he already was and it's because I'm stupid and selfish and want to keep him as mine even though I have to own up to my responsibly. I look over to my right and see Dan there sleeping peacefully, I kiss his forehead and gently so as not to wake him got out of the bed and started to pack everything up as fast as I could so that way I didn't have to look at Dan's face when I left. It would just be to hard for me, I guess I'm a coward and selfish. I saw Dan gently move so I hurriedly finished and texted Emily while leaving and slamming the door behind me I felt slightly guilty knowing that me slamming the door probably woke Dan up. Luckily I won't be there to see the after math I created as I waited out on the stairs for Emily to pick me up.
A/N: hey guys sorry it's shorter then normal I just started school today and I felt like this was a good place to leave it off anyways and poor Dan he's not gonna know what happened in the morning.