Whispy disaperated and I was left to great my former arch enemy on my own.
I was about to knock when I heard voices inside the room. I looked around and found myself alone in the hallway. I decided to listen and pressed my ear closer to the door. I recognized the voices immediately. Bellatrix lestrange and lord Voldemort were in a very heated conversation about me. It's seemed that neither was really sure what to do with me.
"do you really believe we can trust her, my lord."
"from what I have seen she is being completely honest. She really does wish to join us and end Dumbledores rule. She seemed to hold back something from me, but it seemed insignificant. I don't know yet, how exactly to deal with her. Potter is known for her defiance and I will not tolerate such behavior, but having her on our side would be a hug asset." So he had caught my shield. Well, at least he seemed to trust me.
"you will be able to control her my lord. Would you like me to speak with her? I can Let her know what is expected of her? I am curious to talk to her."
"perhaps Bella. I am speaking with her in a few moments. I have sent a house elf for her." Suddenly there was a hand on my shoulder. I barely suppressed a screech of fright and looked up to see who had caught me. None other then Lucius malfoy was standing above me glaring down.
"Not off to a very good start are we potter? Snooping in on the dark lords private conversations." He said this with a sneer. Crap, I had been caught. This was not good. Lucius kept a firm grip on my shoulder and knocked on the study door. A hiss like 'enter' Came from the room. Lucius opened the door and practically shoved me inside.
"Ah Lucius, I see you've brought potter."
"I caught her snooping at the door, my lord."
"is that true potter?" I fumbled over my words out of fear.
"I..uh.. I... yes." I finally admitted. Better to tell the truth then lie. Voldemort stared at me with a curious look for a moment before he spoke.
"thank you Lucius, you are dismissed. As are you, Bella." Both death eaters exited the room silently. I heard the door close behind me, but I didn't look up.
"So you decided that snooping at my door would be a wise choice given your situation?" I chose not to respond.
"how long were you at the door?"
"Only a moment." I replied hastily. I kept my head down the entire time
"Well, know from here on out any snooping around will get you into more trouble then you care to be in." I couldn't believe my luck. I was not going to be punished. Not only that, he had just made it clear that there would be more days to come. I nodded my head not speaking.
" You intrigue me aunalay. Up until last night I believed you would never betray your friends. There seemed no other option than to kill you since you were adamant about supporting Dumbledore and the light. We both know I have even offered you the chance to join me, which you refused. Yet, suddenly you show up on my doorstep asking to join me."
"Things have changed. Dumbledore is no longer the man he once was. I have changed as well."
"perhaps it simply took you this long to see the man Dumbledore has always been. Anyhow, in reference to you having changed, time will tell exactly how much you've changed won't it potter? I highly doubt you will be injuring anyone from the light any time soon. We will work up toward fighting for your new side. From what I saw you have definitely made up your mind about joining me. I am curious aunalay, what were you hiding from me last night? Your occlemency skills have drastically improved and I noticed a few walls up. I thought it best not to pry last night, but I would like to know."
Crap he had noticed my blocks. I figured he would, but had hoped he wouldn't care. He had not gone too deep into my memory or perhaps I would have blocked that off, too. I didn't need him seeing me calling him some of the names I had. I had had to block of a recent memory from last night that had haunted my dreams last night and would probably haunt me forever. It was embarrassing and painful and Voldemort was not going to let the topic drop until he saw it.
"it was nothing." I lied. Probably not the best move.
"If it was nothing then why keep it from me? You have never been a good lier girl." I could feel him casually poking around in my head, hoping I would be caught unawares.
"It's...it's rather personal." I stated, never meeting his eyes.
"That doesn't change anything. All of the other memories surrounding last night involved your decision to come to me. I have a feeling this one does, as well. Tell me, potter, are you hiding something? Are you truly not confident about your decision?" This time I did look up.
"of course not. I'm not that foolish. I don't want anything to do with the light anymore."
"Prove it." Voldemort practically hissed this piece out. I knew what he meant. I felt him in my head again. I sighed in defeat. If I wanted he to trust me I would have to let him have what he wanted. I slowly brought my shield down and let Voldemort in. I was brought back to the previous night. I was on the edge of camp. Sirius and Lupin had seen me leaving(in my story Sirius is still alive). Sirius came right up to me. He had a look empty of any emotion as he spoke. He told me I meant nothing to him. He said I was abandoning my heritage, that my parents would be ashamed of me. The last thing he said was what hurt the most. The last words that Sirius black said to me were "you are no goddaughter of mine." That sentence stung worse then any crusiatus curse ever could and I could feel myself flinch as I watched the memory. Sirius walked away and I turned to leave when Lupin yelled to me to stop and think about what I was doing. I had told him I had already thought about it. He continued to persist and I told him to give it up. I also told him not to follow me. He stated very firmly that he would not let me go since he had promised James he would protect me always. I had turned around and begun to leave. When he had told me he would not leave me alone I had fired a spell behind me believing it wouldn't hit him. Apparently he had moved. I heard I cry of pain behind me and turned to see mad eye running toward him. I couldn't move. Lupin was on the ground bleeding. I stuttered out something like, what did I do. Mad eye said I had cast the sectemsephra curse that he luckily blocked enough so that it would not kill Lupin. I had never meant to cast more then a disarming charm, but had been so distraught it had apparently come out worse. I turned and ran, never looking back.