AN: This goes back a bit and is Donna's POV
So sorry for the long wait.
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Donna heard the TARDIS. After traveling for so long and speaking to her directly as often as she did Donna knew her voice as well as her own mothers. But this time was different. It was like the TARDIS was trying to say something with actually words in place of the feelings and vagueness of their usual communication. She thought she was getting an idea of what the ship was trying to say when the Doctor grabbed her shoulders. Then even though she hadn't paid any attention to what he had been saying she knew what was happening. They were going to their death. Part of her knew that. But another part rebelled. It wasn't like she was scared to die here with her friends and the man she loved but that there was something else. It was almost like with that bug thing. There was just something off about all this.
Then as Lee left the TARDIS she heard the sound again. It was a sound, but not a normal TARDIS noise. More like a heart beat, but it had meaning. She just knew it did.
The Doctor once again broke her concentration almost as she was deciphering the message. The beat was almost like Morse Code but not, more complex. Her temp brain was good at working out puzzles. But she would just have to work on this one latter. She decided headed for the door.
Just then the door shut. She rushed it and demanded the Doctor let her out. She wasn't some damsel to be rescued she'd the one that does the saving. She heard the dalek claim that this was time lord trickery and then she was falling.
As they fell and the TARDIS was getting damaged she heard the 'voice' again. This time there was an urgency to it. Donna just knew if she didn't listen she would die. She finally deciphered it.
"...The DoctorDonna. Forge the DoctorDonna. Forge the DoctorDonna." It repeated over and over. Donna looked to the hand thinking of the songs of the Ood and how beautiful they had been. She stared at the disembodied hand. It was glowing lightly again and then she knew what to do. Donna touched the hand.
She was a bit shocked when the thing broke and a whole new Doctor formed. A very naked Doctor at that. Yep all bones and sharp edges just like I thought.
As he dressed and the 2 of them spoke Donna actually began to wonder if she really was more than just a temp. If her restlessness was more.
There was something happening with the planets. It was like they were all glowing with the same energy the Doctor had when he was regenerating. But this was cold and silver and very unnatural. The Doctor tried to explain it but Donna didn't get a word of it. She did understand that whatever it was doing was being caused by the daleks and it was very, very bad. But he was working on some kind of ray thing that would stop it.
Donna shook her head. Something about all this wasn't right. This new Doctor, this plan. It just wasn't right. It wasn't... the Doctor. She looked at him really looked. This man might look like the Doctor and talk like the Doctor but he was talking about killing. The REAL Doctor never did that. He never wanted to kill. Yeah it happened but death was a part of life. That doesn't mean killing had to be your fist choice. No if this was the real Doctor he'd be coming up with a thousand other plans firing them off one after another at break neck speeds trying to find one where there was a chance that everyone could walk away peacefully.
This new man honestly scared her. She wouldn't be letting him out of her sights any time soon. It wasn't long before he had the thing created and was piloting the TARDIS onto the Crucible. The nutter rushed out the door and got himself shot. Donna didn't know what to do. She had to do something though. She looked at the ray gun thing laying there on the floor and raced to it. Just as she grabbed it she was hit and thrown back.
Donna lay there in shock. Her brain was suddenly filled to the brim. It was like she had downloaded the whole bloody internet into her head. No not the internet the Doctor. This must be what he sees and feels all the time. It was surreal. She had to sit and just blink for several heart beats. It was like looking through a kaleidoscope. Colors, shapes, timelines all turning about around her. She was surprised her space man wasn't more batty if this was what his head was always like.
All at once she knew what to do. She knew how to help the others and set them free. She was right, there were thousands, millions of other ways to get out of this situation. Donna eyed the new Doctor. Seeing inside the Doctor's mind this copy was like when the Zerrox machine was out of toner, he was half formed and missing pieces. Pieces her human DNA was trying to fill but couldn't. There in his head she also saw what happens when time lords regenerate during a battle. The battle strategy and rage warp their minds so they are no longer the peace loving protectors but become the ones trying to conquer the universe.
There was no time to think on that at the moment. Donna refocused to find that while her mind was wondering her body had been following the plan. She gave a chuckle and hit the button shutting down the reality cannon. The Real Doctor was a hilarious mix of shocked, amazed and confused.
"D...D..." She turned to Lee and saw him trapped. Her eyes went soft as she released them.
"Kiss you later love. I have a universe to save first." She told him with a grin.
Lee deflated beyond revealed that she was alright. He walked over and placed his arms around her waist molding himself to her back while not impeding her movements. "L...L...Love y..you." He said with a kiss to the junction of her neck and shoulder. Donna seemed different, like the Doctor bits she'd gained had somehow changed her but she still leaned back into him resting her weight on Lee and trusting him to keep her up and steady.
"I… love you too." Donna blinked. She had a hard time saying those words. But it was true she did love Lee more than anyone save her Granddad. It must be the Doctor in her head. Yeah she could see it now. All the people he'd lost over the years. Barbra, Ian, Brigadier, Izzy, Jamie, the list just seems to go on. She all but choked leaning more into Lee as the faces and names of his family from Gallifrey so many dead and so many more lost. He was scared to go and see them fearing that since death follows him it would find them and they would join his list of dead loved ones.
While all that was going on in her head she was talking near nonstop. Telling them all the things she was doing and tidbits and jovial ideas that popped into her head. "God I sound like you." She finally said after a long string of verbal diarrhea. "I'm all timey wimey, it goes ding when there's stuff, is that who I'm gonna be now?" She joked while making the daleks spin about in circles.
'I could slap him good.' Donna thought as the other Doctor, that crap copy, decided to blow the daleks up. There were quite a few glares headed his way when he pulled that, not just hers.
Watching the Doctor explain what had happened was like watching him do anything else. Half amusing then equal parts amazing and confusing with at least a dash too much ego. She chuckled kissing Lee. At least this time she could understand what was going on.
The couple stayed in each others arms as they piloted the Tardis. Donna felt her heart break as the real Doctor's eyes lingered on Rose. She didn't need a time lord brain to know what was going to happen, and glancing over, the copy knew it too.
"I don't think Rose will settle for a cheap knock off when she's had a Louis Vuitton." Donna whispered to Lee.
Lee looked at her. "N... n... neither w... will I." he replied into her neck. This Donna had a sharp coldness about her that wasn't the woman he fell in love with.
She looked at him sadly. "Don't worry it will be alright." she said kissing his cheek
Lee didn't need to tell her she was a worse liar than the Doctor. So instead he just captured her lips trying to convey his love and fear in that one action.
Watching as the others was heartbreaking for the both of them but they held their tongues. Neither needed a Time Lord mind to see how bad he was hurting and they both now knew he would rather have their silent support and empty words of comfort.
Everything seemed to be fine. Donna started spouting off places they could go and things to explore when all the sudden she started to stammer and hold her head. "My God that hurts." She says
"Do you know what's happening?" The Doctor asks walking toward her slowly.
"Yeah." She gasps out.
"There's never been a human Time Lord metacrisis before now. And you know why?" he asks
Lee moves closer not liking the tone of his voice.
"Because there can't be. I want to stay." She replies
The Doctor looks sad. "Look at me. Donna, look at me."
"I was going to be with you forever." Donna tells him sobbing now.
"I know." HE says with a finality that farther frightens Lee.
"The rest of our life, traveling in the Tardis. The Doctor Donna with Lee at our side. No. Oh my god. I can't go back. Don't make me go back. Doctor, please, please don't make me go back." She begged
He looked close to tear as he apologized. "Donna. Oh, Donna Noble. I am so sorry. But we had the best of times." He paused as she pleaded. "The best. Goodbye."
"No, no, no. Please. Please. No. No." She says as he places his hands on her head.
Lee doesn't know what is going on but he grabs the Doctor and pulls his hand free. "If you l..l...love her y.. you... you'll re...re... respect her ch.. ch... choices."
"She'll die." he argued.
"I'd r...rather she d...die happy." He said tears in his eyes but standing firm.
"I won't let you kill her." The Doctor told Lee stepping forward to move the other man.
"I t... trust her." He replied not being swayed by the Time Lord.
Before more could come of their argument Donna gasped and fell to her knees golden glow about her.
"Dam it's too late. See what you've done. I can't save her now." He says looking away as they both kneel beside her.
"Stupid space man," She says pained. "I don't need saving." With that golden energy explodes around her.
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AN: I thought of stopping here. But I wasn't that cruel.
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They both had to look away as the light near blinded them. When it calmed both men let out a sob in mourning for Donna.
"Quit your sniffling. I want to go see my Mum." Donna said smacking both their heads.
They looked at her in shock. "How?" The Doctor asked scanning her with his sonic.
"All I needed was a viable genetic receptacle to dump the information in. Good thing you fancy having girls about." She joked.
"Genetic... receptacle?" The Doctor said his sonic responding to her abdomen. "You... your... my..." He turned bright red.
Donna laughed. "Time Lord segregate." She said with a wide cheeky grin.
"I baby... how could... You're pregnant with a baby. My baby?" He said in question.
"I think Uncle Doctor is much more appropriate. Come on then we have to tell Mum then I'll have to talk to Sexy about baby proofing this place." She pointed a finger at him when he opened his mouth to protest. "Don't go acting all noble on me. I am not ill and it will be months before I need to take a break. Plus most of your knowledge might be gone but I've kept some. I know the time energy from traveling is good for little Time Lords." She said with a finality.
Lee wasn't sure what to make of all this. Her carrying the Doctor's genetic child was better than dieing he supposed. The Doctor only came out of his stupor when the Tardis began to move.
"How did you? How much is left?" He asked
"Very little. Only what I committed to memory while we were fused. The driving is mostly Sexy's doing."
"Sexy?" Lee asked
Donna laughed. "It's what he calls her so she's taken it as her name."
The doctor blushed as Lee chuckled as well.
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AN: Yeah. So that's how Donna kept her memory of the Doctor.
I plan to add more to this but I have no clue when.