Firstly, Thank you so much for all of your lovely reviews, I'm glad you all enjoyed the first bit. I'm not convinced by this second bit (it's a little bit confused and higgledy-piggledy,) but hopefully you'll enjoy it! I know where I'm going with this, but I seem to jumping around a bit before I get there!!

Song is "Complicated" by Carolyn Dawn Johnson. I don't own that, or anything related to JAG. (although I repeat my wish for DJE!)

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Mac's Apartment, the same evening

"Do you love him Mac?" Harriet repeated nervously as Mac reclaimed her seat and reached for the bag of Peanut Butter M&Ms from the table (AN: those things are just the best chocolate that you guys have over there, I wish they sold them here!!) Mac looked Harriet in the eye and sighed.

"Yes" she admitted quietly, looking quickly back down at the floor, "but Harriet, please, you can't tell anyone, not even Bud. There's too much going on right now, and I don't want to deal with Harm at the moment." Harriet looked at her calmly, accepting her friends request without thinking.

"Well I'm here if you need to talk or think out loud or something, I'm always on the end of the phone." She said, reaching out for the pile of dvds that sat on the table in front of her. "So what'll it be?! The Lake House, or Two Weeks Notice?" Mac offered her a grateful smile, replying

"The Lake House, we've already had a Hugh Grant film tonight!"

That night, after Harriet had returned home to Bud and baby AJ, Mac climbed into bed, and flicked on the radio, knowing tonight, like the last couple, she would have trouble sleeping. She had found that music helped to slow, or at least drown out the thoughts that were continuously racing through her head. She wasn't mad at Harm for leaving her out in the rain to comfort Renee. She knew she should be, but something inside her told her that they were going to be ok, that their friendship was still intact. The two phone calls she had already received from Harm showed her that. But what as for what she had admitted earlier to Harriet, she had no idea. No idea what to think, what do, or what to say.

Flashback

"Come to me."

"Why?"

"You know why."

He was just trying to be my friend, trying to support me like best friends do she told herself, rolling over and punching the pillow on the other side of her bed, trying to focus on the music as she did so. Lying there in the darkness, she let her mind wander, unconsciously focusing on the lyrics of the song on the radio.

I'm so scared that the way that I feel is written all over my face

When you walk into the room I wanna find a hiding place.

We used to laugh, we used to hug, the way that old friends do.

But now a smile and the touch of your hand just makes me come unglued.

It's such a contradiction

Do I lie or tell the truth?

Is it fact or fiction?

Oh, the way I feel for you.

It's so complicated

I'm so frustrated,

I wanna hold you close, I wanna push you away,

I wanna make you go, I wanna make you stay.

Should I say it?

Should I tell you how I feel?

Oh, I want you to know, but then again I don't,

It's so complicated.

Mac sighed, and rolled over again, that summed them up so perfectly. Always something in the way, unnecessary complications, fear, uncertainty. As she listened to the rest of the song, a couple of tears slipped down her face. It was almost as if the song was writing her and Harm's relationship to music. It was at that point she realized that she had found her song for the fundraiser.

JAG Headquarters, 0855 Monday

Harm stood looking up at the building in front of him, a look of trepidation marring his handsome face. He was a little nervous. A lot had happened since the last time he had been in there, the day he had left to do his quals before Mac's wedding: Mac had called off her wedding, he'd almost died, he and Mac had almost had a chance to discuss the issues that they had been skirting around for the last 4 years, the whole business with Renee.

"Are you planning on standing there all day Squid?!" Mac's teasing

voice came from behind him. He turned slightly, and saw a grinning marine Colonel looking at him while clutching a cup of coffee and a Danish pastry. He grinned back, a slightly nervous version of the flyboy smile that Mac loved so much.

"Just trying to prepare myself for the state of my inbox!" he replied, looking down at the pastry with a slight look of disgust. He and Mac bickered so often about their differing eating habits that Mac correctly interpreted his look, and took a bite out of the pastry, making an exaggerated show of enjoying it,

"Want some flyboy?!" she asked teasingly.

"No thanks ninja girl, I like my arteries unclogged thanks!" he

replied, winking at her.

"You don't know what you're missing!" Mac said, "Anyway, we should get

in there - staff meeting with the Admiral at 0900."

"Colonel Mackenzie and Commander Rabb reporting as ordered sir!" Tiner

said, as they followed him into the Admiral's office, standing to attention in front of his desk.

"Thank you Tiner, that will be all." The Admiral replied, "at ease Commander, Colonel." Harm and Mac relaxed their poses slightly, and were surprised when the Admiral got up and walked around his desk, "Good to have you back Commander" he said reaching out his hand to shake Harm's.

"Thank you sir, its good to be back!" Harm replied

"Now Commander, you have enough paper work to keep you busy until Christmas, so I won't add any cases to your pile just yet!" The Admiral said with a smile, "Colonel, you're due in court this morning am I right?"

"Yes sir" Mac replied, opening her mouth to say something more, when there was a knock at the door. Both her and Harm jumped to their feet, preparing to come to attention/be dismissed so that the Admiral could deal with his visitor.

"At ease, both of you, I wanted you here for this." He said, calmly, before raising his voice and calling "Enter!"

A handsome African-American man in Navy dress whites came into the room,

"Commander (? I don't know what rank Sturgis is) Turner reporting for duty sir!" he said, standing to attention and saluting the Admiral.

"At ease Commander!" the Admiral repeated, sneaking a glance at Harm, who looked suitably shocked.

"Sturgis!" he exclaimed, "what the hell are you doing here buddy!"

"I've been assigned here, I'm afraid you're stuck with me!" Sturgis replied. Mac looked at him in interest, so this was Sturgis she thought. She'd heard so much about him from Harm, it was nice to finally put a face to the name.

"Commander Turner, obviously you know Commander Rabb. This is Colonel Mackenzie, the Commander's partner." Admiral Chegwidden intoned, interrupting Macs thought.

"A pleasure to meet you Commander." Mac replied with a smile, offering Sturgis her hand.

"Likewise Colonel. I look forward to working with you" Sturgis replied.

"Well Commander, I'll leave the Commander and the Colonel to show you around" said Chegwidden, "dismissed!" The three officers came to attention, turned and left theor CO's office.

"It's a pleasure to finally meet you Sturgis, your name has come up in conversation repeatedly!" Mac said, winking at Harm, "But I'm afraid I'm due in court." She smiled, and headed towards her office before turning and sending a cheeky smile Harm's way, "enjoy your paperwork squid! Don't strain your brain while you're at it!"

"Very funny Jarhead!" Harm replied, glancing quickly around the bullpen before poking his tongue out at her. Mac rolled her eyes and imitated his gesture and carrying on her way. Sturgis just stood there, watching their exchange with a kind of bemused amusement. He would have to remember to quiz Harm about their relationship at a later date.

Well?? All reviews are appreciated! (good or bad, I like to know what you guys think!!!)