The next day, Emily walked into school feeling confused. Alison had kissed her again the previous day and she still had no idea what it meant. As she walked down the corridor, she saw Alison leaning up against her locker with Noel Kahn leaning awfully close to her. He leaned in and they kissed, Alison giggling as they did. Emily stopped and looked at them for a while. Something inside of her shattered. Her eyes instantly started welling up and before she knew it, she was streaming with tears. Nearly tripping over her own feet, she ran and headed for the library.
Emily slumped down onto a bookshelf in the library. She buried her head into her hands and started crying. She wasn't really sure why she was crying. Confusion? Identity? Jealousy? Love? Whatever it was, she didn't like how it felt.
"Why" she muttered to herself "What is happening to me. Who am I?" Her face was soaking wet with her tears and so were most of her clothes. Suddenly, she heard a book drop from a few rows behind. She immediately wiped her tears and got onto her knees.
"Hello?"
Alison emerged from the bookshelf. Seeing her, Emily breathed a sigh of relief and sits back down.
"Hey" Alison said softly "I saw you ran off in the back then. Is everything okay?" Emily's eyes instantly filled with tears again.
"No" she whispered softly "Everything is not okay"
"Do you wanna talk about it?"
"I don't even know what it is. I don;t know..who I am anymore"
"What do you mean?"
"W-when I first came here, I liked boys and now...now I don't know"
"You don't know?"
"Ali...my first kiss..was with a girl. More specifically, with you"
Alison gulped
"I-I know"
"And ever since then, I've been so confused..with...with myself"
"What do you mean?"
"I mean I think...I think I..."
"You think you what?"
"I think...I think I like you"
"Well of course you like me Em, I'm your friend"
"No I mean I..I like you. I think I might even...love you"
They both stopped talking for all of 6 seconds.
"Emily Fields used the L word?" gasped Alison in shock
"Stop it! Stop making this harder than it already is..."
"Well I'm just a bit confused, that's all"
"No your not. Your never confused. Your Alison Dilaurentis"
Alison slipped her arm around Emily's back.
"Well, even Alison Dilaurentis gets confused sometimes"
"Well I find that hard to believe. Your life is perfect...everything you do is perfect...you are perfect"
"Exactly"
"Exactly what?"
"If I do something or feel something that is not perfect, then I get judged. It-it isn't so easy for me to change who I am. But, it's easy for you."
"Easy for me? What part about this is easy? Nothing is easy anymore. I don't even know what easy means.."
"Look Em if you need anything..."
"Shouldn't you be getting back to Noel?"
Alison stopped talking. She dropped her hand from Emily's back and stared at her.
"What do you mean?" she finally said
"I mean shouldn't you be talking to Noel. I mean, he is your boyfriend"
"Why are you being so agitated by Noel?"
"I am not getting agitated, I am just saying that he should be the one that you are sweet talking and putting your arm around and..."
"Are you jealous?"
Emily gulped.
"I don't know" she shouted a little angrily "I don't...even...know...anymore"
Emily burst into tears again and Alison put her arm around her back.
"Call me if you need anything ok?" Alison smiled. She picked up her bags and headed out of the library.