I dreamt this chapter last night so had to get it out.
I got a comment on another story about Callie shouldn't take Arizona back because she's a cheater. I'm going to touch on that in this story at some point.
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18 hours after walking out of Callie's house, Arizona was pulling up out the front of a hotel in Sacramento, she was tired, physically and emotionally, and the entire drive consisted of thoughts of her future, her work and her family. So far she has decided that she needs to slow down a bit, she can't keep up with the lifestyle she has created for herself at the moment. Working 12 to 14 hour days then going to the club, with or without Richard, maybe meeting someone then going to their place and then only making it home with enough time to sleep an hour or so then go to work.
She knows she needs a release of sorts, no one has touched her since Callie, since their last night together. Yes she goes home with women but she's the only one doing the touching, driving the women wild, giving them orgasm after orgasm until they pass out, sure there's the occasional boob action, she might even grind herself against the other persons thigh until she cums but her pants never come off. While pondering on that she made her way to reception, checking into her room and laid down on the bed, she knew one of the reasons it never went further for her was the Callie thing, but a part of her, the insecure part of her knew that the reason is her leg. No one would want her if they knew she was disabled, so on the nights she's out she wears long pants, when she goes on dates she doesn't mention it, like she doesn't mention Sofia or the fact she's divorced, she knows she's never going to see the other woman again so why go into so much detail. She knows she's being a player, but no one has given her even a hint of the spark she felt with Callie, she knows she'll never find the full on explosion she had in Joe's dirty bathroom but even just a hint, a tiny little electric current, if she feels that with someone else, she might possibly have a change of growing old with someone.
After having a shower, she jumped into bed and pulled her tablet out, she may on holidays but she still has emails she has to look over. There were a few emails from obstetricians around the country, asking her to have a look at their mothers, a couple from an emergency board meeting that was called this afternoon, a few from patients thanking her for her work but the one that caught her eye had a subject heading of RoboZona, the email was full of attachments and she made her way through every single one. From research information to trial data then went on to videos of Callie and Derek working hard, arguing over little things and brainstorming over harder ones, she teared up seeing him again, seeing him and her ex-wife's banter, how happy they were when the sensors and the legs connected for the first time. There were videos after videos of patients during surgery, recovery and when healed, she saw videos of people playing soccer, running a marathon, even just jumping but the one that got her the most was a candid video, the army vet didn't know his wife was recording and their son hit him with a stick in the back of the robo leg like a sword, and the father felt it, he didn't know his son was there, didn't know he was going to hit him but he felt it and looked down. It took a split second for him to realise he wouldn't have normally and the look of joy and amazement and the smile and hug he gave his son was something Arizona longed to feel and filled her full of hope.
5 hours later she was sitting on the bed, tears running down her face and a hope filled chest she looked at the clock, she had missed Sofias bed time. It was 1 am but she needed to talk to someone, dialing the first number to pop into her head she waited for it to connect
"Hello" a groggy, but sexy, voice on the other end answered, that voice that she used to wake up to every morning, that voice that would start hours of love making, that voice that told her she loved her for the first time
"I want it" was the only thing she could say, probably sounding a lot more aroused than she meant to
"Um… what?" a pause, phone probably being moved away to see who was calling "Arizona?"
"Yea, the leg, the robotic one, I want it" she laughed at the oh that was answered "I know I just got this new prosthetic yesterday but a man felt something Calliope, he felt his son, I want that, I want Sofia to run into my leg and me actually feel it, not just the added pressure, not the socket moving a little, I want to feel where about on my leg she touched" she cried even harder. Sofia's first steps were into her legs, she walked from her Mami's arms and walked 4 steps before falling into Arizona's lap, her tiny hands wrapping around her leg
"Hey, don't cry, we'll book you in to see if you meet the criteria when you get back, but make sure your 100% certain on this because I know you will meet it" she sounded so confident but a little guilty, Arizona couldn't help but ask why "because um… I made the first draft based on you and your leg. It was something I wanted to do for you, I know it wouldn't actually bring your leg back and wouldn't be able to take back what I did but I thought if I could even give you a tiny percent of something similar, that maybe you'd forgive me for making the call in the first place" she sounded so small and defeated
"Oh Calliope" she whispered, she could feel all the hurt coming from Callie in that moment "I forgave you for that, so long ago. I know we haven't really talked about it, and maybe at 1 am over the phone isn't the best time but just know that I've forgiven you for that. I know everything that came from it, everything that I did after the crash, the ending of our marriage was my fault but you saved my life by making that call and after a lot of time talking to Dr Mason, I got rid of the anger at you and realised your call saved me. So really, thank you Calliope for saving my life" there was a pause, both women crying, thinking over that time, thinking about everything that happened.
"Oh Ari" the relief she heard in the brunettes voice, she could hear the change, 4 years after the first blame took place, she finally believed she was forgiven and what she did was the right thing to do
"Anyway, it's late, I just needed to tell you that I'm in. Goodnight Calliope" she whispered, hearing a quick goodnight back she hung up, curling into a ball before falling into a deep sleep, dried tears on her face.