Hey everyone! Sorry it took me so long to update, I've had so many assignments due the last few weeks it's been crazy. Also I've got some due in the next couple of weeks so I'll update when I can but might now be as much. Don't think I've forgotten about it because I haven't just busy :)

So to say sorry and hold you over a little, heres 2,500 words of Calzona.

Enjoy

Callie stared at her phone, unsure of what to do. Arizona's phone call came out of nowhere, she wasn't expecting it at all. Everything she had said had come at a shock, then the question at the end, she was about to answer when everyone's pages went off, a bus had crashed into a local mall and there was nearly 100 people about to come through the emergency room doors. She told the blonde she had to go but to let her think about it, how her heart and mind would answer 2 different things and she'd want to give her a proper answer so give her time and she'll have a decent think and would get back to her.

That was nearly 2 days ago, she had worked a 27 hour shift, Sofia had stayed at Meredith's with the sitter, and she had just woken up after only a 10 hour nap in one of the on call rooms. So now in the quiet of her home she had time to think.

Did she want Arizona back? That's the main question and while she knows she'll always be in love with her she's not sure if she wants to risk it again. She was a broken shell of herself when they divorced and knowing that Arizona had the power to cause that, to hold that power over her, it's frightening.

But what she had said about growing into themselves, loving who they are now, succeeding in their careers and being happy in their lives, it hit something inside. It made her think that maybe things will be different, different from when they first got together, different from when they got married, different from after the plane crash and different from the cheating. Maybe now they can be who they truly are, their professional lives are succeeding and full of happiness, their motherhood lives are the best ever, they are both so proud of Sofia, she's top of her class, loving her dance, understands how she has to spend time at the sitters or at the hospital day care and she's made friends wherever she goes. Callie is generally happy in her personal life, she finds time to do the things she needs too and has even managed to read a few books over the last couple of years. She's happy with Penny but she knows there should be more, she sometimes feels like she's just settling, She's content and that's not a way she ever saw herself to be, she's always been for the all in love, not this everyday general love. She's been told in the past that she's in love with being in love but that was before Arizona, she had loved her with every fibre of her being, the love that poets wrote about, the love fairy tales are based on but the thing about that kind of love, they don't tell you what happens after the last verse or after the prince and princess get married.

So this everyday love, this general love, is something she can live with. She's happy, she's healthy and she's with someone that's happy and healthy too. Now that all the drama has settled down with Penny and everyone else in the hospital their relationship has been going pretty good. They get along, they go on dates and dancing and the sex is good, not sex with Arizona amazing, but pretty good. Her daughter likes her, which is a point in the red heads direction, the only problem is that she doesn't really see a future with her. When Bailey asked who she saw standing next to her in 20 years, she did picture Penny, after a quick glimpse of blonde hair, but one thing she's realised after having some time to think is that she doesn't see anything in between. From now to 20 years she doesn't see them living together, getting married, or having another baby. She sees them now, having a date then it jumps to standing next to the red head when her daughter scores a winning goal. That's it, that shouldn't be it.

She needs to talk to Penny, see where she sees herself. The only problem is she's afraid. Not just of what Penny will say but what if she decides after all this thinking that Arizona is the one for her, what if she decided to break up with Penny and get back with Arizona and it doesn't work and she's a broken shell again?

What if she decided to stay with Penny and has a boring, general life? Will that go against everything she's ever believed about love? What if she stays with Penny, and their life is boring? She knows she won't cheat on her but being in a boring life, that's not something she wants for her. She wants Penny to be happy, she deserves it and at the moment she makes her happy but what about in 5 years when their stuck in a routine and they start resenting each other.

And it's not just them she has to think of, she has a daughter she has to think of too. Sofia is at the age now where she will remember these things for the rest of her life, she'll get attached. She doesn't really remember a life when her Mommies lived in the same house, she knows life as going back and forth, only remembering what she's seen from videos and photos they had taken when they were together. If she gets back with Arizona would it be weird for their daughter? And again if they break up it wouldn't only break her but their daughter too. It took ages for Sofia to stop crying at night wanting her Mama to read to her the first time around but this time? She's not sure if she could handle it.

If she stays with Penny and her daughter gets attached to her, what happens when they start resenting each other? What happens when Penny realises that her girlfriend loves her but isn't in love with her? What happens when Sofia starts looking at Penny as another mother figure and Penny sees her as a daughter and they don't work out? Will she have to give Penny visiting rights too? Is Sofia going to stay up all night only wanting to go to sleep after her step mother reads her a story?

After a while of thinking like this and a few glasses of wine she realises something and sits straighter in her seat, she shouldn't be having this many doubts. If she knew what she wanted she shouldn't be making pros and cons, it should've been an immediate answer, she's obviously not happy in her current relationship if she was she wouldn't be sitting here debating whether to get back with her ex. Even though she knows she's not 100% happy anyway she thought she was at least 95, but sitting here, debating all this she realises she's barely 50% and that's not fair to Penny or herself.

Then there's Arizona, they've been through so much, would it be too hard not to automatically bring up the past during a fight or something? They've been told by many people over the past year how amazing it is that they are still friends and how well they get along, but what if that's just because they are apart? They are friends but not best friends, she rarely knows what the blonde does on her days off unless she has Sofia, they don't talk about how the other is feeling, they don't hang out outside of work or at mutual friends gatherings. She may always love Arizona but what if they're no good together?

Maybe… maybe she should be single.

She hates the idea but she can't keep stringing Penny on, its unfair to her, she knows the red head is in love with her and it'd break her but it'd only be worse later. Plus having these thoughts about Arizona is basically emotionally cheating and she said she'd never cheat on her.

So it seems like shes made a decision, first thing, break up with Penny, second, call Arizona, tell her that she wants to stay single until she knows for sure what she wants. Maybe they could slowly date, get to know the new them properly.

As Callie is picking up her phone in Seattle, Arizona was listening to her parents bicker over which one of them would be cooking. She was feeling a little nostalgic, her and Callie used to bicker, well pretended because they both new Arizona was a master of only 3 dishes and the rest came out a bit iffy. She sighed and looked at her phone for the 4th time that day, checking to see if she had missed a phone call or text, which would've been practically impossible seeing as though her phone has been attached to her hand since the moment she put her heart on the line.

She had talked to Sofia last night when Meredith rang her before putting her kids plus the little Latina to bed and had informed Arizona of the bus collision so she knew that Callie would've been working flat out but it still didn't stop her from worrying that she might have done the wrong thing.

Her parents stopped bickering and her mother opened her mouth to ask her a question but luckily she was saved by the doorbell, before either of them could move Arizona was up and answering the door. A brown eyed, black haired man in a crisp navy uniform was standing there, by the badges and medals pinned to his top it was clear to see he was pretty far up the chain of command

"Hi, may I help you?" Arizona asked a little nervously. At one point in time just seeing the man on the other side of the door would've had her on the floor crying her eyes out thinking either her brother or father weren't going to make it home, unfortunately she knows that this would happen because it has

"Yes ma'am is this the residence or Colonel and Mrs Robbins?"

"It is, I'll just get them for you" she steps aside to let him in and calls out to her parents. Her father straighten up when he sees the man, her mother has the same nervous look on her face

"Captain, how may I help you today?" her father shook his hand, standing slightly in front of his girls, a protective instinct that he's always had even when he doesn't really need it like now

"Oh please call me John, I'm actually here on private business and am stopping in on my way home" he smiles and her father relaxes instantly

"Ok, John what can I help you with?"

"15 years ago I was a Senior Chief Petty Officer and during that time I met a young man that as it turned out saved my life along with 5 of others with his own life. That man was your son and every year whoever out of us 6 get together for the weekend around his anniversary and remember him and his sacrifice, this year is the first year we are all home and we would like to know if you and your family would like to join us? He always talked about loving the lake and fishing so this year we've decided to go to a lake about 50 miles north from here where my families lake house is, it's big enough for everyone" by the end of his question Arizona had tears in her eyes, her mother had gripped onto her father and was crying freely and her father had a look of awe on his face. There was a moment of silence before her mother whispered something in his ear and stood back, wrapping her hand around her daughters

"We'd be honoured. We were originally going to just have a small family gathering the 3 of us but remembering him this weekend with the people he gave his life for would be a real honour. May I ask why we've never met before?"

"I was in hospital with shrapnel damage in my leg at the time of his funeral, the first few years I wasn't mentally in the place to meet you yet, and even though he was a few ranks below me he was a dear friend of mine and he giving up his life for mine hit me really hard. Over the next few years I was either stationed overseas or just away from here, eventually I felt like it might've been too hard for you to meet me. I think you have met 4 of the 6 over the years though, James Beckett was the one who gave me your address and suggested you guys coming along" he smiled and to Arizona it seemed so foreign, she had met many Captains in her time as Colonel's daughter and not one of them smiled, but then she's never met a Captain during his down time, always at work functions.

They went into the living room as her mother went to make some coffee, she was about to excuse herself until John started talking to her, talked about how Tim would always mention his sister the best soon to be surgeon he knew, he would fill them all in on how she was doing during her residency, how when she mentioned to him she wanted to work in Peds he brought her her first pair of Heelies. The black haired man had to laugh when telling the story of how they said they wanted to marry twin sisters so neither of them could brag about having the prettiest wife, even though he would get the prettiest twin. She laughed with tears in her eyes, Tim was the first person she came out too and after paying her out about the Cindy Crawford picture on her wall he mentioned the twin thing, then going on to mention they'd have a joint wedding and they'd both dance so hard the floor wouldn't be able to hold them.

She did excuse herself after filling the man in on her life, talking about her work and her daughter, who was also invited to the weekend away which she told him she'd think about it and have to talk to her ex-wife about as well. She shook his hand and made her way to her bedroom, she really wanted Sofia to come to this, she tells her daughter about her Uncle Tim all the time and she feels that meeting the people he'd saved would let Sofia know her Uncle a bit better.

Laying down on her bed she thought about the weekend to come, Sofia wouldn't be able to fly by herself, meaning that Callie would need to come, even if it's just for the flight, meaning she'd have to see her which kind of excited her but also made her nervous. She quickly sent Callie a text asking her to call when she's free and purposely mentioned that it's about Tims anniversary so she wouldn't feel pressured to answer her question from 2 days ago. All she could do now was sit back and wait.

The one thing she hates doing.