Hello, guys.
Here is the chapter 2.
I always loved Regina and Snow friendship, so I tried to write a conversation between them. This friendship is the best one, the one that makes more sense for me.
And more important: this is the first time I'm writing a sex scene! So, take it easy! hahahaha
I hope u enjoy! *-*
CHAPTER 2
Regina was walking by the Storybrooke streets. Everything was the same but at the same time, was different. People were waving at her. Wait? Did that grumpy dwarf greet her? Oh man, this was weird!
She took a deep breath and smiled at people. This was really new for her, people accepting her for what she was. She was just…. normal. They were starting to see her as… Regina. She was HERSELF. And this was refreshing. She was happy, she was really happy. That Evil Queen label which had been hunting her since always, was not there anymore. She had a town (which she created by angry and revenge) accepting her, despite all her cruelties, murders and mistakes.
But why? Why was she feeling so confused? Oh, right! Her soulmate. The man she loved, the man she fought for, the man who was in her bed every single night, the man who was there in that damn alternative universe by her side in the moment of her death. it was him! It's him!
Of course she didn't want a perfect life because that doesn't exist (especially for the Evil Queen) but she just wanted to be sure. Wich she wasn't. She wanted to be sure that the life she was having now was something permanent. She wanted to trust him again. Trust that he wouldn't leave her in case something happened and he had to choose his honor over her again. And just the thought of this was hurting Regina a lot.
That was why she hadn't accept his invitation for lunch today. She did the same the past few weeks too. She made up some excuse and said she didn't have time for lunch, that she was just ordering something from Granny's and eating at her office. True to be told, she didn't want to be alone with him before she knew exactly what she was going to say to him. Not before she could feel safe and free with him again.
That was why she had tried to spend every night with him and their boys. She really enjoyed that kind of evenings. Movies, popcorns, candy, a lot of laughs and simple conversations. It was easy when the boys were around. She could use this excuse for not to talk to Robin in the way they should, about how she was really feeling. She was avoiding him. She was pushing him away because she wasn't feeling enterily confortable with him anymore.
This was Zelena's fault! Or it was his fault?
She didn't know. She could remember their relationship before all this mess had happened. Maybe because she still didn't know the whole truth. Or maybe because she didn't want to know. Before, they had an incredible sex and health routine. Every single night. Sometimes, even at daylight. They didn't care, because they had spent a lot of time apart from each other. Since they met, they had this strong and unique connection. It was like electricity. There was no right place nor right time. They had this need for each other. They had to feel each other, to touch each other like there were no tomorrow.
** FlashBack On **
"I brought you lunch." Robin said as he entered her office.
She lifted her head and smiled, as soon as she felt his strong scent invading her ears. She knew he was coming; despite of their busy days, they always arranged time to have lunch together. And today, she was really waiting for him.
"What?" He asked her with curiosity after circling his arms around her waist and kissing her.
"Nothing!" She said, holding him by his neck and kissing him again, this time with more passion.
"What are you up to?" He was trying to contain his smile.
"I know this look, Regina!" He wanted to play her game but he knew exactly what she wanted.
"What look?" Regina approached him slowly until their faces were inches away, their eyes deeply locked and she captured his lower lip between her teeth making him moan.
"I thought we'd have some lunch!" He frowned playfully at her.
"Oh, you are. But today, let's skip to dessert first!" She was now playing with the buttons of his shirt. And slowly, she let one hand run down between their bodies until she reached his belt. She looked at him biting her lip and suddenly, she grabbed his cock over his pants and started to caress it softly.
"Milady, what are you suggesting?" He said this already moaning and couldn't keep with her little game anymore.
He grabbed her arse and rubbed his bulge on her, making her sure that he was up to her game or whatever she was planning to do with him. Regina moaned and kissed him passionately.
"Wait!" She placed a finger on his mouth interrupting their moment.
Regina stepped back and before Robin could complain, she stood in front of him and with a flick of her wrists, she was in nothing but a red lace corset, a very tiny panties and black high heels. She reached for her desk and sat down on with open legs as invitation for him.
His vision had blurred from the sign in front of him. He took a moment to watch her, to admire her. Red hugging her curves, caressing the lines of her body. Red barely covering the curve of her perfect breasts. Red trying to hide her erect nipples. Red painting on her lips. He took a moment to watch her, to admire her. She was a vision.
"You're perfect." He whispered.
It was the only thing he managed to say before reaching her in one fast and large step, staying between her parted legs, caressing them softly. And then, he kissed her, pulling her to him, his lips devouring hers. His mouth moved down to her neck and he sucked and bit every exposed flesh he found on the way. Today, he would mark her as his own. He wrapped one hand around her waist and his fingers were teasing the lace of her panties.
He moaned when he felt her nails travelling up and down his abdomen. He even didn't realize that she had taken his shirt off. But she had and her tongue was playing with his earlobe, sucking and licking. Their lips met again and again on a hungry battle for dominance. Her hands were on his back, his shoulder, his bare chest, scratching his skin without pity. Then, she started to work with his belt, pushing his pants, sliding them down his hips until they fell to the floor.
He gripped her ass hard, putting her closer, while one of his hands reached for her soft hair. God! How much he loved her hair and he couldn't resist: he interlaced his fingers through her hair and pulled back a little hard. Regina gasped but smirked at him.
So she liked that!
They kissed over and over and for Regina's surprise, he was able to remove her corset easily. He was never good at these things. She smirked at him, with only her little lacy and red panties and heels. But his look was serious, his eyes were darker with lust and desire for her, and she loved causing this sensation on him. He loved has this power.
He cupped both her breasts firmly and immediately attacked one nipple with his lips, kissing and sucking it. She cried out and threw her head back as he sucked harder her nipple in his mouth. He performed the same action on her other nipple.
He couldn't wait anymore, he wanted to taste her, feel her in his mouth. He brought his hand to her hips until he could grip her thighs and hoisted her upward on her desk. She parted her legs giving him space to stay between them. He leaned on top of her, kissing her hungrily while one hand travelled to her stomach and down, down, until he could feel her wetness through her lacy underwear. He kept his hand there and started to rub his thumb over her clit. Regina was moaning and throwing her head back, so he took advantage of that and sucked the skin of her neck.
"Robin…" She whispered and he got the message. He started to trace wet kisses down her body, between the valley of her breast, cupping and joining them with one hand and squeezing, while his mouth continued down the path to where she was needing him most. Goosebumps erupted on her skin and her body trembled and shuddered at the touch of his mouth.
He stood and slid her panties, pulling them off. Robin grabbed her hips fiercely and pulled her body forward, bringing her to the edge of her desk and draping her thighs over his shoulder. Then, his mouth was at her entrance, teasing her, licking her wet folds and humming in appreciation of her savor, causing her gasps and moans to grow louder.
Grabbing his hair, she forced his mouth on her clit. He chuckled but started gliding his tongue all over where she was needing it; circling, flicking his tongue on her sex. She gave a low cry when he sucked her clit more firmly, scrubbing his teeth softly against it. That's when he inserted two fingers on her. He did pivot his hand, back and forth, in and out, curling his fingers until she was arching her back off the desk.
Her hands dropped from his hair and grabbed the edge of her desk and he knew she was close. So he replaced his fingers and pushed his tongue inside her fiercely, while he stimulated her right spot on her clit with his fingers. He kept doing this, intercalating with circular movements and a low pressure. In and out, in and out, in and out. His mouth was circling, sucking, licking, as his fingers didn't stop from keeping friction on her clit. Repeating his movements again and again and again, until he saw her hips witching. He could feel her clenching, tightening around his mouth. She was humming incoherent and undescribed words that he couldn't understand. He loved to see her like this, falling apart for him.
"Come for me, my love." He said and he could feel her legs trembling on his shoulders.
He pressured his thumb more firmly on the sensitive spot of her sex, while his tongue was still working inside of her in a faster pace. A build of heat began to invading her, making her shiver. In and out, harder, faster. And then, Regina exploded, crying his name, as she came hard on his mouth.
When she came to her sense, she looked up and saw him caressing her cheeks, looking at her with his beautiful dimpled smile. She widened her eyes, stood up to a sitting position, trying to get her sense back.
- "Hey there!" He hold her head, caressing her pink cheeks and kissed her softly. She could feel his still hard member under his boxers touching her inner thighs.
"Hum…" She broke the kiss and looked down.
"I think you have a problem right here." She said, caressing his member over his boxers and he moaned. She was still dizzy, her body was still having little spasms but she wanted to feel him inside of her.
"I need you inside of me!" She whispered in his ear, causing shivers over him.
He couldn't wait anymore, he wanted to be inside of her. He pulled her to him and kissed her hard. He turned her back to him and sucked the sensitive spot of her neck. She arched her neck, giving him a better access and started to rub her perfect arse against his hard cock. His boxers tightened even more, if this were possible.
He knew she was teasing him because she was aware about his obsession for her ass. After all, he was "taking care" of her ass since their time on Enchanted Forest. Since that time, he had dreamed about squeezing hard her damn ass and now he had this opportunity. So he didn't waste his time. While he was sucking the warm and soft skin of her neck, he grabbed her royal ass with both hands and squeezed, making her moan and arching her hips even more for him. The sensation was inexplicable. He could take her from behind right now. He could bury his hard cock into her wetness from behind without pity.
Did she know how hot she was right now?
She was swaying her hips back and forth, up and down, rubbing her arse against his cock every time she did this. She kept doing this and supported her elbows on the desk, bending her ass to him. Her column arched and she looked at him over her shoulder and bit her glorious red lips.
Was she bending her perfect arse over his cock and thinking this was funny?
Jesus! He was insane, out of his mind!
- "You really love my ass, don't you thief?" She teased him over her shoulder, while she kept dancing her fucking ass over his hard length.
God! She'll be the death of him!
He groaned and held her tight by the waist with one hand, while he led his other hand to her sex and teased her entrance with his fingers.
"God! You're fucking wet, Your Majesty!" He murmured in her ears and grabbed her hair, pushing harder, as he took his cock out of his boxers and buried it deep inside her.
Fuck!
She exclaimed when she felt his hardness filling her folds completely from behind with one fast stroke.
He squeezed her hips and ran his fingers along her back. He got lost on the curves of her body. She was the most beautiful woman he had saw in his life but from behind….
Jesus!
He grabbed her hips and started to fuck her slowly, increasing his pace in each thrust. Her hips were twitching and she was moaning. He leaned over her, pressing his chest against her back. She groaned louder at this new posistion, and he sucked the spot behind her ear he knew it'd drive her crazy.
He whispered I love you in her ear, licking and nipping along her neck and shoulder, never relenting the continuous thrusting in and out of her. Robin was losing control! He started to fuck her harder, faster. The burn inside his belly was building and swirling wildly as his balls begged to release but he wanted her to come one more time. So he started do rub circles over her clit, making her moans increased.
Regina grabbed the edges of the desk hard and tossed her head back. Her knuckles were white. She was still sore for their previous activities but the sensation of him filling her from behind was driving her insane. Her thighs began to shake. She couldn't help but rocking her hips back, meeting every thrust of him.
She was on fire! She tried to tell him she was coming but the words wouldn't leave her mouth. She wanted to scream, release the burn sensation that was washing her whole body but her mouth was dry, her lips were trembling. Weird cries were leaving her mouth and they became frenetic and louder, as he kept rubbing her clit and filling her hard. The pleasure inside her was increasing as never before and she couldn't stop shaking.
"Let it go for me!" He whispered as he felt her tightening around his cock. He knew she was about to come and he couldn't wait anymore.
Their groans and moans were echoing off in Regina's office. The sweat of their bodies mixed. They need their release. Now!
Then, Regina reached her climax as never before, crying his name. He followed her, groaning her name in her ear as he spilled his seed inside of her.
They remained in silence for God knows how long, trying to catch their breath and slow down their heart beats.
"You came pretty hard, milady!" He chuckled and turned her around.
"Shut up!" She said, but blushing and not making eye contact.
"Really? Is that what I get for making you come hard like that?" He said, and put a lock of hair behind her ear.
He seemed to be really proud of his deed. She knew he loved when she came hard like this.
"You really enjoy this, don't you?"
"Of course, your Majesty! It was my pleasure to pleasuring you!" He kissed her softly and started to look around, trying to find his clothes.
"What are you doing?" She frowned.
"My lunch break is over, my love" He said and pointed at the wall clock.
"But we even had lunch!" She complained.
"Oh, I certainly had!" He joked and gave her his mischievous grin, while he put his clothes on.
"You're an ass!" She said, rolling her eyes but couldn't hide her smile.
"No, you are!" He came close to her and squeezed her arse again.
"I love you." He kissed her forehead.
"I love you too." She whispered.
"See you at dinner?"
"Yes, but you're going to eat this time… real food!" She said, tilting up an eyebrow and emprasing her last words.
"Of course we are!" He winked at her and made his way out the office.
Regina shook her head and closed her eyes as she saw the doors closing behind him, but she couldn't hide the satisfied and silly smile on her face.
** FlashBack Off**
Regina wet her dry lips and smiled softly at the recollection of that day. She missed him badly. She missed his touches and his heated kisses on her inner thighs. The way he moved his mouth inside of her making her come hard, the way he…
Stop, Regina! You're in the middle of the streets with your panties already wet!
Regina shook her head and tried to concentrate in something else. Great! She wasn't having sex with him but she couldn't stop thinking about having sex with him.
This was a mess! But everything was fine before her wicked sister threw some truths in her face.
Sometimes, ignorance is a blessing!
Now, Regina couldn't do this anymore. She had a few sex partners in her life, but with Robin it was different. It was something more. They didn't have sex, they made love. And between sex and love there's a huge abysm. She could see the difference now. She could feel the difference. And if Regina wasn't able to make love to him, to give herself entirely, she wouldn't do anything. So she was avoiding him for as long as she could. No matter how hard she was thinking about this, even in the daylight, in the middle of the streets, she couldn't do it before she was certain about his feelings towards her.
Not that she hadn't tried to do it with him anymore, because she did! She tried to concentrate in something else while they were in the bed during foreplay, but she couldn't carry on. She always stopped him when the thoughts invaded her mind. Sometimes when he touched her, she started to think about him touching her sister and banging her. Othertimes, she felt really sick, she had to get up hastily from the bed, making her way to the bathroom and throw up. So she decided not to have sex with him. She would wait.
Man! This was really affecting her psychologically, and now, physically as well.
She knew Robin was always worried, he always went after her and helped with her hair. She always had the same excuse that this was supposed to be a stomach bug. Actually it was a bug - a green wicked bug. And she always promised him that she was going to the doctor and run some tests, but of course it wasn't her stomach. She knew it. In fact, Regina couldn't eat normally anymore due to stress. Was she depressive? Or was she just making a bigger deal about this? She couldn't tell.
One thing Regina knew was sure... she couldn't deal with this situation alone anymore. She was getting sick. This was affecting her badly. She was even losing her temper with the boys sometimes. Henry was the first one to notice it. He always asked her about what was happening and she always said everything was fine and immediately changed the subject. But she knew he wasn't buying it, he was her son, after all. But he never pressed her. He was a great boy, allowing her some space and she was thankful for it.
She entered Granny's not expecting to have a chat with anybody. She was not on the mood. She was only there to grab her lunch and get away as fast as she could.
"Good morning, Regina! The same for lunch, I suppose?" Granny asked her with a smirk on her face.
"Yes, to go!" Regina said gruffly.
"I can see you're not on the mood!" Granny asked her with a smirk on her face.
"Listen, I am not here for jokes today! Just bring my order!" Regina put her hands on the balcony and lowered her head. She didn't want to start a conversation or a fight with anyone.
"Tough day, huh? Anyway, I'm bringing your luch." Granny said and turned around.
Regina just want to grab her lunch and get away from there but it seemed the universe had another plan for her.
She just screwed her eyes shut when she felt strong arms hugging her waist from behind. Him. The last person she wanted to see right now.
"I can see you had found some time for lunch." He said, kissing the side of her head.
Regina gulped, took a deep breath before turn around.
"Hi! I'm just passing by and taking something to eat in my office." She said, wetting her lips.
"Alright, I'm coming with you! It's my lunch break too!" Robin was doing everything he could to spend some time with her, even knowing she was doing everything to avoid him.
"No!" She answered automatically and coldly.
"No? Why?" His eyes were full of concern. He could see she was different with him but hearing her talking like this, it was like a knife to his heart.
"I don't have time. I have a lot of things to do." She answered bluntly.
He kept staring at her, feeling really uncomfortable. He removed his hands from her waist slowly and shoved in his pockets.
"Of course. Have a nice lunch." He smiled sadly, kissed her cheek and turned to walk away from her.
Regina froze. Why was she doing this with him? He was giving her space, he had been understandable and she was bitching around every time he tried to get close to her?
"Robin!" She reached his arms and he turned around. She could see the pain in his eyes and she had caused this. So, she had to fix it.
"I'm so sorry. This is not a good day for me." She said and released a breath she didn't know she was holding it.
"I understand." He replied.
"I guess I have 10 minutes to have lunch with you. I mean, if you still want to!" She arched her right brow and bit her lower lip. She seemed like a naughty child that made some mess in her room.
"Let's have lunch together then!" He couldn't resist on that face. He gave her a sincere smile, interlaced their fingers and kissed her lips softly.
Their luch was fine, very silent but nothing awkward. Of course it not had been as their past lunches, because at that times, they didn't have luch at all. But it had been pleasant.
Now Regina was in her office, trying very hard to concentrate on her work. Her desk was full of papers; she shook her head in an attempt to focus on her work, but she knew it was a lost cause. Regina had not been lying when she said to Robin that she had a lot of things to deal with in the city hall. The place was a mess thanks to Snow White. How can't that girl do anything right? In one month, she left one year's worth of work for Regina to do. Boring paperwork, job contracts, houses contracts, late payments…Dear God! It would never end.
But it was fine, at least, Regina would be busy for the rest of the day. She wouldn't think about… She shook her head and tried to bury the thought deep into her subconscious.
"Hi, Regina! I can see you're really busy today! Is there something I can help you with?" Snow interrupted her thoughts and walked into her office with a smile on her face.
Oh no… Snow White! The last person Regina was expecting to deal with today. She just rolled her eyes and gave a little scoff.
"I can see you're busy, huh?" Snow said.
"Yes, thanks to you, Mary Margaret"! Regina said sarcastically turning her gaze away from the paper work.
"Oh, you know, I did my best keeping the important things for you." Snow replied, mimicking Regina's attitude.
"What are you doing here, Snow? As you can see, I have a lot of work to do. Work that you were not capable of dealing with." Regina eyed her carefully as Snow let out a chuckle and sat down on a chair that was positioned right in front of the desk.
Regina couldn't believe it! She was trying hard to concentrate in her work, she just wanted to be alone. Alone with her own business. Alone with her thoughts. But, she couldn't. Snow White would haunt her for the rest of her life with that old speech about hope and love. Man! Regina was definitely not on the mood for this! So she ignored the younger woman who was observing her carefully.
"I can see you're upset! And when I did offered my help, I was not referring to the paperwork. I'm really bad at these things!"
"Really?! At least you admit it!" Regina said with a smirk on her face and pointing a finger at Snow.
Snow just smiled, nodding her head in affirmative.
"I'm serious, Regina. I can see something is troubling you. I've been seeing this for some time now. I was expecting that you would come after me for a talk, but you haven't! So here I am!"
"You can't be serious! Did you really think I would go after you for a little chat and talk about my problems?" Regina did scoff.
"So, there are problems then!" Snow replied and arched one brow.
"I didn't say that!" Regina said and lowered her head, pretending to search for some documents.
"Do you want to talk about this?" Snow asked her with a worried face.
No answer.
"Regina, you know you can trust me!" Snow added quietly.
Regina faced her with a little scoff.
"Seriously, Regina. I thought we were over that. I was a child, you know that. And your mother was a bitch!" Snow said, leaning back into the chair.
"Oh! So, besides bothering me, now you're offending my mother?"
"It was not my intention, I'm sorry!" Snow said, regretting her words.
"Relax, Snow. She was indeed a bitch!" Regina said, putting some lightness to their conversation.
"And no, it was not your fault. After that weird alternative universe, I could understand how it is to be blamed for something you didn't have the intention to cause. We are fine!" Regina added softly.
"Good. So, since we are fine, you can talk about, you know, some things with me." Snow said.
"I'm not following you, Snow."
"Of course you are! Don't try to lie to me, Regina. We've known each other since I was a little girl. I know you. You can like this or not, but I do know you and I know when something is troubling you." Snow put her hands above Regina's in a sign of comfort.
"You don't give up, do you? What do I have to do for you get away from here?" Regina sighed.
"Tell me what's wrong." Snow was being really persistent.
Snow knew Regina, and in fact, she loved her. Their relationship was complicated but they had this connection. She knew that, despite Regina's sassy and bitter ways, she was just an incomprehended and lonely woman, that could love or hate deeply. Snow knew that Regina married her father without loving him, that she had been forced to do this by Cora. She knew her father didn't love Regina either. It was an arrenged marriage. She knew that, even with no intention, she had ruined Regina's life. However she felt no pity for her, but compassion. And with time, she learned that Regina was one of the most important people in her life. And if Regina wasn't happy, Snow couldn't be happy either.
"Regina, I know something is going on inside of you. I can feel it. Tell me what it is, please!" Snow begged her.
"No!" Regina shortly answered and pretended to be busy with her work again.
Snow could see Regina was holding back tears it broke her heart. Regina was a tough woman but Snow was more persistent than anything. She came into her office to talk to her, to have a real conversation and she wouldn't leave without archieving her goal.
"So, you're going to keep up with this game of pretending that everything is alright? That's ok! You might fool Robin and Henry about this, but not me. Actually, I don't think you're deceiving them anymore. Robin told David you're different!"
"So, now Robin is babbling with strangers about our problems? Great! This is just… great!" Regina couldn't believe that Robin was talking about this with David. She will kill him!
"David is his friend and you know that!"
"What that hell did he tell David? That I'm letting him in need? Well, he deserves that! And he didn't have the right to talk about this to anyone! Not even to his close friend!" Regina was yelling now and she continued:
"I can't believe this! Now I have to burn this damn desk"! She mumble to herself. She was outraged and waived her hands through the air desperately, trying to make a fire ball.
Snow immediately stood up with widened eyes.
"Regina, please! Calm down! Let me explain it to you!" Snow begged her.
Regina was snorting. She was very angry and frustrated. How did Robin have the courage to do this? She couldn't believe it! Now the whole town would know about their sex life? Jesus! This couldn't get worse!
"Well... I didn't know about that, Regina." Snow cleared her throat and added:
"And why would you have to burn this desk?" Snow frowned.
Regina immediately blushed as she noticed that she had been the one bringing up this delicate issue. She stiffened, closed her eyes and made the fireball disappear. Was she so desperate that now she was talking to Snow White about her sex life? She rubbed a hand over her face trying to hide her embarrassment.
Really, Regina? Are you losing your freaking mind?
Snow smiled from the corners of her mouth, understanding Regina's reaction.
"Robin just said to David that you were different, he just wants to know the real cause to help you out." Snow said trying to calm down Regina and she added.
"Regina, he loves you and he is really worried that you don't love him anymore. That was all he told David!" Snow said, trying to assimilate everything Regina had just told her.
Regina bit the inside of her left cheek feeling her face getting red.
Damn… you're really stupid, Regina! Really stupid! Maybe you should tell Snow everything!
No! This is Snow White!
The woman who told a secret that cost the life of your first love.
Regina knew it wasn't Snow's fault. Now she knew it. And despite everything, this woman had become her friend. She was there, wasn't she? She was there trying to help.
Tell her! Just relieve this heavy burden, Regina!
Regina didn't know if she could tell Snow about her real feelings, so she didn't say anything.
"Ok. I'm leaving. But if one day you feel that you have to open up with someone, you can count on me. And I know you, Regina. I know you're struggling with a lot of things in your mind these past days. Sometimes, we just have to talk out this things and maybe it helps!" Snow gave a reassuring touch to Regina's hand, got up and turned around heading to the door.
"He didn't fight for me! He just gave up on me!" Regina said these words in a loud and bitter tone, making Snow stop in her tracks and turn around. She faced her stepmother with a confused look but she soon understood who or what Regina was talking about. So, she approached her desk again.
"Regina, he thought he'd never see you again."
"That's the problem, Snow… he just thought! He didn't try to come back to me, not even once! Meanwhile I was here like an idiot trying to find that damn author to rewrite my happy ending. And of course, this happy ending included him." Regina closed her eyes and sighed deeply.
Before Snow could say something, Regina opened her mouth and continued:
"He chose to move on, Snow. I know it's not cheating because after he crossed the town line we were not together anymore, but still hurts like hell. And I had hopes that he would try to find a way back to me like I was trying to get him back." Regina took a deep breath, shaking her head and smiling sarcastically.
"How fool was I? Because while I was doing this, he was in New York fucking another woman! And it turns out that this woman is my sister! And now… SHE'S PREGNANT!" Regina yelled the last words making Snow jump.
"Regina…" Snow tried to say something reassuring but it seemed that once she had started to speak about this, she couldn't stop.
"And now what? Am I going to be the aunt of my soulmate's baby? What if Marian was not Zelena? What if I hadn't gone to New York? He would never be back here, Snow. He would be there, living his life with his family and this new baby!" Regina couldn't control the tears in her eyes anymore.
"He didn't even try, Snow. He chose to move on as if nothing had happened between us, like I were some random woman with whom he spent some time because he had nothing better to do, or mainly because he didn't have any other option. Every time he had to choose, he didn't choose me! I'm always his last choice!" Regina finally blurted and let Snow heartbroken.
"Regina, it's not like this. I'm sure he is with you because he loves you!"
"Does he? I'm glad you're sure about this because I'm not!" Regina smiled sadly.
"Did you talk to him? I mean, does he know about all this? About how you're feeling?"
"No! And since I didn't tell him these things back then, I think now I've missed the right timing. I told him we'd face this situation together. I agreed to this. I was trying to be comprehensive and reasonable but I just didn't think these feelings would remain; I thought that, with time, I'd get over all this."
"But after Zelena's words about how he moved on with his new life in only tree days and the way he was with her…" Regina took a deep breath and continued:
"After that it's been worse. Now, every time he says he loves me, I can't believe in his words anymore, Snow. And I know if something happened to Zelena's pregnancy, he'd leave me again! He has his code of honor. He is Robin Hood, the man of honor!" Regina said, not believing her own words.
"And if something happened, he'd be there for her and for his baby. I know it. I just wanted to be happy with him and the boys like we were this morning, like we used to be in the first month he was back here. I didn't want to feel this way but I can't help it!" Regina was shaking, with trembling hands.
"Please, don't say that. Nothing bad will happen. And, Regina, you have to tell him! There's not a right time; the right time is whenever you are capable to say the truth. The truth about your real feelings. You can't continue a relationship with him like this. You can't keep pretending everything is fine, because it is certainly not. And I'm sure that sooner or later he'll notice it!" Snow replied.
"He is already noticing that something is different! I don't know, at the beginning I was doing fine, I was feeling all this but I was handling the situation fine. But in the last few weeks I've been more upset and insecure than ever!"
"It's because these frustrated feelings inside of you have to come out. Tell him, Regina. You'll see…. After that, you'll feel better! Have a final and truthful conversation with him. I'm sure he loves you, Regina. Maybe he was weak for not fighting for you and moving on but I don't think he thought he had another option." Snow squeezed Regina's hands.
"When Robin did have choice, he chose you, didn't he?" Snow questioned her.
"Yes, he did." Regina whispered. But then she replied.
"Snow, Zelena and Robin are connecting in a way that he and I will never be able . I did something bad in my past and there's no way to came back from it. We will never be able to connect like this. I made a mistake and now, I can't fix it! I just… can't! And it's not only because of Robin, but because of me. I won't be able to have any children." Regina said with a heavy look, a single tear dropping from her eyes.
"Anyway, thank you, Snow…really!" She completed trying to end this conversation because she knew she had already gave away to much for Snow.
"Anytime you need." Snow gave a sincere smile to Regina and headed to the door but before she left, she turned around for one last time that day and said:
"And, Regina… I took a potion too, remember?! Just remember that I have Emma and Neal now. See you around!"
"See you, Snow. And thank you!" Snow just nodded and left.
Once alone in her office, Regina gasped in realization of how much Snow really knew her. When did she tell Snow about the potion? Did she figure this out? How? But Regina didn't care, she learned that Snow was a hopeful dreamer, which sometimes really bothered her a lot. But Snow was, above all of this, her oldest friend. Friend? Yes, friend. The one who really knew her. And soon or later, Regina would talk to her about this other problem, anyway.
She was going to talk with Robin tonight and resolve all this. So then they could move on together. This was everything Regina needed: she wanted them back. She missed the way they used to be with each other, she wanted to move on with him and their boys.
Their boys, as Robin used to say. She smiled because she loved the sound of it. She knew how Henry and Robin were close to each other, especially because of that damn car! But she was close to Roland too. She loved her little boy with those lovely dimples smiling at her and spooning with her at the nights when he had nightmares. Her boy? Yes, he was her little boy. They were both their boys. Theirs. And she wanted it more than anything in the world. After all, this was her happy ending, wasn't it?