All Around Me - Flyleaf

Okay so years ago when I was around 16 I wrote this story. I never got to publish it because the computer I had it on broke. I never threw it away though, so as I was going through some boxes I found the old laptop! I was able to recover all the old files on it and found gold! Lol there's some old stories I don't even remember writing, but it's so amazing for me to see what I was writing so long ago. I want to fix them (now that I'm a better writer and have learned a few things) and share them with you all. Review at the end and tell me how you feel and if you want to read more!

Sabrina's POV

"Have a nice swim with the fishes Grimm." Mirror said as he took my bound body and tossed it off the edge of the cliff. I tried to scream but my voice was caught in the wind as it whipped through my hair and stole the air out of my lungs.

I saw the water coming closer and closer. I shut my eyes and took a breathe that could possibly be my last. The water was unbearably cold, and made the metal handcuffs around my ankles immediately feel like ice pressed against my skin. The coldness of the water made it almost impossible for me to move and my skin started to feel like pinpricks. I felt myself sink down and down into the water slowly and I watched the surface getting farther and farther away from me, making me panic and my heart race inside of my body.

I took the wire around my wrist and bite them and gnawed at them until I could pull my wrists' apart. But the wire was so thin, that it sliced through my wrist like a knife. The blood was slowly leaking out from my wrist and flowing around me and dispersing out into the crystal clear water. My lungs started to burn from the loss of oxygen, which made my heart beat faster out of panic…again.

My hands are searching for you,

My arms are outstretched towards you

I feel you on my fingertips,

My tongue dances behind my lips for you

I looked towards the surface and moved my arms ferociously to try and reach the surface, but failed miserably. But then the surface shivered and broke and Puck came through the waves crashing above. I saw his mop of hair pull through the tainted red water that surrounded me as he reached for my outstretched hands. His hands grabbed onto my wrists' and my fingers throbbed in joy from the heat still on his skin. My tongue was running over and over my lips in anticipation for the air I would be able to breathe in just a second.

This fire rising through my being,

Burning I'm not used to seeing you!..

I'm alive! I'm alive.!

The fire in my chest increased in anticipation. The water was rushing into my eyes and making my vision blurry. 'I'm alive, it's okay, you're alive,' I kept thinking to myself. But then someone reached into the water and snatched Puck up by his green hoodie. He gripped my hand tighter, but it was too late. His hand slipped off of mine and he was snatched out of the water.

I can feel you all around me,

Thickening the air I'm breathing,

Holding onto what I'm feeling savoring this heart that's healing!

I could still feel the aura of warmth from his body surrounding the water around me. But soon it faded and I was back to the freezing temperature of the river. I looked at my hand, and I don't know if my brain was causing hallucinations from the loss of oxygen and blood, or if the blurry vision from the water was affecting me, but I swore my hand was taking a blue-ish hue. Blood continued to leak from my wrist and soon my hands were starting to lose feeling. My closed lips trembled and my body started to freeze into a block of ice. I could feel my organs starting to spasm and cause short pains in my abdomen. My body was shutting down, they were giving up. I just continued to sink farther and farther onto the floor of the river.

My chest was ripping with a burning intensity. I wanted to just inhale sweet air, but I knew that if I breathed in, it would be the end of me. I just closed my eyes and tried to focus on anything else but the torture that was going on inside of my body.

My hands float up above me,

And you whisper you love me

And I begin to fade

Into a secret place

My mind went back to the time when Puck leaned into me one day out of the random, and said 'I love you, dogface.' My lips that now felt like they were vibrating turned up into a semi smile. I felt myself starting to fade to black. It was harder for me to think, to move, to even do anything. All I felt was the always present pain in my chest tearing me apart from the inside. And then I did it. I sucked in not being able to hold it any longer. I felt the water rush inside of me. I started to cough and choke underwater, only in resulting more water filling my lungs and the rest of my body. I closed my eyes and waited for death. I wanted the pain gone and to just be still. Then I felt it… peace. I could feel my body being slowly lulled by the undercurrent of the river. I couldn't see or feel the sun through the water anymore either. It was pitch black and reached a new sort of cold. But my body was numb and I felt calm. Then I blanked and couldn't think anymore. All I felt was the slow and hard beating of my heart, slowly giving up. Beat…..beat…..beat…..

The music makes me sway,

The angels singing say 'We are alone with you'

I am alone and they are to with you.

I'm alive, I'm alive!

I opened my eyes and saw beautiful angels. They looked like my mother and Daphne. But, I couldn't tell, the vision was still blurry. "Where am I?" I whispered roughly. "We are with you, Sabrina Grimm." they said in monotone synchronization. "Where's Puck?" I asked. Was Puck dead? I closed my eyes, I didn't know where the hell I was. Was I still under the Hudson River? Was I in heaven? Was I in the in-between on the horizon of death? Then I felt it. My heart was still beating. So I was alive. My heartbeat was irregular and only beat every 10 seconds or so. I was about to die soon. But, for some reason I wasn't upset. I didn't feel anything. I was numb. Probably from the icy water that I had been engulfed in for who knows how long.

I can feel you all around me,

Thickening the air I'm breathing,

Holding onto what I'm feeling savoring this heart that's healing

Then I feel arms all around me. Or, at least I think their arms. They were warm and hard, and for a second I thought that they would break my body in half like an icicle. Then I felt it… the final beat of my heart. Then I felt nothingness. I felt like I was no longer in the water, but maybe a feather. Floating, or maybe flying, evaporating into air maybe? I don't know, but I knew that it was peaceful.

And so I cry….

The light is white…

And I see you.

I'm alive! I'm alive!

I opened my eyes and saw them, angels milling about like they didn't even see me. I look up directly into the sky. Or, it wasn't even the sky anymore, was it? Was it heaven…the space after heaven? Whatever it was, it was bright. And then I started to cry. I don't know if it was tears of happiness or sadness. I hadn't figured that part out yet. Maybe it was because the 'white light' was actually the thing that signifies death and I actually remembered I'd be leaving everything behind. I sat curled up on my knee's and just cried and cried. But I felt nothing. I didn't even feel the tears coming down my face, or the tears even forming in my eyes. It was nothingness. And that thought alone made me want to cry even more. But then I felt something. I stopped crying and put my hand on my chest. Pressure. Someone was pushing on my chest. It hurt. But I could feel!

I can feel you all around me,

Thickening the air I'm breathing,

Holding onto what I'm feeling savoring this heart that's healing.

Then I felt the arms again. They were faint and like a feather against my soul, but I laughed because I could feel again. I savored the feeling. Then I heard it - a heartbeat. It was irregular and weak, but it was there. Maybe I wouldn't have to die today! Maybe I would live and my heart could beat for a little bit longer then just the short 17 years I've been given.

Take my hand I give it to you,

Now you owe me all I am,

You said you would never leave me.

I believe you, I believe!

I saw the angels and the lights drift away. It was like I was dreaming of them. I could feel my heart start to beat regularly and fill my once frozen blood warming bringing me back to life. I was lying flat on the ground. The cold winter wind was blowing against my wet skin and covering my arms in was sticking to my back, but I didn't care because I was alive. I opened my eyes a crack. The brightness of the sun hurt, so I kept them squinted. Puck was lying next to me and crying. Or was he crying? Maybe it was the water still dripping from his hair and clinging to his skin. But somewhere deep inside me, I'd want to think that he'd cry for me. Does he love me enough to be altered by my absence?. He held my hand in his big ones and kissed my still slightly blue fingertips. "I'll never leave you, Sabrina." He whispered into the thawing skin. He looked up. I didn't know who it was, because he was behind me, but Puck didn't see I was awake. "Why isn't it working?!" He screamed urgently still clutching my fingers. "I don't know Puck.. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't." I recognized the voice as Uncle Jake's. My body tingled as the numbness was melting away from my body. The air was crisp and cold and my body started to shiver. "It's cold." I said through a thick voice. His eyes snapped to me and he smiled. "Your alive?" he stated simply although it sounded more like a question.

I can feel you all around me

Thickening the air I'm breathing,

Holding onto what I'm feeling savoring this heart that's healed.!

Before I answered, he hugged me tightly. I'm surprised that he didn't pull back or try to insult me. Usually he gets embarrassed when he shows public displays of affection, but he hugged me and didn't let go for a while. And I didn't want him to. His arms were warm and my body was still freezing and shaking. My hands still had a blueish tint and it scared me now that I could breathe air and think clearly. I could feel his own cold lips against my ear, and he whispered something so low I could still barely hear, but I think he said "I love you". I smiled and nodded my head. I know that he could feel it and knew even though I couldn't say it back at the moment that I felt the same. But my lips were still trembling from the icy water, and then it continued with me being in the cold windy air of January. "You owe me." Puck said louder as he pulled away and took the coat Uncle Jake was handing him. He slipped it over my shoulders, and I could close my eyes and feel my heart beating.