Guys thank you so much on all the lovely reviews , and I hope you like this chapter too and criticism is welcome cuz I'm new to all this writing thing .

I hated how the writers did not make Sam look for Dean so I tried to fix it but I think I ended up making it worse but what the hell , its a fanfic and I can do anything with the toys I have borrowed. 'winks'

Anyway enjoy!

Dean woke up at the annoying tapping sounds and he turned on his side to see Sam typing frantically on the laptop ,he still looked a little pale for Dean's liking. Dean glanced at the watch , it was 6 in the morning.

"Sam dammit , what the hell ; I'm trying to sleep " Dean said miserably rubbing his eyes and then glaring at Sam who was looking intently on the laptop.

"Dean I wanna get rid of this stupid curse as soon as possible so I'm looking for any weird or unexplained cases in the places we have been to in past two weeks"Sam answered and resumed his frantic typing.

"Sam , this curse is not that bad for you to ignore your beauty sleep over " Dean said as he stood up and stretched.

Sam rolled his eyes at his brother " Easy for you to say , you're not the one getting stabbing pains and sudden supernatural fevers" Sam replied as he began to read something from the laptop screen.

"Sammy , all you have to do is to listen to your awesome big brother and you wont get any cramps " Dean grinned and Sam looked at him with narrowed eyes.

"Dean you're enjoying this , aren't you?" Sam asked while closing the laptop and Dean's smile widened.

"Sam , this is a once in a life time opportunity" Dean said matter of factly.

"Dean this isn't something to be toying with , curses and spells have to be dealt with seriously , what if my brain liquifies inside my head for resisting the spell" Sam asked eyeing Dean with utmost seriousness.

Dean shrugged "Then dont resist"

Sam opened his mouth to protest but Dean cut him off .

".. And since you woke me up , go and bring me some breakfast and also some pie to eat later " Dean said grinning.

"Dean , you cant do this , this isn't some joke " Sam snapped at once and Dean crossed his arms .

"Sammy I'm not joking " Dean said seriously trying to keep his smile off from his face, as he raised both his palms as a lever.

He raised one palm "sharp stabbing pains in head or..." Dean raised his other palm higher "Pie for big brother" Dean said and grinned.

Sam looked angry "Dean ..." he began but then he sighed and picked up the keys from the table shaking his head as he left the motel room.

Once Sam had left Dean slumped to the bed as he got lost in his thoughts.

Something had been nagging him since he heard about Sam's curse and no matter how hard he tried he couldn't push this thought to the back of his mind , this was a chance for him to finally find out why Sam didn't look for him while he was in Purgatory . Even if Sam had told him already that he left him for some girl but Dean refused to believe that . He refused to believe that Sam would just give up on him , just like that.

He knew what had happened the time Dean was in hell , Bobby had told him that Sam was close to drinking himself to death ; then how could Sam just give up so easily.

Now he could make Sam answer him and he could make sure that Sam would tell him the truth , but Sam would resist and Dean knew how stubborn his brother was . He knew Sam would never stop resisting and what if he really does end up liquifying his brain?. Should Dean risk it ?

Dean shook his head trying to get rid of the thought of forcing Sam to tell the truth as he stood up to take a shower.

After Dean had showered and changed ,Sam came in holding two paper bags in one hand and coffee in the other . He placed the bags on the table and took a sip of his coffee .

Dean got up and peered into the bags taking out his own coffee and sat down on the table as he opened up a plastic box containing bacon. Sam also sat down opening up his own box.

Alright Dean thought , its now or never.

"Sam " Dean said and Sam looked quickly sucking in the lettuce hanging from his mouth.

Dean was just about to speak when his phone started ringing , cursing under his breath he quickly wiped his hands on his jeans and pulled out his phone and he was greeted by Garth's squeaky voice .

A few seconds later he was off the phone.

"Garth, he needs us on a case " Dean answered at Sam's inquiring look.

"Dont tell me we've been Garthed again" Sam asked rolling his eyes.

Dean shook his head , remembering the time when Garth had tracked their phone's GPS and had told them about the case in their surrounding area.

"No, Garth's callin' for backup , he sounded pretty winded"

"Did you tell him , we have our plates full already" Sam said pushing away his empty plastic box and finishing his coffee.

"We dont have a case , we took care of the vamps, remember?" Dean asked confused.

"Dean , we have a case, I'm the case "Sam answered exasperated "we have to figure out this curse , find a witch or at least find some spell to counter it."

"Sam , we owe Garth and I'm tellin you man , he wasn't his usual cheery , gay self"

"Dean I think you're just missing his hugs" Sam smirked.

"Hahah , very funny " Dean said flatly " so we're going right?"

Sam sighed as he ran a hand through his short hair.

"Come on Sam, its not like we have a lead on a witch or something , we can deal with the curse later "

After some deliberation Sam nodded ,"Alright Dean but only on one condition , you will not order me around taking advantage of the curse"

"Done " Dean noded not agreeing even the slightest , he was gonna make sure he used this curse to his advantage, making Sam do the stuppidest things, and by the look on Sam's face , it seemed that he knew this too.

"I'm serious Dean , you're not gonna ask me to bring pie or pack up your duffle bags or make me wash your clothes and your boxers" Sam said motioning with his fingers.

"Dude " Dean said spreading his arms in an 'are you kidding me gesture'.

"Since when have I ever made you wash my boxers "

Sam raised his eyebrows and Dean remembered , "Hey that was a one time thing and we had a deal , I had won fair and square..., but yeah okay "

Sam noded and got up to pack up his stuff and that nagging thought came back in Dean's mind .

"Sam ?" He called out , thinking for the hundredth time if he should be using Sam like this , using the curse, it seemed so wrong , but he had to know.

"Yeah " Sam appeared out of the bathroom.

Dean sighed "never mind " he also began to pick up his own clothes.

"What , spit it out Dean" Sam said in an irritated tone.

Dean looked at him wearily and sat on the edge of his bed. Sam also sat down on his own bed facing Dean and looking at him earnestly .

"Dean , whats bothering you , come on spit it out " Sam urged.

If Sam was so hell bent on finding out what was bothering him then maybe he wouldn't get so mad. ...Ofcourse Sam would get mad , what the hell was he thinking but curiosity got the better of him.

"Why didn't you look for me Sam " Dean asked coldly.

"What " Sam asked ,confused.

"When I was in Purgatory , Sam - Why didn't you look for me , and I want the truth , you will tell me nothing but the truth " Dean said already feeling guilt swell in his chest but that was pushed to the back as he remembered his time in that endless forest of perpetual gloom and overcast.

At once realisation crossed Sam's features and with it a flash of anger.

"Dean , you cant make me do this " Sam sounded exasperated and he filched.

Dean tried to keep his face calm and smooth even though when he saw Sam flinch his heart thudded a little wildly.

"Sam just tell me , it wouldn't hurt if you dont resist" Dean said , a little concern leaking out of his voice as Sam winced with pain and pinched the bridge of his nose which Dean knew was a sign of major migraine.

"Dean please dont do this " Sam pleaded and at once Dean was hit by Sammy's puppy dog eyes and it took all his will power to resist those. They always did the trick but not this time. This time Dean wanted to know, he had to know why his brother abandoned him to play house with some girl.

"Sam the sooner you answer , the sooner the pain will stop" Dean said and his heart thudded loudly as Sam clutched his head with his hands and groaned.

"Dean please , ugh " Sam groaned again scrunching his eyes.

"Dammit it Sam , why do you always have to be so stubborn , just answer the damn question " Dean said his voice rising involuntarily .

This time Sam's eyes flew open , he gasped and began talking as if it was not under his control.

"I dont know Dean , I just " He slid off the bed and slumped to the motel floor on his knees still clutching his head , Dean did the same and placed his hands on Sam's shoulders, looking into his eyes as Sam continued to talk with a grimace on his face.

He opened his mouth to speak but quickly closed it and ended up moaning in pain and his breathing beacame more ragged .

"I ran Dean , for the first time I was completely alone , I didn't want to deal with you gone , I didn't know where to look for you . I just couldn't deal with it all I remembered the time when you were in hell Dean and how , how agonizing every second was trying to get you out , it was torture Dean , a torture worse than lucifer's cage "

Sam paused for breath as he slumped against the bed , he was already drenched in sweat and there was a look of defeat and sadness in his eyes

.With every word that left Sam's mouth Dean could feel the knot in his stomach loosening , suddenly everything was making so much more sense and he started feeling sick at what he was making Sammy do.

Dean was still holding Sam by the shoulders he was going to tell him to stop but Sam started talking again , this time he did not wince or groan , he had stopped resisting , he had given up to the spell.

"Dean last time I had Bobby , I was going to drink myself to death in my self loathing and misery ; Bobby saved me , but this time I didn't know where to turn to , all our friends were dead " Sam's voice broke .

"Sam its okay you can..." Dean began but Sam cut him off.

"The thought of looking for you or even hunting without you just , it just tore me apart Dean ,I didn't know where to start looking for you , I didn't know if you were dead or alive , I didn't know if you were in hell or finally you had died the right way and gone to heaven . I didn't know where you were zapped to Dean. I prayed to Castiel every night Dean hoping that at least he was alive but eventually I gave up. "

"Sam " Dean said shocked as he saw tears stream down Sam's face.

"I ran Dean , I ran , I couldn't deal with it I was so weak and pathetic and Amelia , Amelia was nothing but a distraction "

As soon as those words left Sam's mouth Sam's eyes went wide , as if he himself couldn't believe what he was saying.

"Sam , it's okay. You can stop " Dean said desperately but Sam seemed to be in a dazed state ,

"No " He gasped " Amelia wasn't ..." He winced , he was still under the spell.

"Amelia wasn't a dist... " He groaned clutching his head .Dean had told him not to lie and if he lied the spell - Dammit what had Dean done?

Dean tried all the while saying things like

Sam its okay

Sam you can stop now

Sammy I understand now ,

You dont have to answer the friggin question anymore .

But nothing worked and Sam kept on talking.

"She was a distraction , nothing but a mere distraction. The only reason I was with her was because , because she kept me from thinking about you . She was a way by which I could keep my mind off you Dean . I fooled myself into thinking that I loved her , that what she and I had was real . But it was all just a big distraction." Sam finished as his hands fell limply on the floor , no longer clutching his head .

"It just seemed so much easier to think you were dead , that way I would'nt have to torture demons and vampires and anything I could get my hands on to get information about you. I was a coward Dean , I took the easy way and ran away towards Amelia "

He was panting , his short bangs were plastered to his pale face . His whole body was drenched in sweat .

"Sammy , I'm so sorry " Dean said desperately , he could,nt believe what he had done to his little brother . Sammy was hurting because of him , Dean could tell that the spell was getting stronger day by day and it had taken affect much more quickly than the last time.

"Sammy .." He began and Sam shrugged Dean's hands off from his shoulders .

'Dont " He snapped , a hurt and weary look in his red rimmed hazel eyes ."You knew this would happen Dean"

Dean bit his lip , what had he done? , how could he ever have considered the possibility of doing this to his little brother . Sam tried to get up and Dean reached out to help him , but Sam snapped Dean's hand away . Dean didn't protest. Sam had every right to be angry .

Slowly Sam slumped into his bed curled on his side , his back towards Dean. His shirt was sticking to his body.

"I'll call Garth and tell him we can't make it" Dean said quietly taking out his phone.

"Dont bother , like you said , it's not like we have a case or any leads" Sam answered shakily and Dean stared at his back.

"Sam , I'm so sorry , I never should..." Dean began.

"But you did Dean, I hope you got the answer you wanted . I'll sleep for some time time and then we'll leave for Garth" Sam said weakly .

Dean flinched at Sam's shaky voice , he wanted to give him a glass of water , check his temperature, get him out of his sweaty clothes ,push him in a shower like he had done last night , feed him some painkillers and then put him to sleep but Dean knew that Sam would refuse.

How could I do this to Sammy ? Dean thought sadly as he rested his face in his palms.

So what do you guys think so far? Should I continue ? Do leave me a review , they make my day and do give me any suggestions if you want to.

Leave a review , dont make me put a spell on you too , oh poor Sam , yeah I'm a sadist.