Cpov
It's been a week since I fucked things up. I've been trying to prove to Ana that I do trust her and show her how much I love her. I can't apologize enough and I can't be thankful enough that she forgave my foolish behavior, but I know it still hurt her to hear the things I said to her in anger when I didn't understand what was going on.
I'm reminded of something my grandfather told me when I was younger because of my temper. He said, 'when you say things in anger to the person you love, it leaves permanent marks on their heart, and no amount of apologies can change that.' He said, 'that saying sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me is wrong, that it's actually words will forever haunt you'.
So all week I've tired my hardest to prove to Ana with my actions that I love her and that I trust her, so much so that I haven't read Boyce Fox's background check. I want to read it, but I want to trust her, so I've just been randomly staring at the closed email all week whenever I'm alone in my office. I only opened the downloaded photo of him last week to show Lilly, I haven't looked at the actual background. Ana assured me she doesn't mind if I look it over, she said she knows I'm curious.
Instead of reading the background check myself, I've decided to hire someone to keep a close eye on the fucker for me. So far, there's no movement. Boyce hasn't been home once since my guy Ryan has been in Detroit. That lead me to my next task of finding any records of him leaving Detroit via bus, plane, or train. But again, nothing. The only way he left Detroit would be if he drove himself. And the only relief I have is that he doesn't have any way of knowing where she is.
I'm walking a fine line of taking complete control of this situation and not going to far where I'm putting her in danger. He doesn't know where she is, so if I go in there, guns blazing, he'll know. Of course, he would likely be arrested but once his sentence is served he'll be free again. We could move, but she would feel as if she was always on the run. I don't want that for her so I'm trying to come up with a suitable outcome, regardless of how badly I want to bury this motherfucker.
Ana has been feeling unwell all week and she's come to the conclusion, the same as mine, that it's the stress getting to her. She's been on high alert since Don asked about her at the restaurant. Being in Seattle and staying at Escala has helped, but occasionally she still doesn't feel well. She said she's trying not to think about it or him but I know she is because she's still getting sick.
Today was the first day she actually felt well enough to go out. I was surprised that she wanted to go shopping, she's not the type, but even more so that she wanted to go without me. Kate picked her up so they could have a girls day of shopping at the mall, but to ensure Ana's safety and to help her breath easy, I've hired a CPO for her. Luke Sawyer is to keep his distance but to intervene if needed.
Since Ana is gone, I was home with Teddy until Elliot came to pick him up for a playdate with Ava. They invited me along, but I had shit to do today.
Now I'm home alone and going through emails for GEH, but the email on Boyce Fox is burning a whole in my screen.
I can't take it a moment longer, knowing his background doesn't mean I don't trust her, it's just a way for me to be better prepared. It's not like I have Dakota Fox's background and I'm checking up on her to make sure she's not lying to me. I need to know about him so I know what I'm dealing with. There could be something else that she forgot to mention to me because she doesn't want to talk about him or her past. That doesn't mean she's hiding it from me, but I still need to know. There are things about my past that I'd like to forget happened and I don't talk about anymore.
Once I close out of a work related email that I've gone over about fifty times and still don't know what it says, since my concentration is off, I click on the email with Boyce's background check.
To say I'm shocked is an understatement. I can't believe what I'm reading.
Apov
I decided to accept Christian's offer and go to Seattle with him and Teddy for the week, just until after the Coping Together event. I know we can't live in Seattle forever... Well, we could, Christian does have a place here, but he moved to give his son a better life so moving back to Seattle wouldn't be what he wants. I'm sure if I mentioned it, Christian would be more than happy to return, but it's not what I want. I just want to be free.
I'm not sure when we'll return home, I just needed a break. I couldn't stop thinking about Boyce finding me, and looking over my shoulder ever two seconds wasn't healthy. I'm glad we're in the city now but I'm still a nervous wreck and I'm still throwing up whenever I think about it. I've tried not to think about it or him, but every so often I'm still getting sick.
Since the charity event Coping Together is tomorrow, the rest of the Greys have joined us in Seattle. Christian's parents still have their house in Bellevue, which is where the event will take place, so everyone is staying there. Christian, Teddy and I are at Escala by ourselves. Mia has tried to talk Christian into taking me to the event again, even asking me to talk him into it. She doesn't understand why I'm not going and it's beginning to raise questions with his parents too. Grace was talking about it the other day as well. To keep his sister quiet, Christian gave her a shopping trip to her favorite local boutique here in Seattle.
Kate arrived, and since I still need to get something for Christian for his birthday next weekend I've asked her to join me at the mall today. I can't very well take Christian with me to get his gift and I could use the help. However, the first store she dragged me into was a lingerie shop. I know he'd love it if I got something from here, so I take a look around.
Kate is buying a bunch of panties and it has me thinking I should buy a few more. Christian has torn a few of my panties when he was horny and in a hurry, but he's replaced them. Maybe I'll shop for panties another day, so instead I focus on Christian's birthday gift.
Deciding on a sexy babydoll nighty with a slit down the front, complete with matching thong; the cheapest thing I could afford in this high-end store, I take my purchases to the counter where Kate is waiting.
I pay with cash even though Christian gave me a credit card with no limit, but I can't very well use it to buy his gift. That just doesn't seem right.
As Kate and I walk down the corridor of the mall, I see a shocking blue jacket on a mannequin through the glass window that separates the store from the walkway. I was going to look for something yellow, since that's Teddy's favorite color, but this jacket looks too good to pass up. Christian would look amazing in it.
Entering the store with Kate, she tries to talk me out of it, but I wont hear it and buy the blue J Crew jacket anyway.
"You know he'll wear that jacket everyday just because you bought it." Kate jokes as we walk out of that store.
I giggle because I know she's probably right. But it's really not that bad.
"You know, Ana," Kate links arms with me as we walk down to another store. "I think Christian would really like it if you came with tomorrow."
"I can't."
"It's a masquerade." She explains about the event. "You have to wear a mask, so we could get you a full mask instead of the eye covering."
"A full mask?" Hmmm. I could do that. Even if my picture is printed, if I keep a full mask on all night, I wouldn't be recognized by anyone.
It has been awhile since Christian and I were alone without Teddy. I was planning on having a private romantic dinner for his birthday, just the two of us. But that's a week away.
"Come on," She encourages, knowing I'm considering. "You know you wanna go."
"I'm supposed to watch the kids." They said Gail usually watches them but she didn't come with us.
"My parents aren't going to the event this year, they can watch them."
"I don't have anything to wear."
"Christian gave you that credit card," She was there when he gave it to me so she knows. "If you're going to be with Christian, you're going to have to get use to the money, I've told you that before. Trust me, anything you buy wont even make a dent in his accounts. He wants to take care of you, let him."
For some reason, and I'm not entirely sure why, that does make me feel slightly better about buying an expensive gown. I'd hate to look at the price tag and think of how much it costs all night.
It only takes me a minute but I finally decide to go. I can surprise Christian so I don't plan on telling him.
"Okay," I agree, "But let's eat first before we look at dresses," I tell Kate as we walk passed the food court. "I'm starving."
Kate squeals, grabbing my hand and leading me to the food court.
I'm in the mood for Subway so we make our way there.
After we order, we find a table and sit down to eat.
As we do, I can't stop the feeling of someone watching me.
I look around but the only one I see is the guy Christian hired to protect me while I was out with Kate today. Luke Sawyer, I believe Christian said his name was.
Christian assured me that Sawyer was very good at his job and I wouldn't even know he was around. I agreed because I wanted to shop with Kate for Christian but I was still feeling unsettled about what happened back home. I couldn't ask Christian to come with us so when Christian suggested hiring security for the day while I was out, at first I thought it was ridiculous, but then I agreed.
As I eat, the feeling in my stomach increases, churning like I'm going to be sick again. I can't get passed this feeling I have that someone is watching me and it's making me feel sick. Of course it's probably the guy Christian hired, but it's still nerve wrecking. I try to put it out of my mind, knowing I'm safe here in Seattle with Christian and the security he hired just a few feet away, but my stomach wont settle. I keep telling myself the feeling is the security, and I almost want to call Christian to have him remove him, but then I'd be left completely vulnerable.
What I really want to do is go back home and take a nap, maybe I can get this feeling to pass.
"Ana, are you alright?" Kate notices, "You don't look well."
"I'll be fine." I take a sip of my water to help the feeling go away.
I still have half my 6 inch sub left and I don't think I can finish it. I'm sort of glad Christian isn't here now because he has an issue with wasted food.
I'll just pack it up and take it home for later. But as I start to wrap it up, I feel nauseous, so I try to breath through it.
"Maybe we should get you home," Kate insists. "We can look for dresses later tonight or tomorrow before the event, if you're feeling better."
I nod at her suggestion.
We stand up to throw away our trash and go home, but the sudden movement makes me feel worse.
"I'll be right back," I manage to say before rushing to the nearest restroom.
Ignoring the concerned look I get from Kate, I run passed Sawyer with him still looking around the food court like he missed something vital. He has a photo of Boyce, I'm not sure if it's a physical photo or if he has memorized it, but I know that's who he's looking for as he follows after me. I'm sure he'll tell Christian about this, but it's really just my silly mind playing games on me like it has been all week.
I make it to the stall just in time to throw up everything I just ate.
"Ana?" I hear Kate enter the restroom.
"I'll be right out."
I flush the toilet and walk out to the sinks where I wash my hands and rinse my mouth.
"I hope you don't have the flu." She says concerned.
Holy fuck. Deja-vu moment. Lilly said the same thing to me a week ago.
I shake my head, not having enough energy to speak.
"Oh god," Kate says in realization, just like Lilly did, like she knows something I don't. "Please say you have the flu."
"I don't think it's the flu, I'm sure I'll be fine." I just need to stop thinking Boyce is nearby and that he found me.
"Ana," She calls to me. "Do you think... Are you... Could you be pregnant? Maybe it's morning sickness."
"I'm not pregnant," We use protection. "it's just my anxiety getting the better of me."
"Do you- I know it's none of my business but, do you and Christian- Are you sexually active?"
Of course we are, he's like sex on legs!
"Yes," I whisper, blushing. "But we haven't been having sex long enough for me to be pregnant."
"When was the first time you guys had sex?"
As I think about it, I realize we've been together and having sex longer than I thought; a little more than a month, plenty of time to become pregnant. However, we use condoms so I couldn't be pregnant, I couldn't be.
"The night after our first date." I answer her anyway, a little embarrassed that we had sex that soon.
"That was like, over a month ago." Kate points out, unfazed with how quickly Christian and I had sex. "That's plenty of time. Are you on birth-control?"
"No, but we use protection." Christian has been using condoms every time.
"No protection is 100% effective." She slightly reprimands me, sounding more like a doctor. I think she gets it from Grace. "When was your last period?"
I use to know when I was ovulating and when I would expect my period, but once I left I no longer needed to.
I try to think of when I had my last period, but I don't remember having one since we've been together. Crap!
"I don't... I don't know, I stopped keeping track of it, I don't remember."
"Maybe you should take a test?" She suggests. "Just to rule it out."
I think about it and decide it wouldn't hurt. She is right, and I guess we have been having sex a lot longer than I thought so it is possible. Not to mention, I've been experiencing other things, symptoms I guess you would say. My breasts are sensitive but they've always been that way. And I have gained weight, but I just put that off as eating healthier. But now I'm throwing up for a full week, and I thought that was due to stress.
We leave the mall and go straight to the nearest pharmacy, with Sawyer driving us in Christian's SUV.
After we pay for the test, I decide to just take it in the store's bathroom. Not a great place to find out, but I can't wait any longer.
Kate follows me inside, locking the main door so nobody else can come in, while I use one of the stalls.
It feels as if I'm staring at the test results for days, my heart is beating so fast. I can't believe it.
When I finally come out, Kate looks nervous for me, more so than I do, and I know what the results are.
"What does it say?" Kate asks after awhile when she can't stand my silence a moment longer.
"I- Um. It says... Uh. I think I should talk to Christian first, before I say." As I say this, I realize it's obvious what the test results are.
"Okay, we'll get you back to Escala... But, Ana..." She says cautiously. "...if you need me, call me. Christian wasn't very... accepting when he found out about Teddy. I don't know how he's going to react now, and I don't want you to leave if he doesn't react in the way you expect. I'm not trying to scare you or say he'll react badly, but I want you to be prepared. Elliot fainted when I told him, so maybe have Christian sit down. I may not know the details of your last argument when you were going to leave last week, but I don't want you to go anywhere. You can stay with me and Elliot if you need to, okay."
"Thanks, Kate." I hug her. "You're a great friend."
I know all about how he ran out on Teddy when his parents introduced them for the first time... but he also told me how he went back after thinking about it. He might need a moment to think when I tell him about this, and that's fine... But Teddy was already born and his mother wasn't some runaway who is hiding from her abusive husband.
What if Christian doesn't want another baby. What if he does, but he doesn't want me anymore because of the danger that surrounds me. Or what if, for whatever reason, we break up... He could take me to court and easily get full custody. These what if's are killing me and the only way I'll receive comfort is if I talk to Christian myself.
Just went I thought I was feeling slightly better, I feel as if I'm going to be sick all over again.
"Hey," Kate rubs my arm to comfort me. "It's going to be okay."
I nod and let her lead me to the SUV.
Sawyer drives us to Escala while Kate tries to comfort me. But I ignore her. The only thing I can think of is when Christian and I got into it last week, after he found that wanted poster of me, how he told me to leave. If I did, he wouldn't know I was pregnant with his baby and I wouldn't have been able to afford to care for another person alone. I can barely care for myself. And if I had gotten on a bus to god only knows where, I wouldn't have enough money to get a bus back to tell him at least for a few weeks. And I don't have a phone, leaving the one he gave me...
Lost in my thoughts, I didn't realize Sawyer has pulled up to Escala until Kate reminds me that I can call her any time. She gives me a few more encouraging words and sends me on my way.
Sawyer makes sure I'm safely in the elevator and on my way up before he takes Kate back to the Greys house in Bellevue.
In the elevator, it feels as if the walls are closing in. I'm pacing and reciting different ways I can tell him. I try just saying it, "I'm pregnant." Giving it to him gently, "Christian, I'm pregnant." Sweet and loving, "We're going to have a baby." As well as other ways to break the news, trying to prepare myself and find the right words to say. I don't want to just blurt it out and I don't know how he's going to react, like Kate said, he wasn't very happy about Teddy's arrival.
But, to be honest, I am expecting him to be upset like he was when he found out about Teddy. And it's nice to be prepared for that. I'm sure he'll come around eventually, but what if he says or does something so completely unforgiveable that I just can't be with him anymore. Then what will I do? Maybe he'll be happy, he has experience now and he is a great dad.
Ding!
Again, lost in my thoughts, I didn't realize the elevator arrived until it chimed it's arrival.
I take a deep breath and step off the elevator.
Before I enter the apartment, I stop thinking Teddy is in there. I can't tell Christian I'm pregnant with Teddy here, I don't want Christian to scare his son if he yells. I'll have to wait to tell him when Teddy isn't with us.
With that in mind, I walk inside the apartment.
It's quiet, so I wonder where my guys are.
I look all over but don't hear or see them.
Christian didn't say they were going anywhere while I was out with Kate. I'm sure he would've called or sent me a text if he wasn't going to be home. I'm starting to feel sick again, getting that gut feeling something is wrong. I wish this feeling would just go away!
As I enter Christian's master bedroom, I find him in the walk-in closet.
"Hey," I breathe to calm my upset stomach. "What are you doing?"
"I was just getting my tux ready." He tells me.
He abandons his tux and stalks towards me- he has an incredible sexy walk. When he reaches me, still standing in the entryway, he gives me a lingering kiss on my lips.
"Did you have fun shopping with Kate?"
"Yeah."
"You didn't buy anything?"
Double crap! I forgot my bag in the SUV. I hope Sawyer doesn't bring it up when he arrives, I don't want Christian to see it. I guess I can text Kate to take it with her until I can get it when Christian isn't around.
"I saw a few things, but nothing worth buying." I make up so he doesn't ask what I bought or where it's at.
"You know you could've used my card if you wanted anything."
"I know, but I didn't need anything. I just wanted to get out of the house for a little bit. We might go back out tonight or tomorrow, I might buy something then."
I don't mention that I'm considering going to the event and what I'm going to buy is a gown to wear.
My thoughts are more of telling him about the pregnancy than surprising him with that.
Maybe I can tell him now, it doesn't look like Teddy is home. But maybe Teddy is napping... I can't tell Christian if Teddy is napping, he'll likely wake him up if he freaks out.
"What is it?" Christian sense I have something on my mind.
Instead of telling him in the closet, I take his hand and lead him back to the bedroom area.
"Where's Teddy?" I ask, because that's the deciding factor if I tell him now.
"Elliot stopped by and got him shortly after you left. He'll be home soon, I think. El said Ava wouldn't stop talking about Teddy all week so they came earlier just so she could play with him. Why, what's going on?"
Okay, well... I guess I can tell him now. We are alone and Teddy's not home.
"I- um. I need to tell you something."
He's quiet as he waits for me to continue.
I haven't had much time to plan how to say this, only the short elevator ride up to the apartment. I'm still getting over how surreal this is.
"Maybe you should sit down?" I gesture towards his bed, remembering what Kate said about Elliot fainting.
"Ana, just tell me what's going on." He insists, a little frustrated, without sitting.
"Okay." I take a deep breath and prepare for the worse. "I- I took a test today, and it came back positive."
That wasn't one of the ways I practiced in the elevator, but it's what came out.
He's quite for awhile. I can't bare to look at him so I keep my head down.
"A test?" He asks, but his tone suggests he knows exactly what kind of test I'm talking about. It's the only logical explanation of what test I would be taking.
"Mhm." I still can't look at him. "It said... It said, I'm pregnant."
Out of the corner of my eye, I see him practically fall onto the bed.
He sits there stunned, running his fingers through his hair.
I make no move, still standing in place and ringing my fingers together while I look at them instead of him. I was holding my breath but since I'm not feeling well, I slowly breath through it.
I'm going to be sick if he doesn't say anything soon. Then when I think of all horrible the things he can say, I start to feel extremely nauseous.
I don't want to move though, and I don't want to be the one to leave even if it is a trip to the toilet, because it may reflect how he feels. And I want his honest opinion about this. But if he doesn't hurry, we may have to continue this conversation in the bathroom.
"That's the reason you've been ill all week?" He finally speaks.
"I think so," I nod because my voice cracks and I'm not sure if he understood what I said.
"Come here." He holds his hand out to me.
I quickly grab his hand and let him pull me onto his lap. I feel safe in his arms as he wraps them around me, and it causes me to snuggle against him.
"How do you feel about this?" He asks me, rubbing my hair and putting some behind my ear.
"I'm a little nervous." I try to downsize how I feel because, "Mostly, I'm worried about what you think of it."
"It's definitely unexpected, that's for sure. But," He pauses. "I'm okay with it."
"Christian, I'm freaking out," I admit, sitting up so I can look at him. My tears are beginning to fall now. "I'm more than a little nervous, I'm terrified. I can barely take care of myself and I know I wont be able to do this alone. I'm really scared and I need you, I can't do this without you, I can't do this by myself. You scared me last week. What if something happens and you decide you don't want to be with me anymore, what will I do then? Will you leave us, or will you take him away from me? Christian, I can't-"
My breathing increases, the tears are pouring now. I'm nearly hyperventilating as I think of all the possibilities, all the what ifs. I'm trying to calm myself down enough so I can talk to him about my fears and worries but I can't stop crying to say anything else.
"Baby," He holds my face between his hands, wiping my tears with his thumbs. "Calm down, breath, just breath."
I do as he says and take deep breathes until I'm no longer freaking out.
"One; I will always want you." He tells me, still comforting me and wiping away my tears. "I know I messed up last week, but even before I knew the truth, I still wanted to be with you. I was just angry, but not towards you. I let that stupid paper get the better of me. I know I fucked up, baby, that's why I came after you. If you left, I would have been devastated and I'm sure Teddy would've hated me."
I laugh a little at that. Thank goodness Teddy didn't know what was going on but I don't think he would've hated Christian, he adores his father and looks up to him. He wouldn't have known why I left, he probably would've been more upset with me than his father because I left without saying goodbye.
"And two; I told you, you will always be safe with me." He smiles, "You belong with us."
"You're my life line." I tell him.
"You're mine as well." He kisses the tip of my nose.
"I wouldn't be able to live without you." I was with Boyce for survival, until I needed to get away from him to survive. I'm with Christian because I want to be with him, I love him. And the thought of being without him is unimaginable, I never want to feel that pain.
"You don't have to." He continues to hold me.
I nod and rest my head against his shoulder.
"I think after the charity event we should go back home," I suggest, not telling him I'm planning on joining him tomorrow at the event.
"Are you sure?" He asks. "Because we can stay here for as long as you like."
"We came here because I was terrified he found me and I needed to get away for awhile, but it's clear I was overreacting. And you're right, he has no way of finding me. I want to live my new life with you, I don't want to just survive anymore. I know I can't do certain things, but I want to at least live. I've been afraid for far too long."
"I'm happy to hear that."
We sit in silence for a while, with Christian holding me.
"So..." He begins, putting his hand on my still flat stomach and brushing his thumb gently back and forth. "We're really going to have a baby?"
I smile down at my stomach and his hand, thinking of how I will look fully pregnant, our baby growing inside of me. I'm still shocked, and I know he is, but I'm glad he's much more accepting of this than he was when he found out about Teddy. I don't know what I would do if he yelled at me, blamed me, and then walked out to get drunk with that vile woman as he did when he found out about Teddy.
"Yup." I answer him. "That's what the test said. But we wont know for sure until I- Oh god!"
"What? What's wrong?"
"I can't go to a doctor, they'll check my information and know that I'm not really Anastasia Steele."
"Don't worry, baby, I'll arrange everything."
I breath a sigh of relief.
I love that he wants to take care of me, of us. I'm so happy with him, I just wish things were different.
"I love you, Christian." I kiss him gently.
"I love you, too, Ana."
We continue kissing, slow at first and then it turns heated. Christian deepens our kiss as he lays me down on the bed. We shed each other's clothes in seconds.
Christian instinctively reaches over to grab a condom but then he stops himself. At first I wonder why he's not using protection, then I remind myself it's no longer needed. But-
"Christian," I stop him from entering me. "What if the test results are wrong?"
"Baby," He laughs, "I'm sure the test is not wrong."
He sighs, seeing the worry still on my face.
"But if you really want me to use a condom until we find out for sure, via a doctor, I will."
"Please," I nod.
He doesn't look happy but then he seems to be thinking about something.
"If the doctor said you weren't pregnant, how would you feel about trying for a baby?"
"It's too soon." I say right away, shaking my head.
If I am pregnant, there's nothing that can be done, but if I wasn't it is too soon to be bringing a baby into our relationship. Teddy is enough for me, for us, until we've been together longer. I'm not prepared to plan a pregnancy at this point in my life but if I don't have a choice, like this surprise pregnancy, that's different. It doesn't mean I don't want this baby, it just means I'd like to be better prepared.
He nods understanding and thankfully grabs the condom.
"I want you to know, the minute we have medical confirmation that you're pregnant, I'm going to make love to you without a barrier between us." He says as he puts the condom on. "I want to feel you."
"After it's confirmed," I stress.
"Yes, dear." He grins.
Christian leans over me once again, continuing where he left off.
I open my legs, spreading them wide enough so he's able to fit right in-between them. He settles himself between my legs, reaching between us to run his fingers along my slit.
He moans feeling how wet and ready I am for him, moves his fingers, and slides right in.
I moan when he pulls out and pushes back inside of me oh so slowly.
He continues the slow pace at first, but then he speeds up, hitting that sweet spot just right. Thankfully the movement isn't too much to upset my stomach.
And when he begins to grind into me, I nearly lose it.
I'm panting and moaning as I move my hips to match his rhythm, but I'm losing stamina. He grabs my ass to help me move.
Wrapping my arms around his neck, I move faster with his help. He is grunting as he pushes deep inside of me, and every noise he makes is turning me on.
I feel myself building until I'm almost there.
"Christian, I'm so close."
I know he's on the edge as well.
Within seconds I'm coming undone, convulsing around him and milking him as wave after wave hits me hard.
Christian continues to move until I'm cuming again, but this time we're cuming together.
"I'm so in love with you, baby." Christian pants as his lips move against mine.
He gives me one last kiss before he pulls out.
I weakly reach for the blanket, not having any energy to get dressed or clean up from our sex and wanting to nap.
He takes his condom off and just as he's about to get off the bed, to throw it away and most likely grab us some clothes before we cuddle together, the bedroom door bursts open and Teddy runs inside.
Christian falls back in bed with me, nearly falling on top of me, quickly covers his dick and makes sure I'm covered. I'm already completely covered because I wanted to take a nap.
I can't help but burst out laughing. We're both completely naked in bed with Teddy in the room. Teddy has never walked in on us before, but we're also careful when we have sex if he's home. If he came in just moments sooner, he would've seen us. I don't know why I'm giggling, I can't help it. We just about got busted by our four year old.
"What you doin'?" Teddy asks us. "Why you in bed?"
"Uh-" Christian is momentarily stunned.
"I was tired and was going to take a nap." I go with a half truth. "Your dad wanted to sleep with me."
"I don't wike naps." He tells us, looking back and forth between us.
"Teddy, where's Elliot?" Christian asks and right on cue, Elliot walks into the bedroom while holding little Ava.
"Woah." He says, shocked, and coming to a stop when he sees the 'condition' we're in. "Well, isn't this an awkward age for Teddy to learn about birds and bees."
"I alweady know about birds and bees, uncle Lelliot."
"Come on, buddy," Elliot ushers Teddy out of the bedroom. "Let your parents um-"
"Nap." I finish for him.
"I'll be right out." Christian says to Elliot before they close the door.
"I really am tired." I tell Christian once they're gone. "I was wanting to nap, I've been feeling so exhausted lately and you've just took every last bit of energy I had left."
"Sleep, baby." He chuckles, getting out of bed.
He grabs one of his T-shirts and helps me into it, then kisses my forehead and makes sure I'm all tucked in before he gets dressed himself.
I watch with heavy eyes as Christian, throws on a pair of jeans- going commando- and a T-shirt before leaving me alone in the bedroom sleep.
I can't believe I'm pregnant. Christian seemed to take the news well, and I'm kind of excited myself. I never expected this when I ran but I wouldn't give up my life now for anything.