The last two weeks since Lou's MRI had flown by. She had kept herself busy with all her work responsibilities and her mind focused on the girls. She had to admit that she had felt like herself again without any hospital appointments to bring her down, until now. Today was the day Lou had to go meet with the consultant to receive her biopsy results. She had barely managed to sleep for thinking about what she was going to be told. Lou had felt like she'd seen every hour through the night on her alarm clock having awoken from a vision of her future. Each time a differing turn of events and how it would affect Georgie and Katie, which would cause further distress. When it was time for her to give up on trying to fall back asleep, Lou made sure her eyes weren't puffy from crying. She didn't want to appear worried in front of her family. So, even though she had woken from a traumatic sleep and was filled with dread, Lou had faced her family at breakfast with a smile on her face. If anyone had noticed they never mentioned it to Lou, only wishing her luck and taking turns to hug her before she walked out the door with Caleb, who had taken upon himself to be her continued chauffeur. Lou knew deep down that her family needed to reassure themselves just as much as they wanted to make her feel better about everything. Today's outcome affected everyone.

Whatever happened would certainly influence the status of her relationship with Caleb. Although he had continued to be there for Lou as a friend, nothing had happened since they had kissed. However, it was clear to them both that there was more to their friendship. Lou had avoided instigating any progression simply because she needed today's results first. She decided that she couldn't ask Caleb to take on anything more with her if it turned out she was facing Cancer, that wouldn't be fair to him. He never pushed her or brought it up and she had appreciated his patience and understanding.

The waiting room was very full and extremely hot. This made the wait more uncomfortable than it needed to be. The noise of nervous small talk felt like buzzing in her mind, unable to differentiate the separate words or conversations from her own thoughts. The mental fog combined with the anticipation of what lay ahead was building in frustration. As the time ticked by her anxiety rose like the temperature of the room as Lou's appointment time had been and gone. The sensation of fight or flight was beginning to take over and Lou really wanted to escape outside for fresh air far away from the agony of waiting endlessly. Finally, when the nurse called Lou's name she felt another wave of panic hit her making her feel light headed and dizzy.

"Will you come in with me?" Lou asked looking at Caleb with fear in her eyes.

"Of course," He replied as he stood, offering Lou his hand for support.

Lou gratefully took Caleb's hand as he helped her up from her chair. They followed the nurse down the long corridor, ready to discover Lou's fate. The nurse showed them into an examination room.

"The doctor will be through shortly" The nurse explained before leaving.

Lou looked to Caleb as her fears were filling her mind. He took hold of her hand and gently squeezed it reassuringly.

"Whatever happens, we've got this Lou." Caleb said full of his usual confidence.

Lou smiled weakly unable to speak. She was barely holding it together. She had to admit she did like the way Caleb had said "we" and his certainty was something she needed. Right now, her fighting spirit had abandoned her, so having Caleb to lean on was a blessing on such a hard day. Thankfully they didn't have to wait long before the consultant arrived and introduced himself. Lou had remembered him from her other appointments and felt a little more at ease with the familiarity.

"Your biopsy results have come back inconclusive" The doctor announced after the obligatory question on how she was doing since he last saw her.

Lou wasn't sure what to feel. It hit her like slamming into a brick wall, fast and hard. That hadn't been what she had been expecting to hear, in her heart she had expected a clear-cut result – that it was cancer. She had never considered this an outcome. The doctor had gone on to say that she would need a second biopsy this time guided by an ultrasound scan. As Lou processed the information she was left feeling disappointed. She had come here for information and was leaving with more unanswered questions instead.

The walk back to the car was silent, an unsaid acknowledgement that Lou wasn't ready to talk about what they had just been told. As they got into Caleb's truck they quietly fastened their seatbelts in unison, never making a sound. It wasn't until they left the city limits that Lou finally broke the silence.

"What do you think?" Lou plucked up the courage to ask.

"Well," Caleb replied while drawing breath, "I think you're awesome and I'm proud of you"

"That's not what I meant" Lou laughed playfully hitting Caleb's shoulder. "I mean do you think inconclusive is a good thing or a bad thing?"

"I think it is what it is Lou… uncertain. I'm not swinging either way, if the doctors don't know, I'm pretty sure I don't either" He replied honestly.

Lou nodded thoughtfully, she knew what Caleb was saying. He was right, the doctors didn't know. There was no way either of them could know and guessing wouldn't give her the answers she craved. The problem was she just couldn't shake the feeling of trepidation. Lou was certain she did know, she knew she had cancer, she just needed the doctors to prove it so that she could get on with fighting back. She needed to have patience and that had never been Lou's strong point.