What I've Done

By: esmtz

Stefan continued to drive towards Mystic Falls all the while getting phone calls from either Damon or Caroline.

'Damon must have called her and told her what happened.' Stefan thought as he once again saw that he was getting a phone call from Caroline.

He had no intention of answering any of Caroline's phone calls simply because he didn't want to hear her try to make him feel better about what he did. He was afraid that Caroline might actually convince him to stop what he was planning to do the same way Elena had along time ago.

'I'm so sorry, Caroline but you have to let me go.' Stefan thought knowing that what he was about to do was what was best for both Caroline and his brother.

As much as he wished that he could be with Caroline right now he knew that it would be a mistake to go to her. He learned his lesson when he realized that he never should have let Elena talk him out of killing himself before.

'All that's happened since then has gradually gotten worse instead of better. I should've thrown my ring into the quarry instead of going with Elena. If I had just ended it back then none of this would be happening right now!'

Stefan was angry with himself because he had the chance to prevent himself from making everyone else's lives worse than what they already were but instead he decided to go with Elena because she was all he had at the time and he loved her. He shook his head thinking about how much of an idiot he was.

'If I really loved her I should have put her safety first above what I wanted.' Stefan thought tightening his grip on the steering wheel, 'I won't make that mistake again.'

For the rest of the drive all Stefan could think about was the pain that he inflicted on everyone else; Matt and Jeremy losing Vicky, Bonnie losing her grams and Enzo, Tyler losing his parents, Elena losing the rest of her family and becoming a vampire, Caroline becoming a vampire and of course everything that happened between him and Damon. As much as he would like to believe that he could atone for everything that's gone wrong because of him he knew that it was a waste of time trying to get people to forgive him for what he's put them through because in the end there was nothing that Stefan could do to bring back the people they loved. He knew exactly where he wanted to end his life as he started making his way to the very spot where Silas had trapped him in a safe and forced him to drown over and over again for months.

'I let Elena drown and that's the place where I forced Damon to turn. It's also where Silas trapped me in a safe and forced me to drown for months so I guess it's the most appropriate place for me to die.' Stefan thought.

Before he drove to the exact spot where Silas trapped him in the safe Stefan parked the car on the side of the road and picked up his phone to call Caroline. He chose her number from his recent calls list and waited for her to pick up. It only took one ring before she answered.

"Stefan! Oh my god where are you I've been trying to get a hold of you! Damon called and told me what happened I was afraid that you might have already-"

"Caroline, listen to me. I'm so sorry for everything that I put you through." Stefan said.

"It's not your fault. Your humanity switch was off." Caroline replied.

"It was still me, Caroline. Everything that I did it was still me and besides it's not just about what happened recently that I'm talking about." Stefan told her, "I'm sorry that I made your life worse than what it was supposed to be."

"But you didn't, Stefan-"

"Yes I did, Caroline! You were supposed to live your life normally as a human not as a vampire! You weren't supposed to know that vampires or anything supernatural even exists and you definitely weren't supposed to get caught up in the troubles that I brought when I moved back here to Mystic Falls! If it wasn't for the fact that I came back to Mystic Falls you would be living your life normally right now!"

"Yeah but I also wouldn't have my daughters or you right now for that matter either so the way I see it I like my life just as it is." Caroline told him.

Stefan didn't say anything for a few seconds as he already knew that she was going to be stubborn about this.

"Stefan?" Caroline asked wondering if he was still there.

"…I just want you to know that I love you and that you were the one person who was really there for me when I needed someone to talk to and you made me feel like I was worth loving. Thank you, Caroline." Stefan said.

"Stefan, wait!" Caroline yelled out before he hung up on her.

Stefan took a deep breath in and then let it out before he started driving again. He saw that Caroline was trying to call him again as he gradually started driving faster as he already knew that he was getting closer to the quarry. The moment the exact spot came into view he turned the wheel to make the car go in the direction where it would drive off the cliff and into the water. Stefan closed his eyes and held his breath as he felt the car drive off the cliff and fall right into the water. The first thing that he noticed was how cold the water felt as it entered the car which filled almost immediately as Stefan suddenly found himself completely submerged. He was unable to breathe as he struggled with himself to try and swallow as much water as he could. His lungs were burning as he opened his eyes and looked around. For a split second he thought he saw Elena right next to him looking exactly as she did when he tried to save her from drowning. Stefan suddenly found himself starting to lose consciousness as everything started to grow dark around him. His eyes slowly closed as his body relaxed; his arms slowly rose to float right in front of him. It was only seconds later that the door to his side of the car was pulled open and Damon was there swimming up to him and getting him out of the car. As quickly as he could Damon got Stefan out of his seatbelt and pulled him out of the car. He then swam as fast as he could back to the surface with Stefan in his arms. The moment he reached the surface Damon gasped for breath as he hurriedly made sure that Stefan's head was out of the water before swimming them both to the other side of the quarry; the exact spot where Stefan had made Damon turn along time ago. Damon quickly pulled his brother's body out of the water and moved him to where they were both on solid ground and away from the water. He gently laid Stefan on the ground before he got on his knees and raised Stefan's upper body closer towards him. Damon started shaking him hoping that it would get his brother to wake up.

"Don't you dare do this to me, Stefan! WAKE UP!" Damon yelled as he kept shaking him.

Damon used his vampire hearing to see if he could find a heartbeat; there wasn't one.

"Damn it, Stefan!" Damon growled as he lowered Stefan's upper body gently to the ground before he started chest compressions.

Several minutes went by as he switched between doing chest compressions and just plain shaking him. He used his vampire hearing again hoping that he could find some sort of sign that his brother was still alive but unfortunately he still couldn't find a heartbeat or a pulse. Damon looked at his brother in fear as he swallowed trying to keep himself from panicking but unfortunately it wasn't working.

"No…no, no, no, no, NO!" Damon said as he once again lifted Stefan's upper body and shook him roughly, "WAKE UP, STEFAN!"

Stefan still wasn't responding making Damon feel like his world just ended. His vision became blurry as tears filled his eyes before they fell down his face. He brought Stefan closer to him as he hugged him tightly.

"Come back little brother…please come back." Damon whispered as he felt like his heart just shattered into pieces.

For what felt like minutes Damon just sat there crying until he suddenly heard something coming from Stefan. He focused his hearing making him aware that what he was hearing was a pulse coming from his brother. He gently laid his brother back on the ground as he once again did a couple of more chest compressions. This time Stefan started coughing up the water that was in his lungs as Damon pulled him towards him to make it easier for his brother to cough up the water.

'Thank God.' Damon thought as he rubbed his brother's back.

"You're okay, Stefan. I got you little brother. You're going to be okay." Damon softly said as he continued to hug him.

The moment Stefan was done coughing up the water he felt himself start to lose consciousness again.

'Damon?' Stefan thought before everything went black.

Author's Note: I just can't seem to stop lying. Every time I think it's just one more chapter before my story ends I'm almost always proven wrong. I guess it's a good thing because that means that my story will last a little longer before I actually do end it. I'm just happy that I finally got this part posted because honestly this is all I've been thinking about for awhile and I needed to get it out. Anyway I just want to thank everyone who has read this story and liked it because lets be honest I wouldn't be updating this as quickly as I am without you guys so thanks. I really like writing this and it really does help me to see your reviews, likes and follows because it helps me to keep going. I'm not sure when I'll post the next chapter hopefully soon but until then I hope you guys liked this chapter.