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SORRY I took so long to update this! I've been a busy bee with my other projects, and BBRae this week, and LIFE, dare I say more.

But here it is and We have a few more chapters left in this story so lets git-er-done!

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PS story belongs to PurpleCat

Chapter 10: Trust

One week later

". . . and then last night they watched one of those Disney movies together till she fell asleep. It was quite adorable." Wow Raven really was acting like a school girl. Phone in hand and boy on the other line.

"Wow," said James, "sounds like they get along well."

"They do." She sighed. She didn't know why she was putting off telling Farah that Beast Boy was her father, it's not like they didn't have a great relationship already, Raven for some reason couldn't bring herself to do it.

"So when will I see you guys again?" James had been asking to see the two for some time, and although Raven did want to see him, she didn't want to see him as Raven. She could already tell that James's opinion was altered slightly learning Farah had powers, and Raven wasn't ready to give up her only connection to normalcy, even if the longer she stayed with her old team, the more she lost the desire for normalcy.

"I'm not sure honestly," she said solemnly, "We'll have to see."

"Ah . . . ok." The conversation lasted just a bit longer before a knock at her door told Raven it was time to go, but she could tell James was disappointed. Of course he always was whenever they had to hang up, she could tell he really miss her and Farah, powers and none. She hung up her cell phone and opened the door for Beast Boy, Farah bouncing excitedly at his feet.

Farah had finally started learning to control her powers and she was learning fast, finally something she got from Raven. Twice a week she would train with Beast Boy, take a bath, then bed. Luckily training took a lot out of her so she was ready for bed as soon as she was done with her bath.

"Mommy I turned into a puppy!" the little girl yelled.

Beast Boy flinched at his daughters yelling as she was getting into that "voice is always loud" stage. "Great," Raven said rubbing her ears, "now go get ready for bathtime." Farah scampered into the room, with her mother shaking her head. She tilted her head to look at Beast Boy, taking notice of the very FAKE smile on his face. It caught her off guard for a moment, but she shook it off. "How is she doing?"

Beast Boy, who had been looking at the ground this whole time with his shoulders slumped, only just now lifted his eyes to meet Raven's gaze. "Oh she's doing great, but she hasn't been able to change into anything larger then a dog." Even the tone of his voice seemed like forced joviality.

"Well that's good." she smirked trying to ease whatever unease he was feeling, "Last thing I want is for Farah to be stomping down main street as a T-Rex."

Beast Boy gave a small laugh, his eyes drifting to the ground again. "Yeah, uh, yeah."

Raven could feel the depressive emotions wafting off of him making her head pound. "Beast Boy, is everything ok?"

He looked back up at her, "Oh yeah, yeah. I'm, uh, gonna, I'm gonna go turn in."

Raven glanced at the clock. "But it's only six thirty."

Beast Boy shrugged. "Yeah, but I'm tired, so I'll, uh talk to ya later." Once again he gave a fake smile and walked off to his own room, but no matter how far away he walked, she still felt his depression and slight guilt.

Farah grabbed her towel and jammie's and ran for the door, dropping her bath toys in the process. "Shit!" She yelled.

I am going to KILL that dragon.

"I dunno 'Wing, I don't like not telling BB or Raven about this." said an apprehensive Cyborg.

Nightwing sat at his desk, head on top of his knuckles in thought. "I don't like it either, but it's better they don't know for now."

"Besides, it's not like we're NOT telling them. Think of it as a lie of omission, ya know, 'what they don't know wont hurt them' and all that." said Landon as he leaned against the wall. He and the dragon knight had told them a while back about the vampire's who attacked so they could take Farah. Since then Landon had been . . . . "talking" with the remaining vampire and was now back to share his findings.

"So your sure he told you everything?" Nightwing asked.

Landon laughed. "Oh believe me my friend," his face fell serious, a dark glint in his eye, "If I had asked him what his favorite pair of colored underwear was, he would tell me."

Cyborg and Nightwing shuddered, but Drake, who was used to Landon and his unique interrogation techniques, was coolly sitting in a chair with his hands behind his head. "So what are we looking at?" Nightwing asked.

Landon spoke casually, as if discussing the weather. "Apparently someone has put a generous bounty on the young lady, alive, and has even outsourced to the supernatural community in order to achieve this goal."

"Well if that's the case why haven't more knuckleheads been pounding down the doors?" Drake asked.

"Well word has gotten around about what happened to those lucky few who dared attack the child and her mother, so many of them wouldn't dare darken this doorstep."

They shuddered again. "Who do we think put out the bounty? Demons?" Nightwing asked again.

Landon shook his head. "Unlikely. As I mentioned, it doesn't seem like demons wish to go NEAR the girl."

"Well that's not good," said Cyborg, "that means we've got a third party after Farah. Could be anyone. Slade, Blood, take your pick."

There was a silent consensus among the group as they thought of their next move. "Okay, Landon keep looking for any info-"

"Ah ah ah. Sorry former Boy Wonder, but I'm not one of your little minions you can order around. I GIVE orders, I don't TAKE them. I am running an empire after all."

"You've been watching Farah and Raven this whole time though?" Cyborg asked.

"Those were MY minions with BASIC instructions. Stop. Protect. Kill. Your asking me to capture and question. Something I, nor my lads, have time for, and this is far to important to pass off to any of my subordinates. However if SOMEBODY," he turned to Drake, "was still knocking in heads, maybe he could pick up some slack."

Drake was cool as he spoke. "I don't do that anymore. I promised Kole-"

"And it's admirable, I'll admit that, but don't you think she'd make an exception-"

"No." he said simply.

"Look we'll figure something out, but is there anything you can do in the meantime?" Cyborg asked.

Landon shuffled, still glaring at Drake who only glared back. "I can talk to some of my contacts, and keep my ear to the ground, but that's it."

Everyone exchanged looks. "That'll be fine. In the meantime we need to continue to protect the tower." Landon vanished from the meeting, but the others stayed behind making plans to keep the girl, they had come to love, safe.

Raven moved her hands through her daughters wet golden hair, the individual strands cascading through her fingers like smooth silk. Never in Ravens life would she ever find herself actually falling in love with blonde hair, yet here she was mindlessly running her hands though her daughters hair while she played with her green teddy bear on top of Raven's queen sized bed.

"Mommy," Farah pulled Raven back to earth with her soft musical tone.

"What is it sweetie?"

Farah shuffled herself around on the bed so she was facing her mother. Her large violet eyes locking with her mothers. "Why have you kept so many secrets from me?"

Raven was afraid of this conversation. Why couldn't she just ask were babies come from. "Well honey," once again the rehearsed answers that she had practiced got lost on her tongue, "I, uh, I left because I wanted to keep you out of danger." She knew it was a piss poor excuse, but it was all she could think of with her daughters large questioning eyes on her.

"But why didn't you come back?" Raven had never seen that look in her daughters face before. She wasn't upset or anything, more like determined. Determined to find answers and not tolerate any more secrets.

Raven took a deep breath. "To answer that Farah I need to tell you who your father is."

"It's Beast Boy." Farah said casually.

Ravens amethyst eyes exploded. Farah said it so matter-of-factly, like she had known the second she met him, for all Raven knew she might have.

"H-how do you know?"

Farah shrugged a shoulder. "A lot of things actually. Cyborg is uncle Cy, Starfire is aunty Star, but Beast Boy is just . . . . Beast Boy. Plus he has pointy ears and changes into animals like me."

Raven was flabbergasted, Raven knew her daughter was smart, but she didn't expect THIS level of intelligence. "There is one thing that I don't know," Farah continued, "why is he green and I'm not?"

Raven sort of knew the answer to that one. "From what I understand, sweetie, he wasn't always green, but I wasn't sure what he looked like before he turned green."

Farah tilted her head adorably. "Could we go talk to him?"

"Oh honey I don't think Beast Boy-" she was going to give an excuse for him, that he was tired or whatnot, but Farah didn't pout, she didn't give the puppy eyes, instead her brows furrowed over her eyes, with a deep frown on her lips.

"I want to go talk to Beast Boy now! No. More. Secrets." Instantly one of the books on Ravens shelves flew off and hit the adjacent wall.

Raven knocked lightly on Beast Boy's door, so lightly in fact that even with his sharp ears there was no way he could hear it, she really didn't want to bother him, especially with his emotional feedback he was giving off earlier. Farah stepped in front of her mother and pounded on the door as hard as her little fist was able. Raven could hear the sounds of loud shuffling from the other side of the door, like Beast Boy was trying to put something away. A few seconds later the door to his room swished open to reveal a red, puffy eyed Beast Boy.

He was about to say something, but Farah piped up, pulling his attention directly to her. "Beast Boy are you my daddy?" she asked suddenly.

Beast Boy's mouth dropped, Raven could hear his breath catch in his throat as he struggled to find the words to say. He glanced at Raven, who had her arms folded, and shrugging as if she had no power over what Farah was doing, which she didn't. Beast Boy finally shut his mouth, taking a few deep breaths before kneeling down to look Farah in the eye.

He gave a sincere smile. "That's me." he finally said.

Farah scanned his face, and saw no sign of deceit. She gave him a wide toothy smile. "I KNEW IT!" She wrapped her father in an enormous hug, tackling him to the floor.

"Ah, Farah be careful." Raven cautioned, but they were to wrapped up in each other to notice her.

Beast Boy was laughing with his daughter as they wrestled on the ground. "Don't worry Raven she's fine." Instantly Beast Boy's mood improved much to Raven's relief. "But why did you tell her without me?"

"Mommy didn't, I knew all by myself." Beast Boy looked to Raven who nodded, yup she found out by herself. "I do have one question though," Farah lifted her head from her fathers chest, "Why are you green and I'm not?"

Beast Boy looked down at his daughter. "Let me show you." He got up and took her to his bed where he set her down and moved to his closet and began rummaging for something, all the while Raven took notice of how . . . clean Beast Boys room was. Was this something else that happened while she was gone? But that wasn't all she noticed. In a closed trunk on the floor of his closet she thought she saw what looked like a small onsie foot sticking out of the trunk. Beast Boy removed a small shoebox from his closet and joined Farah on the bed.

"Farah this is daddy when he was about your age." He removed a few pictures and handed them to her, Raven looking over her shoulder at them. Both girls were stunned by what they saw. In the photos were a man and a women with a little boy on the man's shoulders who was the SPITTING image of Farah. Minus the pointed ears that Farah had, they could gave easily have been twins. Beast Boy handed her a few more photos that they all enjoyed, but finally Farah asked the question.

"Where are they? Your mommy and daddy?"

Raven felt his mood shift instantly back to incredible sadness, depression, and guilt. "Well . . . When I was just a little older then you, I was bit by a monkey, a green monkey, that carried a very bad disease and gave it to me. There wasn't any medicine for it, but my dad, who was a scientist, actually made some medicine for me that made me all better. But when he did, I turned green, got pointy ears and fangs, and got my powers."

"Cool your daddy saved you, just like you saved me!" she shouted.

Raven, who had never heard this story before, shushed her daughter. "Yeah he did," but his the feeling of guilt, and depression only worsened. "A, uh, few years later," his lip began to quiver, a lump forming quickly in his throat, "We went on a boat in the river in Africa, and they . . . " His gaze dropped to the floor, his eyes releasing the tears that he held for his parents. Farah, with tears in her own eyes, because her daddy was crying scooted closer to him, wrapping her little arms around him. Through his tear-filled eyes he could see HIS little girl looking up at him with all the innocence in her soul shining through her violet eyes, once again, piercing the darkness in his heart.

"It's okay daddy." she said softly. He gave a small smile, wrapping his arms around his little girl and cried into her embrace. Raven couldn't stop her own tears from falling watching the two connect, and listening to the tale of his parents. Raven wondered who had it worse. Beast Boy, who had loving parents until they passed away, leaving him alone in the world, or herself, whose parents couldn't care less about her.

Beast Boy whipped the tears away with his sleeve. "It's okay princess. It was a long time ago." The three sat in silence for a bit longer, until Farah let out a huge yawn.

Hesitantly Raven stood up. "Okay Farah time for bed." Although Raven really didn't want to leave.

She cuddled closer to her father set on not letting him go, "I wanna stay with daddy." she whined.

Raven, didn't have the strength to argue with her, she was too drained emotionally to fight with her. She looked to Beast Boy. "She can stay with me tonight, it's fine." Raven didn't have the heart to say no. She gave her daughter a kiss on her head, then gave Beast Boy a warm hug.

"Thank you for sharing." she said into his neck and left father and daughter for the night.

Beast Boy had been awake for the last few hours, Farah right next to him still fast asleep, but his mind wouldn't allow him sleep. The more and more he thought, the more he came to a conclusion in his mind. He couldn't love Raven, he couldn't love Farah, he couldn't love any future children, not until he did something that he NEEDED to do.

He gently lifted his daughter from his bed, made his way to Raven's room, placed Farah's hand against the scanner to open it, and let himself in. After placing his daughter on her own bed in the corner and giving her a kiss, he sauntered over to Raven who was fast asleep. Yeah it was creepy that he was staring, but he had dreamt of this moment for four years. The time when he would see her again, sleeping peacefully, the moonlight illuminating her skin making it glisten like silver, her chakra stone glinting a bright red, her breath's even, and soft as she slept. She was the most beautiful thing he had ever seen.

"Don't worry Raven, I'm going to make things right." he leaned over giving her a gentle kiss on her cheek, before leaving the two girls he loved more then anything in the world to sleep.

Raven felt someone shaking her awake, and after four years it wasn't a mystery as to who it was. "Farah what is it sweetie?" she asked groggily.

"Mommy, where's daddy?"

Raven opened her eyes, remembering that Farah was supposed to be with Beast Boy this morning. She slowly got up from her bed, shaking sleep from her eyes, and walked to the changeling's room with Farah's hand in her own. Once she got to his door however there was a note tapped to the front of it.

Went away, be back soon.

Love Beast Boy.

"Mommy where did daddy go?" Farah asked, somewhat frightened.

"I don't know." she knelt down in front of her. "Why don't you go to the kitchen and see what Uncle Cy is making for breakfast."

Farah sniffed the air. "I think it's pancakes and eggs."

Raven rolled her eyes. "Well go see if he needs help." She spun her daughter around and tapped her behind so she would scurry off to the kitchen. Curiosity about other people wasn't really Raven's thing, but after what happened last night Raven wanted to check in on him. Walking through the door, without opening it, she took a look around. Everything seemed to be in place with nothing too out of the ordinary. His closet was still open and taking a peak inside she saw the shoebox that contained his photos was gone, but her gaze was pulled to the trunk on the floor, with the small foot of the onise sticking out.

Her curiosity getting the better of her she knelt down in front of the trunk, using her powers to open it, and peaked inside.

She placed her hands over her mouth as she gasped, tears stinging the corner of her eyes.

Raven burst into the kitchen, her eyes scanning for her bionic friend. "Cyborg I need you to watch Farah for me."

Cyborg, who was eating breakfast with Farah, gaped at her. Eggs spilling out of his mouth. "Whoa, hey, whoa. I can't watch her Sarah and I are meeting later. She's back on spring break and this is the only chance we have to get together. AND, you were going to have lunch with us to meet her, Remember?"

Raven hit her forehead. "Ugh that's right. Well where is everyone else?"

"Drake is in Montana with Kole and wont be back till later, and Dick and Kori went to the Watchtower."

She furrowed her brow, though her business was urgent, that caught her attention. "Why did they go to the Justice League headquarters?"

Cyborg shrugged. "Something about seeing someone who specializes in Tameranean physiology."

"Huh," Raven let the information sink in, but didn't have time to dwell on it. She HAD to leave, and needed someone to watch Farah. Good thing she had a last resort in mind.

"UNCLE JAMES!" Farah ran at full speed into the arms of her former neighbor.

"PRINCESS!" He spun the little girl around wrapping her in an enormous hug, then turn to Raven, who had taken on her alter identity of Aderyn Taylor, and made sure to instruct Farah to keep the lives to the Titans a secret. Now Farah wasn't a fan of keeping secrets, but she had a crash course in secret identities from Nightwing so she understood and agreed. "Hey Adi."

He gave the fair skinned, black haired, blue eyed women a sideways hug, while he held Farah in the other arm. "Hey, look I'm sorry to put you out like this-"

He held up a hand to shush her, "It's alright, like I've always said, it is NEVER a trouble. What do you have going on?"

"I have some errands to run, and none of her family was around."

He nodded in understanding. "I see, when will you be back?"

"I'll be sure to text you when I'm on my way back, but at least before one." They hammered out the details before kissing Farah good-bye and leaving the two alone to catch up. Raven found a secluded area where she held the small trunk under her coat and removed her the holoring. Black and blue became purple and fair skin became pale, but she kept her civilian clothes of a cardigan sweater, black blouse, floor length blue skirt, and black flats.

She removed her communicator typing the code letting the Titans East know she was going to be visiting.

Terra sat in her room, arms folded, and eyes closed. When Raven called her, she didn't know what to think, her jealous side told her Raven was just going to flaunt her new family in her face, but the other half, the part of her that was finally starting to enjoy life and be happy, wanted to hear her out. A familiar coldness formed in the air, letting her know of her impending, pale visitor. A black vortex emerged inside her room and through it stepped the pale purple haired girl in question.

"Raven." she greeted flatly.

"Hello Terra, thanks for agreeing to see me."

Terra shrugged. "No problem. What do you want?" Raven could tell she was trying to attempt to make amends, in her own way, or at least move on from the past, but it wasn't going to be easy by any stretch, and Raven wasn't going to make it any better.

She took a seat on the other end of the couch. "I found this in Garfield's room." Raven reached under her coat and revealed the small trunk.

Terra immediately looked away, cinching her eyes shut. "Why do you have that?"

Terra's sadness began to fill Raven's empathic senses, but she had to press foreword. "Terra, what's in this box . . . what happened?"

Terra didn't speak at first, she didn't even turn to face her, but Raven could feel her hurt, and depression. "Why are you doing this?" Terra choked.

As tenderly as she could Raven spoke. "Terra, what happened?"

Terra looked foreword, but didn't face Raven, her eyes already threatening tears. "About a year after you left, I found out I was . . . pregnant," he nostalgic smile came to her lips, "I had never seen Beast Boy so happy. It was like when we first met all over again when I said he was funny. He was more excited then I was to be honest, not that I wasn't excited at the thought of having kids." She paused, Raven remaining silent not wanting to push, giving Terra full control of the conversation. Terra slowly took the trunk from Raven setting it on her lap, her finger gently caressing the small box, then slowly, hesitantly she opened the box.

Inside was a different assortment of baby items. A few sonograms, a pacifier, some other smaller items, and a onsie. She picked up the small onsie, a pale green with brown paw prints on the tummy. "This was my favorite thing we got."

Raven's hands were over her mouth, her emotions to great to speak.

"T-terra-"

"I miscarried Raven. I was sick all the time, but I thought it was just pregnancy stuff. Our doctor had no idea what was happening, until finally Cyborg hooked us up with an appointment at S.T.A.R labs to meet with an expert. He said Gar's unstable DNA . . . " she couldn't finish, the knot in her throat to thick. They sat there, the sadness filling the room like water filling a bowl, but suddenly Terra's sadness shifted to anger. She looked at the demoness with furious blue eyes, filled with red and tears. "You had a child with him, and you left him." she hissed.

"Terra-"

"Forget the fact that we were still together, that he cheated on me with YOU. We were having problems, yeah I would have been hurt but I would have gotten over it, but when I saw the light in his eyes when he found out he was going to be a father, thinking her never would, I fell in love with him all over again, but we lost our child!" Raven couldn't speak, all she could do was sit under Terra's rage, it's what she deserved. "When we lost the child, he blamed himself. I had NEVER seen him more hurt, and more depressed. Well that's not true. When you LEFT was a close second." Terra shut the trunk, schooling her feelings, but her anger was still there. "You left him Raven, you gave him something I, nor ANYONE could give to him, and you left." She glared back at her. "I knew when he found out he had a child you know. It was the first time in a long time that he had ANY light in his eyes. I had no idea what it meant, until you came back with Farah."

The two sat in silence again, Raven officially put in her place. "I've excepted it you know, the fact that you two are made for each other, and apparently that's more then just a nice saying." Terra held on to the little onsie, the pain in her eyes shinning like a neon sign. "Don't screw it up." Terra handed the trunk and the onsie to Raven.

"N-No you-"

"No, I don't want them. They are apart of a past that doesn't exist anymore," she took one last look at the onsie, "It was going to be a boy. Yesterday was my due date, he would have been two, Now please, leave." Raven stared at Terra a few moments longer, but Terra was done talking. Raven gathered the trunk into her hands and left the same way she entered, and reappeared on the outskirts of Jump City in the forest. Looking around making sure there were no people she dropped to her knees, and sobbed.

Raven let her powers loose for a good couple of hours before texting James to let her know she was on her way, but even then she had to wait a bit longer to compose herself and make herself look like she hadn't been crying for the last two hours. Finally when she was satisfied with her appearance, ring and all, she knocked on his door.

"Hey James," she greeted, but he held a finger to his lips silencing her.

"She's asleep." He stepped aside letting Raven into his home, and saw Farah fast asleep on his couch.

"Big morning huh?"

He laughed. "Yeah she and I played, she even changed into a cat, before she passed out."

Raven rolled her eyes. "She's not supposed to use her powers outside the tower." she groaned.

"Hey it was all in good fun. Want some tea before you leave, I'd love to catch up."

Raven looked at a nearby clock, she had time before she had to meet Cyborg and Sarah for lunch. "Sure." James smiled brightly and disappeared into the kitchen. Raven took a seat on the couch be her peacefully sleeping daughter, exhausted herself from the emotional outpouring she put herself through, so she was unable to sense James or his emotions. It was just as well, gave her a chance to be normal for a bit, and a small chance to relax. She was still reeling from the information she heard from Terra, and as she sat looking down at her daughter, her whole world, she couldn't imagine the pain she had gone through, but she now knew what she needed to know about Beast Boy, helping her make a decision.

James came back with a cup of her favorite tea and handed it to her. "So how are things? Ya know with her father?"

She took in the scent of the fresh tea, allowing the hot mug to warm her hands. "Things are good. They get along well."

He was quiet as he thought of his next question. "So will you two . . ?"

She didn't move, except to take a sip of her tea. "I don't know quite yet. Right now we're just working on being friends." She looked down at Farah. "Right now she has all my love."

James smiled. "I'm glad to hear that . . . Raven."

She smiled, but it quickly faded. Her head snapped in his direction, her vision getting blurry, her head spinning. "Wh-what did you . . call . . . " She fell sideways on the couch. He caught her head slowly easing her down to the armrest of the couch, making sure she didn't hurt herself, then moved his hand to her own to remove the titanium ring, revealing the purple haired empath underneath.

He brushed her cheek with the back of his hand. Even though she had changed appearance, she was still amazingly beautiful. "I'm sorry that I have to do this to you Raven. I really did . . . love you, the both of you." He disappeared into the other room getting a pair of zip ties and tying her hands and ankles along with Farah's and got them ready for delivery.

So I did something completely different then with PurpleCats, in the original James wasn't a bad guy, and I wasn't sure if I would make him one myself, but the more I played with it the more It just made sense at least how the rest of this story goes.

Anyways I hope you enjoy read and review and we'll cya next time.