Kyle hasn't noticed that I had cut back on texting him and calling him as much. We have had a few texting sessions. One phone call because he wanted to hear my voice. Otherwise he has been focused on his work and I have been focused on mine. At least this time when I see him in room full of people. Less likely for us to start fucking. There are people everyone for this rehearsal dinner sadly his parents were not able to make it but they will be there for the ceremony. Seems more people from Catherine side than Kyle's is attending the wedding.

I am having to walk down the aisle with some girl Catherine went to college with. She is a total bitch by the way. She claimed if I touched her wrong she would get her boyfriend to kick my ass. She is not even cute so I pay her no mind and remind myself I am doing this for Kyle. The wedding is actually tomorrow so we do not have a lot time to get this right but what is hard about walking down an aisle.

By the end of the night I am really tired. I refused to stay with Kyle and rented a hotel room for myself. Kenny said he was proud of me or whatever. I am just doing what needs to be done. I can't even sleep that night because I am so nervous. Deep down I am hoping that Kyle calls this circus off, he doesn't.

As expected Kenny planned a surprised bachelor party. I find that funny at the moment since I am sure Kyle is not going to pay any of those women a bit of attention. I think Kenny just wanted an excuse to see women on poles and maybe get some ass. I don't understand why since he can do this any time he wants. I refused to go to the party because it's not my thing and I know Kyle and I would somehow end up alone. I can't take that risk right now.

The wedding was not perfect either. Mrs. Broflovski made a scene like Ike said she would when she realized that they were not doing a Jewish ceremony. She didn't have a problem with the fact that Catherine is not Jewish she just felt like she could at least respect them and do the ceremony. It was just horrible. Catherine was doing her best not to cry from embarrassment while Kyle was trying to get his mom to calm down along Ike. Mr. Broflovski as usual is of no help. Ike had to end up escorting her out. I am sure Craig is someone out there laughing his ass off.

Currently at the reception. I just got done giving my somewhat bullshit speech about happiness for the two of them forever. I wonder to another area in this palace they got married in. I can't read the signs since they are in French. Some New Year. I brought that in with my face in the pillow because I had to ensure I was well rested for this wedding. I am standing with my drink looking outside. I hug myself tight because I just have on my suit and no coat.

"What are you doing?" asked Kyle.

"Getting some fresh air," I replied. "I am good now so about to head back inside." He grabs my hand.

"Where are you going? I haven't really had any chance to talk to you."

"I know but there is not much for us to say. You should be in there with Mrs. Broflovski" I snort.

Kyle frowns. "I will be with her tonight before getting on the plane. I wanted some time with you too." I laugh knowing this is pissing him off.

"Whatever we had is officially over. You are a married man now. This wedding is over. I don't have to talk to you or see you ever again." I start to walk away.

"You can't mean that!" cried Kyle.

"I mean every damn word of it" I growl at him. "You made your choice when you married her. Yes, I do love you. I am sure you know that. I refuse to be your side piece or bitch or whatever they call it. Have a nice life." I officially walk away with tears streaming down my face. This was the hardest thing I ever had to do. Leaving Kyle in his time of need will without a doubt leave him even more stressed. I wipe my face before heading outside to call a taxi. I don't bother saying good bye to anyone. I know I will see Craig and Ike around and Kenny will I can text him like I have been doing. I take an early flight back home to South Park. My heart is so heavy when I walk through the door of my townhouse.

I think my next book is going to be on heartbreak.