Whole world could change in a minute
Just one kiss could stop it spinnin'
We could think it through
But I don't want to if you don't want to
Or we could keep things just the same
Leave here the way we came
With nothin' to lose
But I don't want to if you don't want to
Mac stood and listened to the music that was playing. Just one kiss she thought. They've had that kiss time and time again. Nothing has changed yet. Leave here the way we came? How could she do that? She would still be hopelessly, misserably in love with him. Then again, she wanted to stay in love with him. A world without loving Harm was no world at all, was it? Of coarse it was, just not one she wanted to figure out. The song was wrong. If she left, she had everything to lose. If she surcame to her hurt, her anger, she would lose. She would lose the love of a man who she had been dreaming about for years. Wait a minute. Stop right there. He doesnt love her, he hasn't told her that he does. It was all just wishful thinking on her part. But...if there was even a small chance that he did...well.
If he didn't love her, if he didn't want to be with her, then why would he go to so much trouble for her? There were so many flowers. They much have cost a small fortune. One, she was sure, Harm didn't have. Maybe he was just trying to apologize for the other night. But then, wasn't she the one that should be doing that? She had been cruel, spiteful, and frankly a bitch.
I got your ring around my neck And a couple of nights I don't regret You got a dream of a degree And a shirt that smells like me
I got your ring around my neck, she thought. Well, that didn't fit. But, they definatley had quite a few nights that they wouldn't regret. They also had quite a few that they would...like the other night.
You got a dream of a degree? I guess you could say that. For years she has seen herself married to Harm in her deepest dreams. They would have four children, a Newfoundland dog, a big house on a hill over looking the sea. Yes, that was her dream. She wanted to wake up beside him every morning. Make lunchs for their kids as she sent them off to school, go to work knowing that she had her family waiting for her. She sighed. If only, she thought.
Mac laughed inwardly. A shirt that smells like me? He couldn't have known that she stole one of his shirts when they were off on assignment out in the Atlantic. If he knew that then he also knew she slept with it every night. It was beginning to lose his sent. Maybe she could manage to thief another one...
Yeah, we both got dreams We could chase alone Or we could make our own
Yeah, we do both have dreams. Mine is a family and a yard full of kids. And his is...well, his is a life a sea flying fighter planes. How was she suppose to chase hers alone when it took two people to create? It was easy enough for Harm. It only took him and a plane to achieve his dream. She continued to listen as the song came to an end. She didn't want to turn around and face him. She wouldn't turn around a face him. She had too much pride. Wasn't pride what got her into this place to begin with? How could she, even now, be swallowed by her pride? Well, it was her turn to do the swallowing.