"I swear, in that moment, we were infinite." or so I thought we were...

Riley rushed home from school and avoided everyone for the rest of the day with the excuse that she had a a boat-load of homework today. She replayed the events that went down today in the imaginary slide show of her mind as she plopped down on her desk, her bag falling to the ground in a loud 'thud.'

"I am so sorry," Maya said.

Riley shrugged and let out a deep sigh, "This wasn't exactly how I imagined this going down."

"You're not mad?" Maya looked so worried.

Riley wanted nothing more than to hug her, so she did. They held onto each other for a moment, and then Maya found Riley's lips. She kissed her hard, swearing that this was right and good and real. Cheers broke their little bubble, and they separate. With a final shared smile, they took their seats near the front with Lucas, Farkle, and Zay sitting in their respected spots.

"Maybe I shouldn't have kissed her. Why did I it happen? The whole class saw us practically make out, so why did I lose myself and not rush into panic mode right then and there?!"

In that moment, Riley booted up her laptop and opened up a blank word document, wanting to type away her frustrations to the only person she knew would listen without any questions asked.

Dear friend,

I've had better days. Our whole school saw the snapstory of Maya in my shirt. I thought I was fine, and in that moment, it felt like nothing else mattered because I got lost in those beautiful eyes of hers, but little did I know that I was actually a mess. A nervous and terrified wreck. I didn't realize this until my father walked in and started his lecture and I was left alone with my thoughts. In that moment, I blacked out and thought I was going to puke up whatever bit of breakfast that was still undigested in my stomach.

I was outed by mistake. I didn't want for this to happen so suddenly. I wanted to take things slow and ease my way out, but now I'm left here on damage control. It's as if someone ripped off the metaphorical band-aid of my hetero-like facade and left me to tend to my lez-be-honest and gay wounds. How will I tell my parents? How will I even explain this to Auggie? The whole school knows so my dad is bound to find out sooner or later. I honestly don't even know how to face this.

I'm starting to get bad again, friend, and I don't know how to stop it...

Riley typed away furiously on her keyboard, tears slowly falling on the keys unknowingly as she finished up the last written thought before hitting 'upload.' She posted the letter on her anonymous blog and immediately exited out, slamming the laptop shut before groggily heading over to her bed and crashing down on top. She slid away into the covers and tried muffling the sounds of her anguish-filled sobs with her pillows so no one in the house would hear. After what seemed to be an eternity of sobbing, Riley finally passed out, unaware of a certain blonde watching her cry from outside the bay window.

Riley had made sure to lock it beforehand, knowing all too well that Maya wouldn't simply leave her alone for the night, especially not after what just happened at school earlier that day.

Maya got in her car and hit play on her spotify playlist, shuffling her daily playlist as she zoomed on to the streets. Three or four songs with heavy guitars and drum beats blasted through the stereo as she drove over to Riley's house. She knew something wasn't right, but she tried clearing her mind by singing along to the song pouring loudly through her speakers.

"Stay for tonight

If you want to I can show you what my dreams are made of

As I'm dreaming of your face

Slipping away for a long time.

such a long time

that I miss you there.

I can't imagine being anywhere else

I can't imagine being anywhere else but here.

How the hell did you ever pick me honestly.

I could sing you a song

but I don't think that words can express your beauty.

How the hell did we end up like this?

You bring out the beast in me.

I fell in love from the moment we kissed

since then we've been history.

They say that love is forever

Your forever is all that I need

Please stay as long as you need.

Can't promise that things won't be broken

But I swear that I will never leave

Please stay forever with me..."

By the time the song ended, she arrived at Riley's place and immediately jumped out of her car. She never bothered to use the front door. Of all the years she's knows Riley, the bay window was the only entrance she ever used to come and go and it's the only one she will ever use. This time, however, the bay window was locked.

'What the- Why is it locked?' Maya thought to herself as she tried pulling the window up again. She peered in and saw a small lump hiding under the covers. Maya caught a glimpse of a familiar face wiping her eyes from under the pillow, completely unaware of the blonde's presence by the window.

'Riles? Why are you crying?' She observes quietly for a moment, feelings of worry taking over her body. She pulled out her phone and quickly typed out a text, sending it to Riley.

Honey: "Riles?"

She watches Riley pick up the phone and open the text, only to find her setting her phone down without replying. Maya huffed and sent out another text, knowing damn well she can't ignore it this time.

Honey: "Ring power."

Maya saw Riley groan and push back her covers, before reluctantly getting up and trudging over to open the window.

"What, Maya. What is it?" She said in a small, tired voice.

"Riles, you locked the bay window on me. What's going on?" Maya immediately climbed in and closed the window before taking a seat besides Riley. She hesitated to take Riley's hand, unsure if she would pull away from her or go back to bed, so she stayed still.

"Talk to me, please Riley. What's going on in Rileytow-"

"-I'm not in Rileytown right now!" She cut in, almost yelling at Maya. "Can't you see how much of a mess we're in? The whole school knows about us! We-We barely even started dating and now everyone knows, all because you had to go ahead and post that stupid video of us!"

Riley continues to explode, not letting Maya get a single word in, as she directs a stream of word vomit at the smaller blonde., "I'm sure my father even knows about us and pretty sure he's gonna come home and burst right into my room with my mother trailing behind him. And-And my brother! Oh God, Auggie! How the hell am I going to explain this to him? All that he knows about love is that he's gonna marry Ava when he grows up!"

Maya grabbed Riley's shoulders and shook her a bit in attempts to stop her from talking and having a spontaneous combustion, "Riley, stop! Stop talking! It's going to be okay!"

"How do you know that Maya?! We've barely made it through junior year. How the hell do we know what to do when it comes to this stuff if we just started to express our feelings to each other?"

Maya grabbed her face and pulled her close, pressing their foreheads together as she spoke in a calmer, softer voice, "We will figure this out, together. I can't promise that it will be easy or that things won't ever be broken and in need of epic repair, but I swear to you, Riley Matthews, that I will never leave. I can't imagine being anywhere else, but here with you, in this spot, and having this very moment with you. I'm not going anywhere, honey."

Riley's eyes start to glaze over again, this time she is unable to hold back the tears as she wraps her arms around Maya's neck and hugs her tightly. Maya immediately snakes her arms around her waist and comforts her as she hears Riley whisper softly into her ear in between broken sobs.

"Peaches, I'm so scared."

"I know, Honey," She rubs Riley's back gently and places her chin on her shoulder. "I am too, but we will make it through this journey together. Who knows what will happen. Who knows anything?"

Riley wipes her eyes and pulls back a bit to wipe her nose on her sleeve. She clears her throat and speaks up.

"I do. At least I think I do, now that I got to talk to you. If I learned anything in this life, it taught me that if you're lucky in this life, you get an extraordinary relationship." She looked up at Maya and smiled softly.

"My mother and my father met each other very early, just like us, and look at them. They stayed together for the rest of their lives." Maya smiled up at the brunette, eagerly listening to her while looking up into her eyes.

"I may not know what will happen exactly, and I may be scared to death, but even through my sadness, if there's one thing I know for sure in my life, it's that you are my extraordinary relationship, Maya."

Riley held her hand up to Maya and Maya shot her trademark grin at Riley, "Thunder."

"Lightning," Maya responded, moving her free hand up to hold Riley's. She laces their fingers together and looks down at their hands before moving her gaze to catch Riley's.

"Forever."

"Forever." Maya pulled Riley in and kissed her softly, holding the sweet kiss for a brief moment before pulling back to comfortably nestle her head on Riley's shoulder. Riley slowly rests her head on top of Maya's and closes her eyes and she sits in a comfortable silence.

'Maybe we'll be okay after all. Maybe we are infinite.'