11. I didn't love him
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I didn't love him.
When I say that, it doesn't mean that I didn't love him at all. I did, in my own way. But not like I loved her, or the way he loved Duko.
In school, I loved her. I still do, so much. But it wasn't meant to be.
When I saw Fiyero again, I was so lonely that I took the comfort he offered me. And like I said, I did love him in my own way… just not the way I loved her.
I know more than once he wished it was Duko, not me that he was making love to. I knew he loved me in his own way, but it wasn't they way he loved Duko.
I mourned for him, and I still do.
But…
I didn't love him.
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3/19/2006 8:02 PM