Kevin looked at the clock for around the 10th time in an hour. Sister Stuck, as he'd now nicknamed her, was staring at him as they all sat quietly around the dinner table. Honestly this was exhausting. Connor was never late for dinner and it was selfish of him to make Kevin worry. Anything could happen- just as Naba had warned him the first day he'd gotten there.

"So Sister, how are you finding Uganda?"

"Oh it's gorgeous. Everything here is just so much better than America"

Kevin snorted rudely, keeping his eyes squarely on his plate. She was so goddamn obvious and it made him feel ill. From the small coughs and shuffles around the table the rest of the Elder's were feeling as uncomfortable as him.

"I wonder where Elder Mckinley is"

Kevin's head snapped up at the first mention of Connor's name for the last few hours and locked eyes with Elder James, noticing a strange look on his face. What was wrong with this kid?

"Well actually it's perfect he isn't here, we need to go over his birthday arrangements!" Elder Thomas grinned, clapping his hands together excitedly. He grumbled, pushing around the food on his plate and pretended to mask his surprise. Jeez he didn't even know it was his birthday- he'd nearly forgotten his own existed if he was honest with himself.

"Oh really? How old is he going to be?" He asked nonchalantly, praying that he had kept his voice neutral enough. He was doing a good job turning off the numerous thoughts he had, even in the daylight now.

"Twenty One"

Kevin lifted his head once again to look towards the voice that had spoken, noticing a wide smile and a delicate blush peppering Elder James' cheeks.

"How did you know?!" Elder Church exclaimed

All of the occupants of the table turned to look at the man, who could most definitely be described as plain, waiting for a non psychic explanation for this.

The Elder cleared his throat, his cheeks darkening in colour. "We used to know each other when we were children. He hadn't recognised me but I couldn't forget him"

"You knew each other?"

"Ahem... yes. We've known each other since we were 4. We grew up next door to each other and we were best friends"

Kevin knew he was grilling the poor guy but he'll be damned if he wasn't going to find out this guys deal. Was he a stalker? A murderer? What was his mission here? Was he even interested in converting people?!

"So how come he doesn't recognise you if you spent all of that time together?"

The rest of the tables, he was sure, could feel the tension that radiated from Kevin and had begun to feel the same from the now unknown Elder.

"I had to escape a part of my identity so I changed my name"

"So which is the real you?"

"The part that loved Connor Mckinley!" he yelled, causing both the tension and the quiet conversations to drop to the floor like weights.

He felt his jaw tighten. Kevin had never hit someone before but dear god did he want to do it now. Curse the mission. Curse everything and everyone else.

"B-But Elder Mckinley isn't... that" Elder Thomas spoke up meekly from where he sat, causing the rest of the table to nod in agreement. They all knew Connor had always struggled but he'd never succumbed. He'd been converted.

"A long time ago he said he had feelings for me but I couldn't let him. His parents were heavily Mormon and I... I wasn't ready to admit that I might have feelings for him too. So... long story short he was sent to a conversion camp"

"You FUCKING what?!"

Kevin had stood up from his seat before the boy had even had a chance to blink and had him pinned to the crumbling wall before anyone else could react.

"You couldn't handle the fact that you were gay and had feelings for a boy who felt the same so you had him sent to hell?!" he spat in his face, tightening his hold on his collar to a point where the colour had drained nearly completely from his face.

"Elder Price!" Sister Smith gasped, placing a hand on his shoulder gently. He tensed but reluctantly let go of the slimy maggot of an Elder.

"You are lucky that we aren't Mormons anymore. I don't think it's written anywhere in the Book of Arnold that I have to be polite to you"

The Elder slid to the floor, gasping for breath and staring incredulously back at Kevin. He graced him with a scathing look before pushing the comforting hand from his arm and storming out of the mission without casting a second look back at either of the people staring after him.

He breathed deeply through his nose, slowly counting backwards from ten. Cussing softly, he tried desperately to clear his mind from the multitude of unholy thoughts running through his mind. Connor had loved someone else but he didn't recognise him. Kevin was trying to forget his thoughts and dreams of the man but yet he fought for him. It was impossible for him to do all of this at once.

"Elder Price, what was that about?!"

Kevin breathed a frustrated sigh but plastered on a long suffering smile as he turned to face her. Heavenly father had given him this opportunity to change himself and his future as a missionary. All he had to do was stop. Stop caring for this man. Stop suffering to stop him from suffering. That wasn't what 'friends' did.

"I'm sorry Sister, I've always been against these conversion camps. Heavenly father made us this way for a reason. He doesn't make mistakes, only challenges"

The girls eyes lit up brightly before sidling up to him and placing a hand on his shoulder shyly. She fluttered her eyes up at him, the devotion as clear as day.

"Oh Kevin, it's so lovely that you care so much for these... abominations. It just makes you all the more humble"

Kevin shivered perceivably at her words and her touch, they were both as disgusting as he figured they would be. He shifted, taking a long deep breath in. Signs from above should not be cast aside.

"I have to. You know the type they are. Just as long as they can live a life as well. Still, the thought of homosexuality disgusts me. I just hide it very well"

The sister sighed and nodded in loving agreement as Kevin slid his hand into hers. She gasped and looked up at him.

"We share the same views on so many things. We could be the most successful missionaries. Imagine how happy our parents would be- we could make up for not following the Mormon faith but instead creating something better. I couldn't think of anyone better than both of us, especially if you have me by your side"

The image formed in his mind of their future together. A tall white building set, where else, in the center of Orlando with his face in the center. Small children ran together in the garden, giggling excitedly as they waited for their parents to finish their sermon. Nabulungi clutched her hand lovingly to Arnold's as they swept their children into a fierce hug, Arnold tickling them mercilessly as Naba looked towards the door to see the rest of their congregation file out. Kevin noticed himself as he joked, leading his love out of the door with the rest. A flash of red made him try to force himself from this daydream but he heard the pearly laughter of his- he glanced at the hand that held onto Connor. Of course they were married. They both ran towards the kids, shocking them with hearty roars.

"Elder Price?"

A voice pulled him from the dream and he shook his head in confusion. He was doing just as heavenly father had asked and he was still not being allowed reprieve from these stupid daydreams and nightmares. It was obvious that this wasn't good enough for the one above.

A grin spread across his face as he pulled the sister into an embrace. "What is your name?"

Sister Smith blushed deeply, lowering her head and toying with a loose button on her shirt. "Ellayna"

"Mine is Kevin. Please- we can't talk in titles if we're dating. That would be really strange"

Ellayna grinned brightly, hardly believing her luck. It had been a struggle to admit feelings when she was back in the US as she was the strange mormon kid. She'd been here two weeks and she had already found and started dating the most attractive man she'd ever met.

"Now that we've calmed you down I think we should go back inside. No doubt they'll want your help planning Elder Mckinley's birthday party! You've been the nicest about this little... quirk he has."

Ellayna, like the excited puppy type girl she was, leaped ahead of Kevin back into the mission with glee. She was delusional or completely clueless he was sure. The last thing they would be talking about after his little performance would be Elder McPerfect's birthday.