Let's start over.
I'll try to do it right this time around.
It's not over.
'Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killing me,
But you're the only one.
It's not over…/
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Day 3 now. Emma spent the third day by herself though, just sitting in her bed and ignoring the world. She wouldn't even look at her phone. She hated to think about what happened last night. She felt so bad today too and just didn't want to go out. She also didn't want to think about Jay. It hurt her head too much- and started to mess with her heart.
She cared for him. Deeply. She always knew that. He had a certain part of her that she was sure she wouldn't ever let go nor could. Hell, she could easily see how girls fell head over heels for him too. She was just as smitten, but too scared to say the word 'in love'. That made it too real, too scary. Too sad. It was sad because as she said before, she didn't think she could ever trust him to make it official. She was grown up now, wanted something real- and as much as she believed what was between her and Jay was real, it was a pain to think she'd have to put up with infidelity if she got together with him. And she had already wasted years on Sean- she couldn't do it again with Jay. Even if she could admit to herself the feelings she felt for Jay were a little more passionate and stronger. But that just made it harder.
"Em?" she jumped, looking up and saw Manny standing in her doorway. "Spike let me in.." she drifted, hoping that was ok.
Emma just looked down and played with her hands in her lap. Manny frowned deeply and slowly went over and sat beside. After some silence, she finally spoke.
"I'm really sorry if you ever felt like my shadow, or that I intended that for you or.." she sucked in a shakey breath. She didn't know how to say this. "Emma you're beautiful, and if you want to be with Jay. You can have him."
"I can have him? I have your permission? Your offering?" Emma took that the wrong way.
Manny's eyes widened, "No! Em." She pouted and sat to face her more directly. "He is so in love with you. Can't you see that? I didn't mean it like that!"
Emma just mumbled under her breath.
Manny tilted her head, eying Emma closer, "Do you love him too?"
Tears built up as she glanced back at her closest friend, "Ofcourse I do, Manny. I've been through a lot with him. He knows everything about me."
Manny smiled sadly. "You're the only one who puts up with his crap and know how to handle it."
"He does the same for me." Emma laughed unfortunately.
"Then you belong together." Manny put her hands on Emma's arm, shaking the blonde a bit.
Emma giggled but frowned sadly. She admitted in a whisper, "I don't think I trust him."
Manny frowned at that too. I guess she could see why. "But Em, I really think he's different with you.. I think he's changed. And is trying to be better."
Emma raised an eyebrow at Manny. That was a lot for her to probably say.
"I love you." Emma pouted.
Manny snickered. "You better." She took a deep breath, "Now. Tell me about this hot little hook up you and Jay supposedly had yesterday. Was it good?"
Emma's eyes widened. "He told you!? Manny I'm so sor-"
"Relax." Manny smiled a little back at her blonde friend, "He's yours. I think I knew it before." She said with an ashamed look. "plus." She laughed a bit, "I'm so over him."
Emma groaned and just gave Manny a hug. She needed her best friend right now. "I don't know what to do."
Manny rubbed her back. "You'll figure something out."
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"So you pissed her off. Caused a fight between her and her best friend. And now you're here, talking to me about it?"
Jay stared bluntly back at Alex and nodded.
Alex rolled her eyes, "You have always been an idiot when it came to girls Jay. I don't care how much experience you've had with them, you're so arrogant."
"Well then tell me, oh wise one." Smirked Jay.
Alex snickered at him. "If you think you're going to get Emma Nelson by pissing her off? Think again. She'll grow resentful toward you. Especially if you just ruined her friendship with Manny Santos. Those two are like magnetic forces to another."
"..And you've already got a bad past with her. The whole ravine thing. I can tell you personally it's not easy getting over."
Jay coughed awkwardly, "I know.." he looked down and then itched the back of his head. "I don't want to be that guy anymore. I cringe when I think about how I use to be. I want to better."
"You have been better." Alex admitted. "But she needs to see that."
"I hate that I did that to her." He corrected himself quickly as her eyes widened at him, "And you! I just.. I want her. I've wanted her for a really long time and it's not going away."
Alex laughed. He spoke of his crush on Emma like it was another disease or something. She didn't get it either. But he really was smitten. It was more than a crush too, Alex could tell. I guess in a way she had to admit Emma was getting better, less annoying, and yeah, maybe hot too. She was trying to help Jay win Emma's heart, but how the hell did you do that when the two have been nothing but enimies? Maybe now they could tolerate another but Alex wouldn't exactly call them buddies.
"So you've had sex?" she asked. Jay nodded. "And she just.. doesn't want to take it to another level?"
"She said I 'used' her."
Alex thought. "Maybe she feels like you did in the past so you might as well be doing the same thing now. She's not over it."
"I.." he cringed, "..guess my feelings weren't 100% sorted out when we first fooled around, but they were as genuine as they could be for me back then. I told her I liked her virtue. She was the one who called it quits on our .. 'arrangement.'. I told her I liked her goodness and she shit on me."
"That's just it, Hogart." Alex taunted, "She doesn't want an arrangement. She probably felt like another side slut of yours- Hell, probably felt like another Amy. So what did her 'virtue' matter to her anymore when she felt like that? She probably didn't believe you nor think she had that in her anymore, so what else would you want from her? Shit. Nelson sounds all sorts of insecure. I'd blame Cameron."
"He's a fucking asshole." Muttered Jay but his eyes were open now.
He had to go see Emma.
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Day 4. Emma walked into the diner and wore her skinny blue jeans and white top that tied around the back of her neck and lower back, leaving her back a little exposed but when Emma Nelson wore it, it looked classy and just enough 'skin', not too much.
Jay stood up straight when he saw her come in and when she looked up, headed toward the counter he sat at, she stopped slowly in her tracks. She went to turn but he ran over quick, "Wait wait, wait."
Emma tossed her head back, but turned. She had no choice; he grabbed her arm.
Jay sighed sadly and just begged, "Can you just hear me out?" he didn't plan to see her here, he was going to have breakfast, then drive over to her house to talk. He was a little nervous now, his palms sweaty.
Emma just crossed her arms, but nodded slowly, gazing up into his eyes that hope shined through from.
"Ok. Good." He exhaled the breath he didn't even know he was holding. He looked around the Dot and then asked her, "Can we go somewhere private?"
"No."
He almost cringed. Yea. Guess that would be 'risky'. "Fine." He scoffed, trying to think of where to begin. He opened his mouth but the door opened and in came Damien.
"Emma," he greeted, waving his hand up and Emma turned from Jay, noticing him too.
"Fucking Christ." She heard Jay mutter under his breath. "Got to be kidding me."
Emma admitted to Damien, "I'm a little busy."
He looked taken back. Even Jay raised his eyebrow, impressed. "With him?" Damien asked with a look of disbelief, snickering at Jay next to her.
"Yea." Was all she replied back with, staring bluntly at him to get the hint. Weather her and Jay were going to be an item or not, he was still Jay Hogart, a dysfunctional close friend to her. Someone who she was sick of Damien trying to be-little just because he was jealous. Maybe he had reason to be jealous, but that didn't matter. Poor attitude didn't help you win the girl.
"Whatever," Damien sneered, turning around and walking back out.
Jay smirked down to Emma, and the blonde pointed back up at him, "Don't start."
"So it's over with you guys?" his eyes sparkled in happiness.
"We weren't ever really together, Jay." She taunted.
He licked his lips and gazed around the diner again before pulling her hand and leading her to a booth at the back. They sat across another and he frowned when she pulled her hand away but sat quietly to hear him out.
"Emma, I once told you I liked your virtue."
Emma looked sharply at him. She remembered that. She remembered that quite well actually.
"And I still do. I'm not taking that back. You are good. You are pure. No matter how many times I could fuck you against a wall, on a table, in my bed, or behind my best friends back- you'll always hang onto that innocence." She blushed, and he went on. "That's what I love about you. You're not flawless, but you are righteous. Maybe sometimes not in a good way..."
Emma held her smile back, but her heart fluttered. He smirked too.
"But other times, in greats ways. So yea, I like your virtue..or whatever." He quoted what he had said in the past. She bit her lip. He continued, "But I also love the way you make me feel, like you know I'm capable of making something of myself when nobody else thinks I can. I like when you depend on me, even with the reputation I had. I like when you try to give me shit, cause you know I like it. I can take it. It's why I mess with you. I know you can take it. I'm attracted to your stubbornness, your wit, your brain.."
Emma sucked in a deep breath. She was about to go weak in the knees- thank god she was sitting!
"If you don't give me a chance.." he shook his head, his mouth agape, "I don't know what I'll do. I can't stand around you anymore watching you date other guys. It…" he looked for the word, cringing while doing so.
Emma sadly asked, "..hurts?"
He glanced at her and blinked. "Yea."
She nodded. She understood. Completely. She eyed him and then looked down, trying to think this through. Her heart was pounding rapidly. How could she ignore that?
"Emma I want the relationship." He promised, "I want your parents to like me. I do care what they think. I love that my family already loves you.."
Emma smiled a little at that. She loved his family too.
"Ok, Jay." She said. His eyes lit up. She gave a scornful point, "But one screw up and I swear there will be consequences."
"Screw up how?" he feared, "I say stupid shit. Just call me out. You know how." She was probably the only girl who did.
"Not just that.. Just.. no cheating." her jealousy was awfully cute, "No other girls."
"You're more woman than I can handle, GP." He said mockingly but she laughed. He grinned and then reached over, taking her hand in his and she watched their fingers intertwine. "So we're doing this?"
She looked so nervous but ready. "Yes." She smiled, nodding. "But don't hurt me, please.." She merely whispered that he almost didn't hear it.
He pulled her out of the booth, leaning down closely to her lips and cupped her face, "Wouldn't dream of it, Em." He then pressed his lips to hers, and she melted against his kiss and happily kissed him back deeper.
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Day 5.
Emma yelped, thrown onto Jay's bed and she giggled a bit, wrapping her arms around his neck when he crawled over her, sharing another deep kiss.
"Don't forget," Jay said huskily, "I did pay for your 'assistance' for 2 more days."
Emma nearly shuddered. "Hm? What do you want from me then?" she teased, knowing exactly just what she wanted to do for him. Jay didn't even have to ask, Emma just did it. He laughed as she tried to pin him down now- so cute, since she weighed almost nothing. But he raised an eyebrow when she unzipped his jeans and was now unbuttoning his mechanic work shirt. He helped her rip it off and then went to strip her.
"No," Emma pushed his hands away, and just lowered herself down his body. He was confused, until he groaned, feeling her hand wrap around his cock. It hardened immediately, it was like she was the fuse to it.
"Fuck, Emma." He hissed and watched his sexy girlfriend delicately lick the head of his cock. He nearly jumped by the amazing pleasure. Her licking and kissing made his cock throb and twitch much harder.
Knowing now that she had him completely under the spell of her talented mouth, Emma let her lips part slowly, sucking in the first several inches of his rock-hard cock.
"Shit!" Jay gasped and shut his eyes. He never forgot how damn good she was at this.
Emma suppressed a chuckle as she went down on his cock. She puckered her cheeks sharply, dramatically increasing the suctioning pressure around his hard on. She gazed up at him and saw his eyes now open, hungrily watching her and in a trance. He moved his hands to slide his fingers past her temples to grab onto her long blonde hair.
Jay was now holding her head in position, groaning and sighing with pleasure as he watched her.
"Oh, fuck, I can't take it anymore," he gasped. "I need you."
Emma sat up, then got up off the bed, untying her shirt from behind her neck. Jay watched infatuated to how sexy she looked stripping. She turned her back on him while untying the back now. She let the shirt fall right off of her. She slid her jeans off next and turned back towards him, wearing no bra, and now pulling down her panties slowly. Agonizingly.
"Get over here." She yelped and laughed when he grabbed her, and threw her down under him on the bed. He was still so hard. He positioned quite quickly at her entrance, pushing her legs widely apart and then around him and he stared down into her eyes while he pushed deeply but slowly into her. He bent his head and ran his tongue over one of her hard nipples as she cried out. He mumbled with a mouth full of breast, "You okay baby?"
She laughed a bit with a snicker- he knew she was still 'adjusting' to his size. Cocky bastard. She just needed a minute then caught him look up at her with a mischievous grin as he began to move into her a little faster. She gasped and moaned, arching back on the bed, and he held her hips with a good grip. He watched her beautiful breasts bounce with his thrusts, and then grabbed her chin to rise her head back up and he kissed her possessively.
Emma whimpered against the kiss, clenching her eyes shut as she also felt herself clenching up around his cock. "JAY!" she pouted and moaned, "I'm gonna.."
He knew. He was too.
He hit her g spot with every stroke due to his thick cock. Emma was moaning trying to speed up but he kept to that delicious teasingly slow pace. She could feel the pleasure building. Her nails scratching his broad back, she soon started to writhe beneath him and she clenched the bedsheets, gasping and whimpering until a sob escaped her lips.
Jay watched her face as he struggled to hold back his own orgasm while she had hers. She begged him to not stop. Just as she was coming back down to earth, she looked up at him, his face contorted with a series of grunts and she felt him swell inside her. His thrusts sped up, making her spasm and bite her lip from the severe sensitivity from her last orgasm and she bucked her hips with his, about to come again. He thrust deeply a few more times before he buried himself inside her, filling her with his cum.
He collapsed on top of her. She could feel him softening inside of her as she played with his hair and buried his face into the crook of her neck. His beard and lips tickling the soft skin as he kissed her neck making her softly giggle. She felt safe, comfortable and so warm she soon started to doze off again.
"I love you." She almost didn't hear it. Her heart skipped and she sat up when he rolled off her.
"You what?" she asked softly.
He avoided her eyes but swallowed, getting comfortable in the bed. He scoffed and repeated it, "I love you." He looked into her eyes.
Emma choked on her words. "I-I love you too, Jay."
He raised an eyebrow, and sent her a look as if he didn't believe her, but a smile tugged on his lips. She smiled, rolling her eyes and moved closer to him, snuggling in close as he pulled the blanket over them and helped pull her in.
"You're going to have to put up with me a lot longer than a week."
He smirked, looking down at her. She happily closed her eyes, her head lying down on his chest. He caressed her hair. "I'm more than happy to, Greenpeace." He was quiet for a moment then was hesitant to ask but did so, "Do you like cottages?"
She opened her eyes and wondered why he was asking that. "you have a cottage?" Emma then laughed, "Ofcourse you do." she rolled her eyes with a smile.
"You want to go? Me ? You? My family?"
"This is a lot of commitment from you in one night buddy." She blushed, "But yea. I do. I wanna go."
She looked up and they leaned in closer to another, and their lips pressed together. Emma never wanted this to end, and Jay would work hard for their relationship to work, no matter the amount of silly fights- I mean, the making up was the best part anyways.
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Author Note: Sorry to the readers, I 'rushed' it a bit. But their wasn't enough reviews to keep me interested. But it got it's ending! Hope you enjoyed it. I'm trying to end all my stories.