Kaname's P.O.V
Uwaa, I'm sooooo tired~ I've been going in and out of the house for a while now huh, I haven't even spend my time with my new sister. Well apparently my sisters, sister.
As I walk in the garden of our complex, I saw Iori spacing out while watering the plants.
"Yo! What are you doing, spacing out like that? Look that pot is over flowing with water." I smirked.
"Ha..? Ah... Yeah... Sorry..." He places the watering can on the ground and left.
"What happened to him? He's walking like a drunken man."
I wonder what happened to him while I was gone.
I look at the plants that he always takes care of.
"Do you know why?" And like an idiot, I ask THE PLANTS...
"Pfft—! Hahaha, what am I doing?" I laugh at myself.
Recently, i always go home late for a reason... It seems like... I...
Have fallen for my imouto...
"Iori-san?" A petit voice of a girl called out Iori's name.
"Ah... Etto... Kana...me...-san... Right?" The girl said, trying to remember my name.
I smirk.
She's very pretty, maybe much prettier than Imouto-chan. They don't. Really look alike.
"Umm... Is something wrong...?" She asked with an expressionless face. Making it as if she doesn't have any slightest interest with me.
"Oh, no~ I was just mesmerized by your beauty. I can't believe that a very beautiful girl as you will be my Imouto too~" I said.
I actually said these stuffs because I want to see her other emotions.
Will she blush? Will she get angry? Or maybe she'll get shy?
"... Arigatou gozaimasu... Anyway did you see Iori-san?" She tilted her head innocently as if nothing happend.
What is wrong with this girl?! She didn't even budge!
I won't stop until I'm satisfied though~
"Say, why don't you stop looking for Iori? Onii-chan will get jealous." I hold her chin and near her face to me.
She was about to say something then suddenly,
"Oi, what are you doing?!" Iori grab my hand tightly making me lose my grip one Tsukiko's chin.
"Ah, Iori. Finally back to your senses?" I smirk.
Wow, I wonder what's with this girl that she can make Iori loose his cool like that.
"Tsukiko, what are you doing with Kaname-Nii-san?" He smiled kindly at him.
"Ah, I was just asking him if he knows where you are..." She awkwardly said.
"Yeah, yeah. And I just played with her a bit." I smirk
He let go of my hand... That now currently have red marks.. As sign of how hard he's gripping my hand earlier.
"Tsukiko, you head first. Tell me what you have to say inside okay?" He said kindly.
And I saw the girl that I can't even move at all smile at him.
Hee~ what an interesting girl... But what's more interesting is...
"So? What happened? It's rare for you to lose your cool like that. Moreover for a girl who's not even Fuyuka-chan." I said.
Iori may look calm and composed but... Losing someone he loves the most... Because in his third year of junior high... The girl that meant a world for him... died.
Who would have thought that a guy like him experience that? I really tried my hardest to help him move on, and I'm glad he's alright now.
"Tsukiko... She reminds me a lot about Fuyuka. The looks are different but, they're personality, almost look the same... Maybe that's why I feel possessive towards her..." He says
"Hee— you feel possessive, huh..." He nodded
"Yeah and also... Like last night, even though she doesn't look like Fuyuka, She made my heart beat fast, that I felt really uneasy...maybe her personality brought me a great impact that even her appearance affects me."
"Isn't it just because you have started to like her?" I bluntly said.
I saw his eyes widened.
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"Ha?! W-what? I can't possibly be! Towards my own sister?!"
"Who's not related to you by blood."
"..."
"You know, I think it's a good thing for you. You can finally move on, on Fuyuka-chan."
"Isn't it weird..? I mean, I'm not yet sure if this is love."
"Then, you came to the right person!"
"Eh...?"
"Ehem! Why not test if you will feel tightness in your heart, or if you'll feel uncomfortable when you're alone with her?" I suggested.
"... Kaname-nii-san... Are you even listening to me...?" I heard him click his tongue
Ufufufu what a cute lil brother.
"Whatever. I'll be going now." He said then leaves.
"Hahaha, what's with that? I'm just teasing him." I laugh.
Well, it's great if he'll fall in love again... But it'll be trouble if that love is for our sister...
"Kaname-san? Is there something wrong?" I heard Ema's voice.
Just like what I'm having now.
"Nope, and hey, call me "Onii-chan~". I already told you that right?" I wink at her and patted her had as she nodded.
Sigh...
Iori's P.O.V
I already told him I don't know if it's love yet...! And yet kaname-nii-san said all those stuff...
"Iori-san? Is there something wrong?" Tsukiko,who suddenly appeared in front of me asked.
'Thump'
Eh? 'Thump'...?
No, no, no! You were just surprised Iori, that's all..
"Iori-san...?" She tilted her head and called me out.
W-what the... She's just calling my name! Why, does this thumping won't stop!?
It's because of kaname-nii-san... If he didn't said those things...
"Umm...?" She started waving her fragile little hands in front of me.
"Eh...? Eh? Ah! U-um, what is it, Tsukiko-san?" I asked awkwardly.
"Here, as thanks for yesterday and also for keeping my secret a secret." She smiled at me and gives me cookies packed neatly inside a designed plastic wrapper.
"Ah, no. You don't have to mind it. But thank you for this." I smiled at her and patted her head.
"Well then, I'll be going now." She said.
"Going out again?"
"Nope. I'll just be inside my room." She smiled at me.
"Let me know if you like the cookies." She continued then left.
I was left there smiling. She was beautiful already, but when she smile...she's even more beautiful.
I'm really glad that I'm the first one who she show that smile to.
"What's up Iori~~~?" Someone suddenly cling on my shoulders.
This voice... It's nine other than...
"Tsubaki-nii-san."
"Oh~ cookies~! Give me one~". He said as he reached for the cookies on my hands.
I quickly evaded it.
"You can't." I said then leave.
I can't possibly give him what Tsukiko made for me.
"Oh, Iori." Azusa who was walking in the corridors called me out, and then he stared at the cookies in my hand.
"Those. Did Tsukiko give it to you?" He asked seriously.
"Yes." I nodded. "May I ask why?" I continued
"Uh, no... I saw her waking up early and baking something..." Azusa-nii-san scratches the back of his head uncomfortably.
Wait... So... Tsukiko... Did her best to make this?
Should I still eat this...? Or treasure it forever...? (~ I was just joking there.)
I quickly blushed then excuse myself
What am I thinking...?!
Tsukiko's P.O.V
"Yaaaaaaaawwwnn..." I yawned and go to my room.
Sigh, I woke up early for making Iori-san's cookies...
Oh, are you wondering why the heck I made him cookies...?
Ehem! Well, Marie said so...
~flash back~
Remember when Tsubaki-san followed me to school?
..."...
"Marie! L-let me change here! Now! Please!" I entered the door of my old room without knocking and beg Marie who is now startled by the sudden opening of the door.
"Eh?! W-what?! Tsukiko?! What happened?!" She stood up from her bed and approaches me.
"You see... My brother followed me... I'm glad I notice it earlier... If not, he will surely know who I am..." I explained.
"Ehh... Which one of your brother? Well, you have so many brothers... I mean, 14 brothers?! Your step mom sure needs a hobby..." She joked.
"Hey! That's rude..." I pouted.
"Hahaha! I'm sorry, I was just joking!" He giggled.
"The one who followed me is Asahina Tsubaki.. You know the one who you were talking about. One of the twin seiyuu's." I said.
I saw her eyes glitter.
"Ugh don't tell me..." I sigh then cover my ears.
"Eh?! What?! No way! Het, introduce me! I'm a huge fan you know!" I squealed.
As expected... She's a fan..
"I don't want to get discover anymore by my brothers! Two of them already know, you know?" I said.
"Eh? Who, who?!" She excitedly asked.
"The other twin... Azusa... And, though I told him this myself cause he said he's worry about me going home late sometimes so he asked me. I trust him and he kept his promise that it'll be a secret."
"Eh~~~? Who, who?! It's rare to see you trust someone easily!" She said.
"Asahina Iori. He's also a student here right?" I said.
"Oh! The prince?!" She exclaimed.
"Uhh... Yeah..."
"Uwah! You're really lucky!"
"Then change places with me." I sarcastically said.
"Hahaha! No way! I love the way you're living with hot guys but no thanks! I hate troublesome things." She said.
"Sigh... .WAY. let me change! F.A.S.T." I exclaimed.
I enter the bathroom door.
"I'm borrowing the bathroom!" I said as I enter the bathroom and change there.
As fast as I can.
Well, it's not like I'm gonna be late for my work. I mean I'm still one hour early.. It's just that I need to escape from Tsubaki..
"Done!" I came out the bathroom door as Tsumiko.
" oh~ I'm envious~! Whatever you wear you're still pretty like a doll!" She pouted as she poke my cheeks.
"What's with that?" I giggled
"Ah! Yeah right! Text me later about what will happen to you okay~?" She said.
"Okay! I'll be going now!"
And then after that day, I mailed her and said that Iori-san helped me a lot.
Then she replied...
"You must do something for the prince in return! I mean, he's "the prince" you know?!
Ah! I know! Bake him cookies! As thanks for what he did~ （＾Ｏ＾
＊YOU MUST DO THIS OKAY, .KO~（涙）
〜END〜"
~end of flash back~
Honestly... You don't know how scared I was while reading Marie's death threa— I mean, text message.
She's an optimistic girl... And that's what droves her to be scary sometimes... But that doesn't mean, I bake the cookies because I have to. I bake it because I also want to.
Iori-san, didn't compare me with my sister. He easily talked with me. He welcomed me... And most of all trust me and kept my secret sealed. I was really happy about that so I give him the cookies out of gratitude.
I'm so glad there's a guy like him in this house...
Ah... Well, it's too early to judge all of them huh... I haven't met all of them yet
"Sigh... I want water..." I stood up from my bed planning to get some water in the kitchen.
I open the door and walked on the empty hallways drowsily.
"Tsukiko~? You okay~?" I heard a playful voice...
It must be Tsubaki...
Argh... I have no strength to talk to him right now... So I just nodded and walk away
Uwah.. My body feels like led... My eye sight is blurry to...
Moreover... Why is it so hot...?!
"..." I lean on the wall while walking for the wall to support me.
"Ha... Haa..." Strange, even though it was only just a step away I'm really tired...
Ah... Everything's going... Black...
"Oi! As I though! You're NOT okay!" I felt Tsubaki's arm catch me.
"Uwah! Hot~! Oi! You're burning up! What the heck did you do~?!" I heard him shout.
Then suddenly I felt someone carry me, and then it all went black.
"—kiko? Tsukiko are you awake now?!" I heard someone said.
"Hnnnn...? Who...?" I ask. I don't know who it was because I'm still out of it.
"It's your 'Onii-chan~!' " the voice said.
"O...nii-chan...?" I look at the person with watery eyes; because of just waking up and tilted my head.
"W-wha—?! A-ah...! Y-yeah~!" The voice nervously said.
Wait... I know voice...
I rub my eyes and look at the person again.
As expected.
"Hey~~ call me 'Onii-chan~!' Again! Cutely~!" He energetically said.
"Who would?! You loli con! Sister complex! G-get out!" I embarrassingly said ((A/N sorry, if she's annoying you because of this. XD but it's needed x3))
I can't believe I said Onii-chan to him... I was still out of my mind back then! I can't believe he took advantage of that!
"... Hmph~! After I help you that's all you're going to say~? Fine~! I'll get out~! As I thought... You're nothing like your sister. I wish you're just like her." He said as he stood up from a stool near my bed.
"Then just go her! Don't freaking compare me to my sister! I'm sick and tired of hearing this already! I already know that I'm unwanted in here! But please don't you dare compare me to someone I am not! BECAUSE IM SICK AND TIRED OF IT! You don't know how much hardships I have to put up because of that! Because... Always... Always... I can never be compared to my sister..." I shouted and vented my anger to him. Tears are falling from my eyes nonstop.
I don't know if someone heard us. Actually I don't care if someone heard us... All I want to do now is get the freaking heck out of this house.
"... I–" he was about to say something but I cut him off.
"Just—! Please... Just get out..." I said as I wipe my tears.
Then I heard the sound of the opening and closing of the door, and the room fell silent, only my crying echoed in it.
I don't ever... Want to be compared... I have my own life... My own personality... My own talent... But people never notice this... People always compared my to my cute, and admirable sister... It's been like that since we were kids... It's like I've been born to be a tool for my sister to shine... I am sick and tired hearing people complaints... They're the ones who made me like this... I too... Never wished to be like this...!
Tsubaki's P.O.V
"Tsukiko~! Are you okay~?" I asked. She seems a little off.
I saw her nod and just pass over me.
I watch her as she lean on the wall and walk, then suddenly she was about to lose consciousness.
As I thought. She's not okay at all~!
"As I thought~! You're NOT okay~!"
I touch her forehead.
What the—?! Such high fever!
"Oi! Hot~! You're burning up! What the heck did you do~?" I asked her.
She was leaning on my arms sweating and panting like crazy.
Tsk, I need to call Masa-nii
I carried her in my arms and bring her to her room,
I lie her down to her bed and get my phone from my pocket.
I was panicking, though I don't know why...
'Ring~ ring~'
"Dammit! Masa-nii! Pick up your freaking phone!" I mumbled.
'Hello? Tsubaki? Why did you call?' Masa-nii said on the other line.
"What took you so long Masaomi-nii?! Anyway, I need you right now! Tsukiko! She have a very high fever right now!" I panicked and I ended up shouting.
"Okay, calm down Tsubaki. I'm on my way home now. Wait for me okay. For now take care of her. Like how we take care of Wataru if he has fever." Masa-nii said.
"O-okay..."
"I'll hang up now. I'm still driving. I'll be right there so calm down okay?" He said and hung up.
I wonder why I'm getting work up for this woman...?
I look at her. She was breathing heavily, and sweating a lot.
Her skin is so with huh... She also have a nice features and body shape...— wait... What the heck am I thinking?!
"A-ah! Bowl and a towel!" I dash out of the room and I came back with a towel and bowl in my hand.
I filled the bowl with cold water and dip the towel in it. I squeeze it and wipe the towel on her face.
"Nn...~" she shows a pleasured face.
"Uwah...—" I blushed. Then shake my head from left to right.
I'm getting weird... Anyway! I need to put this in her forehead.
I wave her bangs sideward to get it out of the way, so I can place the towel in her forehead.
"Okay. Done with that, now are the clothes... Wait... Eh?! No, no, no.. I can't possibly change her clothes right?!" I panicked and got embarrassed for some reason.
"... It's hot..." She mumbled.
Eh.. I-I have no other choice... Here it goes—
"Kyaa~ Tsubaki is gonna assault Tsukiko-chan~!" Somebody shouted from the door.
"Hika-nii~! Don't say that! I'm just taking care of her!" I said while flustered.
"Hmmm~ then why are you blushing? Look at your face right now. Per~vert~" he showed me a mirror and I saw my face really red.
"Wha—?! Hika-nii! Don't tease me~~"
"Hahaha~ oh! Seems like Masaomi is here." He said as he looks at the hallway.
Masaomi entered the room running and he quickly checks Tsukiko's temperature.
Ema, fuuto, Azusa, Iori, and kana-nii are also with him. Maybe Masa-nii told them
Minutes later.
"It seems like it's not as worst as before. She calmed down." MAsa-nii told us.
"But, she still has a high fever, she need to rest now. I'm going to buy some medicines." He said as he pack his bag,
"U-umm! I- can I go to..? I-I'm really worried about my sister, and I want to help even just a bit..." Ema with a worried face said.
"Okay" masa-nii patted her head and smile at her.
The exited the room and the so is the others. The only one who is left there was Azusa and Iori.
" hey, Tsubaki, let's let her rest for a bit okay?" Azusa said.
"Yeah.. You can go ahead Ill just change the towel on her forehead." I said.
I wonder why I was worried for this girl. She was always giving me cold shoulders, and she never acted like an Imouto to me (- Imouto moe otaku)
"Oh~? She's waking up~?"
"Nn.."
"Tsukiko? Tsukiko are you awake now?!" I said.
"Hnnnn...? Who...?" She said. It seems like she's still out of it.
Oh~ it's a perfect time for her to act like a cute Imouto~
"It's your 'Onii-chan~!' " I said cheerfully
"O...nii-chan...?" She said. It looks like she doesn't know what she doing or saying. Maybe she didn't also know how cute her voice was when she said that! And also... T-the way she's looking a t me with those watery eyes... M-moe...~
"W-wha—?! A-ah...! Y-yeah~!" I nervously said.
I was dazed for a moment there~! But I want to see it again~!
"Hey~~ call me 'Onii-chan~!' Again! Cutely~!" I energetically said.
"Who would?! You loli con! Sister complex! G-get out!" She suddenly shouts insults at me. Looks like she's back to normal.
I can't believe she said that after all I did to her! She has no manners! If it were Imouto-chan shell surely give me that sweet innocent smile of hers. Unlike this... Girl!
"... Hmph~! After I help you that's all you're going to say~?Fine~! I'll get out~! As I thought... You're nothing like your sister. I wish your just like her." I said as i stood up from a stool near the bed
"Then just go her! Don't freaking compare me to my sister! I'm sick and tired of hearing this already! I already know that I'm unwanted in here! But please don't you dare compare me to someone I am not! BECAUSE IM SICK AND TIRED OF IT! You don't know how much hardships I have to put up because of that! Because... Always... Always... I can never be compared to my sister..." She suddenly shouted. She was crying.
I was shock that she was crying. A poker face like her can make that kind of beautiful face when crying... When I look at her face, it seems like I'm seeing the true her, the Tsukiko that hide under a masked. Her true personality...
She was just a weak, innocent girl...
"... I–" when I was about to apologize she cut it off.
"Just—! Please... Just get out..." She said as she wipes her tears
I left the room, not knowing what to do.
Then I saw Azusa leaning on the wall.
I quickly go to him and lean on his shoulder
"I made her cry..." I said with a husky voice
"Yeah. You did." He said. Azusa's voice was serious which made me look at him.
"You judge her without even knowing the real her. She never let her guard down,and seems like she's unapproachable, but the truth is... That's all a lie. She's protecting herself... From people who's always judging her without knowing her at all. From those people who compares her with another person." He said.
"Tsubaki, when you get to know her, you would see that she's a girl that you wouldn't want to get Hurt. You will see how fragile she is, how cheerful she is, and how kind she is. If you just see her smile... you would want to protect her smile at all cost, and not made her cry."
What's with Azusa...? He's not comforting me at all!
"...Azusa.."
"By what you just said to her, I think you just dig an old wound that couldn't heal from her heart. Tsubaki, you just took care of her, but you don't know how much she have done for you..."
Eh...? I understand what Azusa is trying to say... But... She never did anything for me... Right...?
"Oi, what are you talking about, Azusa...?"
"Think it over Tsubaki. You're the wrong one here." He said as he pats my shoulder and left.
What's with that?! And why is he angry?!
' Tsubaki, when you get to know her, you would see that she's a girl that you wouldn't want to get Hurt. You will see how fragile she is, how cheerful she is, and how kind she is. If you just see her smile... you would want to protect her smile at all cost, and not made her cry. '
I recall what Azusa said and I just felt silence.
I look at the Tsukiko's door where you can still hear her sobs
"Hey... Just... How much suffering did you have in your life...?"
Tsk...! I feel really guilty now...
~time skip~
1 hour has passed after that, and Azusa is also back to his normal self.
"Hey, have you seen Wataru?" Kaname said as he switch off the TV
"Oh yeah... It's pretty quite without him." Fuuto who arrive moments ago said.
"Ah, I'll go look for him~" I suggested.
I search the hallways and his room but he's not there.
"Maybe he's playing outside~? Hmm... But it's already dark outside, so he won't.." I said as I think
Then, I suddenly heard wataru's voice inside a room.
I look at where it was and saw a half open door... And it was Tsukiko's.
I peek to confirm something. One, if she's still crying. And two if Wataru is inside.
When I peeked I saw Wataru who is laughing... With Tsukiko?!
She treats Wataru nicely, and it seems like Wataru has taken a liking to her... She's also smiling at him gently.
With just that single smile... I suddenly thought... It was precious...
"'If you just see her smile... You would want to protect it at all cost' ... Huh..." I whisper.
This is the real identity of the girl I hurt earlier... Unlike Azusa... Who is looking at the real her... I... Made her cry...
I wonder why my heart hurts...
It's different from being guilty...
Is it jealousy...? No it can't be. Why would I be jealous, and to who?
Is it hate...? Hate of what...?
Argh! I don't know anymore!
"Nee, onee-chan! Are you still planning to leave...?" Wataru suddenly said.
"Tsukiko..." Then I suddenly heard Iori's voice inside.
Eh...? Why... Is Iori there...?
"Hmmm, then~ I won't leave for Wataru's sake! So don't make that sad face okay?" She said.
Then I saw Iori coming over.
Uh-oh... He'll see me...! This is bad..~
" Tsubaki-nii-san..." I heard him say.
Eh? He knows I'm here?
"If Tsukiko ever left this house because of you... I'll kill you... Even if you're my brother..." He said with a death tone in his voice...
"I-Iori...?"
"Maa, maa. Leave it there Iori" kaname then arrive and said that I should go to my room, and he'll have a talk with Iori.
I never seen Iori... So scary...
What should I do~~~~~!?
Tsukiko's P.O.V
I'm really glad that Wataru came into my room with Iori behind him. I never really talk to this kid but he was kind and sweet. He comforted me and made me laugh. When I told them that I might leave this complex, Iori had a serious... No, scary? Expression in his face. While Wataru is about to cry.
I just laugh and pat his head, while thinking... Maybe I should not leave yet... Since I haven't met all of them and... That expression of Wataru... It's making me not want to leave! ^
Then Iori exited the room without a word. I wonder why...?
~time skip~
Days have passed since that incident... I also haven't spoken any word to Tsubaki-san.
And now, im getting ready for work, again. Since I'm all better now!
I was about to exit the complex when nee-sama suddenly appeared behind me.
"Tsukiko, where are you going? Are you better now?" She said with a worried face.
I felt mixed emotions within me. Some part of me feels hate, some part of me feels guilty, some part of me feels jealous, and some part of me feels disgust... I hate myself for being like this.
"Nee-sama, don't be such a worry wart! That's why people in here take advantage of you. For example, suddenly kissing you. Ah, but you don't complain so I think its okay, huh... Ah! " I suddenly realize what I just said.
Well it's true. She's the one who always want a family, but then what? She has it now, but I think she's seducing them...
Tsk... This is bad... The feeling of hate is taking over me...
"Tsukiko... I... Umm..." She said not knowing what to say.
That expression is what pissed me off the most...
Argh! I want to leave this house... Now!
"I'm sorry nee-sama. My tongue slipped. Don't worry I won't tell anyone. Well, how could I tell someone that my brother kissed my sister...? Everyone will be disgusted by that fact... Right?" I said as I open the door.
"Tsukiko... I..."
"Hahaha! Nee-sama, don't look at me like that. Don't worry its fine with me actually. I'm just saying; don't lead them on if you really want a family. I'm going now, okay? Bye" I said and exited.
What the heck did I just say to my sister...?
As I though days have passed... I still can't forget what that Tsubaki-san told me... And I ended up venting it to nee-sama...
Sigh... Great... Just... Great...
I walk into the school dorm and I told what happened to Marie while I'm changing.
"You know, you don't have to blame yourself. You were like that because of what you have experienced right? You didn't really mean it. She should take consideration." Marie said.
I came out from the bathroom and looked at Marie.
"But I can't help but feel guilty... But on the same time, my hate for her grows more and more..." I said. My eyes went teary, and my chest feels heavy.
"Shh... Don't cry! What your feeling right now is just natural. We're humans for goodness sake! We all have those kinds of emotions. But we have to control it sometimes, so things like earlier won't happened again." She said and wipes my tears.
I nodded.
"You're right... If my sister will question me later, I'll just apologize. But if not, I'll let it slip. Ah, I'll be going now! Thank you Marie~ you're the best!" I hug Marie then run outside.
When I arrive at the gate of the dorm, I saw a familiar white haired guy.
Of all people why this person?!
Inhale.. Exhale... Okay!
I tried walking out of the gate naturally pretending not to see him but..
"Ah! Tsumiko~! I'm glad you came out~~! I was waiting for you~!" He said as he run towards me.
"..." I silently look at him,
"I know you hate me but please~~! Help me~ I don't know what to do~!" He begged. He's looking straightly at my eyes.
"... What...?" I gave an unfeeling question.
"Y-you know... I-I made you best friend cry...~!" He holds both of my shoulder for me to face the teary eyed him.
Why... Does he seem like he's gonna cry...?
"Sigh... Let's go to the park over there. Don't create a scene here." I coldly said.
Actually I'm still unwilling to talk to him but if I do so, he might find out who I am..
We arrived at the park and we sat on the bench near the play ground.
"Talk..." I ordered.
"I-I did something horrible~! I made her cry...~" he exclaimed.
"Calm down! What happened? Tell me clearly" I said.
Your Tsumiko right now, your Tsumiko right now, your Tsumiko right now...
I kept telling that to my mind.
And Tsubaki began telling me what happened. After that he said.
"I never saw her like that... And I never really tried to know her... I just kept comparing her to Ema... And I ended up digging an old wound in her heart..." He said. He's really sad about what he did to me huh.
It seems like Azusa-san told that to him...
Azusa-san... He's looking at the 'real me'... Even though I treat him harshly last time...
"So? Why are you telling me this?" I ask.
"I... I want to ask your opinion..." He said. He seems really down and not energetic like he always is.
He'll just ask me to apologize in her sake anyway... Hmph!
"I-I want to apologize to her... I just don't know how to... I can't approach her... Nor talk to her normally now because of what happened... Because of what I said..." He said gripping the ends of his shirt tightly.
"Why are you being desperate? Even your usual energy look drained. Are you really that upset about making her cry?" I started talking.
"You know, Tsukiko is my best friend... You didn't know how many hardships she faced, ALONE. And all of that is because of her sister. Her sister is also the reason why she left the house."
"Eh...?" He looked surprised.
What has gotten into me...? Why am I telling him this...?
"She left because she's feeling guilty about her sister. She hates her, and yet she loves her and don't want to hurt her... Hut the more she spends time with her, memories from the past, just came rushing thru her mind, and so she grows to hate her more. I know you love your 'Imouto-chan' and you must be offended but, you can't blame Tsukiko actually." I said.
"what do you mean..?"
"She, Tsukiko. ever since their childhood Tsukiko have the best talents. She's also good in studies and sports... But nobody actually acknowledge this all. No matter how good she is, she just won't get notice by her father and their family members... And that's because they had Ema in their eyes. They never look at Tsukiko. You know Azusa-san is right, because of all what happened to her, she grew scared and hide her emotion in that masked."
"..."
"To be honest... I can't believe you. You're just like the people who judges and compare her to her sister. Do you know that all of her life, no matter how good she is, she is being compared by her 'ol so perfect sister' and you, once again brought that topic in front of her... Your the worst." I said.
"But... I'm much worst than you are..." I mumbled.
I notice that the one who is talking to Tsubaki-san no is not Tsumiko... But me... I ended up telling him...
"...!" He has a shock face about what I just said.
That's right. I'm much worst than Tsubaki-san... Because, I wasn't able to control my feelings of hate for my sister... And thus, it grew stronger, and stronger...
Tears fell out from my eyes.
IM ACTUALLY THE WORST...
"O-Oi..?! W-why are you crying?!" Tsubaki-san panicked.
"Haha... Sigh... I'm an idiot... Getting hurt because of my own words..." I laugh, tears still falling from my eyes.
"Uh... Umm... Ermm.. What to do... Ah! Here!" He gave me a checkered handkerchief. I took it and wipe the tears from my eyes.
"thank you... And... I-... " I paused.
Come on! Say it! Say sorry for calling him disgusting last time!
"I...I... I'm..."
I can't bring it out!
"I'm...?" He tilted his head.
"I-I'm... S-sorry... About... What I said to you last time..." I mumble.
I don't know if he understands or heard it. But if not, thank goodness.
"Eh?! Ah! Umm...y-yeah... I-it's true.. Anyway" he blushed and looks away.
"Mmm... I judge you and didn't listen to you... S-soo... A-anyway... Y-you should just apologize to Tsukiko normally! I'm sure she's okay by now!" I stood up from the bench and exited without saying goodbye.
Ugh... I'm so embarrassed... Why am I the one to apologize?! What's wrong with me...?!
Well... I am wrong in that one... I've been rude...
Even so! It doesn't change the fact about what he said to me...
... But he really does thinks about how to apologize to me seriously. I mean he didn't even realize that he's not energetic this few days...
As I thought... I'm really scared showing my true self to people... I don't know anymore...
~TO BE CONTINUE~