This one's got a tiny bit of angst but I promise it won't be too bad :) I'm finally happy again with how a chapter turned out.
So I hope you'll find it entertaining as well :) We're slowly entering the next phase of this story… now, what could I possibly mean by that ? :O ;) No worries, you'll find out very very soon now! Just keep in mind; Just when you think you know it all, you really don't.
CHAPTER 16
Two weeks pass. Two weeks worth of planning, Emma moving out of her shared apartment with Ruby and moving in with the Mills family.
Two weeks of excitement and to Emma… having what she'd always thought impossible, actually take place. She's a part of a family, a unit.
Not a make shift or temporary one but one where she feels wanted, perhaps even needed.
"Are you sure you'll be alright, Rubes?"
The blonde had felt rather guilty for moving out on such short notice, but her friend had insisted she did as she felt was the right thing to do.
For her to follow her heart and allow herself to be truly happy.
Two pairs of watery eyes had finally spilled and both girls had hugged the heck out of each other before Ruby had helped Emma packing.
Unpacking had been a group effort as well… Sexy grown up Mills and cute little Mills had happily helped Emma take out all of her stuff.
With the utter most care, they had given ever single one of her items a new home.
Making Emma feel incredibly treasured and important.
Regina and her still needed to talk about a lot of things of course…
like, Regina's wish for another child and Emma's secret wish to be the one to give it to her. Yup, pretty important conversations that had yet to take place…
and neither woman seemed very keen on opening what they probably felt like was a can of worms… not now they were so happy…
Not now everything seemed so fucking perfect.
Until one morning, Emma felt like her little perfect world… was tearing at the seams.
See, Regina had been the first to wake up… before either of their alarms had even gone off once.
Emma had been surprised to find the bed empty and made her way downstairs where she'd found Henry pouting,
sporting a furrowed brow and a sad look in his eyes. She'd walked towards the boy and cupped his little cheeks.
"Hey baby, what's wrong?" She now softly asks him, smiling sweetly in the hopes that he'll copy her expression. He doesn't.
Instead he sucks his lower lip between his tiny teeth.
The sight is a worrying one to say the least.
"Why is mommy mad?" Murmurs Henry quietly.
Emma kneels down in front of him and sweetly takes hold of his low hanging shoulders.
"Oh... I'm sure she's not ma" She begins to say but gets interrupted by a very stressed out sounding Regina.
"Henry Mills where is your jacket and why is it not on your shoulders?" She sighs annoyed and grumpily.
"Sorry." Henry's eyes go wide before he scampers off to get his jacket and schoolbag.
"It's not even 7 yet." Emma questioningly states, not understanding why it looks like Regina's ready to take the kid to school this early.
"Yes. I can read a clock, thank you." The brunette snaps and further ignores Emma's confusion.
"Is Hen going on a school trip or something?" The girl further inquires.
"No, he's going in early. Don't worry there's morning activities." Regina sighs while grabbing her coat and putting it on.
"What's wrong, Regina?" Emma's concern only grows. Her girlfriend is acting strange. Upset but cold and it's freaking her out.
"Nothing. I just need to spend some time outside." Regina says, without making eye contact. Avoiding it even.
"Away from me…" The young woman concludes… her voice wavering and vulnerable.
"That's not what I said... Just" Regina sighs and coldly continues
"don't overdramatize, Emma... I don't need that on top of everything right now."
"What?" Emma breathes out in unpleasant surprise at the way Regina's speaking to her.
But the brunette ignores her and instead clicks her tongue at "Henry!" She yells "What's taking you so long?"
"I'm here. Sorry." The boy rushes his way towards his mom and murmurs quietly. "I almost forgot my pencils."
"That's why you're supposed to make your schoolbag the night before." She sternly tells him and gives him a pointed look.
He gulps, blushes and nods. Emma sighs and shakes her head, wishing she could fix whatever's got Regina off on the wrong foot this morning…
because this seriously sucks and hurts.
"Regina." She tries to get the woman's attention.
"Go call the elevator Henry." The brunette instructs the little boy.
"Bye Emma." He offers her a little wave but is unable to hide his deflated look.
"Bye kid. Have fun at school." She gives him a sweet encouraging smile.
"Just ignore me today, okay?" Regina sighs with squared shoulders and a dull look in her eyes.
"Hell no. Regina what the fuck is going on?" Emma demands an explanation now. The look in her glossy green eyes both fierce and stormy.
"Emma please. Don't."
"Regina… please… Give me something here!"
"I got my period, okay? And I don't want to talk about it."
Regina just snaps, but truthfully so before blushing, groaning, turning around and closing the door and thus leaving Emma alone.
The girl is stunned... Confused at first by the weird admission but then it slowly starts to dawn on her and when it clicks she gasps...
She suddenly feels like she really needs to sit down... Lay down even perhaps.
Regina had hoped she'd been pregnant...
She'd hoped Emma had gotten her pregnant... as unlikely as it had been for that to happen, considering the circumstances…
Regina had hoped it nonetheless and, apparently, desperately so...
Her girlfriend wants for them to make a baby together...
And this morning when she'd realised she was menstruating and most certainly not pregnant she'd been what? Heartbroken?
That final look in her eyes before she left had indicated that she is absolutely devastated...
Those painful emotions combined with her period hormones had resulted in her being a bitch but now knowing what she does, Emma can't exactly blame her. Not that Henry deserved to be yelled at at all...
Yeah, Regina must be very very upset...
The girl reaches up to rub her face and finds her cheeks wet and sticky. She's crying...
Emma realises that even without period hormones, she too feels like breaking down.
Okay... So it's really time for them to talk about all of this…
The day passes slowly… painfully slowly… and Emma can't for the life of her concentrate on writing.
Being an emotional eater, she raids the fridge and stuffs her face with anything she can find and then…
simply because she can't sit still, starts to clean the place.
When, many hours later, the front door opening pulls her from her focus on cleaning up Henry's room,
Emma gets up and wipes her hands on her pants, inhales long and deep, worries her lower lip, exhales,
worries her lower lip some more and mentally prepares herself for the confrontation.
She abruptly turns towards the door when high heels click against the stairs and resonate throughout the house.
Emma waits another few seconds until she hears the shower in the master bathroom turn on and then finally stops hesitating.
She makes her way towards their room, sheds her clothes and leaves them on the bed before entering the en suite.
The water must be scalding hot because the room is already engulfed in steam.
Regina must sense her presence because the moment Emma enters the walk-in shower, she turns around and wordlessly stares into her eyes.
Her skin is flushed, both from the heat of the water and from emotion. The expression on her face is one of vulnerability and guilt.
She knows she shouldn't have left the way she did. That she shouldn't have been so harsh on Henry and so bitchy towards Emma.
That she should have talked weeks ago instead of let things come to this.
Her chest is heaving and she averts her eyes, feeling ashamed of how she handled things today.
By doing so though, she misses the soft smile offered by her beautiful blonde girlfriend. and the way the girl takes a step forward and reaches for her.
When they're mere inches apart, Regina feels it. Emma's breath upon her skin.
"I'm sorry." Her deep voice croaks and there's honest surprise when she looks up and notices Emma's open and loving expression.
"Sssht." Emma soothes her sweetly and allows for their bodies to collide.
Just barely though as her arms are resting lightly around Regina's form and their lips graze tenderly.
"It's okay… I've got you."
Regina sighs and feels how, finally, her muscles are able to relax a little.
She nods and then, after this much too long -though self-inflicted- day of loneliness, she kisses the girl soundly.
"You need me to go pick Henry up?" Emma suddenly draws back a little and asks.
Regina hums and shakes her head "Kathryn's picking him up. They should be here in half an hour."
Emma nods and goes back to pressing their lips together. Letting her hands roam across soft, wet skin.
"Please, don't ever just go away like that again?"
The girl sincerely asks, her eyes are closed as she leans into her girlfriend.
Regina reaches around her and pulls her in entirely, rubbing Emma's back lovingly.
"I won't. I promise." She truthfully tells her. Hoping to soothe her effectively.
"This Friday." Emma decidedly says.
"What?"
"We can ask Kat or Rubes to look after the kid and you and I will have the night to ourselves. We'll sit down and talk about everything."
The girl sweetly suggests while tenderly tracing Regina's lips with the tip of her thumb.
"Everything?" The woman softly breathes.
"Everything we've been too cowardly to voice." Emma slowly nods and offers her nervous girlfriend a reassuring smile.
"But"
"Regina, I'm in this for the long haul… Whatever you feel, I want to know about it and I promise to be open and honest about my own feelings too."
"Friday." Regina confirms and nods.
"Friday." Emma smiles wide and nods as well.
Content with the prospect of having this Friday to themselves to clear out absolutely everything,
they both tilt their heads forward again and meet each other's lips in the middle. Emma softly moans and Regina finds her confidence growing again.
Her hands travel down the girl's shoulders and back towards her butt, where she possessively squeezes the firm flesh.
She pulls back a little and looks down. Resting her forehead onto Emma's left shoulder. A devious smirk stretches onto plump lips.
"Do you trust me, Emma?" She playfully asks and Emma instantly feels her heart rate go up in excitement
because that tone of Regina's is one she recognizes as predatory and honestly can only be heard as such.
Dark brown eyes meet green ones and Emma shakes her head slowly from side to side.
"Not when you're looking at me like that, I don't." she narrows hers and pouts a little defensively but in such a way that Regina knows she's got free game.
The glint in her eyes is one of pure amusement as she turns the water stream a bit lower, but not off, and reaches for her trusted razor.
"Oh no… no way" The moment the blonde catches up on Regina's intentions her eyes go wide.
"Not happening… You're not coming near my baby with that." Emma wildly shakes her head and takes a step backwards.
"You know, if you're going to keep addressing it so randomly we're going to have to come up with a suitable name one of these days."
Regina snorts and pulls Emma closer again before getting into a squatting position in front of her girlfriend.
"That's… no thank you, and no thank you to that tool of hell in your hands…" The girl reaches down between her legs and cups herself protectively.
Her cheeks are blushing feverishly and Regina can't help but find it impossibly adorable.
"Oh come on… let's just groom you a little." She smirks wide and then pouts cutely.
"I ... don't even have that much hair… I'm blonde you can hardly see it."
Emma argues but to no avail because the brunette rolls her eyes and sighs before saying
"And although that's true… When it gets in my mouth I"
"That's fine, I don't need blowjobs." Emma hurriedly shrugs.
"Oh you don't?" Regina looks up at her with a raised eye brow letting out a small offended huff. "I'm that horrible?"
"No… no no you're amazing…" Emma quickly tries to reassure her.
Actually, Regina really is very talented in the oral department. Or any department for that matter.
"You rock at sucking dick. You have the perfect suction and tongue action… and you know I love it when you" She further praises her girlfriend.
"Charming darling." The older woman deadpanning-ly interrupts her with an amused snort.
"What? It's true."
"Very well." Regina rolls her eyes and smirks while bringing the razor closer towards Emma. "Now stop whining and let me do this."
"Okay but" The girl squirms uncomfortably, drawing in a large breath and bracing herself for what's to come.
"Shhht if you want me to concentrate…" Regina playfully snaps and then chuckles lowly.
"I do. I do want you to concentrate." Emma nervously nods, swallows thickly and anxiously hums in discomfort. "Please concentrate."
She then closes her eyes and tries to calm her nerves. Soon though, she finds that the gentle way Regina's holding her shaft
and the way she is softly rubbing it with her fingertips while the cold razor passes around it at the base and wherever it is Regina's making her as smooth as the day she was born, is not that bad of a sensation.
It's not bad. Not bad at all, unlike she'd initially expected it would be.
Gradually, her breathing becomes a little labored and Regina can't help but smile.
Very subtly she makes her movements even more sensual and what she hopes will be more stimulating.
She's obviously never shaved a penis before, or anyone else for that matter, so she's extra cautious as to not hurt her girlfriend.
"There. All done." Regina then suddenly says and lets go of Emma's freshly groomed sex before standing up again.
"Is everything still intact?" The blonde asks her in a high pitched voice and with closed eyes.
"Well… from the looks of it…" Regina chuckles softly, causing for Emma to look down at herself.
She's hard. And hairless. Completely hairless.
"It's… different…"
"It looks good." Regina smiles happily and softly strokes Emma's hip. Admiring her own grooming skills and her girlfriend's body.
"You think?" Emma shyly asks with a small smile on those thin lips of hers.
"Yes, I like it." Regina's eyes travel back up the girl's body.
They lock gazes and as Regina'd expected, just having been face to face with her erection, Emma's eyes are beautifully dark green.
"That's the most important thing." The latter chuckles hoarsely.
"I'd like to think so." Regina grins wide and seductively.
"How much time do you think we have left?" Emma's smile turns into smirk now.
"A couple of minutes?" Regina estimates while blindly turning the water stream a bit higher again, unwilling the break eye contact.
"Oh…" The blonde nods and then pulls up both of her eye brows before slowly starting to make a suggestion. "Do you think"
"I think that if you're going to fuck me you shouldn't waste anymore time."
Regina, bless her, cuts right to the case…
The younger girl, chuckles and nods enthusiastically.
"Tampon?" She quickly checks.
"Not currently no." Regina shakes her head and finds herself awaiting the blonde's next move.
Thank God she doesn't have to wait long…
Emma takes a hold of her face and brings their lips together.
She slips her tongue into Regina's mouth and hungrily tastes her girlfriend, feeling her erection grow even harder against the older woman's thigh.
She then lets her hands travel down towards the brunette's hips and gives them a little push, hinting for Regina to turn around.
The brunette pulls back breathily with dark eyes and gives Emma a small nod before turning around
and quickly positioning herself with her hands against the wall and her back a little bend so Emma has good access to her cunt from behind.
Not that it happens unexpectedly but she still gasps when she feels Emma enter her slowly.
She's never had the pleasure of having Emma fuck her like this and Regina decides it definitely won't be the last time they do this.
The girl then immediately starts to pump in and out in a steady rhythm… just what both women need right now.
The blonde groans and breathes hard and Regina whimpers and moans softly as she feels herself grow more and more horny.
She feels Emma's speed increase and how it does wonders for her own pleasure.
Very very rapidly, as Regina suddenly can't stop her orgasm from ripping through her body.
"Oh fuck baby… I'm so close… I'm gonna I'm gonna ooooh fuck Emma Emma!"
She shudders and gasps and cries out high pitched as Emma continues to pound her from behind.
When the brunette's body goes limp, Emma's strong arms pull her up against her body and holds her there tightly.
One strong arm is holding her hips and helping her thrusting motions
while the other is wrapped around the woman's upper body so she can bury her face into the woman's neck.
Regina is entirely flushed. Now from both just having orgasmed and from the warm water still cascading down their excited bodies.
She lets Emma take her how she wants to. Needs to. Actually enjoying the feeling of her lover's sex still thrusting in and out of her own, post-peek.
Really, truly enjoying it. Wanting for Emma to feel as good as possible.
When the girl's grip on her flesh turns tighter… so tight it even hurts a little, Regina consciously tenses up the muscles in her own sex,
hoping for it to do the trick and make her girl explode.
It does. Emma orgasms hard and completely unloads into her lover while the latter smiles and hums lowly at the feeling of being filled.
When Emma pulls out and Regina turns around so they can cuddle front to front, the brunette sweetly kisses the girl's entire face.
As if on queue, they simultaneously breath out the single most important truth.
"I love you" and then break out into wide smiles followed by giddy chuckles.
"You take your time going through your bathroom rituals…" Emma slowly runs her hands up and down her girlfriend's back.
"I'll go prepare Henry a snack for when he gets home." She says.
"I'll be quick." Regina nods "That reminds me, we'll need to decide on what we're having for dinner." and comfortably leans into the blonde's embrace.
Emma kisses her temple and proudly gloats "I made spaghetti."
Regina pulls back a little in pleasant surprise and then can't help herself as she playfully regards the blonde.
"As I said, we'll need to decide on what we're having for dinner."
"Seriously woman?!"
"I'm kidding darling… Thank you so much… That's very sweet of you. I'm sure it'll be… edible." She chuckles and offers her girlfriend a teasing wink.
It goes without saying, their evening had gone much better than their morning had.
When Regina had made her way downstairs and Henry had seen his mommy smiling he'd run towards her and pulled her close into his arms.
"Mommy you're smiling." He'd literally said while doing so himself.
She'd laughed and wrapped her own arms around him, picked him up and carried him towards the coach where they'd played and talked.
"Now, Henry I want you to know I'm sorry for the way I acted this morning."
She'd told him softly, cupping his little chubby cheek.
His big green eyes looked up at her and she sighed.
"Mommy was having a stressful morning but I shouldn't, ever, work that out on you. It won't happen again."
She carefully offered and gave him a sweet and apologetic smile.
He nodded quickly and of course cheered up instantly. Granted, the moment he'd seen his mother smile,
this morning's events had been forgotten but his mommy's verbal confirmation that he hadn't done anything wrong
and that he hadn't deserved her harshness definitely didn't hurt.
Emma had given mother and son some time to reconnect while putting the finishing touches on dinner and then joined them for a perfect family night in.
And although both Regina and her had a lot of unresolved worries… All of those worries were soon to be unveiled and it would be fine.
Eventually everything would be fine. They'd make sure of that. Because this is worth it.
This, Emma takes a mouthful of pasta-licious-ness and looks over at both brunettes, is worth everything.
By the time Friday had come around Regina felt more like a ball of nerves than she felt human.
Of course, Emma had sensed it and given her extra reassuring kisses, extra lingering touches and had held her extra close at night.
No one had minded. Emma too had felt herself grow more nervous as their night of openness approached
but for both her girlfriend's and the kid's sake she'd been able to successfully hide it.
Their friends would be taking care of Henry and they'd have the entire night to themselves.
Two days earlier, Emma had excitedly announced that, this Friday, she was scheduled to give a couple of workshops to some high school groups.
About creative writing and stimulating inspiration and Regina couldn't have felt more proud.
If anyone would be able to inspire kids, Emma Swan most certainly was the woman for the job.
It also meant that Regina and Henry had the entire afternoon to themselves.
By the time she'd picked her son up from school it had obviously been waffle time. Duh.
The little boy had been extremely enthusiastic simply because it's Friday
and also thanks to the prospect of having a sleepover with what he'd come to consider as his aunts.
The distraction her sweet son provided had been absolutely welcome to Regina...
at least it kept her from non-stop going over what she was going to say tonight and in what words.
As she is cleaning up the counter and putting the left over waffles away- aka: Emma's midnight stack-
Henry suddenly squeals, causing for her to look up and notice how he, red-faced and pouting, is looking down at the mess he's made of his mother's desk.
"I'm sorry mommy. I was trying to take a piece of paper but the pile fell."
Regina sighs and smiles softly.
"It's okay sweetheart, I know you didn't mean any harm. Let's get these off of the floor, shall we?"
She gives him a cute reassuring wink and kneels down to pick up the fallen folders.
All air escapes her lungs and the blood drains from her face when she sees what she does.
For a moment, it seems as if time stands still and nothing else exists but the piece of paper in her hand.
The world has stopped turning but the room is definitely spinning.
"Mommy are you okay?"
I felt like there had to be just a tiny bit of drama so they'd both realise it's time to woman up and be open about everything. :)
it's like that in real life, isn't it? Certain actions need a trigger... and as you can see...
These ladies care more than enough for each other to overcome whatever gets thrown their way.
I hope all of you are doing great! Let me know what your thoughts are on the chapter and I'll make sure to do my best on the next one ;)