Author's Note: This is strictly a work of Fiction. I do not own any of the rights to the characters, places, ABC or Shondaland. Medical Terms may not be correct, characters may vary from their identity on the show. Chapters will be in different Characters perspectives. Read, Review and Enjoy!

AMBER

"Make yourselves at home. This won't take me long." I say to Jo and Alex, who excitedly agreed to come over to have dinner with us. "Hannah, please put your backpack away and make sure your shoes are on the mat next to the door."

Hannah put her bag on the little hook I had installed yesterday that was just her height and made sure her shoes were straight on the mat. She then walked right over to Jo and tapped on her leg. "Aunt Jo, read?"

"Ask nicely, Hannah. You know what we've talked about." I called into the living room, both happy and surprised that she was so forward. Cole didn't have any siblings and she hadn't spent much time around Allie's big family. My best friend Leslie had held the title of Aunt since Hannah was born and she was great with her. I had a feeling that my daughter missed my best friend just as much as I did.

"Pease Aunt Jo, can you read to me?" she recited, a look of concentration on her face. She made this face whenever she was trying to get all of her words right and act like "a big girl".

Jo laughed, "Of course sweetheart. You pick out the book and come up here and we'll read before dinner." Hannah grinned and ran over to the bookshelf. I couldn't help but laugh as she went back to the couch with not one but four books. Alex took this opportunity to walk over to the kitchen and sat on one of the barstools.

"Amb, where is her dad?" He asked quietly, looking at me expertly cut up onions.

Not taking my eyes off of my task, I decided to just be honest. "He's in Denver, Head of Cardio. His name is Cole. He's a wonderful man and an amazing father. I doubt you would remember him but we went to high school together. I went to Baylor for med school and then did my internship in Wisconsin. I was offered a residence spot at Rocky Mountain in Denver and he had just gotten there too. We quickly became good friends and we both scrubbed in on a surgery that had about a 10% rate of survival. The patient survived and everyone involved went out to celebrate. We got drunk, we got carried away and nine months later, Hannah made her entrance."

"He didn't want to be with you?" Alex asked and I could tell in his tone he already wanted to kick Cole's ass for knocking up his sister.

I emptied the onions into the sauté pan with butter and starting stirring them around. As I started boiling water for the noodles, I looked up at him. "Alex, look. I appreciate the concern but it wasn't like that. We didn't want to be together. We were friends and we both didn't want to terminate something we had done, whether we meant to or not. He stuck by me, he was there for everything. He helped with money and made sure neither of us needed anything. Hell, he met someone, got very serious and they are getting married in a few months and he made sure that she knew we were important to him. She adores Hannah. Even moving here, he encouraged me to do it because he knew what an amazing opportunity it was. Until she starts school, we'll be going back and forth monthly with her. She'll stay there for the summer since his fiancé is a school teacher and she has summers off. He's wonderful, it just wasn't meant for us to be. We're all very happy and no one regrets anything."

Alex looked thoughtfully at me. "I'm sorry for leaving that note. I shouldn't have just left you there. I should have brought you with me."

The hardest part of him leaving was feeling like my brother didn't want me. I had looked up to him for as long as I could remember. He was the closest thing she had to a father figure. "Alex, I forgive you. Honestly, it was terrible, but I knew that you were right. I did what you told me to. I got out and I made something of myself. I hated you at first, but I actually did a double Masters, one in Psychology and you're sort of the poster kid for the whole 'tough love' thing."

"Double Masters and Med School? You always were the best out of us." He laughed, opening the beer I handed him. I smiled. After all this time, it was nice to finally feel like my brother was proud of me. I didn't have any communication with any family anymore but I would be lying if I said I didn't miss it.

"Thanks." I said embarrassed. The sauce and noodles were almost done, so I called out for Jo and Hannah to go to the table. Hannah ran right past the table and launched herself into her uncle's arms.

"Aunt Jo is good rweading!" she said excitedly. I smiled at Jo, hoping she could see in my eyes that her kindness was appreciated. I started to walk the food over to the table and Jo grabbed dishes and followed. Alex had put Hannah in her high chair and sat next to her.

"Hey Hannah, why don't you tell Uncle Alex what your full name is?" I said, sitting down on her empty side.

"Hannah Alexandria Evans-Fuller!" she yelled out with a smile. I couldn't be positive but I thought I saw Alex swallow his emotions as his eyes bounced from her to me.

"That is one of the most beautiful names I've ever heard." He said smiling at her. She returned the smile before asking me for "sketti".

JACKSON

I don't know what it is, I thought to myself. Ever since April's wedding to Matthew and her and Harriett moving away, my heart wasn't as sure about Maggie. April and I had our share of ups and downs, an understatement if I had ever heard one. I always thought we would end up together again. I know she was happy though and Matthew could give her the life that she wanted and needed. We had decided on me taking Harriett for a week a month and I knew I was welcome to go see them whenever I wanted. Positives of having a jet on hand, I supposed. All I know is that while I do care about Maggie, it wasn't with the passion and fire that I had experienced with April. I wasn't getting any younger and I didn't want to continue and hurt her more. I knew what I had to do. I took out my phone and typed out a message.

J: Hey, want to meet at Joe's tonight? I should be out of here by 8.
M: Sure! I can't wait. Miss you ; )

Putting my phone back in my pocket, I started walking towards the elevator. I needed to check on a few patients that were on the eighth floor. One day, I thought, I'll stop dating people who work at this damn hospital.

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I arrived at Joe's a few minutes after 8. I almost cancelled. As much as I knew I had to do this, I didn't want to hurt her. It wasn't that I didn't care, it was more that it just wasn't something I thought would be what I wanted long term. I had no idea what to say. I went straight to the bar, asked Joe himself for a shot of Jameson and a draft. I shot back the Jameson at once and heard someone behind me, "Uh, bad day?" It was her.

"Hey Mags," I said, blocking her attempt at a kiss with my cheek. She looked at me weirdly then looked at the empty shot glass, the beer and the fact that I didn't have his coat off.

"Oh…" she said, trying not to tear up. "Can I ask why?"

I sighed and scratched my head. "It's not you, really. I care about you a lot. You're beautiful, so smart and so caring. But I just can't help but think that this isn't what I want. There isn't anyone else, I just…I don't know."

Maggie looked up at me and I could tell she understood. "This was always a long shot, J." It hurt me to hear her call her the nickname that only she referred to me as. "You and Kepner were iconic. Her getting married was obviously going to make you start thinking about your future. This sucks yeah, but we said before this started that we would always remain professional. Thank you for being honest with me. I appreciate it more than you know."

With a small smile, she leaned up, gently kissed my cheek again and then was gone. I turned back to the bar signaling for another shot. I was glad she took it well but it still didn't make me feel good. Time to man up and decide what I really want, I thought, immediately draining the second shot placed in front of me.

I hope you guys enjoyed this! I'm currently on vacation and writing really helps me de-stress. Thanks for reading!