Being Different Isn't Normal
Chapter 9: Did I Prove It?
Disclaimer: If I owned Drake and Josh, you'd see Drake would be shirtless the whole time-you don't see it? Then I don't own it.
a/n: ok guys what happened to reviewing, I really love to hear you're comments and ideas for the rest of the story, so I won't be updating if there aren't at least 5 new reviews, what I do have to say is, I do write these for the love of it but I need to know what people think of it otherwise I don't know what you people like in a story. Although flamers- there are no point to them, though c.c's are welcome. Xxx
"Em, h-hi-how are ya" Josh stuttered
"How long were you there" Drake sighed, defeated
"Not long" he lied-badly, yet it seemed like an improvement
"How long is not long?" Drake asked placing his hands on his hips
"Oh jees- the whole time" he winced in embarrassment
"Oh man" Drake sighed walking away
"Oh man what?" Josh chased after him, up into their room again
"You heard everything didn't you?" Drake sighed, sitting on the small red couch in their room
"Not really" he lied again
Drake gave him a look "Ok then sorta-kinda-yeah" he sighed flopping on the couch beside his brother
"And, you don't hate me or think that it's weird or anything?"
"I couldn't hate you and yeah it's kinda weird but I'll get over it" he smiled
"Oh ok" Drake sighed, disappointed, he wasn't expecting Josh to come out all 'gay' just because he liked him, he knew it was virtually impossible, even though just a little part of him wished he did do something.
"Erm Drake you're getting kinda close" Josh fidgeted uncomfortably
"I know," he whispered lustfully unable to control his actions
"DRAKE DO YOU NEED A RIDE TO THERAPY" his mother called from down stairs
Drake jumped from the position he was in, his heart was beating like crazy "Em I have to go" Drake smiled edging his way around his brother
"Yeah sure thanks" he shouted down to his mother
With that, he took off down the stairs like a shot; he had already gotten his bag downstairs earlier that morning. He couldn't believe what he had just done, he had almost kissed him, what was he thinking.
MEANWHILE WHILE DRAKE'S AT THERAPY
Oh crap, oh crap, oh crap! Josh thought to himself as he paced worriedly across the floor, his stepbrother was about to kiss him-and he was going to let him. He knew he wasn't gay; he had had girlfriends before and enjoyed being with each one of them, apparently not like Drake-who preferred guys.
What was he going to do when he came back, just let him kiss him? On the other hand, would he kindly ask him to back away? Both were still an option but he preferred the second one, even if it meant hurting his brother.
He continued to pace. He wanted somebody to tell him what to do, he was good at obeying orders, it wouldn't be so hard then but he knew this was not a decision that his parents could make for him, this time it was just him
He knew Drake liked him, he was genuinely flattered-he was, so much so that he had forgotten about his girlfriend completely, almost as if he had neglected her after they slept together. That wasn't like him at all, he usually took care of his girlfriends-he never realised how much time Drake actually took up.
Did he really like him? Or was it just the drama that had surrounded him that took up so much time? Another wave of confusion took over him.
Maybe he wasn't gay, he thought to himself, maybe he just liked Drake-that's it, although he found it hard to believe he was actually thinking of his step-brother in that way. It wasn't right-he knew that-but was it wrong either?
He had a girlfriend though, a girl he loved and cherished, a girl he had given himself to because he was in love with her, he had fallen for her hard and fast-surely that was enough reason for him not to do it. However, it wasn't, he had burning desire, something which didn't happen very often with him; he wanted him-but why? He thought to himself, what was it about Drake that made him think about guys-let alone him in that way, especially when he was straight
Ugh, thanks Drake he thought to himself, he knew that it wasn't his fault for liking him; he was flattered and wanted to show him, but how he didn't have a clue.
With all the thinking and confusion going on in his head, he had no idea that it had been over two hours and Drake was standing there, just watching him pace
He looked up "Ahh" he jumped
"What" Drake yelled dropping his bag in fright
"N-nothing, y-you're home, you just shocked me" he was fidgeting with the ends of his t-shirt
"Oh ok" Drake exhaled quietly walking over to the sofa
"So, em how was your session" Josh asked desperately hoping for a topic change
"Crap, as usual, she made me draw out how I felt when I did badly on a test," Drake said nonchalantly flicking the t.v on
"Why doesn't she just look at your doodles on your test papers?"
"That's what I said"
"And" Josh feeling comfortable enough to sit on the same couch as his brother again
"She just told me to be a good, and I quote 'little boy' and just do it"
"Lucky you" Josh smiled sarcastically
"I know" Drake smiled finally finding a T.V station that he liked
Silence filled the room; it was awkward and uncomfortable, which was unusual for Drake &Josh as their room was usually filled with noise, either with Drake and his guitar or Josh and his mad experiments, but now it was extremely quiet.
Drake looked over at him silently, he was just sitting there watching the t.v. not even noticing his presence, and it saddened Drake to think that they would never be together. That he would never ever get to hold him and just even be in the same bed as him, that's what happened when you were gay though- not every single person you liked would be.
Josh had noticed Drake just looking at him from the corner of his eye, but he kept looking at the t.v, his mind fighting with him the whole time, he wanted to tell him that he wasn't gay but he still liked him-if that even made sense.
He finally decided to let his mind win over and look over at him "What" he asked sounding meaner than he meant to
"Nothing" he sighed disappointedly
"Are you sure?" he asked moving slightly closer to him
"Sure about what" he asked flipping the t.v to off mode
"Y'know liking me?" he asked hoping his cheeks weren't going to red
"What, do you want me to prove it or something?" he asked getting more tense as Josh minimised the space between them
"No, no, just wondering"
Drake looked at his shoes; they never seemed so interesting before
"Unless you wanted to"
"What" Drake asked lifting his head up
"So you don't then" Josh only gave a look of small disappointment
"Look Josh this isn't funny ok?"
"I'm not trying to be Drake, I'm being perfectly serious"
"Prove it" Drake spat
Josh leaned over slightly and cupped his cheek "Really" he asked
"Y-Yeah" Drake stuttered
Josh planted a soft kiss on his lips, planning to pull away but Drake pulled him back wanting it to go further, he allowed Josh's tongue enter his mouth, never wanting it to end , he felt like he was seeing stars after being completely immersed in the dark for so long , it was the first kiss that he had ever truly enjoyed
His first kiss with a guy was after detention with the only openly gay guy in the school
was a savage one full of rage and teenage hormones, but this, this was real, it wasn't savage or anything of the sort
They eventually broke away from one another "Did I prove it?" Josh asked smiling