Chapter 6

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Bitterness fills my mouth as I sip on my lemon juice. The taste a recollection of how sour my life feels at this very moment.

It had been three weeks since we last talked and he completely avoids me in the halls. Like yesterday when I waved at him across the cafeteria and he pretended he didn't see me. Since then I've been eating at my own table by myself and I hate it.

This really sucked.

I glance up at him and notice him laughing and joking around with his posey. It really hurt to watch him acting like he didn't care. He never even let me explain myself. I couldn't understand why I felt so overwhelmed that Sonic had broken up our friendship and blew up on me. This shouldn't bother me much of all. I came here to simply learn and nothing more so why was it that my heart strings felt intertwined when I thought of Sonic?

I mean, he's a pleasure to watch, of course. And that's saying a lot coming from someone like me. Physically, he's all that a woman could ask for–tall, fit, ripped in all the right places. Casual days he wears nothing but blue jeans, running shoes and muscle shirts. Sometimes jackets. But what really caught my attention the most was his smile. He had mastered his fake smile, right down to the wrinkles around his eyes. No one ever questioned him except one person. I saw in his eyes, the windows to his soul. Right now it seemed like he held a real one but I could never be too sure.

Maybe that's what draws me–his isolation. I can't be sure of course, but something tells me that he's not as jolly as he pretends to be. He seems too happy. And he should be since he's loved by all on campus but even in crowds he seems to missing something. He just appears to be alone. All alone.

We've fallen into a strange rhythm of sorts. It's just one small thing, but it seems significant somehow. Every day, at some point, he will talk to me like we're best buddies. Every day, he tries to make everyone smile. And every time he holds my gaze, even from so far away. It gives me chills, the way he stares back at me. It's a friendly smile but it makes my heart flutter and makes me want to make him happy as well.

I'm not sure if brokenness is discernible with nothing more than our casual contact (if you can even call what we have "contact") or if this is all in my head, but for some reason that's the word that comes to mind when I see him–brokenness. Someone who's broken.

From the outside, he's practically perfect. Well not even practically perfect. He is perfect. Flawless. Breathtaking. But he's tries to hard, too focused on pretending, too…sad for someone as handsome as he is. Maybe that's why I think he's broken. Surely in a town this size, every single woman within ten miles would be banging on his front door, offering to help with whatever he might need. Or want.

And yet, he doesn't seem to have anyone.

Maybe he's got dark secrets that keep the town at bay. A scary skeleton in his closet, a maniacal monster under his bed. That's probably reason number one, the only one I should need, to stay far, far away from him. And that's exactly the opposite of what I'm doing. Mostly because he never stays away from me, always offering to come over or speak when we go outside. He just does whatever he wants and I follow.

But still, he makes me feel alive.

So here I am. Watching. Waiting, it seems. On what, I don't know. But I often get the feeling that something is about to happen. Only it never does. And I don't think it ever will.

By the time lunchtime is over I find myself glancing back at Sonic, only this time our eyes meet and the smile he held a second ago disappears. A tight frown replaces it and he turns away from me and exits the cafeteria with his friends. Ouch. That kind of hurt me more than it probably should.

I can't blame him though.

He thinks I stole his girl.

I throw my juice in a nearby trash can and make my way out the cafeteria. I really need to sort this misunderstanding out with him but how can I when he's always avoiding me? He acts more like a girl than I do sometimes. I sigh, walking down the crowded hallway when my eyes catch the color yellow standing outside the guys restroom looking impatient.

That's right!

Maybe Tails can help me out.

"Hey, Tails!" I scream, waving my hand out to him as I jog over to him. It doesn't take long to get his attention as his blue eyes snap to mine and widen at the sight. It seems like Tails is hiding something since he keeps glancing at the restroom and biting his lip but I pay not attention. I have serious matters to talk to him about.

"Oh, hey, Rob O'!" Tails greets more loud than usual as he slams his back against the door, shutting it tight as he leans on it. "What are you doing here?"

"I saw you from far away and just wanted to ask for your advice on how I can make Sonic talk to me," I say with a weak smile, gripping on backpack straps once I reach him. "He's been avoiding me a lot lately."

I can see the uneasiness fall on his face as he glances behind himself and at the door. "Sonic is just well… Sonic!" Tails says with a hopeless smile and shrug. "He's one of the most stubborn guys you'll meet so trying to persuade him won't do much."

I feel my shoulders drop at his words. He's right. Sonic is super stubborn so if he doesn't want to talk to me he won't even if I follow him around. I'm just being bothersome at his point.

"You should make more friends though instead of relying solely on Sonic," Tails offered with an uneasy smile"I've known him all my life and let me tell you that he is one stubborn hog but you seem like a good guy who can make more friends too."

Tails is right.

I shouldn't be relying on Sonic all the time.

"Thanks for the advice," I said, looking back at Tails with my best attempt at a smile. "Can you just tell Sonic something for me?"

He blinked in surprise. "Uh, sure!" He says, glancing behind him again in deep thought. "What is it?"

"Tell him that I didn't mean to betray his trust. That this is all a misunderstanding and that I want to thank him for sticking out for me when no one else did," I take in a heavy breath and fake a smile like I saw Sonic always do before. "He really made school a whole lot better for me by just being my friend and even though he doesn't want to talk to me, I will always be there for him too."

"I'll let him know," Tails says with a smile and nod as he leans more against the door. "But I think he'll realize that on his own."

I nod. "Thanks." I say and give him a slight nod and continue back down the hallway. A harsh turmoil within my belly. My nerves and anxiety getting the best of me as I tried to push my issues away.

Making more friends... that's what Tails said but how could I? How when I feel this urge of being around Sonic. Tails put it so easily as if it were nothing, but he doesn't know how I feel. If forgetting someone by making new friends were that easy, there would be no pain. But I have to face the truth, Sonic doesn't know who I am, who I really am.

I also don't want to be apart from him either. If he did he would understand how this is all a misunderstanding. Maybe I should tell him the truth?

No.

I shake my head as I grip the straps of my backpack even tighter as I walk to my dorm. I can't tell him the truth. Sally finding me out is already bad enough but at least she kept it a secret. I can't have anyone else knowing without risking more people finding me out.

I lean my head against the door and shut my eyes right. I never imagined that I'd end up feeling this way about Sonic. Maybe it is best if I stop speaking with him. I'm a boy now after all. I'm not supposed to feel this way about another one.

My eyes open up and the brightness coming from underneath the door frame captures my attention. The light is on in the room so that must mean Shadow is already in the dorm room this early. That's a first. Sure enough when I open the door, there he is going through his drawer in search of clothes. He must just be stopping by to change.

I shut the door behind me as I stand there awkwardly. "You're back early," I comment with a friendly smile at my best effort at trying to strike up a conversation. It doesn't go too well because he shoves past me and starts undressing near his drawer and my cheeks flush pink and I quickly turn away despite my temptation to stare.

I can't help it.

The guy has a great body!

I slap my cheeks to bring myself out of those bad thoughts and groan. I had to get my hormones under control. This wasn't the time to turn boy crazy especially since one was enough at the moment.

At least he's dressed now.

"Next time you should let me know when you're going to stay out late so I don't worry." I offer, leaning against the wall and playing with my pointed fingers until I glance up at him and see his judgemental face so I look back down only stealing glances here and there but his eyes aren't on me anymore as he fixes his tie in the mirror. I hate the awkward silence so I try again and ask, "Did you go out with your boyfriend?"

I'm too embarrassed to look up when a few moments pass and I don't hear a response and sight in defeat. At least I tried my best to be nice to the guy. It seems I'm just not appeal—

"My boyfriend?" I hear him mutter lowly and I jump when I finally hear his deep and smooth voice for the first time in weeks.

"Yeah," I say hopefully that I'm finally getting his attention as he starts walking towards me. "You've been hanging out with him a lot lately, haven't you?" I feel my back hit the wall and that's when I realize I had been subconsciously been backing away from him but before I have time to think more into it I feel his his presence over me. "W-w-what are you doing?" I stutter out when I feel Shadow smother me between the wall and himself. Arms on each side of my head and crimson eyes piercing into mine.

"You think I'm gay?" He asks, only inches away from my face as he looks down at me with an unreadable yet intimidating face all in the same. I cower even lower as his face sinks into my neck and I feel frozen in place. His breathing making the hair on my neck stand on its ends.

I can barely breath. "You're gay, right?" I meek out, unsurely and trying to look anywhere but at him.

"Ah, you tell me," he whispers into my ear, sending shivers down my back. "If I kiss you now, does that make me gay?" He asks, getting inches away from my lips and I feel myself freeze when he smirks down at me. "Am I gay, Rob O',?" He asks again, though this time it doesn't seem like an actual question. More like an affirmation. My eyes widen as he watches me expectantly and I feel hundreds of emotions pierce through me.

I let out a squeal when I feel him press himself up against me and look back up at his face in shock—and much to my amazement—he's smirking. He knows. He doesn't feel anything in my pants.

"Please, Shadow..." I whimper, looking up at his amused expression, and use my normal voice. "Don't tell anyone."

"And how exactly do you plan on keeping my mouth shut about this?" He asks, running his thumb underneath my lip and gazing into my eyes.

I forget how to breath as my cheeks flush at the close contact and I can't stop shaking because of my nervousness. A million thoughts running through my mind. What exactly does he expect me to do? Better yet, how did he find out?

My eyes widen even more.

Could it be possible he knew all along?

"Um…" I mutter nervously, pressing the back of my head to the wall as he inches even closer. "Shadow?"

I shut my eyes tightly when I feel his warm breath against my lips (which smells like peppermint!). My cheeks are on fire by now and just when I feel like he's going to kiss me it happens.

"Ames, can we talk? I wanted to tell you I'm sor—!" A familiar voice interrupts abruptly before pausing at the now open door.

My eyes snap open in nervousness and shock as my eyes meet with emerald green ones. It's hard to breath. My breath is suck in my chest. Why you might wonder?

Because Sonic is standing at the door with the most bewildered look in his eyes.

I'm curious... what kind of fans do I have more? SonAmy or ShadAmy? :D

Also here are the themes songs for these characters that which might give an insight of what's happening !

Amy's Theme Song — "Most Girls" by Hailee Stainfield, "I Miss You" by Clean Bandit ft. Julia Michaels

Sonic's Theme Song — "Anxiety" by Blackbear, "How Long" by Charlie Puth

Shadow's Theme Song — "I Like Me Better" by Lauv, "3:00 AM" by Finding Hope