Okay so Saturday's episode destroyed me and I'm still not recovered from the cliff hanger like omg. We're about halfway through this story and I hope that none of you are getting bored of this I feel like this story is beginning to slow up. I'm gonna keep the next part the same as the episode except for the crash which I'm gonna skip cause a) I can't deal with the fact that someone might die and b) I don't think my writing is good enough to do the explosion justice. Please review as always and let me know who you think is gonna die next episode. Enjoy!
Connie entered the room half an hour later with the test results with Elle in tow and Bea still sat at Alicia's bedside holding her hand. Alicia's anxiety was building but she needed to keep it together. She'd already lost her cool three times in front of her boss today and she didn't want to make it a fourth. Holding her breath, she waited for Connie to say the results.
"Negative." Alicia let out a massive sigh of relief as did Bea and Elle. They all new that a baby at this point could be too much to cope with and put Alicia in an even worse state worry about what to do. Alicia felt like she had an enormous weight lifted off of her shoulders.
"I will drive you home now Alicia so if you'd like to go and get your things I'll meet you at the front of the department. Bea I would like you to finish your shift and then you can go home."
Everyone nodded in agreement and then went back to their jobs. Alicia climbed down from the bed and made her way to the staffroom, unlocked her locker and took out her things. Then she made her way out of the ED towards Mrs Beauchamp's car where she already was and got in the passenger seat of her car. The drive to Alicia's house took the best part of half an hour and was in complete silence. It seemed that every traffic light turned red making the journey seem even longer. The silence began as quite comforting but with every minute it grew more and more tedious.
They finally pulled up at the house and Connie got out of the driver's seat walking around to meet Alicia as she began to climb out of the passenger side of the car. She offered Alicia a comforting arm around the shoulder and lead Alicia up to the front door. Alicia unlocked it and pushed the door open dumping her hand bag in the living room offering Connie a cup of tea and offering her a seat in the living room before walking out into the kitchen and making Connie a cup of tea.
Five minutes later Alicia emerged from the kitchen with a steaming cup of tea on a tray with some biscuits placing them on her coffee table and sitting on the sofa next to Connie. They sat there in silence enjoying the quiet of each other's company. It was comforting. Knowing that there was someone there who understood her but didn't feel the need to constantly break the silence and talk about it.
"Alicia." The noise startled Alicia a little. "I need to go back to the ED now but Bea will be home soon. I can wait until she gets here if you need me to though."
"Um, no it's fine Mrs Beauchamp you go ahead Bea won't be long anyway and she's going to Paris tonight anyway so I'll have to get used to be by myself anyway."
That did not comfort Connie in the slightest but there was no point in arguing with her. Connie stood up and headed for the front door with Alicia who opened it. Before Connie left she turned to Alicia and said "If you need me call me okay." And then turned and walked down the garden path.
Alicia headed back inside and went into her kitchen she should start prepping to make some dinner for herself or at least decide what she was going to have. She didn't feel that hungry, maybe just a salad she thought. She started cleaning the lettuce and popped it in a bowl and then put some chicken in the oven. The front door opened and slammed shut. That would be Bea. Alicia walked into the living room to greet Bea with a cup of tea. They silently exchanged a smile as Bea went upstairs to collect her suitcase ready for the plane. Alicia waited in the sitting room for Bea to come back. It was time. Alicia headed for the front door and gave Bea a ginormous hug that was reciprocated.
"You'll get through this Alicia, and let me know if you need me and what happens okay."
"Thanks, and don't worry about me I'll be fine. Now go catch that plane, and nail that trauma course."
Bea grew the most enormous smile as she turned and left the house dragging her suitcase behind her and Alicia was glad that she was happy and that her career was getting off the ground and Alicia knew that Bea would make an amazing trauma doctor. Alicia headed back to the kitchen and got out some carrots and started chopping them when there was a knock at the door. Maybe Bea forgot something. There was another knock at the door harder than the last. Alicia began to walk towards the door and she saw the silhouette of a man. It couldn't be. He'd be breaking his bail. She opened the door and he pushed past her.
"We need to talk."
"You're breaking your bail. If I call the police now they would arrest you!"
"Okay fine I'll go."
Alicia didn't quite know why but she felt the sudden urge to talk to him. They needed to discuss this. She needed him to realise and accept what he did to her.
"No I…" She said trying to cover the scared tone of her voice. "I need to talk to you."
He didn't hesitate and walked down into the following Alicia.
"Alicia please don't do this, I could lose my job, I'd be on a sex offender's register my life will be ruined."
"You've no idea have you." Alicia said realising that this was a bad idea.
"Look at you, you're fine." Was he trying to patronise her, he clearly knew that she wasn't alright, he'd seen the way she acted towards him.
"I'm not fine." Alicia said beginning to get angry and impatient with him. It wasn't going to be easy to get him to admit what he did.
"Oh come on you loved it. Someone who understood your wild side and how many guys have you got drunk with and done that anyway." He said clearly beginning to become angry.
"Nobody. It was just sex Eddie it didn't mean yes to everything and anything you wanted."
"We went to bed together."
"I felt like hell. What sort of come on is that?"
"You let me undress you!" He said becoming very angry and Alicia saw a spark in him that she had only ever seen that night. This was not a good idea. "You slept and then you woke and…"
"I said no!" Alicia said glaring him straight in the eyes "You know what happened you knew it then. I saw how you knew, that I couldn't stop you. You ignored me and after you just made it alright in your head."
"That's enough!"
"I was frozen not moving, not responding, you raped me Eddie. You thought that because we'd already had sex you had the right."
"Shut up!" Eddie said anger bubbling to the suffer. He started walking towards the glass door.
"You raped me Eddie. Live with it, OWN IT!"
"You don't say that to me!" Eddie said with such anger in his eyes grabbing Alicia by the shoulders and throwing her with such force the glass door broke and Alicia was filled with so much dread and pain.
She was in agony and was suddenly aware of a throbbing coming from her arm. Eddie tried to touch her but she batted him away. Next thing she knew she was torqueing her own arm and the shock began to set in. He had attacked her. Iain and Ruby showed up moments later asking her loads of questions. The only thing that she was aware of in the conversation was Iain calming her down and Eddie trying to cover up what he did.
"He attacked me." Alicia whispered to Iain.
"It's alright. We're here now sweetheart."
Then Ruby put on a new tourniquet and Alicia let out a large anguished scream before Iain came back through the house with a trolley that he lifted Alicia easily onto and they started to take her out of the house getting to the front just in time to see be forcefully bundled into the back of a police car.
Everything became a blur as soon as she was in the back of the ambulance. She knew that she was losing a lot of blood. Too much blood. She slowly began to lose consciousness and the last thing she could think of was the guilt she felt for hurting Bea and Ethan. She'd almost forgotten about Ethan. As she drifted she realised just how much he had meant to her and how much she'll never get to say.