I'm sitting eyes wide open and I got one thing stuck on my mind
Wondering if I dodged a bullet or just lost the love of my life
Baby, baby I feel crazy
Up all night, all night and every day
I gave you something, but you gave me nothing
What is happening to me.
I don't want to live forever - Zayn Malik, Taylor Swift
Donna joined Kelly in her bed, bringing a jug of ice cream for them to share.
"Explain what could possibly have happened at thanksgiving that's so bad while I was away." Donna began, eating a spoonful, "I mean, he smashed a pie in John Sears face for you!"
"He did that for himself." Kelly slouched on her pillow
"He did it because John stole his girl, paraded you around making snarky comments and then forced himself on you. Oh yeah, and then he kissed you!"
"Well it all went downhill from there." Kelly stuffed her face with a giant spoon of ice cream
"Dylan." Brandon began from behind the counter of the peach pit, "You kissed her in front of everyone at the Take Back The night rally... now you tell me you're mad at her?!"
"I did that to prove a point, she's still mine."
"Right... why don't you tell me what happened?" Brandon rolled his eyes
"Well, I had this little outburst in poetry class, I'm sure Brenda told you." Dylan began
"Oh yeah, 'how do you know that one day your girlfriend's not gonna tell you that she loves you and the next thing you know she's walking around with some geek from the keg house.'" Brandon mocked, unable to contain his laughter
"Shut up, man!" Dylan groaned
"Alright, alright... anyway, Brenda said you were afraid of the John fiasco repeating."
"Yeah... I mean, when I threw the pie, I thought, yeah I'm taking back what's mine... but you see, the day before, she came over, I hesitated... why should I let her hurt me again.. it messed me up so bad!"
Flashback -You were the first guy who took me seriously
"Dylan, I did not tell you this so you could go and punch him out!" Kelly warned
"Come on, Kel. Somebody's got to!"
"Yeah, but not by you, okay? I know how much he rattles you."
"We know who to thank for that." Dylan sat down on the couch
"I just came by to tell you... that I'm sorry. In hurting you I hurt myself... I mean, if it was 2 years ago I probably would've stayed with him even after what happened."
"Well, I'm glad it's not 2 years ago... You're getting it together."
"Well, even if I am getting that inner strength or whatever, I think that's because you were the first guy who ever took me seriously... I don't know what I was thinking, Dylan... I'm sorry I lost us..."
"Me too." He sighed, "I don't know... I guess we got lost somewhere." He looked in her eyes, feelings and scars rushed through his mind. "Come on, I'll walk you to your car."
"So I walked her to her car." Dylan finished
"Yeah makes sense." Brandon nodded
"I was this close to giving in right then and there... but I knew it was only a matter of time till he tried it on with her again. I thought I was doing the right thing, but I guess I wasn't as strong as I wanted to be..."
"And that's when your own rendition of the poem was exposed to the class." Brandon grinned
"Yes." Dylan glared at him
"Anyway..." Brandon sighed, "She still broken up with Sears, though, right?"
"Yeah..."
"So she seemingly wanted to start things up again, you didn't wanna get hurt again obviously... you threw the pie in his face, which I remember, we all enjoyed. And then... I escaped all the drama to spend thanksgiving with Emily." He grinned again
"Well, that's when things got ugly..." Dylan sighed
"That's it? You just left... you said nothing?" Donna asked, bewildered
"I was hoping the conversation would go differently but... he made it clear there was no going back." Kelly sighed
"Not as clear as pie-throwing." Donna chuckled, "So... let's get down to thanksgiving... before I left you were going to invite him over..."
"I did... he said he was going to Baja..."
"So... is that why you're in bed today, stuffing your face?" She smirked
"No. Jackie, David and I ended up going to the Walsh's... and guess who was there!"
"Brenda invited me to yours, says Cindy really wanted to see me, and I haven't been around that much since Jim and I had that argument about the Porsche. So I wanted to check in on your parents and honestly... I thought you were gonna be there."
"So... what's the problem."
"Kelly had offered for me to have thanksgiving with her, Jackie, Erin and David... and as flattered as I was that she was trying... I just wasn't ready to be alone with her."
"...And my mum invited Jackie to ours... Oh god, that explains everything... do I wanna hear this?"
"I don't know. let's see."
"Oh man..." Brandon sighed,
"So we all sit down at the table and Kelly is unbelievably cold towards me. So I call her out on it. Excused us from the table and we just went at it from your living room."
Flashback -Can we just eat now
"So when I ask you, you've got better things to do in Baja, but when Brenda asks you, you show up with bells on is that it?"
"No that's not it. That's not it at all! This is so typical Kelly, always managing to turn things into a Brenda issue when there's nothing going on there! Would you like me to remind you who exactly was the disloyal one in our relationship!"
"Well, how come we're standing in her living room then?!"
"I won't stand here and be grilled like the unfaithful bastard, alright?!"
"You cheated before, you could do it again."
"I cheated WITH you. I've never cheated on you! You know what..." He shook his head, "I am so not getting into this with you right now. I swear, Kel, you've got some nerve... you are the one who dumped me remember? I've been single for weeks and could have seen other people yet still! I waited around for you like an idiot! And now you wanna come and accuse me of screwing YOU over?!"
"You did screw me over, when you chose to have dinner with her instead and not even tell me!"
"First off, I thought Brandon was here alright. Second, it's not about Brenda! I decided I wanted to have dinner with my friends and Jim and Cindy who are like parents to me.. and yeah, maybe I should have called and said hey, actually I prefer Cindy's cooking to Jackie's and obviously you feel the same way otherwise you wouldn't be here."
"That's your excuse?! Wow, that's rich!" She snapped
"Hey! You are the one who's been jerking ME around for weeks, parading around with this idiot!" He snapped back
"I didn't do anything with John Sears!"
"So you didn't sleep with him? Big deal. Kel, do you think that's all there is in a relationship? ...I called you my soulmate... you made other plans, remember? So excuse me, if I declined your invitation... I'm sorry, I just realized I don't wanna eat a turkey with the girl who broke my heart!" He turned on his heel and stormed out, back into the kitchen. Kelly eventually followed
"Whoa." Brandon let out an exasperated sigh
"Yeah..."
"Well... good luck at school tomorrow." Brandon chuckled, "I just hope you guys can be civil enough during David and Donna's anniversary."
"I'm sorry, Kel..." Donna hugged her, "Hopefully things will get better! Anyway, we've got new things to worry about now... like our pledge march tomorrow."
"Oh goodie." Kelly groaned, sarcastically
After school, Donna and Kelly were in the bathroom of their apartment, getting ready for China Town.
"So miss 'I'm still mad at him and he's still mad at me.'" Donna joked
"What, Donna." Kelly rolled her eyes
"That kiss at the pledge march?"
"It was a dare."
"Yeah but, he came back for seconds..." Donna winked, "it was pretty passionate... the whole school swooned."
"It was nothing..." Kelly said nonchalantly, brushing her hair
"Oh, nothing huh... is that why you're making your hair all big, the way Dylan likes it... and finishing my volumize spray?"
"Maybe.." Kelly smirked
"You coming with us or bringing your own car?" Brandon asked Dylan as they were leaving school
"Nah, I'll drive down myself." Dylan assured
"So... wanna tell me about that kiss this morning? I mean after yesterday's 'I'm furious with her,' speech?"
"What? Nothing's changed... I'm still mad at her."
"Oh right... yeah, I usually come back for second kisses when I'm mad at a girl." Brandon mocked,
"Get in the car!" Dylan rolled his eyes, pushing Brandon into his car.