Swallowed In The Sea

Rating: PG
Song: Coldplay – Swallowed In The Sea

You cut me down a tree and brought it back to me
And that's what made me see where I was going wrong
You put me on a shelf and kept me for yourself
I can only blame myself, you can only blame me

She heard a knock at her door and his muffled voice. "Scully."

"Mulder?" She opened the door, gesturing for him to come in to her apartment. He looked tired, dishevelled and hurried. "What's wrong?"

"I can't do it. Not like this, not alone." He mumbled.

She shook her head in confusion. It was too late for her to hear all of this now. "What are you talking about, Mulder?"

"Dammit, Scully, you need to come back!"

And I could write a song a hundred miles long
Well that's where I belong and you belong with me
And I could write it down or spread it all around
Get lost and then get found or swallowed in the sea

"I'm not coming back, Mulder." She couldn't look him in the eye.

"Nothing even makes sense anymore." He was rambling and livid and hysterical. "You shouldn't have left. Nothing's right anymore."

"You're drunk." She could smell the alcohol on his breath.

"I'm lost!" He shouts.

"Mulder"

"I'm lost without you…"

You put me on a line and hung me out to dry
Darling that's when I decided to go to see you
You cut me down to size and opened up my eyes
Made me realize what I could not see

She couldn't stop the tears from springing to her eyes. "You need to go."

"I can't go, I won't go, not now, Scully. I finally understand." He took a step closer, placing his hand on her cheek. "I'm nothing on my own."

And I could write a book, the one they'll say that shook the world
And then it took, it took it back from me
And I could write it down and spread it all around
Get lost and then get found and you'll come back to me
Not swallowed in the sea

He began to pull her closer. She knew she had to push him away; she had to end this before it started. Once things spiralled out of control, there was no turning back. But she couldn't. Not now.

She had been waiting for so long…

And I could write a song a hundred miles long
Well that's where I belong and you belong with me
The streets you're walking on, a thousand houses long
Well that's where I belong and you belong with me

Their lips met, and she knew there was nothing she could do. It was inevitable. Once they had gone down this road, there was no stopping it. They had to become shattered if they wanted to remain whole.

His kiss was a plea, hers an apology.

Oh what good is it to live with nothing left to give
Forget but not forgive, not loving all you see
Oh the streets you're walking on a thousand houses long
Well that's where I belong and you belong with me
Not swallowed in the sea

"I need you." He whispered, and she knew he meant it.

But she had nothing left to give. "I'm sorry, Mulder. I am so sorry."

You belong with me, not swallowed in the sea
Yeah you belong with me
Not swallowed in the sea.