What If

Rating: G
Song: Coldplay – What If

What if there was no light
Nothing wrong, nothing right?
What if there was no time
And no reason, or rhyme?

Mulder had woken up the next morning, his head pounding. He winced as he felt glimpses of the night return to him. Memories of Scully and the words he had spoken, the war they had waged.

What if you should decide
That you don't want me there by your side?
That you don't want me there in your life?

She would never hurt him, he was sure of it. But she wouldn't cross the line. She couldn't. Not when there was so much at stake.

He had laid it all out for her, but she did not relent. Whatever they shared, whatever there was between them could never be. And maybe she was right.

What if I got it wrong
And no poem or song
Could put right what I got wrong
Or make you feel I belong?

He had made a terrible mistake.

Everything had been a mistake. He should have understood much sooner. He should have acted while he had the chance.

Instead, he had ruined the one thing he had left. He had irrevocably destroyed the friendship that had seen him through long hours and dangerous nights.

Each time he took a step closer, he felt her slipping further away.

Oooooooh that's right
Let's take a breath, jump over the side

He needed to make this right.

Oooooooh that's right
How can you know it if you don't even try?

She needed to give him a chance.

Oooooooh that's right

But then again, when had they ever been on the same page?

Every step that you take
Could be your biggest mistake
It could bend or it could break
But that's the risk that you take

For years, they had tread lightly. How could he have single-handedly caused all of their years together to burst into flames? How could it be that he wakes up one morning to find it all in ruins?

He couldn't imagine a life without her. He couldn't comprehend it. What would be left for him then, once she chose to leave?

Oooooooh thats right
Let's take a breath, jump over the side
Oooooooh that's right
How can you know it when you don't even try?
Oooooooh that's right

Without another thought, he grabbed his coat and headed out the door. He needed to act fast if he wanted to salvage the situation. Scully would understand. She had to.

Oooooooh thats right
Let's take a breath, jump over the side
Oooooooh that's right
You know that darkness always turns into light
Oooooooh that's right

He would find a way of making this right. He always did.

It couldn't end this way.