The Scientist
Rating: G
Song: Coldplay – The Scientist
He knocked on her door without a second thought. She opened it to find him in almost the exact same state as when he had left her. He was still drained, tousled and in a rush to get somewhere she wasn't sure she could go.
Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
He watched her with luminous eyes. Somehow, everything had shifted in the glare of broad daylight. Her face no longer held pity, only confusion. And fear.
He wasn't sure which of them she was afraid for. They both had so much to lose.
I had to find you, tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart
She watched as he took her hand. She wanted so badly for things to go back to the way they were. She wanted so badly for the touch of his hand to be nothing more than that. But she found that it was no longer comforting; it had become an obsession.
Tell me your secrets, and ask me your questions
Oh, let's go back to the start
"I'm sorry, Scully. For last night. I shouldn't have…"
She waited. She needed to know his reasons. Why shouldn't they? Why should they?
"I never should have come at all."
Running in circles, coming up tails
Heads on a silence apart
He tried so hard to erase it forever. To turn it into the worst mistake he had ever made.
But she had seen it for what it truly was: his only purpose.
He struggled to make it right, but she knew him better than that. She could see straight through his lies.
Nobody said it was easy
Oh, it's such a shame for us to part
"You were right. You shouldn't come back. The X-Files may have taken over my life, but I won't let them take over yours."
His eyes locked on to hers, hoping she would recognize his sincerity. She had only seen his façade.
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said that it would be this hard
"It won't be easy." She whispered. "For you to do this alone."
He looked at her in shock. This was not what he had expected.
Her gentle words hurt more than he could have ever have imagined.
Oh, take me back to the start
He wondered how things would change if he agreed. If he told her she was right. If he told her that without her, he would wither away. It was only a matter of time…
But he couldn't do that to her. They couldn't keep walking in circles.
I was just guessing at numbers and figures
Pulling the puzzles apart
"For years I've been trying to find answers, and what do I have to show for it? Nothing, Scully. I'm being dragged down deeper and deeper, and all I'm doing now is taking you with me."
Questions of science, science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart
He looked her dead in the eyes. He needed this to hit home. He needed this to count.
"No matter how I feel about you, we can't keep going on like this. I can't let you. I'm walking away, and I think it's time that you do too…"
He waited, only a moment, for her to respond, but she had nothing left to say.
Tell me you love me, come back and haunt me
Oh, and I rush to the start
Slowly, he lifted her hand, raising it to his lips. Giving her his long good-bye.
She contemplated his every movement, and she could clearly see that he didn't want to leave. He wanted to go back.
If she had the courage, she would make it happen. If she had the strength, she would never let him go. If she had the faith, she would stop playing these games.
But she didn't stop him.
Running in circles, chasing our tails
Coming back as we are
Instead she watched him walk away, out of her sight.
Out of her life.
Nobody said it was easy
Oh, it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
She wondered if this really would be the last time.
I'm going back to the start