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song --- honestly by bethany joy lenz
Chapter 4
Honestly I didn't mean to cry so hard the heartache was pouring in like rain
I didn't mean to show I care
Honestly I didn't mean to laugh so loud but it just sounds so absurd to say that you want me
Say that you need me after everything you've done
Really truly I didn't mean to hurt you I just thought that maybe now
We'd have better luck the second time around
Its always better the second time I hear
Mark…
She was just in front of me, I couldn't help it.
I'm a man whore I flirt.
"you know I think you must be the cutest intern I've come across"
I stared at her hope building inside of me that she might actually flirt back
"and you must never get girls if that's your best pick up line"
"I have plenty other great pick up lines you can here then tonight if you would like to accompany me to dinner"
"in your dreams if fact scratch that cause even the dream me isn't interested in you"
And on that note she left, seriously the other day we were, laughing and joking together and now she was blowing me off.
I mean I know I'm the dirty mistress but girls never say no to me ever, seriously.
Find me in the evening when your ready to dance
And I will take you to places where you never thought you'd have the chance to love
Love
Love is all we have
I will run myself in circles here without you
Please believe that I tried my best to forget you but the memories keep flooding back like tears
I didn't mean to fall in love
But sitting here waiting for this is torture
I'm so glad you're far away
Is that a terrible thing to say?
Well, I wonder if you're ok
Meredith…
Ok so I thought my first day at work was bad, well not compared to this one.
I'm working with Addison Montgomery-Shepherd yes that's right she didn't want to change her name, isn't that just great, oh and just so you know I am being sarcastic.
Oh and I have a small hunch she knows about me and her husband.
"so grey, you make a habit of sleeping with peoples husbands?"
"excuse me?" I was literally in shock I mean had Derek actually told her, Satan of all people
Yes I call her Satan Christina thought of it we're quite close, she's the only one I've told about me and Derek.
"you heard me, I'm just curious if you screw around with a lot of peoples husbands or if you just wanted to screw mine"
"I thought you were divorced"
"the papers are being filed and we go to get it finalised on Tuesday, but don't get your hopes up I am not going to let this divorce happen. I know my husband and all he wanted was someone to screw so he screwed you he told me it meant nothing to him, you mean nothing to him"
I just kept thinking to myself, it isn't true it can't be true.
I couldn't have meant nothing to him.
I kept denying it until the tears just flooded there way out and I couldn't stop them, then I saw him again.
I an I ran I ran as fast as I could breathing heavily as I heard him running after me but didn't stop I wouldn't, and when I did stop it wasn't out of choice.
I was never a great runner but I wasn't crap, only he still caught me with a questioning look on his face.
Find me in the evening when your ready to dance
And I will take you to places where you never thought you'd have the chance to love
Love
Love is all we have
I will run myself in circles here without you
Oh, I would run myself in circles here without you
Oh I've tried and tried
And I can't hide from your love
Darlin' its too late to show me your intentions
You know we've got to find a way to get past all the implications, every situation
Every complication that we've come from
Love is all we have
I will run myself in circles here without you
Derek…
I saw the tears she was in pain not physically but still in pain so I ran after her I had to know she was ok that she was going to be fine.
I don't know why but I cared in a big way like I was falling in love with her.
No that can't be, I'm crazy that must be it, I'm crazy.
"Meredith," I caught up with her grabbing her arm in an attempt to stop her.
She turned to face me her eyes filled with tears.
"Meredith what's wrong"
"you, you're my problem"
I could feel my heart break at that statement.
"me, what did I do I mean I know you said you still haven't forgiven me for the wife thing, but I can tell this is something different, so please let me in."
"it's not the wife thing, it's the whole messing with my brain thing, you slept with me, I don't just sleep around and then you kiss me and I find out today from your wife I might add that you were just screwing me over, and now your not even getting a divorce"
I felt as though the world had been turned upside down, noting she had said was true or made any sense.
"wait what, what made you think I was just screwing you?"
"you wife told me you told her that"
"she lied, when I slept with you I wasn't sleeping around. The next day when I kissed you I couldn't stop myself it's your hair and you ineffectual fists and all the time I've been away from you have been the worst of my life and this whole being friends thing, honestly I can't do because during the past four days I have fell in love with you. I am in love with you"
I pulled her slowly yet swiftly into an embrace where I was positive she could feel me erection through my scrubs, and I kissed her with a kiss that was full of passion and salt from her tears.
I felt like I could never let her go.
I felt like we have been kissing for hours yet when we broke apart I still felt it was to soon.
"Derek" she had stopped crying "what are we doing, I mean is this a relationship or what is this"
"I would like this to be a relationship" I simply stated
"me too"
And within moments we were entwined again in fiery kiss full of love and lust.
"huh hum"
I knew straight away who it was and turned slowly to come face to face with Richard Webber.
"in my office both of you NOW" I swear the death people of the first floor must had been able to hear him he was that loud.
We were doomed.
Darlin' love, love
Love is all we have
I will run myself in circles here without you
yay new chapter up i hope its good not finished the next one yet but may finish it tonight or tomorrow cause i'm supposed to be asleep already...heeeheeeheeeeeee
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song --- honestly by bethany joy lenz
thanks also to every one who have been reading my story it means alot
next time - what will the cheif do about meredith and derek and what does addison have up her sleeve...