hiya sorry haven't updated latley fanfic having some kind of problem so I had to export a chapter then edit it so it was my new chapter and then I had to put the songs on and post ugh
song - run by snow patrol
and
where does the good go by Tegan and Sara
-sorry about punctuation its one of my many flaws in english :'(
I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done
And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here
Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear
Derek…
"WHAT WAS THAT JUST THEN TELL ME I DID NOT JUST SEE MY BEST ATTENDING AND THE PERSON WHO IS CLOSEST TO A DAUGHTER I HAVE EVER HAD KISSING… ANSWER ME DAMMIT"
I was seriously worried this was bad this was really bad.
"chief this isn't going to effect our work-"
"you think this is about work, this is about who you were kissing Derek I love Meredith like an only child and you will hurt her and I cannot allow that she is like my daughter"
"chief I love her and I will never hurt her ever"
"that was sweet and all but can we stop talking like I'm not in the room cause I'm right here"
"sorry" we both murmured
"thank you"
"look Meredith I love you and I would give anything if you please don't finish with me because of this"
"you think Richard scares me, even on Halloween he can't be scary"
"so your not going to finish with me"
"I'm not going to finish with you"
A sense of relief washed over me as I allowed myself to relax.
"Derek, Meredith if you insist on seeing each other I can't stop it, but Derek if you ever hurt her your career as a surgeon will be long gone"
"yes chief"
"now go and keep this thing a secret, all I need right now is rumours' cause when there are rumours' people get distracted from there work."
And so we left, I noticed Meredith was obviously going back to work so I dragged her into the nearest on call room.
"what the-"
I cut her of with yet another kiss.
Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say
To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do
Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear
Meredith…
The kiss tasted sweet almost like candy.
It was pure bliss, that's when we lost control of our bodies.
He lifted my scrub top of my head breaking the kiss, as I lifted his over his head.
We inched closer together as we pulled our pants down.
We kissed yet again, it was like I was at peace with the world until he pulled back and locked the door.
I was embraced in his arms as he trailed kisses along my collarbone…
Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say
Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads
Derek…
"that was…"
"amazing" I finished for her
"yer"
"defiantly"
We were rushing to get dress, Meredith was just paged by Satan and I have surgery.
This was a good day, sex and surgery my two favourite things
Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess
Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear
Meredith…
I finished the ton of work Addison gave me, seriously no joke there was loads of work honest.
Anyway once I'd finished that TON of work I went to watch Derek's surgery he was very talented at a lot of things.
He noticed me only for a moment or so but he looked up and saw me, we had this kind of eye moment thing you know like eye sex.
Where do you go with your broken heart in tow
What do you do with the left over you
And how do you know, when to let go
Where does the good go, where does the good go
A couple week's later…
Derek…
"please, please, please go with me" god she was stubborn.
"fine, but when I want to leave we leave agreed"
"great, I'll book transport and a hotel. Oh and Meredith, I love you" I love how that sounds
"I love you too"
"remember party's tomorrow"
"I know Derek"
I didn't quite understand why she was so dead set against going to the party, but I'd finally convinced her so that was that.
Look me in the eye and tell me you don't find me attractive
Look me in the heart and tell me you won't go
Look me in the eye and promise no love's like our love
Look me in the heart and un break broken, it won't happen
It's love that breaks the seal of always thinking you would be
Real, happy and healthy, strong and calm, where does the good go
Where does the good go
The next day…
Meredith…
He was watching me sleep again
"stop watching me"
"I like watching you" he was smiling his McDreamy smile again, damn that smile was irresistible.
"your too happy"
"the divorce is official today and we are going to Boston why wouldn't I be happy"
"what time is it?" I felt like I'd slept for days.
"one, we leave in an hour"
I jumped at that one already, I rushed to get dressed and met Derek in the kitchen with my suitcase
"I figured my Izzie and George would have found out about you, the amount of time you spend here"
"we're good sneakers"
"not there just really bad detectives, maybe they should hire veronica mars."
"ha-ha very funny, we should go now if we're gonna make on time I'll just put your suitcase in the car."
Where do you go when you're in love and the world knows
How do you live so happily while I am sad and broken down
What do you say it's up for grabs now that you're on your way down
Where does the good go, where does the good go
At the hotel…
Derek…
Damn why did she have to look so good in that dress.
I walked closer to her until we were inches apart.
My lips brushed against hers softly at first until I couldn't control myself and led her into a more passionate until we were forced to part or suffocate.
"we should get going" I said grabbing our coats and opening the door for her.
I noticed her hesitate slightly before heading towards the door.
Our hotel was only around 5 minuets away from the party so we walked in a comfortable silence.
Just minuets after entering the house Ryan made a sudden appearance.
I notice Meredith tense up.
"Derek great to see you, its been too long and Meredith nice to see you again"
Again what did he mean again, I looked at her for an answer but she was out the door before I got one.
I ran and ran after her the word again still playing like a broken record in my mind.
When I finally caught her she was in tears, I pulled her into a hug realising the question I needed to ask her would have to wait until tomorrow.
Meredith needed me, my Meredith needed me right now.
I tried to make it slightly different that expected - don't worry Ryans part will get bigger and derek may or may not find out about the abusive side of ryan reveiw what you think i should do cause i have two different ideas for my story depending on what you think.
again sorry about puncuation i'm only 14 and have my sats coming up, this I hope wil help me with english cause thats what i suffer at i've got that national adverage on my mocks but my school a grammar school so they expect us to get a level or two higher, maths and science i find easy luckly- but rubbixh at english
-constructive critism welcome
-reveiw your thoughts please - laura/me