hiya again again
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Chapter 8 - let it be - the beatles (when I find myself in time's of trouble)
Meredith
I was shaking actually shaking so much for staying strong…
"well aren't you going to talk to me"
I stayed quiet I didn't know what to say to that
"TALK TO ME DAMNIT"
I jumped back tear's in my eye's.
"Rya…" SLAP!!! I grabbed my face in shock not that I didn't believe he would do it but rather I didn't believe he would have done in right then in that moment.
"you're a slut you know that right… you've been with everyone"
It wasn't true I had only been with him and Derek…
::Flashback::
Meredith
My first day of school in san Francisco
"Hiya are you new here"
"yer my first day" he was hot and seemingly charming.
"you want me to show you around I have a free period"
He seemed so innocent and sweet maybe he was back then or maybe the beginning was just an act.
Two month's later I was his girlfriend, three months later the accusations' started, one more month the beatings then he raped me…
"Ryan I'm not ready"
He had me pinned to the bed, I would have shouted for help but once again we were at his house, no one was there.
"oh right you'll do it with everyone else but not your boyfriend"
"Ryan I'm a virgin I never did anyone"
He had finished un buttoning my top when I started to button it up again…
"if that's how you want to play I brought some props"
He brought some handcuffs out of his pocket grabbing my wrist's hastily and chaining them both to the head board. They were proper handcuff's as well his dad was a cop and would give Ryan things like that in the hope he would turn out just like him.
"Ryan please don't"
He wasn't listening he started nibbling at my neck it felt like a dirty vacuum I just wanted him to stop.
"this is taking to long he stated going to his draw and pulling out a pair of scissors, he quickly made his way to the bed cutting my top and skirt down the middle leaving me in only my lace bra and panties.
He started kissing down my stomach which was turning at this point, I was fighting back tears although I new my face looked distraught.
He slowly cut down the middle of my bra and the sides of my panties.
He slowly began massaging my breast, then mad his way down to my clit he reached for it massaging it gently before pushing himself in moving rapidly to please himself as I cried out in pain.
"p… ple… please… st.. op" I cried
He had just about finished and pulled himself out when…
"now that's not good for the ego"
And with that he thrust himself back in…
I blacked out the rest of that night.
::flashback over::
I could see the anger in Ryan's eyes.
He pulled my hair back and put his mouth on my cheek next to my ear…
"you will go out there, tell Derek you never loved him and you ran from me because you were scared of your feelings and that you gave your heart to me and haven't got it back because you don't want it back, and if you ruin this you won't be the only one who'll end up paying the price"
Still holding my hair back he put his lip's on top of mine and kissed me, then the same thing happened as that dark night at his house (I'm not going into detail because I've had to do that before and chocked back some mcvomit not planning it again)
I walked out the hotel room in the dressing gown the hotel had provided.
"Derek"
"have you got past it? The phase of running away, I need to know because I can't handle losing you"
I had tear's in my eyes, I was about to break his heart and mine.
"I love Ryan and I'm staying with him" I blurted out
Ryan came up behind me, as I gave Derek a pleading look, my way of saying save me!
"Derek please-"
I was cut short by Derek
"was I just a game to you Meredith?" he questioned the anger rising in him
" no Derek I-"
DEREK
"Don't" I shouted "don't talk to me, I can't even look at you right now, right now I HATE YOU and I don't ever want to see you again EVER"
I was lying I know that but I had to hurt her almost as much as she hurt me.
I walked away tear's falling, I booked a flight and was on the next plane back to Seattle.
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