Chapter 9 - Scratch - Kendall Payne (it's a big girl world now full of big girl things and everyday I wish I was small)
Another couple of month's had past and Meredith was a wreck.
Meredith
"it can't be"
I was looking at the three pregnancy test all with the same colour blue which in my case meant I was pregnant, that wasn't my problem though well it is a problem because of the beating.
But who was the father…
I quickly shuffled the test's in a pile throwing them in the trash and getting my duffle bag ready to run again after a meeting with Boston general's chief. (oh she transferred I didn't mention that but thought that it would get really boring…)
"is there any chance I can transfer any hospital anywhere just not here"
I wasn't asking I was begging.
"there's only one other hospital that we can get you a spot in"
I nodded
"I'll take it" I said the relief hit me greatly.
"it's Seattle grace"
I hesitated I wasn't sure if I was ready to see Derek again he had walked away and I felt betrayed but I still knew it wasn't his fault he didn't know.
"how soon can I start."
There's a flight tonight and you could start tomorrow if your ok with that.
"Sure" at least I didn't have to stay in Boston with Ryan anymore.
The next day WORK
Derek
I have yet to go a day without thinking abut her, wishing, hoping thing could have gone differently.
"Derek"
And now I'm hearing voices great just great… I felt a small hand pull me into an on call room with the lights switched off.
"Meredith" wtf was she doing hear
"don't ignore me please" I could tell she was on the verge of tears
"don't give that crying crap you left me you don't get to cry"
"no you left me you left me in boston"
"no I didn't I hate Boston I never wanted to go there you convinced me to go"
"you chose to stay, and I hate you for that"
She was full on crying now.
"I hate you so much I love you"
I lent forward grasping her head pulling her into a soft sweet kiss…
I started moving my hand's under her shirt and lifted if of when she winced in pain, I turned the light on and got to see Meredith properly.
She had bruises all over, she reached for her scrub top.
"who did this" I asked
"don't act like you care"
"I do care" I claimed taken aback by her statement
"it's nothing I got mobbed"
"do you know who did it?" I questioned on quite believing that she was telling the truth
"no" she stated simply
"how did you get the yellow bruises because you've got bout yellow and purple bruises… OMG did Ryan do this to you"
She looked away obviously struggling to think of what to say
"he did didn't he, Meredith I'm so sorry I would never have left if I knew"
I pulled her tightly in my arm's not wishing to let go of her.
"it's alright I'll protect you no ones going to hurt you again, I promise."
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i've been counting on nothing
but he keeps giving me his word
and i'm tired of hearing myself speak
do you get weary? do you ever get weak?
how do you dream when you can't fall asleep?
i've been wondering what you're thinking
and if you like my dress tonight
would you still say you love me under this ordinary moonlight?
i'm so afraid of what you'd say
i'd like to know if you'd be open to starting over from scratch
i'd like to know if you'd be open to giving me a second chance
i used to think i was special
and only i have proved me wrong
i thought i could change the world with a song
but i have ended up in india
with no map to guide me home
strangest place i think i've ever been
and all this time i thought that we were friends
my stubborn will is learning to bend
i'd like to know if you'd be open to starting over from scratch
i'd like to know if you'd be open to giving me a second chance
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hiya R+R